gate keeping this song since couple years now.

i normally dont use that word bc its overused but that song is for real underrated

That Feelin

[VERSE 1]
When every thought brings so much pain.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna feel anything.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna change.
Something in my brain,
Telling me to hate.
All I ever say,
I don't wanna change.
Something In my brain,
Won't go away.

[CHORUS]
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
Lay in it.
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
Ill lay in it.

[VERSE 2]
Backpacked on my own,
rather be fucked up all alone,
Airplane mode on my iPhone,
Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known,
But I know that...
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back,
Matter of fact,
I wasn't leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked,
I got off track,
Don't wanna do it by myself,
But I don't want no help,
The only way's to runaway
and write a story to tell.

[SPOKEN WORD]
Made a promise that I'd love myself
And a promise that I'd break it.
Made a promise that I'd get better 
And a promise that I'd fake it.
Promised myself that I'd give it up,
Give up everything you hated.
Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it.

[CHORUS X3]

deathbed

@qawikamri @cpt_sad @lonnellsuave

mixed and mastered by @qawikamri
beat by @lonnellsuave

LYRICS:
i don't feel safe in my own room.
https://genius.com/Qawi-kamri-i-dont-feel-safe-in-my-own-room-lyrics

i don't feel safe in my own room

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I Don't Feel Safe in My Own Room (w Yesterday) (prod. Lonnell Suave)

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

Follow me <3

while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

@93feetofsmoke

i’m sorry that i always start shit
sorry that i seem so heartless
sorry i bled on the carpet
and sleep all day in your apartment
sorry, i’m sorry
(i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry)
sorry feels so empty now
(i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry)
sorry, i’m sorry
sorry, i feel so helpless now
i know you want someone i can’t be
you’ll always be someone i can’t please
sorry, i’m sorry i’m sorry
i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry

taste of these chemical veins
my intuition is lifted whenever i hit it or sip it
i got it, i get it till i am forgetting my name
what’s death but an option
i’m shit like my posture
feel like an imposter
live life like a monster
just sad that i lost her
now drown in the pain
of these chemical veins

See you down 
The bottom of barrels
I'm fishing in

Stomp me out 
Toss me like roaches 
Into the wind

At night the devil start speaking
Sews hate in my heart til I'm heated
I pull on the seams just to breathe in
Still pushing down urges still fiending

Float away
Into the clouds
Created by bullets

Throw away 
All of my feelings 
My brain says they're useless

Feel like my friends think I'm stupid
Nothin got good I'm not clueless 
Keep my eyes low in my hoodie 
Intuition left me bloody

taste of these chemical veins
my intuition is lifted whenever i hit it or sip it
i got it, i get it til i am forgetting my name
what’s death but an option
i’m shit like my posture
feel like an imposter
live life like a monster
just sad that i lost her
now drown in the pain
of these chemical veins

taste of these chemical veins
my intuition is lifted whenever i hit it or sip it
i got it, i get it til i am forgetting my name
what’s death but an option
i’m shit like my posture
feel like an imposter
live life like a monster
just sad that i lost her
now drown in the pain
of these chemical veins

chemical veins ft. 93FEETOFSMOKE

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HURT (prod. reaper)

<3
I heard the words that you said 
They try to play with my head 
Roses all over your bed 
I know I wasn't the best 
I heard the words that you said 
They try to play with my head
Youll wish that I wasn't dead 


cant sleep with the lights off 
cant sleep with the lights off anymore 

Prod - Brady Amour 
Art -Brady Amour




hit up @scottysplash for mixing

I cant sleep with the lights off anymore

i know its all my fault
i know its all my fault

I can hardly sleep with all this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in my mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

swear this shit gotta stop
but i like pain a lot
and you like that im fucked
you just wont admit it
i've been biting my tongue
goosebumps up on my arm
i'll just talk to this cup
and forget the issue

I can hardly sleep with this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in the mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

HURT (prod. reaper)

foreign forest

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