Lyrics:

Hey
What if I was dead
Would I be up in your head
What would be all the stuff you said
That's what's going through my head
But I shouldn't have to die
To know I'm something in your eyes
My heart's been sewn up a couple times
My cars been totaled a couple times
What if I was dead
Would I be up in your head
What would be all the stuff you said
That's what's going through my head
But I shouldn't have to die
To know I'm something in your eyes
Your phones been blown up a couple times
Like who am I to you
Like who am I to you 

I feel like an asshole half of the time
'Cause I don't want to be brushed aside
I just want to be recognized
For how hard I always try
Talking to the ghosts up in my mind
They kind of look like you I'm not gon' lie
We kiss and it tastes like formaldehyde
When you're gone I close my eyes
'Cause it's a place to hide
But why can't I just be there for myself
If I love me then I don't need nobody else
I like to think that I'd choose heaven over hell
This life is purgatorial that's how I feel

Hey
What if I was dead
Would I be up in your head
What would be all the stuff you said
That's what's going through my head
But I shouldn't have to die
To know I'm something in your eyes
My heart's been sewn up a couple times
My cars been totaled a couple times
What if I was dead
Would I be up in your head
What would be all the stuff you said
That's what's going through my head
But I shouldn't have to die
To know I'm something in your eyes
Your phones been blown up a couple times
Like who am I to you
Like who am I to you

what if I was dead

I'm 25 I have a problem we're I can't stop listening to music that makes me feel alive even tho what I listen to is sad haha morbid dead mind emo life hmu for we are all (ALONE) we need love💜.
 

what if I was dead

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