AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
#AXAXC
#Derealization #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #WeedAddiction #MalePressure
#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

[Intro:]
Saw it in your eyes—before the blade came down.
The lies you stitched still bleed, still drown.
I’ve met the Devil...
He’s kinder than you.

[Verse 1:]
Brace for the blow—it’s closing fast.
Truth cuts deeper than your past.
I carve the names in scars you left—
Your throne’s a tomb, built out of theft.
Your mask is cracked, truth bleeding through.
You buried guilt like it wouldn’t bloom.
You're the frost in every vein.
Now the silence screams your name.

[Pre-Chorus:]
Your fire’s out—just smoke and shame.
I won’t bleed for you again.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR WORDS ALL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY LIFE’S A FIST!
DEVIL’S AT YOUR DOOR—CHOKE ON WHAT YOU WROTE!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on it—swallow the flame!
Drown in truth—you forged the blame!
Storm is rising—your crown won’t last!
Truth is metal—and breaks like glass!

[Verse 2:]
You spit your venom, circle lies—
I wear my wounds like armor ties.
You cut deep, but I never dropped—
You cut deep, and I rose up.
I’m what you fear—unbowed, unbent.
Gold turns black—your testament.
Truth’s a blade and I’m its edge.
Say my name... and taste regret.

[Pre-Chorus:]
You said I’d break—but here I stand.
This rage was forged in your own hands.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES ALL BURN!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—I’VE EARNED MY TURN!
DEVIL’S GOT YOU NOW—CHOKE IN ENDLESS NIGHT!

[Post-Chorus:]
Burn in pride—your throne’s a shell!
Drown in rust—you built this hell!
False king falls—no one kneels!
Truth don’t beg, it breaks and heals!

[Bridge:]
You swore I’d fail—you watched me bleed.
Now I’m thunder—cracking teeth.
You laughed me down—now hear me rise.
I’m the storm behind your lies.
RISE!

[Final Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES STILL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY FURY PERSISTS!
DEVIL’S GOT YOUR THROAT—YOUR CROWN’S CORRUPT!
CHOKE ON FLAME—WHILE I RISE FROM DUST!
NEVER FORGIVE! NEVER!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on pride—truth won't die.
Rage you gave—I wear like light.
Watch me rise—fear me now.
I am the reckoning—you allowed.

[Outro:]
I’ve seen your worst.
I’m still here.
That’s what scares you most.

Ashes and Thrones

This album was written about my life. I am a TBI survivor, I live with ASD, and I have a spinal injury. I am a highly spiritual being, and I am focused on growth. In these short five (going on six) years alive, I've seen and done a lot. Also, while making the best of my situation. I live in a 37(38) year old body with 5/6 years of experience on this planet (aside from being connected deeply to all my past lives. This is a raw expression of my life. This will finally give my friends, followers, and supporters what I am and go through.

On The Verge

The hardest, rawest track on the album. Riff-heavy, aggressive, and defiant. A warning: your grip is your downfall.

The Cost of Control

static crown

[Verse 1 - Rap Verse (Screamo Angry)]
Nothing in this world makes sense anymore,
I can't see a clear way out of the door.
Anger fills my voice up to the brim,
Life just seems like a film in pictures.

Is there any reason that we put up with this?
The only reason I see is the rift between us. 
The only way to survive is thrive on emotion,
It's like a spiraling darkness that corrodes us.

[Piano Solo 1 - Darkness Bending to my will with hints of desperation]

[Pre Chorus - Rock Verse (Sorrowful Tone)]
There is no light in this deep damp tunnel, 
You're emotions cloud the funnel before you.
Corrode before me or be swallowed up,
Must resist fates call to hollowed fuss.

Fentanyl is an addiction to our lives, 
Risperdol is the treatment to rise.
Fear and anguish are a rewritten memory.
You're grave is the cemetery of emotion.

[Chorus - Rap Verse (Screamo Mad)]
Thermite is a piece of the puzzle, 
I am confuzzled at you're request.
Desperation runs through you're veins, 
I will reign over this deserted emotion.

Is there any hope to what you say? 
None at all that will be prayed upon.
I must resist all of fates temptations, 
Or you'll be swallowed by Proclamations.

[Guitar Solo 2 - Dark Rifts that piece the minds escapes and reveal fate]

[Verse 2 - Rap Verse (Screamo Fate)]
A possibility of escape is nonexistent,
Fate has you in its cluches by existing.
Wrap around my mind to a degree,
A spree of emotions clouds me up.

Will there be any other peace to come?
It's only a race to see who survives the run.
This farce will end when there's no fate.
Take me away to another plane of existence.

[Pre Chorus - Rock Verse (Deep Tone)]
There is no light in this deep damp tunnel, 
You're emotions cloud the funnel before you.
Corrode before me or be swallowed up,
Must resist fates call to hollowed fuss.

Fentanyl is an addiction to our lives, 
Risperdol is the treatment to rise.
Fear and anguish are a rewritten memory.
You're grave is the cemetery of emotion.

[Chorus - Rap Verse (Mad Feelings)]
Thermite is a piece of the puzzle, 
I am confuzzled at you're request.
Desperation runs through you're veins, 
I will reign over this deserted emotion.

Is there any hope to what you say? 
None at all that will be prayed upon.
I must resist all of fates temptations, 
Or you'll be swallowed by Proclamations.

[Ending - Fade out to nothingness]
You're only call is with us here, 
Don't sacrifice you're life to fear. 
There's only one thing that remains, 
Proclamations are a source that relays.

Proclamations

Goodbye

Rename

Echo

 Collapse Into Glory is a post-hardcore descent into sacred fire—twelve tracks forged from scripture, silence, and rebellion. It’s a record of prophets and prisoners, of altars that don’t burn and crowns earned through blood. Each song confronts the tension between spectacle and truth, between riot and whisper, between the blade and the breath that follows.

 This isn’t worship—it’s war. From the wilderness to the grave, from temptation to transfiguration, the album walks through collapse to find what’s holy in the wreckage. It’s for the faithful who scream, bleed, and rise. Glory doesn’t come clean—it comes through fire.


Rename

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