If not for you (studio recording)

covered one of my favorite bands, definitely listen to the original if you haven't already


When you told me you were leaving, 
well I couldn't feel my mouth, 
because all I'll ever be is someone else. 
As I watched you walk away, 
I felt something in me change. 
My heart froze over, all emotion dripped away 

So I drove home, 
at a hundred miles an hour, 
just to see what it feels like to fly. 
I crashed my car, 
into someone else's backyard, 
just to see what it feels like to die. 

When you told me that you missed me, 
well i couldn't close my eyes, 
because I realized what it felt like to die. 
'cause all you'll ever be 
is a nightmare and a wet dream, 
a reason to smile from six feet under ground. 

So I drove home, 
at a hundred miles an hour, 
just to see what it feels like to fly. 
I crashed my car, 
into someone else's backyard, 
just to see what it feels like to die. 

So bathe me in pale flesh, 
promise that I'll never be good again. 

I hope you miss me when I'm gone, 
because I can't hold on for too long. 
and I'm so scared of dying alone, 
that I'll kill myself right here, right now. 

and i'll die.

Blonde Hair, Black Lungs - Sorority Noise (cover)

I Miss The Dog The Most

i used part of the words from "elevator music" and i'll probably change that before i get the final version. yaga.

i haven’t felt the same these days
been a while since i’ve felt this way
filled with procrastination, failing classes
lost my job
been exactly a year
three hundred sixty five days of 
getting to know myself
and i am confident that i haven’t 
even scratched the surface

i wish sleep was optional
i wish waking up was optional
i wish everything i don't want could be optional

cuz now you’re just a wet dream
your makeup looks like charlie sheen
every word just fucking hurts me
cuz now my nightmares are my best dreams

yeah i told you i loved you
but it went out of fashion
and when said that i hated you
i finally felt some real passion
it’s kind of funny to me that i
would bitch and cry
when things didn’t go my way
but that’s a pattern that i broke
opened my eyes and i awoke

i don’t wish we never happened
because if we never happened
then i wouldn’t be the person i am now

but now you’re just a wet dream
your makeup looks like charlie sheen
every word just fucking hurts me
cuz now my nightmares are my best dreams
now you’re part of past me
a time when i felt unclean
every day you fucking killed me
that’s the person who i used to be

charlie sheen

charlie sheen (demo)

here's one i wrote a while ago, sorry it's late!!!

prom, post prom, etc (demo)

i never know where i am
so i don't usually drive
i let my friends take the wheel
stick my head out the car
HOLY SHIT I FEEL SO ALIVE
i love the wind on my face
hearing the sounds of the world
and for once i'm content
with my place in the world

your mom is tracking your phone
she knows you're not home
and i'm locked out of my house
try to pick the lock but i don't know how

so i'm stuck here
in my front yard
tried to call you
but you're so far
so i'm stuck here
sleeping alone in my garage
counting the sheep in my head
hoping i'll dream of you
so we are never apart
so we are never apart

you burn the grass till it’s gray
but i’m a three hit guy
too many good things are never the best
i don't think i'll come down from this high
so i stumbled around and slept on your couch
it's got a pull out bed and i don't understand how
they designed it

i wish i was a bit taller
but i've got jeans from my father and
they might be a bit tight
but someday they'll probably fit just right

so i'm stuck here
in my front yard
tried to call you
but you're so far
so i'm stuck here
sleeping alone in my garage
counting the sheep in my head
hoping i'll dream of you
so we are never apart
so we are never apart

i'm still stuck here
in my front yard
tried to call you
but you're so far
so i'm stuck here
sleeping alone in my garage
counting the sheep in my head
hoping i'll dream of you
so we are never apart
yeah we are never apart

dad jeans (demo)

i've been keeping my bedroom door unlocked
just in case i need to escape my thoughts
they're never ending
they're never ending
i got a lot of ideas but no drive to achieve
all the things that i know i could probably be
so i'll keep pretending
i'll keep pretending

but you know me
and you see right through me

i know i haven't been the easiest to care for
it's hard to be myself
when i don't know who i am
even know who i am
i'm up waiting for you to text back you love me
it's hard to know what you'll say
when i don't know who i am
even know who i am

i've been faking my way through class every day
looks like [all] the problems i've made won't just go away
they're never ending
they're never ending
call it seasonal depression or whatever you want
but i feel like shit and i put up a front
i'll keep pretending
i'll keep pretending

but i know you
and i can't lie to you
i wish i could lie to you
but you make me face the truth

i know i haven't been the easiest to care for
it's hard to be myself
when i don't know who i am
even know who i am
i'm up waiting for you to text back you love me
it's hard to know what you'll say
when i don't know who i am
even know who i am
yeah I don't even know who i am
even know who i am

space date (demo)

i guess i’m 18.

i’m falling apart at the seams
especially after this week
it was shitty
i’m stressed and low on sleep
the two go together it seems
they’re best friends and my enemy

i’ve been falling apart at the seams
since february

i’m turning 18
and that scares the shit outta me
cuz what’s left to wait for now
i’m out in a couple of weeks
all my time will be set free
and still i won’t do anything

i’m turning 18
happy birthday to me

i’m falling apart at the seams
especially after this week
i'm breaking my knees under the weight of
responsibility
i'm growing my wisdom teeth
just to get them ripped out of me
and i'm sitting here thinking about how that's kind of funny

i guess i'm 18
ready as i'll ever be
or so we'll see

18 (demo)

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