holy shit.. that shit hits diffrent then u sad..

Lyrics:
when i lay awake inside the hole in own bed
all these thoughts come back and they come flooding through my head
i wonder what they'd do if they woke up and found me dead
i wish i could reverse all the events and where they lead

i know that i seem crazy i just probably need some help
dont listen to my lyrics cause youll know that im in hell
i promise im just kidding and im really doing well, i wear this mask like every day its halloween you couldn't tell

i would really not be shit at all without my favorite person, i just feel so bad that every night she gets a different version, of me i just spend my days distracted with a big diversion, its the only way i function when im lost in the immersion

i know i say im tired im annoying all the time
i really hate complaining about all thats on my mind, ill either keep myself real busy just to show that i can grind
or sink into the void and smoke until my brain is fried

keep to myself cause i know that im fucked
i know that i hurt everything that i touch
try to be nice but i know its not much
working all day just to bring in the bucks

dont wanna feel so i just wanna sleep
smoke on a bowl then i fall in the deep
baby i love you youre all that i need
i promise im trying to get on my feet

know youre my life so just please never leave
life is so fucked but i wanna believe
maybe the good things we just never see
im just a bitch while i cry on the beat

say i dont care what no one think of me
thoughts will not stop but thats just how it be
sailing away so that i can be free, but im dead on the shore and i float out to sea

in my lane, on my own
hit the blade its the only way to go
im not sane, but now you know
i wont complain when i know thats how it goes

Fried

Fried (prod. Lil Nightshift)

Last Week On Earth ( i think i wanna die) prod dash

6AM ON VERNON

Psalms 41

[PROD. IOF]
https://soundcloud.com/prodiof

SUISAI
https://soundcloud.com/sushisai

ERISU:

You don’t know what it means to me..
'Cause I’ve been hurt more than you can see!
What lies beneath my skin is something unreal...
Behind your face shows a thousand ways to heal!

It’s okay, it didn’t really hurt for me!
My BLACK HEART captures all the pain numbing!
AND ALL MY EFFORTS BURNED DOWN InTO the Ashtray..
All I wanted is to feel at least something...

And Would you even care if I sent my soul to die for you?
IT’S ALL I WANTED was to see you goddamn smile!
Smile for me beneath the pale moonlight!
Because the darkness gets lonely sometimes..

And I believe you can save me somehow!
The way you look at me gets me through this HELL!
And maybe one day I will see the light!
But for now can you bring me through the night?!

Save me, Lover!
Savor me!

Tell my pretty lies..
It’s all I need!


I don’t need the truth,
I wanted fantasies!

So cut my eyes out!

And feed them to me!

SUISAI:

'Cause its been way too long!
I'm beat up the least you could do
Is just see through those promises you made a waste of space in us
What used to be beautifully
Crafted now rusted
Just blown to the edge of the cliff
It mustve been to late
Wish that you could relate
Wish all of the signs that you show
Wouldnt Lead to 
unfinished roads
Lucky i havent hit that dead end yet
Cause ive been through too much shit to be let down
again~ again~~
Painting pictures in my head
Of where everything worked out
Of where all this shit worked out

A THOUSAND WAYS TO HEAL - ERISU X SUISAI [PROD. IOF]

[+] i just wanna die slow.. see me from the blunt glow
* featuring @nicoteenninyo * prod by @metlast *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/gxxBsbHSbkU

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro: seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
see me from the blunt glow
with my blinds closed
burning up the sky oh oh ya

[hook: nicoteen ninyo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

[verse: seejayxo]
try and get me now ya
fucked up off the sound oh
i smoke like a pound ya
so high off the ground oh
you cannot touch me you basic
i roll a blunt then i face it
wonder why they always hatin
i know you know i'ma make it
so just face it,
i won't say shit, i hold back,
i don't know why i'm sad, shit
i forgot my past 
ion think i'm that bad
i want a big truck and a benz
get fucked up wit my friends
out in LA til i'm dead, LA til i'm dead

[hook: nicoteen ninyo + seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, fuck up out my life hoe)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(write my death note, i just want a slit throat)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, see me from the blunt glow)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(with my blinds closed, burning up the sky oh)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

die slow

+ visuals

die slow (feat. nicoteen ninyo) *MUSIC VIDEO IN DESC*

[prod. HXRXKILLER] @hxrxkiller

Lyrics:
Theres a reason that ive been so distant 
I figure i can go and hide the pain
ive been on my own for a minute 
And no one sees me when its bout to rain

Dont ask whats going on inside
I dont even know, got death on my mind
Dont ask whats going on inside
Get so fucking high so i dont ask myself why

Like will i always feel like shit
Why do i still love u bitch
Im tryna make it out of this
But is it even worth it

I want to end it all sometimes
Ive been watching all the time go by
Those distant memories 
Feel closer then their meant to

Ive been trying to forget you
Ive been stuck here without you
Was that even the real you
Ive been broken and so bruised

Ive been so stuck in the past
Think of better times, i wish that i was back
i think my whole world might collapse
I think my whole hearts made of glass

I wish that you could tell me
Just don't cry just dont cry
I feel safe by your side
Just dont cry, its alright

Fill my lungs up with smoke
Girl i was waiting, where did you go
Everything hurts me, does anyone know
Where did you go, where did you go

Ill carry on
Imma find a way to make it worth it
As long as im alive ill keep on searching

One more song
Gotta get out all this shit im feelin
Ill be here even when im bleeding

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FORGET YOU

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️
lovespelledbackwards @iamcjcarter
🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️
prod. sketchmyname & vaegud @sketchmyname @vaegud
🌌🌌🌌🌌🌌🌌🌌🌌🌌🌌🌌🌌

Lyrics:
Frvr:
Im living in a starless sky
Gave up on everything i
Mind trippin in an endless night 
Gave up on seeing you i

Lost hope, grew cold, became alone
Im thinkin that i might die alone 
Got dope lil hoe, i gotta go
Lately i cant even cry no mo

Lovespelledbackwards:
gave up on a sober life
i let the drugs consume me, why
did i end up like this
i can’t fight it
no i won’t fight it

open ur eyes
look at the damage you’ve done
take a look around
& see the person you’ve become

Frvr:
Im living in a starless sky
Gave up on everything i
Mind trippin in an endless night 
Gave up on seeing you i

Lost hope, grew cold, became alone
Im thinkin that i might die alone 
Got dope lil hoe, i gotta go
Lately i cant even cry no mo

🌌🖤 STARLESS SKY! 🖤🌌  ft. lovespelledbackwards [prod. Sketchmyname & Vaegud]

prod: @caustyk

I can't talk to anyone, anyone its so cold

Lyrics:
Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight


I died when i realized that nothings ever changed
Always on the edge, every week its the same
And im so insane
I know its not healthy but i think i love the pain
I hate feeling empty, so theres liquor in my veins

She the one i want, but the one i cant save
Pictures that i cropped, shawty your my cocaine
i feel overclocked, i can feel my heart race


I dont like this
Overwhelmed and tired of it
I feel like im losing everyone
Everyone thats close

Since the time skip
More burdens that i cant fix
And i cant talk to anyone
Anyone its so cold 

Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight

I thought i died last night 
Ashes fall its like
Everytime im in a dream
I can see it slowly bleed

I cant let go 
But i might break my bones
I wish i could know
But this my only road


Crashing down with my potion
Losing feeling in my body like its stolen 
So why you down, tell me why u feelin hopeless 
So much shit in life left me feelin so broken
x2

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FORGET YOU

⋆frvr&alwys⋆

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