Manners

There’s something about my parents’ house
That makes me want to show you around
I remember driving with you
I remember arriving with you 

There’s something about these coffee grounds 
There’s something about these distant sounds
I remember surviving with you 
I remember thriving with you 

I had hoped I’d be in a safer place
I had hoped I’d be wearing only the prettiest lace
I had hoped 
But now I know 

That I have touched a thousand people 
And left them with all my intent 
And I have crushed a hundred people 
And led them to tie up loose ends 

There’s something about the passenger side
There’s something about these stretch mark lines
That makes me want to hold you again 
Makes me want to forget what you said 

There’s something about these lullabies 
There’s something about my mother’s eyes 
That makes me think of all I’ve left behind 
Makes me think of all the times I’ve tried 

I had hoped I’d be in a safer place 
I had hoped I’d be wearing only the prettiest lace
I had hoped 
But now I know 

That I have touched a thousand people 
And left them with all my intent 
And I have crushed a hundred people 
And led them to tie up loose ends 

There’s something about this piano bench 
There’s something about those drawings I sketched 
That makes me miss my home, and all I know 

Is I have touched a thousand people 
And left them with all my intent 
And I have crushed a hundred people 
And led them to tie up loose ends 

That I have touched a thousand people 
And left them with all my intent 
And I have crushed a hundred people
And led them to tie up loose ends 

That I have touched a thousand people 
And left them with all my intent 
And I have crushed a hundred people 
And led them to tie up loose ends

A Hundred People

Lyrics:

You can call it progressive 
But I think it’s depressive
I’ve been smoking exactly one cigarette
Every time that we text 
As if I were surprised

You could call me obsessive 
So please put me to rest
I thought maybe it was a test

But I won’t be just one of the women on your chest
So please just let it die

Let me down easy 
And tell me white lies 
Put my head down on the pillow
And then please climb out the window 
So I know you didn’t try

I’m feeling self destructive (i was feeling)
I’m letting myself down (letting myself)
It’s 4am I shouldn’t call him
But I have been all over town

I just want what I had before 
I can feel it in my chest
I notice when he looks at me
That this is not my best 

And let me down easy
Tell me white lies
Put my head down on the pillow 
And then please climb out the window 
So I know you didn’t try 

Don’t make me say please now 
Don’t me my fight 
You got me stuck right in the middle 
I try to read you like a riddle 
But it takes too much time 

There are some things that just hit me like a train
The way they walk together holding hands down lover’s lane
And I’m feeling like a pair of old shoes left out in the rain

Let me down easy 
Tell me white lies 
Put my head down on the pillow 
And then please climb out the window 
So I know, so I know you didn’t try 

Don’t make me say please now 
Don’t me my fight 
You’ve kept me stuck right in the middle 
I try to read you like a riddle 
But it takes too much time

Like A Riddle

Lyrics:

I need to practice detachment 
From the women in my life 
Because they’ll keep on bringing around partners 
And we may not always see eye to eye

And I’ve always wanted a man 
A loud one with opinions who banters 
But if all goes according to plan 
He’ll also have a whole lot of manners 

Because I don’t deserve 
To be looked at and told 
To shut up and smile
And you should have learned that years ago
And I won’t chill out, and I won’t calm down
You can’t have me around 
Until you figure it out

And I have been working my ass off 
I’ve been trying to build my castle 
I barely have time to write, let alone fight with you 
None of this is really worth the hassle 

And I’ve always wanted a man 
A loud one with opinions who banters 
But if all goes according to plan 
He’ll also have a whole lot of manners 

Because I don’t deserve 
To be looked at and told 
To shut up and smile
And you should have learned that years ago
And I won’t chill out, and I won’t calm down
You can’t have me around 
Until you figure it out

Now I have been scaring my mother
When I call her after I’ve gotten home
Because I wasn’t raised to let another
Try to test the self-respect that I have grown 

And I know that you think i have a hard shell 
But there’s a limit to the shit that you can stir 
Just because you are a hot mess
Doesn’t mean my life is made of diamonds and fur

And I’ve always wanted a man 
A loud one with opinions who banters 
But if all goes according to plan 
He’ll also have a whole lot of manners 

Because I don’t deserve 
To be looked at and told 
To shut up and smile
And you should have learned that years ago
And I won’t chill out, and I won’t calm down
You can’t have me around 
Until you figure it out

You’re more compatible together
I hope she treats you better 
I hope she doesn’t challenge you in bed
Makes you comfortable, holds your head

I hope you please her when you want
Give your keys to her when you want
'Cause your terms were the most that I ever got

You and I are like water and fire
You always left me with only more desire 
It makes me hot to the touch, I’m getting mean, I’m getting rough
I like the face that you were born with 
But I hate your words and all of your norms and

I want it anyway
I want it anyway

You’re always asking for attention
And forgive me, I forgot to mention
The way you talked about your travels was like torture

And at the end of the day
You were just a game that I could play
And now I can’t and I’m mad
'Cause you took it away

You and I are like water and fire
You always left me with only more desire 
It makes me hot to the touch, I’m getting mean, I’m getting rough
I like the face that you were born with 
But I hate your words and all of your norms and
I want it anyway
I want it anyway
I want it anyway
I want it anyway

You and I are like water and fire
You always left me with only more desire 
It makes me hot to the touch, I’m getting mean, I’m getting rough
I like the face that you were born with 
But I hate your words and all of your norms and
I rue the day I saw you drinking 
I rue the day

Anyway

My favorite tattoo is the one that I never can see
My favorite lover was the one that I never did meet 
My favorite song was written by you and not by me 
My favorite version of you was the one that I could leave 

I wake up with anxiety dreams about leaving my keys in the car
I wake up with anxiety dreams about taking the subway too far

But if a tree falls and no one can hear it, it still makes a sound
And if you show up and no one can see you, you still left the house 
It makes me so sad you’re not enough for yourself 
Because all you’ve ever wanted is to be the woman that you’ve become, how good has that felt? 
You don’t need any help

I never slow danced ‘til a week before I turned 24
At a bar that was closing and my tee shirt had sweat marks under my arms
That’s just another night, feels like another knife
Thank god I’m home again, I’m love-less again
Let’s the roll the ball 

I wake up with anxiety dreams that my body is going to waste
I wake up with anxiety dreams that no one will look at my face

But if a tree falls and no one can hear it, it still makes a sound
And if you show up and no one can see you, you still left the house 
It makes me so sad that you’re not enough for yourself 
Because all you’ve ever wanted is to be the woman that you’ve become, how good has that felt? 
You don’t need any help, you don’t need help

Anxiety Dreams

Lyrics: 

That was a fun week we had, it was bad timing that’s all
Your world came crashing down so suddenly
And I know I’m not really relevant but I felt a connection with the alcohol
You said I came out of left field for you 

Don’t tell me what to think
Don’t tell me what I should be worrying about 
Because last time I checked you’re not the only one who’s allowed to play house 

I’m not here for your entertainment
I’m not something you can choose you want to handle or not
I’m not a careless younger version of you who you can block so that you don't get caught

And I know you haven’t slept next to a body in a while 
You got me living in a fantasy where you would never be seen with me 
You’ve got me fantasizing about spending the rest of our lives alone on a beach 

And you’re the one who said you didn’t want me to stop talking to you 
But I find it hard to stay away from sticky situations
I find it hard to shy away from total fucked up relations
You and me, could, would we be some kind of messy long vacation

I’m not here for your entertainment
I’m not something you can choose you want to handle or not
I’m not a careless younger version of you who you can block so that you don't get caught

And I know I’m only 24 years old
But you set yourself up for this
Do you think it’s not just as confusing for me 
You created an obstacle to beat 
You invented a game just for me
You can’t claim a monopoly on being messed up
Can’t you tell that I’m lonely 
Just because you’re older than me 
Doesn’t mean I’m not lonely
Just because you’re older than me
Doesn’t mean I’m not lonely

Older Than Me

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Manners

Gabrielle Marlena