originally performed by sewerperson
produced by eric godlow

-lyrics-
if this is how it ends
well im glad you were part of it
this was all inside my head before
i even started it
you made it to the end and i appreciate the tolerance
really im my brain inside my head and that is it
these holograms around me somehow willing me to live
and i know i cant touch u i mean really really touch you
on atomic level shit but thats not how were meant to fit
if you look at people walking everybody moves the same
perfect mess of flesh and bone equipped with total mental reign
when you think about it really only difference is the brain
so thats why im looking thru you when im talking to ur face
please dont be scared
theres nothing for me to think about
its over now
im sober now
i power down

catching up cuz she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when you go out
cause when i fall asleep youre the one i dream bout
brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak now you busy to go out
threw my dreams out all i do is seep now

sewerperson, eric godlow - its over. you can go home (lxst boy cover)

falling out (feat. Emo Fruits & frvr&alwys)

~2300~

i wrote this song a few years ago about my predisposition to drug addiction. I never planned on sharing this publicly but I wanted to keep my SC page as more of a "time capsule" so here it is. I've lost many loved ones to the cycle of addiction and i'm grateful for my friends who have helped keep me grounded over the years even when things have been hard <3 love you.

predisposition (you weren't meant to hear this)

(GhostBxy)
killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be
  
ive been on my own for a minute now
i really need to scream but i cant be loud
taking deep breaths to help calm down
but i wasted each breath trynna figure out
how to get out of this house i built
on top of a grave of someone that i killed

miss who i was
replaced by a face that i hate
why is it the same
wished for some light 
but then i got me some darker days

im beyond saving
my life only equated
to a broken shattered down old battered heart
the one thing i had was torn apart

rip me to pieces like letters in shredders remember november
when you tore me down

killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be

(Yungcray)
(I’m sorry bro but I don’t know your lyrics yet)


(GhostBxy)
killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be

And That’s All Folks… (w/ yungcray) (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

I teased this like two years ago but I finally finished it :)))

(Lyrics)
took some pills 
went to school, showing up high
took a solid guess that you must've had a rough night 
saw it in your cloudy eyes
the trauma wasn't justified
upon the solid surface smiles hid the fact that you were losing light

you were trapped inside your mind
trying so hard to survive
freezing winters breezing in and killing all the summer nights

turning all her tears to snowflakes
falling slow from her face
she is not her mistakes
they dont define her fate
 
take a deep breath
let me assess
everything i see even the unusual
you dont have to pretend
when you're with me
everything about you is so f*cking beautiful

we both fall but she falls faster
i run fast and i hope to catch her
but she's running out of time
can we escape this eternal night?

we both fell but she fell faster
i ran fast and i couldn't catch her
cause she ran out of 
daylight has faded from her eyes

I Can't Catch (ushanka boy)

i   s i t   i n   s o m b e r   s o r r o w

(Lyrics)
You said that you loved me but
You dance with a better guy who's different
Kisses witnessed from my own perspective
Reconsidering every single thing I've ever done

Cause i know you're bound to fuck and that's my fucking issue
I sit in somber sorrow as i grab another tissue
How the fuck do you expect me to just trust you when 
I see y'all dance
When i see y'all laugh

Y’all have a connection
I get the neglecting
Along with regretting the choice
Of giving you chance after chance
I just dance but I can’t anymore cause this love

Is at an all time low
How can we float if there's holes in our boat?
This can’t be fixed and time has shown 
That once again that I’ll be thrown 

Under the bus
While you dance and you touch 
This other guy who’s something better 
Than what I’d ever be

What is wrong with me
I try my best but eventually
The same song starts like it's on repeat
As I stand and I start to scream

I didn't think I'd get hurt again but
Here I stand on the tallest mountain
Like the rainfall
I drop 
Oh so slowly
I call
But nobody hears me

IHY2 (CapsCtrl)

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

Lyrics

dear me,
love,
you

Lost in thought, I'm lost a lot
But if you ask I'll say I'm not
I never cared for fucking help
Cause no one really fucking cares

I'm not excused, I do it too
Cause what the fuck we supposed to do
When all we learned at every turn
Was people just like using you?

I know the feeling that you get when you just wanna scream
But you don't cause you don't want the ones around you to believe
That what you need is mental help when that's not what you fucking need
What you need is fucking love but all you have is fucking drugs

I don't wanna talk so I just sing behind a fucking screen
Yeah we both speak English but you can't distinguish what I mean
There's a barrier thats heavier than Earth that's in between
You and me and it just fucking hurts that you ain't hearing me

If not for music, I would not be where I am today
I'm still not where I wanna be but where I was I'm far away
I met this girl, I'm thankful she stuck by my side along the way
This line right here don't fit the song, it's just to say I love you babe

Now can y'all stop sayin' that I only talk about the bad?
I can talk about the good but that's not where my talent's at
I turn broken pieces into art for broken people
So they know that there's some good inside when all they feel is evil

detmer, garrett

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dearmeloveyou. | Produced by miercoles

(lyrics)
forever alone
im done with these hoes
cheating and scheming the reason i ghost
everyone
dont act surprised
my whole life
ive been sick

sick of all these bitches trynna tell me what i know
denying all the truth they love lying on the low
if you are for real then go ahead and show your phone

yeah your fucking missing messages like you are chromosomes

i saw you told your friend you miss that guy you used to fuck with
the guy you said "he's really nothing to worry about" that dumb shit

a drunk facetime with that motherfuckering fucker
its about damn time i go and find another lover

stop speaking to me
your words are fake like your jewelry
you used to be my sleeping beauty
now you're nothing but 
nothing but
nothing but
another one

forever alone
im done with these hoes
cheating and scheming the reason i ghost
everyone
dont act surprised
my whole life
ive been sick

TERMINAL (THERSX)

Away With Me (feat. Unknxwn.)

i don't know why I try anymore
why did i go and open up that door
i don't know know why I cry (eyes are sore)

im not the guy that i was
open wounds so many cuts
they told me told me to open up
they told me...

my life's the same as yesterday
progress a bit I try to change
but when I'm hit with a sudden wave
everything I've created begins to decay

well here's the fucking problem
I dont really want to die
I just wanna look up at the sky and see a brighter side

but this is as bright as it gets
purging all innocence
leaving just hopleessness with me

I don't know why I try anymore
why did I go and open up that door
I don't know know why I cry (eyes are sore)

I'm not the guy that I was
open wounds so many cuts
they told me told me to open up
they told me...

I Can't Catch (ushanka boy)

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