i love this song man this shit hits hard🔥🔥🔥🔥

Just started listening to the song but I already know its going to be a fire af song

deaths got a grip on me
showing me what life just might be
if i wasn't right here breathing
i wouldnt cry each night screaming

can you please help me 
im trying
i swear that im not lying
this mountain that im climbing
is scary but im sight seeing

its 4 am and i feel alone
im walking down a road 
i dont know where it goes
but ill take the risk
im sick of being the pessimist
but behind the mist

theres monsters underneath my bed
following me in my head
so obsessed with finding reasons to convince me just to end
the cycle
this never ending recital
if only you knew what i know
but you dont
im not suicidal

if i leave in the middle of the night
just know i tried
gave my life within the fight
against this horrid blight
its such a bloody site
it'll leave you terrified

cause there's a monster
monster
oh there's a monster
monster
monster
oh there's a monster
monster 
monster
oh there's a monster
oh there's a monster
oh there's a monster

monster (prod. p4ra)

This is the first song of a long overdue album called "Instability", it's a big project I've been working on for the past few months but thank you guys for making GhostBxy somebody I'm still proud to be called. Hope you enjoy.
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(lyrics)

ask myself if i disappear
will they cry?
will they shed any tears?
my whole life
ive been plagued with a fear
can i survive?
for how many years?

wake up and i feel the same
i know that i am to blame
i have no clue how to change
if i did then i wouldn't be this way

sit on the floor
while i stare at the ceiling
doing it like there's something appealing
got real sick
tied a noose to my feelings
questioning hope is it even a real thing

spending time inside
purgatory is my mind
ive spent so much fucking time
trynna get through this fucking night

docs give me meds but that shit can not save me
fucked in the head these fucking feelings are invasive
chained to my bed
awake but im stuck in a daydream
screaming and im shaking
foundation isnt breaking

hate myself so much i think im better off alone
breaking down my walls like the're made of styrofoam

ask myself if i disappear
will they cry?
will they shed any tears?
my whole life
ive been plagued with a fear
can i survive?
for how many years?

wake up and i feel the same
i know that i am to blame
i have no clue how to change
if i did then i wouldn't be this way

purgatory (ushanka boy)

prod. @voidrave99

lyrics:

I hate myself 
Im easily replaced
And I can’t take it away
I’m not okay
I wanna escape 
Falling deeper 
Cause im mentally fucked in the brain 
I’m not okay 
I wanna escape 
I feel alone in room crowded with fakes 
Nobody would ever want me I’m sure
Nothing good ever happens I’m cursed
Take me off of this planet we call earth 
Can’t wait for the day im lying in a hearse 
Im not okay 
I wanna escape 
Falling deeper 
Cause I’m mentally fucked in the brain

im not okay i wanna escape (voidrave99)

a few years ago, I lost somebody close to me and I still don't believe that I have taken time to really process it as a fact that they are gone but I made this song to help with the process, as well as help others who may be dealing with or have dealt with loss of a loved one. I hope this song helps you in some way...

Lyrics

yeah it rains and it snows
so cold i cant feel my toes
yeah life comes and goes
but im losing all my bros
its 6 in the morn
and im way too fucking stoned
and its led to brittle bones
fatal wounds that i cant close
 
the alcohol replaced the blood
deleted all the memories
told me that you'd stop
"this will not be the death of me"
we were playing make belief 
cause i believed
everything
you made a pinky promise
but forgot about the honesty

what happened?
why were you laughing?
you drank your life away
you had a son that you left panicked
screaming "wheres my dad at?"
i couldnt bare to tell him the truth
how could i when i didnt want to

cats have 9 lives
you lost them all
I'd give you mine
you rise
i fall
when you left so did the color
you weren't like any other
 
if dogs go to heaven 
what about the cats?
is there another side 
did you take another path 

yeah it rains and it snows
so cold i cant feel my toes
yeah life comes and goes
but im losing all my bros
its 6 in the morn
and im way too fucking stoned
and its led to brittle bones
fatal wounds that i cant close

lil cat (ushanka boy)

got me in denial
disbelief I still see you smile 
pick up leave feeling shit pile 
act so delightful I need revival 
cuz ever since you left
got me feeling homicidal 
we were vital 
now I’m underneath my covers 
reading the Bible 
tryna find out how to forgive a rival 
can’t be mindful 
this survival and I was dead upon arrival 

shot my heart out like you got a rifle 
fallin in a spiral 
will this be a cycle 
put a broken heart down in my bio 
if I could give my life a title 
call it a wave of sadness 
and its a tidal
buts it’s finial 
always been a number that you could dial 
someone who would 
make your time worth while 
now I have a river of tears 
call it the Nile
4,132 miles 

got me in denial
disbelief I still see you smile 
pick up leave feeling shit pile 
act so delightful I need revival 
cuz ever since you left
got me feeling homicidal 
we were vital 
now I’m underneath my covers 
reading the Bible 
tryna find out how to forgive a rival 
can’t be mindful 
this survival and I was dead upon arrival 

Something to mend 
only cause im rolling in my head.
Cannot move when im in hell,
You Can't pick a side you need some help.
What a fool that i have been.
Cannot keep it quite my soul is overflown like what you expect me keep it silent.
I got a voice i got a choice 
that's something that i'm fighting,
But bitch there is alot for me to learn.
Really don't know nothing about me 
it's a gift and a curse.
Yeah I'll hotbox my hearse 
cannot breath cannot hurt
Yeah i know they concerned.
They play foul
That's why i go 4132 miles (miles miles miles)

got me in denial
disbelief I still see you smile 
pick up leave feeling shit pile 
act so delightful I need revival 
cuz ever since you left
got me feeling homicidal 
we were vital 
now I’m underneath my covers 
reading the Bible 
tryna find out how to forgive a rival 
can’t be mindful 
this survival and I was dead upon arrival

4132 Miles (ft. AlwaysMyself)

I teased this like two years ago but I finally finished it :)))

(Lyrics)
took some pills 
went to school, showing up high
took a solid guess that you must've had a rough night 
saw it in your cloudy eyes
the trauma wasn't justified
upon the solid surface smiles hid the fact that you were losing light

you were trapped inside your mind
trying so hard to survive
freezing winters breezing in and killing all the summer nights

turning all her tears to snowflakes
falling slow from her face
she is not her mistakes
they dont define her fate
 
take a deep breath
let me assess
everything i see even the unusual
you dont have to pretend
when you're with me
everything about you is so f*cking beautiful

we both fall but she falls faster
i run fast and i hope to catch her
but she's running out of time
can we escape this eternal night?

we both fell but she fell faster
i ran fast and i couldn't catch her
cause she ran out of 
daylight has faded from her eyes

I Can't Catch (ushanka boy)

i   s i t   i n   s o m b e r   s o r r o w

(Lyrics)
You said that you loved me but
You dance with a better guy who's different
Kisses witnessed from my own perspective
Reconsidering every single thing I've ever done

Cause i know you're bound to fuck and that's my fucking issue
I sit in somber sorrow as i grab another tissue
How the fuck do you expect me to just trust you when 
I see y'all dance
When i see y'all laugh

Y’all have a connection
I get the neglecting
Along with regretting the choice
Of giving you chance after chance
I just dance but I can’t anymore cause this love

Is at an all time low
How can we float if there's holes in our boat?
This can’t be fixed and time has shown 
That once again that I’ll be thrown 

Under the bus
While you dance and you touch 
This other guy who’s something better 
Than what I’d ever be

What is wrong with me
I try my best but eventually
The same song starts like it's on repeat
As I stand and I start to scream

I didn't think I'd get hurt again but
Here I stand on the tallest mountain
Like the rainfall
I drop 
Oh so slowly
I call
But nobody hears me

IHY2 (CapsCtrl)

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Lyrics

dear me,
love,
you

Lost in thought, I'm lost a lot
But if you ask I'll say I'm not
I never cared for fucking help
Cause no one really fucking cares

I'm not excused, I do it too
Cause what the fuck we supposed to do
When all we learned at every turn
Was people just like using you?

I know the feeling that you get when you just wanna scream
But you don't cause you don't want the ones around you to believe
That what you need is mental help when that's not what you fucking need
What you need is fucking love but all you have is fucking drugs

I don't wanna talk so I just sing behind a fucking screen
Yeah we both speak English but you can't distinguish what I mean
There's a barrier thats heavier than Earth that's in between
You and me and it just fucking hurts that you ain't hearing me

If not for music, I would not be where I am today
I'm still not where I wanna be but where I was I'm far away
I met this girl, I'm thankful she stuck by my side along the way
This line right here don't fit the song, it's just to say I love you babe

Now can y'all stop sayin' that I only talk about the bad?
I can talk about the good but that's not where my talent's at
I turn broken pieces into art for broken people
So they know that there's some good inside when all they feel is evil

detmer, garrett

spotify.

dearmeloveyou. | Produced by miercoles

(lyrics)
forever alone
im done with these hoes
cheating and scheming the reason i ghost
everyone
dont act surprised
my whole life
ive been sick

sick of all these bitches trynna tell me what i know
denying all the truth they love lying on the low
if you are for real then go ahead and show your phone

yeah your fucking missing messages like you are chromosomes

i saw you told your friend you miss that guy you used to fuck with
the guy you said "he's really nothing to worry about" that dumb shit

a drunk facetime with that motherfuckering fucker
its about damn time i go and find another lover

stop speaking to me
your words are fake like your jewelry
you used to be my sleeping beauty
now you're nothing but 
nothing but
nothing but
another one

forever alone
im done with these hoes
cheating and scheming the reason i ghost
everyone
dont act surprised
my whole life
ive been sick

TERMINAL (THERSX)

FIRST SONG OF MY FIRST ALBUM, I CAN'T WAIT AHHHH
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it's my birthday :>>
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(lyrics)
baby please don't bother me
I've been trynna rest in peace
knocked me down with pedigree's 
treat me like your enemy
fuck me up and lie to me
I don't want you
I just need sobriety
from the scent of your perfume
take me home 
don't let me go
to please don't
show up at my door
I've been trynna live a life
that's not so dependent
why am I missing
somebody who doesn't love me

why am I so dependent
I try to find some independence
I testify to my own image
my sights a lie
I'm very different

I like the silence of the night
but in due time comes horrid frights
not of what lies beyond no light
but of love that I might find

how hard is it for you to be honest
loves not a job but there's gonna be problems
It's gonna take time for both of us to blossom
but you didn't give a fuck
you went and loved another

other
it happened again
don't worry they're just a friend
but we used to be just friends
we both know how this will end

with both of you in your bed
with me back on my fucking meds
messages are left unread
words are left unsaid

baby please don't bother me
I've been trynna rest in peace
knocked me down with pedigree's 
treat me like your enemy
fuck me up and lie to me
I don't want you
I just need sobriety
from the scent of your perfume
take me home 
don't let me go
to please don't
show up at my door
I've been trynna live a life
that's not so dependent
why am I missing
somebody who doesn't love me

TERMINAL (THERSX)

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