This is the first song of a long overdue album called "Instability", it's a big project I've been working on for the past few months but thank you guys for making GhostBxy somebody I'm still proud to be called. Hope you enjoy.
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(lyrics)

ask myself if i disappear
will they cry?
will they shed any tears?
my whole life
ive been plagued with a fear
can i survive?
for how many years?

wake up and i feel the same
i know that i am to blame
i have no clue how to change
if i did then i wouldn't be this way

sit on the floor
while i stare at the ceiling
doing it like there's something appealing
got real sick
tied a noose to my feelings
questioning hope is it even a real thing

spending time inside
purgatory is my mind
ive spent so much fucking time
trynna get through this fucking night

docs give me meds but that shit can not save me
fucked in the head these fucking feelings are invasive
chained to my bed
awake but im stuck in a daydream
screaming and im shaking
foundation isnt breaking

hate myself so much i think im better off alone
breaking down my walls like the're made of styrofoam

ask myself if i disappear
will they cry?
will they shed any tears?
my whole life
ive been plagued with a fear
can i survive?
for how many years?

wake up and i feel the same
i know that i am to blame
i have no clue how to change
if i did then i wouldn't be this way

purgatory (ushanka boy)

Lyrics:

im just a sad demon
trying my best to find reason 
plagued by a blight so they all leave me
so what right do i have to believe
that things will get better when i sit alone
here in the snow unbothered by the cold
why am i so hopeless i do not know
how to cope when im out here all alone

hair snow white
my eye glows red
warmth is gone
heart is frozen
drink coffee
to help cope with
my soul that is so broken

i see myself staring back at me inside a broken mirror
distorted image yet i somehow can still see so clear

i realize i am awful 
a road with a big pothole
a story with a plot hole
a rightfully earned title

sleeping beauty's scared of me
im a horrid site to see
i scared her right back to sleep
ghouls are far from lovely

im just a sad demon
trying my best to find reason 
plagued by a blight so they all leave me
so what right do i have to believe
that things will get better when i sit alone
here in the snow unbothered by the cold
why am i so hopeless i do not know
how to cope when im out here all alone

Just A Ghoul (prod. acey)

a few years ago, I lost somebody close to me and I still don't believe that I have taken time to really process it as a fact that they are gone but I made this song to help with the process, as well as help others who may be dealing with or have dealt with loss of a loved one. I hope this song helps you in some way...

Lyrics

yeah it rains and it snows
so cold i cant feel my toes
yeah life comes and goes
but im losing all my bros
its 6 in the morn
and im way too fucking stoned
and its led to brittle bones
fatal wounds that i cant close
 
the alcohol replaced the blood
deleted all the memories
told me that you'd stop
"this will not be the death of me"
we were playing make belief 
cause i believed
everything
you made a pinky promise
but forgot about the honesty

what happened?
why were you laughing?
you drank your life away
you had a son that you left panicked
screaming "wheres my dad at?"
i couldnt bare to tell him the truth
how could i when i didnt want to

cats have 9 lives
you lost them all
I'd give you mine
you rise
i fall
when you left so did the color
you weren't like any other
 
if dogs go to heaven 
what about the cats?
is there another side 
did you take another path 

yeah it rains and it snows
so cold i cant feel my toes
yeah life comes and goes
but im losing all my bros
its 6 in the morn
and im way too fucking stoned
and its led to brittle bones
fatal wounds that i cant close

lil cat (ushanka boy)

(GhostBxy)
killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be
  
ive been on my own for a minute now
i really need to scream but i cant be loud
taking deep breaths to help calm down
but i wasted each breath trynna figure out
how to get out of this house i built
on top of a grave of someone that i killed

miss who i was
replaced by a face that i hate
why is it the same
wished for some light 
but then i got me some darker days

im beyond saving
my life only equated
to a broken shattered down old battered heart
the one thing i had was torn apart

rip me to pieces like letters in shredders remember november
when you tore me down

killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be

(Yungcray)
(I’m sorry bro but I don’t know your lyrics yet)


(GhostBxy)
killed who i was 
all in the name of love
hate what ive become
so that i could have some
drugs
to fuck me up
feel smoke in my lungs
this isn’t who I want to be
this isn’t who I want to be

And That’s All Folks… (w/ yungcray) (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

i   s i t   i n   s o m b e r   s o r r o w

(Lyrics)
You said that you loved me but
You dance with a better guy who's different
Kisses witnessed from my own perspective
Reconsidering every single thing I've ever done

Cause i know you're bound to fuck and that's my fucking issue
I sit in somber sorrow as i grab another tissue
How the fuck do you expect me to just trust you when 
I see y'all dance
When i see y'all laugh

Y’all have a connection
I get the neglecting
Along with regretting the choice
Of giving you chance after chance
I just dance but I can’t anymore cause this love

Is at an all time low
How can we float if there's holes in our boat?
This can’t be fixed and time has shown 
That once again that I’ll be thrown 

Under the bus
While you dance and you touch 
This other guy who’s something better 
Than what I’d ever be

What is wrong with me
I try my best but eventually
The same song starts like it's on repeat
As I stand and I start to scream

I didn't think I'd get hurt again but
Here I stand on the tallest mountain
Like the rainfall
I drop 
Oh so slowly
I call
But nobody hears me

IHY2 (CapsCtrl)

(lyrics)
forever alone
im done with these hoes
cheating and scheming the reason i ghost
everyone
dont act surprised
my whole life
ive been sick

sick of all these bitches trynna tell me what i know
denying all the truth they love lying on the low
if you are for real then go ahead and show your phone

yeah your fucking missing messages like you are chromosomes

i saw you told your friend you miss that guy you used to fuck with
the guy you said "he's really nothing to worry about" that dumb shit

a drunk facetime with that motherfuckering fucker
its about damn time i go and find another lover

stop speaking to me
your words are fake like your jewelry
you used to be my sleeping beauty
now you're nothing but 
nothing but
nothing but
another one

forever alone
im done with these hoes
cheating and scheming the reason i ghost
everyone
dont act surprised
my whole life
ive been sick

TERMINAL (THERSX)

i don't know why I try anymore
why did i go and open up that door
i don't know know why I cry (eyes are sore)

im not the guy that i was
open wounds so many cuts
they told me told me to open up
they told me...

my life's the same as yesterday
progress a bit I try to change
but when I'm hit with a sudden wave
everything I've created begins to decay

well here's the fucking problem
I dont really want to die
I just wanna look up at the sky and see a brighter side

but this is as bright as it gets
purging all innocence
leaving just hopelessness with me

I don't know why I try anymore
why did I go and open up that door
I don't know know why I cry (eyes are sore)

I'm not the guy that I was
open wounds so many cuts
they told me told me to open up
they told me...

idkwhy (prod. lostcage)

FIRST SONG OF MY FIRST ALBUM, I CAN'T WAIT AHHHH
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it's my birthday :>>
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(lyrics)
baby please don't bother me
I've been trynna rest in peace
knocked me down with pedigree's 
treat me like your enemy
fuck me up and lie to me
I don't want you
I just need sobriety
from the scent of your perfume
take me home 
don't let me go
to please don't
show up at my door
I've been trynna live a life
that's not so dependent
why am I missing
somebody who doesn't love me

why am I so dependent
I try to find some independence
I testify to my own image
my sights a lie
I'm very different

I like the silence of the night
but in due time comes horrid frights
not of what lies beyond no light
but of love that I might find

how hard is it for you to be honest
loves not a job but there's gonna be problems
It's gonna take time for both of us to blossom
but you didn't give a fuck
you went and loved another

other
it happened again
don't worry they're just a friend
but we used to be just friends
we both know how this will end

with both of you in your bed
with me back on my fucking meds
messages are left unread
words are left unsaid

baby please don't bother me
I've been trynna rest in peace
knocked me down with pedigree's 
treat me like your enemy
fuck me up and lie to me
I don't want you
I just need sobriety
from the scent of your perfume
take me home 
don't let me go
to please don't
show up at my door
I've been trynna live a life
that's not so dependent
why am I missing
somebody who doesn't love me

SOBRIETY (branwen)

(lyrics)

yeah I'm leaving 
for good but this time I'll let you know
why did you have to come back into my life?
I was doing really good
then you sent that text that night
can we give it another try? 
can we give it another try?

my heart is just eroding
blood in veins are frozen
nutrients amounts to none inside my chest are rodents
i used to be a person
but then i met you 
what you dont know about love is that it takes two

takes you to give me back
effort that you lacked
i was doing wonderful then you threw me on tracks
leaving me for dead
our story must end
cause if it carries on then we'll create wounds you cant mend

we both sleep alone
its better this way
wish that we did go 
and meet another day

im staring at your photo
I knew you'd never change
so I'm asking you like the rain to please go away

November (lostcage)

(ghostbxy)
I already know that were not gonna make it
You’ve been fucking around with them so shameless
You’re the reason why our love is tainted 
Do you think me dumb?
Do you think me brainless?

I’m always trying my best
But you’re lying 
Stabbing knives in my chest 
So I’ll go 

You're not different
You're just like them
Veins were filled with toxin
That's how you lured me in

You might be poison ivy with the way you go invite me into your Toxic life and its fucking constant fighting

Cause you don't want to admit the truth
Burning all that smells proof 
Ashes stay like scent infused
Clothing that I bought for you

Giving my all but you don't give a fuck
Breaking my bones while you're breaking my heart
Telling me that this is all my fault

(halfhearted)
You don't know what you do to me
I don't think you ever will
Remember that night
You said I won't drive
I've been behind the wheel
Crossing the lines that I said I won't cross
???
???
You walked out the door
Why it take you so long

And I'm stuck in my head with no mission
Remember in school I would get you detention
Used to fall asleep, now I'm up all night
I can't dream
This is for the kid that I was
Headphones on in the back of the bus
Can't feel shit cause a knife in my gut
Let me live girl, I've had enough

(ghostbxy)
I’m always trying my best
But you’re lying 
Stabbing knives in my chest 
So I’ll go

A Sorrowful Heart w/ halfhearted

i dont wanna feel this way
doctor can you please help me
every day the voice say
i can help you out my friend
come inside come right on in
let me make a concoction with an additive

i can make you feel better
come try my special sample
it only costs a lot
like a leg and a handful
are you full of rapid thoughts? 
do you feel like a landfill?
lemme give you pill after pill
be my damsel
in distress
you seem stressed
oh so tense
bit depressed
oh my my you're such a mess
congratulations, you're dependent
on me and my medicine

me and my medicine
feast on these sedatives
she isn't doing well
he needs another pill
we only wanna help
but it'll cost you everything you've got and everything you don't

i dont wanna feel this way
doctor can you please help me
every day the voice say
you will never be okay
you will never be okay
i can help you out my friend
come inside come right on in
let me make a concoction with an additive

let's take a step back to your past
i really wanna see how you react
when i mentioned dad, how'd you feel bout that?
did it feel like you were on thumbtacks
did you feel that like it was whiplash
if you did then we're on the right path

okay for this therapy session I've got an answer
I made this on my own step by step like a dancer
it'll help with trauma and more but it'll cost you
your life
your whole life belongs to 

me and my medicine
feast on these sedatives
she isn't doing well
he needs another pill
we only wanna help
but it'll cost you everything you've got and everything you don't

medicine (lovin)

I fall 
in love
way too 
way too much

I give 
my all
build me up just to watch me fall

I gave up way too fucking much
this music shit was taking off
before I smoked or took a shot
I sacrificed to give you all
wanted 
but all you wanted was him 
why be with me if your heart was with them

you been fucking up
mixing up your lies
I been fuckin up 
wasting all my time
deleted all your texts
do you think I'm blind
girl I know your kind

I found out the truth
that we are living a lie
a life that I built with what is left of my mind
you shouldn't of hid what is in need of the light
cause you ripped me in two and then you left me behind

your skins so radioactive
as you lay there on my mattress
the damage you do is passive
turn my flesh into grey ashes

do what you want to me
can't afford to mind it
I know I should leave
but I suffer with this virus
I really wanna be somebody strong enough to fight it
but I know me like no other so I'll stay in silence

you been fucking up
mixing up your lies
I been fuckin up 
wasting all my time
deleted all your texts
do you think I'm blind
girl I know your kind

I found out the truth
that we are living a lie
a life that I built with what is left of my mind
you shouldn't of hid what is in need of the light
cause you ripped me in two and then you left me behind

Flesh To Ash (Ushanka Boy)

you wrote a song about how i broke your heart
did you mention how you took me apart  
my names
my names frankenstein
i know i sound crazy
you a made up a story so that they would hate me
now no one knows
im just a monster their eyes
that goes by frankenstein

you told me that i was the love of your life
but did you just love controlling my whole life
you had trapped me in a hole
how could you be beautiful 
with such a cold soul
colder than my own

i was scattered pieces til you built me up
shouldve told me that i was just your frankenstein

you wrote a song about how i broke your heart
did you mention how you took me apart  
my names
my names frankenstein
i know i sound crazy
you a made up a story so that they would hate me
now no one knows
im just a monster their eyes
that goes by frankenstein

The Creature (michael harrison)

i wont last
push the gas
keep on goin hit the max
will i crash
hope i crash
smash the dash and break the glass

she dont want me 
she dont love me
she just dont wanna be lonely

she dont trust me
she dont know me
so im always feeling lonely

i wanna walk around the world to find some inner peace
i suffer in the sun, takin all my energy
leaving just the brittle bones to benefit all the growin seeds
i aint ever ask for help, dont expect that shit from me

fuck what i feel
numb that shit up with a pill huh
hands are shakin fast
why the fuck cant i stay still huh

i wanna kill 
these emotions 
are they real cause
what is their deal
i cant touch but i can feel them

yeah i am not okay
lose my temper way too often
i gotta lot of fucked up thoughts
you'll hardly see me talking
i dont want to be the person that they always watching
dig myself a grave and hop into a coffin

really young
but feelin old
feel these cracks up in my bones
heavy chest with 20 holes
dont tell me life is wonderful

i aint need nobody else
did this shit all by myself
i dont wanna burn in hell
but at this rate i might as well

fuck what i feel
numb that shit up with a pill huh
hands are shakin fast
why the fuck cant i stay still huh

i wanna kill 
these emotions 
are they real cause
what is their deal
i cant touch but i can feel them

Restart (Nvki)

lyrics

just shut the fuck up
you're making shit worse
losing my shit
like a long lost purse 
i make what i feel but i just feel worse
dissect my brain
why does it hurt

coughing up blood 
like the end is near
stains on my clothes
brand new cashmere 

they refuse to see you when you're at the lowest
why does it take a death to notice

im way too afraid to ever fall asleep
why am i only happy when im in a dream
i waste days and wishes hoping just to see
somebody real, beyond imagining

but fuck what i want and fuck what i need
im only human, you can watch bleed
bed sheets are now velvet red
more beauty found when im dead

im not who i want to be
im not alright, why cant i breathe

i hate my skin
please tear it off
ive worn it out its time is up
incapable of finding love
i doubt ill ever be enough

just shut the fuck up
you're making shit worse
losing my shit
like a long lost purse 
i make what i feel but i just feel worse
dissect my brain
why does it hurt

coughing up blood 
like the end is near
stains on my clothes
brand new cashmere 

they refuse to see you when you're at the lowest
why does it take a death to notice

cashmere (kuva)

Now tell me baby 
What's your name?
You got a man but that's okay
You don't got a boyfriend
Not today
You slapped my face
Oh girl touche

He's got a truck
I've got a van
He's got AC
I've got a fan
He's got a job
I sell contraband
But you fit perfect in my hand

I'm a douchebag
A real dipshit but you knew that
I ain't got shit but you knew that
yeah you knew that

I ain't the best one for you 
I've got some issues

I don't wanna fuck around and make you hate me
Why in the fuck I'd think you ever date me
You and your man seem rocky real lately
Hanging at my place, with me you find safety

Why in the fuck are you with him?
Is it the hair or the strong chin?
I shouldn't have to break my way in
You can't lead me on then not let me in

Oh I know
I need to be alone
Oh no I know
I need you as my home oh

Now tell me baby 
What's your name?
You got a man but that's okay
You don't got a boyfriend
Not today
You slapped my face
Oh girl touche

He's got a truck
I've got a van
He's got AC
I've got a fan
He's got a job
I sell contraband
But you fit perfect in my hand

Not Your Man

you dont want to fall in love
you want me to fall in love
with you again
with you again 

you dont want to fall in love
you want me to fall in love
with you again
with you again 

you watched me run in circles girl
you let me burn down my own world
i thought we'd rebuild something new
create a home, but then you

let me down
undergrownd
my heart sprout

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