The Shape of Memory

released Jan 26 2022
sold at C.E Shop Tokyo‬ ¥1,000
streaming on cavempt.com

Cav Empt Cassette

Words by Nick (@nickboydnyc ) about this sonic memory:


"Memory for me is a tricky thing — a soup of emotion made of endless parts both real and imagined. This mix is a rumination on a theme found in my memory — hot pavement in the August sun, nutcrackers and backyard partying, sweating out an edible on the subway headed north, a handful of balloons let loose on a rooftop, and an accidental overload of research chemicals. Red White Blue and Green. White t-shirt and shorts, stoned to the bone, setting sun stuff."



Tracklist:

The Jackofficers - Time Machines Pt. 2 [Rough Trade - RUS 100-1, 1990]
Jimmy “Bo” Horne - Is It In (Acappella) 
La Batterie - Let There Be Drums
Maurice Fulton Presents... Boof - We
Maceo & The Macks - Soul Power '74
Ben Liebrand - I Wish (The Wishfull 12'' Mix)
Todd Terje - Love The One You're With
Don Pablo's Animals - Ibiza III (California Edit)
Prince And The New Power Generation - Do Your Dance (Housebangers) 
Don Pablo's Animals - Paranoia
Native Red - Fade (Native Red Edit)
Yello - Pumping Velvet (Extended Dance Version)
Rebel MC, Double Trouble - Street Tuff (Scar Mix)
Steve Poindexter - Destiny
Montell Jordan - This Is How We Do It (Tee's Freeze)
Full Swing - Freestyle Groove
Kitachi - Heavyweight (Knock Out Dub)
Don Pablo's Animals - Venus (Bonus Mix)
Fast Eddie - Doggy Style (Todd Terry Freeze Mix)
Michael Jackson / Kane West - Remember the Time (Kane West Remix)
The Flirts - New Toy (Another Version)

ghunghru 062 // Nick Boyd / The Shape of Memory

A poem by Kozha (@kozha666) on this sonic memory:



"FREEDOM MEMORY"

I tried to smell the poison of leaving but
Tipped my toes in the ocean of pathways
Outside of the place with a name
I could never remember

It poured all over me

Once my eyelid butterflies scared escaped
And left a map on my skin
Borders are scars left after burns
I’m positive nobody
Will love it if I do it like this

I was crying in curses
On my first flight to New York
On everyone and everything
That made me believe,
Jump out of chains
Only to grow
A fresh pair of feet

Will this dress ever fit me
as well as it fits all desires
in the circle of shape and hope
need to summon dexterous tailors
as many as              there are eyes
in my head

We most definitely have license
“freedom to behave as one wishes,
especially in a way that results in excessive or unacceptable behavior”
Together
When one isn’t a singular
Imposition of shame

No barred doors
For hopelessly genuine hearts




Tracklist:

Robert Görl -- Psychoring
Jay Denham -- Growth + Development
Danny Wabbit -- Eternity
Zvrra -- Illuminance I
Maara -- Miss Sweetie's Inferno
Kisikililake, Huffy fibryyx -- 2. Girls just wanna have fun (ℭ𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔦𝔰 𝔡𝔦𝔰𝔰)
Niamiha -- Echo Generation
CucaRafa -- Reservado
DJ BAD POETRY -- DISCO TABBÉL 2
KMS -- Chandelier
Umek -- Darvaaren
Rene Wise -- Wolf
u.r.trax -- Br0ken
David Haze -- City of Dis
Terminus -- Spoken Violence
Newa -- My Sickness Bassiani
Scan 7 -- ReThinkable Frequencies
WTCHCRFT -- Buildings Have Feelings Too
PHANTAZN -- TRACK ASSAULT
Altinbas x Cirkle -- Shagohod
Strktur -- Pacific Drift
Devoye -- Belt
Sean Deason -- The Shit (Rennie Foster Alternative Mix)

ghunghru 063 // Kozha / The Shape of Memory

Words by Toph (@t_o_p_h) about his sonic memory:

When I was thinking about this mix, my mind went to my iTunes/Apple Music library, which I’ve used actively since 2006, almost half my life. I remember sitting in a Los Angeles apartment back then, ripping CDs, rating the tracks I felt something for.

Now, scrolling back through songs I’ve loved feels like spinning a radio dial across my life, scanning through flashbulb memories. The music transports me to the state of mind I was in when I listened, however many years ago, but with the added perspective you get from seeing those moments concertina’d up. I can make out the shape of narrative arcs; follow threads that I thought in the moment I had lost; see where I was and know where I would go.

I tried to recreate that feeling with this mix: drawing tracks from across the span of my music library, outlining an emotional current that ebbs and flows through the music I resonate with. It’s tough to put into words (thankfully easier to put into a mix). It’s a sonic representation of an emotional journey that I’m still on. Sometimes I feel like it’s hard to know myself clearly, but I shouldn’t feel that way. I know my innermost self well, and maybe the journey is learning to trust that more.




Tracklist: 

Nsi. — 23. // Massive Attack — Teardrop // Portishead — Roads // The Octopus Project — Rorol // Goldfrapp — Utopia // Boards of Canada — Telephasic Workshop // Tori Amos — Datura // Kate Bush — The Sensual World (Instrumental Mix) // Kate Bush — The Sensual World // James Holden — Blackpool Late Eighties // Loscil — Ahull // Robyn — Honey // Octo Octa — Who I Will Become // Holy Other — Inpouring // Christopher Willits — Ground // Global Communication — 5:23 // Djrum — Blue Violet // LSDXOXO — HATESHOPPING // Octo Octa — Can You See Me? // Violet — Psyche // George Morel — Feel It (The Sound Factory Mix) // Jake Wiltshire — It's Alright // Brian Eno — The Big Ship // Max Richter — In Louisville at 7 // Scott Grooves — 3

Mixes

Ghunghru 063 // Toph / The Shape of Memory

My set in full from New Year's Nonstop 2024. Image credit to Amar Patel. Mastering detail by @milesmercer.

Dedicated to the people of Palestine
& all Nowadays staff.

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Live @ Nowadays // New Year's Nonstop - Jan 1 2024

FAUZIA is an artist of many moods. The UK talent moves from IDM to soul on her NTS Radio residency, while her club DJ sets reveal her love for '90s-style breaks, electro and bass-heavy sounds. In the studio, she explores her softer side through self-released homespun dub and ambient jungle.

In recent years, she's gravitated towards live performances. Her gossamer vocals, one of her strongest suits, cuts through live instrumentation like a hummingbird in agile flight. In 2020, the London-based talent told Mixmag that she was done being categorised as a "dance music" artist—and so far, she's succeeded. While she incorporates clubby touchstones into her work, there's a deep level of cross-genre knowledge and blending at play.

FAUZIA's RA podcast makes that clear. Free of any four-to-the-floor music, it moves from experimental jazz to orchestral melodies to R&B ballads for a thoughtful and introspective journey full of her own unreleased music that points towards her newer interest in composition. This is music to be felt, so let your guard down and let it wash over you.

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Words by Ceci (@ccl-url): 

"Special thanks to Steevio & Suzybee & all the volunteers, workers & dancers 💙

This is my recording from Friday night Room 2, 12:30-2am, my first time being at the mythical Free Rotation. Playing one of the first sets & seeing the room, decor and the big bad subs of Room 2, years of fantastical lore and reality melded, I wanted to keep it sexy, wonky, trippy— imagining a psychic electric swamp and how one would levitate thru it... to the sky. No bpm trickery this time. Out to the heavenly bodies of the universe! ;)

Mastered by Wordcolour"


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Salted Rims with Brooks @ The Lot Radio 12-19-2024

drawing from her bay-area roots, Eugenia brings one hour of shimmering half-time warmth -- think sunlight traveling on water, visible perturbations of a summer fog. 

Eugenia is the mind behind ambient-centered mix series The Shape of Memory, and co-curator of local psy-forward DIY rave Recess. 

https://www.instagram.com/___.eugenia
https://soundcloud.com/eugeniadj

Eugenia @ The Lot Radio 01-24-2025

My set (with crowd noise) from the Grove Saturday Night 1-3am, after Djrum, before Identified Patient. 

Out to all the sexy witches of the forest, thank you to everytone there + entire crew @sustain-release-nyc :)

<3 Mastered by the best @wordcolour

CCL @ Sustain-Release Year Ten

Words by Eugenia about this sonic memory: 

In this episode, I reflect a moment I had last summer, late August. I was sitting with a new friend, up on a raised wooden platform late at night, the second day of Waking Life. We had talked at length, having just begun to understand the ebbs and flows of each other’s minds. I told them that lately I had been holding onto moments of unresolved conflict, of goodbyes that felt rushed, or pains of others I was unable to heal. I was carrying the weight of these small, broken up moments which had accumulated over time.

A thick, dreamlike fog rolled in front of us, as we sat, holding each other tightly, It suddenly parted, revealing the outlines of graceful figures moving towards us in the distance. This vision coincided with a moment of precise clarity: I noticed my idealistic need for harmony in every moment; at the influx of this realization, I began to accept and lean into the dissonance that repeats itself, in spite of this desire. I tried to forgive myself for the lack of closure of past connections, the loose ends.

I realize I felt this because I deeply cared about each moment, and this is natural, human, and essential to who I am. The anxiety and subtle shards of pain I had been clutching in my chest for so long burst out of me, leaving me transparent, spacious, and light. I was filled with gratitude to have had the possibility to be heard, and seen, in this realization, by a person who I felt intrinsically understood me.

In this first transmission, I wished to guide listeners through a moment I experienced in which a long-existing emotional weight left me, feeling swept away by the space around me. Through this, the previously hazy details of my inner self came into my field of vision.

tracklist // Deepchord - Rooftop // Lawrence - Floating // Sonmi451 - Rienza // Conforce - Desolate Ground // Function - Ember (Field) // Kettel - Electrician and the Adventurer // Sa Pa - Epiphanic // Loscil - Black Tusk // Autechre - Brochusevenmx // Taylor Deupree - Thaw // Sigha - Light Swells (In a Distant Space) // Aleksi Perala - GBBVT1337122 // SND - 9 // Ciò D’Or - Ur // Sollman / Gurtler - Watte (efdemin version)

ghunghru 023 // eugenia / The Shape of Memory

by @avsluta, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

"We stood together facing the horizon. In front of us, a giant. A massif that is something of a hill and a
something of a mountain and the Moon has just gently spilled the first of its glow over its spine. We
walked together and inside, a feeling of gratitude and love was expanding. We shared this journey.
Alone. Together. As I lay down to face the sparkling sky, I feel your presence with me when you left
my side and ventured to explore. This human presence transformed into something cosmic. I float in
my inner space, gathering music from the air into my innermostness. The world folds itself on my body,
on my mind, on my soul - and everything is one. From the abyss within come bubbling out energies I
seem to know, existing on a different plane of consciousness. These are artefacts of ancient female
wisdom which I hold within and finally can reach. I feel fertile, pregnant with my own reality. The
reality that is constantly in flux, always emerging. Pulsating in transformation, giving birth to
someone other and yet so familiar, I come into being."

TRACKLIST:
Kazuya Nagaya - Wolfman's Dream
Neel - Life on Laputa Regio
Ancestral Voices - Forn Sidr
Biosphere - Poa Alpina
Geir Jenssen & Pete Namlook - A Way To Focus The Mind
Max Würden - Wirkungsgrad
Acronym & Korridor - Sscending
Vril - Eos
Lena Deen - Dorsal
Bobby Cazanova - Fallin'
Akis - Christmas (Bartosz Kruczynski Remix)

ghunghru 035 // avsluta / The Shape of Memory

by @penumbra_0, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

In the shimmering sunlight the city was a transparent lake, but as the sun crept down the city dissolved into a veiling grey horizon. I remember the faint remoteness as I stared out to my hometown of Los Angeles. I had recently moved back home and had expected for the rush of nostalgia to bloom into a previous self. However, there was instead a stillness that seemed to be waiting for something. The rolling hills before me arched up and down but only seemed to descend. The moments that followed dilated around me and I took solace in knowing that I was truly happy again.

This progression of music tries to embody the slowed and slurred first moments of my days rediscovering Los Angeles and the unintentional ebb and sway of finding myself again. A gradually looping state of lethargy breaks out into its own speed and dance.

Tracklist:
96 Back - Ambient Banger
Andres Zacco - Leit
Loscil - Lucy Dub
Ocio - No es para palabras escritas
JFC - Strange New World
Pontiac Streator - transier unt
Vibert & Simmonds - Knaim’n’No
Aleksi Perälä - UK74R1514210
Piezo - A Touch Of
Kinesthesia - Sanq (Autechre mix)
Desert Sound Colony - Aunt Wendy’s Wedding in Wales (Instrumental)
Simo Cell - Storm Steven
Mohlao - Amber
Mathis Ruffing - Bismuth
XY0815 - Tool Matter
Aleksi Perälä - UK74R1514120
Onsy - Cutoff V3
B12 - Gimp
Ura - Entertainment
Jimmy Edgar - Wanna Do It
Nautiluss - WiFi Oasis
Leif - Igam-Ogam
Mark - Incantation For The Protection Of JC
Aleksi Perälä - NL-L56-18-07385
Brainwaltzera - 17 Acetonia (Au Pied de Cochon Aescoba)
D. Tiffany - AK
Martsman - Static
Loop LF - Always NV (Martsman remix)
SUDS - Sad and Done
PlatEAU - Three Years

ghunghru 036 // penumbra / The Shape of Memory

by @hi-vis-dj, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

Hi Vis - The Shape of Memory:
 
awake in an empty room
hidden by leaves, forest cover
limitless plateau, endless horizon
drifting in the ocean at night
everywhere, nowhere, here at once
-- -- -- -- —
Track List:
Best Available Technology - Gold (Working Nights)
Page - Reef (c-)
France Jobin - inertia (Editions Mego)
Jay Bernheim - Contact Flight (Light of Other Days)
Biosphere - Arafura (Biophon)
J. Albert - Amygdala (Bandcamp self-released)
Jon Hassell - Dreaming (Ndeya)
Space Afrika - more than (Bandcamp self-released)
Mura Oka - 990933 (Latency)
Ñenado - We Turn Into Planets (Astro:dynamics)
Koriand’r - Acrylic Pour (Reserve Matinee)
Galcher Lustwerk - Left in the Dark (Ghostly)
Pascäal - Duppy Wrist / Trilobite (forthcoming Dreamtone)
The Detroit Escalator Co. - The Inverted Man Falling (Peacefrog)

ghunghru 038 // hi-vis / The Shape of Memory

by @eroooos, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

as we become temporally removed from moments in life, our memories of these events fade. details morph and evaporate, the once-vivid colors, sounds, and experiences increasingly washed out and out of reach. is that conversation or that dance truly remembered? or is it an unconscious invention of the mind intended to maintain a ‘complete’ memory?
this human capacity to misremember and to subconsciously reinvent memories has long enthralled me, and this mix is an exploration of such phenomena. rooted in three environments i inhabited two summers past – the parks in and around berlin, my flat in moabit, and late-night u-bahn rides to and from dancefloors – this assortment of tracks aims to encapsulate both my concrete recollections and my hazy half-notions of the events that transpired therein. imbued (i hope) with an awareness of the mystery of misremembrance, it is an ode to the people and places that made that summer so formative and liberating.

Tracklist:
kaiji - よしの
tetsu inoue - invitable colour
low flung - dust on water
rosy parlane - versa
michel redolfi - too much sky
kara-lis coverdale & lxv - grigori in jakarta
porn sword tobacco - untitled
andrew pekler - description of rain
topdown dialectic - a4
ben bondy - saline drip
dettinger - untitled
hidden valley logging company - 2,000ft
downstairs j - 4 seater
pontiac streator - tuscany
aleksi perälä - uk74r1409137
terre thaemlitz - trucker
de leon - 02
dj python - sbloq
fischerle & persuasion - haiop
juneunit - enwm
2lanes - midwest splendor

ghunghru 040 // eros / The Shape of Memory

by @tape-ghost, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

When I was 11, my dad and I took a summer road trip through Idaho and Montana.
While driving through the mountains, we came to such an elevation that even in the
middle of July, a snowfall began. We stopped the truck at a small lake along the road
as the large flakes gracefully descended. From here, we watched as the snow landed
and evaporated into a thin mist resting on the surface of the water - transfixed by the
strangeness and stillness of the moment. As I journey back through memory, I am
transported to a vision of him standing by the water, camera in hand, quietly observing
the moment.

“When you approach something to photograph it, first be still with yourself until the
object of your attention affirms your presence. Then don't leave until you have
captured its essence.”
― Minor White


Artwork by Will Hamiton
Tracklist:
Loon and Bugling Elk - Yellowstone National Park Public Audio Archive
Yellow-Flowered - Echium
Peacock’s Tail - Jake Muir
Kaleidoscope - Christina Giannone
New World Order - Markus Guentner
for voice - Sarah Davachi
April (book, shuro brush) - Taylor Deupree
Blue.Shift - Yann Novak
Isolated From the Land - Acronym
Ulottuvuus - Pan Sonic
Ilta - ø (Mika Vainio)
Room With a View - Sa Pa
Conclusione - Anna Caragnano & Donato Dozzy
Lotus Leaves - Deepchord
Frisland (Dub) - Andrew Pekler
Bucaneve - Chris Watson
Elegy For Beach Friday - Bee Mask
Movement.1 - Ryuichi Sakamoto, Illuha, Taylor Deupree
Your Privilege of Remembering - Forest Management

ghunghru 041 // tape ghost / The Shape of Memory

www.ghunghru.fm
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bi-monthly on Boxoutfm
experimental label / radio show / curatorial project by founder @modularprincess & resident @eeeeeeeugenia

SF / Delhi

a space where sound is sound, without needing to be music. 
a space where we promote all audible oddities, in fact, encourage.
a space where we focus on the whole.
a space where time isn’t measured.
a space where no structure is okay. 
a space where silence is accepted.
a space where active listeners flourish.
a space where sounds that normally don’t get heard, get heard.
a space for intellectual physical emotional spiritual analysis of sounds that excite you. 
a space for you to be weird about what you find sonically beautiful.
a space for you to play all the groovy rhythms you want, if you want. 
a space for you to play all the ambient drones you want, if you want.
a space for you to play all the hair standing unexpected glitch you want, if you want. 
a space for you to play none of the things that are expected.
a space for traditional world sounds, in an untraditional manner. 
a space for comfort in discomfort. 
a space for not just sounds, but also words, poetry, whispers and voice.

ghunghru 023 // eugenia / The Shape of Memory

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