There's Not Much To Know About Me

Baby Hoop Earrings

I Hate It Here

It's All Mental

Chorus:
The truth is ugly, I don’t like it
It’s like being back in high school looking in a mirror
The truth is ugly, but I don’t mind it
And as I get a little older I can see things clearer
And I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to
Yeah I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to

Verse 1:
Just to get it off my chest
I know that when you knew me I wasn’t my best
I just wanna put my past life to rest
I just wanna put my past life to rest
‘Cause I was always unsure
Always insecure
Always immature
Always wanting more out of you
I always wanted more out of you 
And I'm sorry about that

Pre-Chorus:
I put a lot of pressure on us
I wanted to get better, honest
But I didn’t know how to
I didn’t know how to
And I know I had issues plenty 
But I hope you don’t resent me
But it’s okay if you do

Chorus:
The truth is ugly, I don’t like it
It’s like being back in high school looking in a mirror
The truth is ugly, but I don’t mind it
And as I get a little older I can see things clearer
And I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to
Yeah I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to

Verse 2:
Just so I can let you know
That I never really meant to let you go
I'm glad you’ve taken this time to grow
I'm glad you’ve taken this time to grow, oh
‘Cause I’ve done the same thing too
If only you knew
If only I grew
Back when I still had you
Back when I still had you
I’m sorry about that

Pre-Chorus:
I put a lot of pressure on us
I wanted to get better, honest
But I didn’t know how to
I didn’t know how to
And I know I had issues plenty 
But I hope you don’t resent me
But it’s okay if you do

Chorus:
The truth is ugly, I don’t like it
It’s like being back in high school looking in a mirror
The truth is ugly, but I don’t mind it
And as I get a little older I can see things clearer
And I know that I don’t have to apologize to you
But I kinda want to

the truth is ugly

Verse 1:
I used to see in color
I used to love my lover
I used to be off my face like all the time
I never learned my lessons 
Too high to pay attention
I used to be off my face like all the time

Chorus:
But everything is gray now 
Everything is boring
Sleep during the day now
You call, I ignore it
Everything is gray now
Everything is gray now
Now I hardly laugh
Barely even cry
Living in the past
Just to pass the time
‘Cause everything is gray now
Think I’m on the comedown

Verse 2:
I painted pretty pictures
Before the roses withered
I used to be off my face like all the time

Chorus:
But everything is gray now 
Everything is boring
Sleep during the day now
You call, I ignore it
Everything is gray now
Everything is gray now
Now I hardly laugh
Barely even cry
Living in the past
Just to pass the time
‘Cause everything is gray now
Think I’m on the comedown

Bridge:
Now I live off memories
Reality is dead to me 
Yeah, I don’t want it 
I don’t want it
Now I live off memories
Reality is dead to me 
Yeah, I don’t want it 
I don’t want it
Everything is gray now
Think I’m on the comedown

the comedown

Verse 1:
What is it exactly 
Eating away at you?
Tell us all what’s happening 
‘Cause you try to play it cool 
But I can tell your broken up about
Shit that you can’t open up about 
You don’t know who’s safe to make sacred 
So take it from me

Chorus:
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone who wants it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

Verse 2:
What is it exactly 
Eating away at you?
The love made you happy 
Just not who you gave it to 
But I don’t think anyone’s good enough for you if I'm truthful 
So take it from me

Chorus:
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone who wants it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

Bridge:
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
We always fall for it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

false prophets

Verse 1:
Fuck your smile, I love it
Fuck your face and your laugh
Shoved my head in the oven
Thought I might find you in the back
But you weren’t there 
Now I’ve got ash on my lips and in my hair
Can’t you leave some air in the room for the rest of us
Your ex-girlfriend ruined you but it happens to the best of us
And that part’s the worst of all
Is the damage irreversible?

Chorus:
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
But I let my mind run in circles
I let it chase after you
Like a dog racing at it’s own tail
I fight for what I know will fail
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
But I let my mind run in circles
I let it chase after you

Verse 2:
And I’ll keep chasing
Your cheap validation
‘Til my head hits the pavement
And I crack my skull wide open
Maybe then all this emotion
Will leak it’s way out of my head 
It’s disgusting how you make me crash and burn
Has anybody ever told you that you’re a bitch of a lesson to learn?
Has anybody ever told you that you’re a bitch of a lesson to learn?

Chorus:
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
Your comedown’s worse than molly’s 
What kind of fucked up drug are-
Your comedown’s worse than molly’s 
What kind of fucked up drug are you

Outro:
You hit hard, you hit fast
Edges sharp like broken glass
You told me your blade was dull
So why do I bleed desire?
I carry on, keep my cool
Funny how we’re both liars

i don't think you want me

Chorus:
I need a sign or something
A cigarette or a psychiatrist
And I could swear to you that I’m not usually like this
But I would only sound self-righteous
And it’s a lie
To make you more comfortable 
And to make me more palatable 
God forbid I’m infallible 
Or just someone you don’t like 

Verse 1:
Do I reek of desperation?
Can you smell it on me?
I’m not good with confrontation
Can’t you tell I’m sorry?
Do I reek of desperation?
Can you smell it on me?
I’m not good with confrontation
Can’t you tell I’m sorry?
Do I seem a little paranoid?
Yeah, can you sense it?
‘Cause I can’t tell whether you’re annoyed
Or apprehensive 

I need a sign or something
I need a sign or something
I need a sign or something (something)
I need a sign or something (something)

Bridge:
Oh, I need the clouds to part, or the sun to freeze
I need Jesus Christ himself to please 
Just put my pretty head at ease 
Oh, just put my pretty head at ease
I need the clouds to part, or pills to take
Or maybe I just need a break
I don’t know why the real world feels so fake
Chorus:
I need a sign or something
A cigarette or a psychiatrist
And I could swear to you that I’m not usually like this
But I would only sound self-righteous
And it’s a lie

i need a sign (or something)

lyrics:
oh, i wish i could write you 
but i'm a shit friend 
plus, i lost all my pens
i think i bled them dry
or i left them at the library
i'm lying through my teeth but
have some pity on me, pretty please, oh

i don't need forgiveness
only understanding 
lately i've been living 
on another planet
and i can't hear you all the way from earth
your messages i'm declining 
'cause i can't stand my climate
yeah, i can't hear you all the way from earth
there's too many rules to follow
too many pills to swallow

i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding, input noted
i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding, input noted
you call the professionals and i'll call myself a...
i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding
as my whole system is overloading, input noted
you call the professionals and i'll call myself a poet

they told me to love myself and i think i do
but i'm not sure if i like her and i wonder if i even want to 
but now i'm just rambling
i don't need forgiveness 
i don't need forgiveness

oh, i wish i could write you 
but i'm a shit friend 
yeah, i'm such a shit friend
prisoner of my own mind and the guards don't take well to fighters
so i sit and spread wider
prisoner of my own mind, what crime we're guilty of
try to find out and you're a lifer

thy kingdom come, thy will be done
they say god absolves all of his sons
but i'm not too demanding
i don't need forgiveness
only understanding

only understanding

lyrics:
say your final goodbye and make it a nice one
i’m not the guy that you should be taking advice from
i’ll just tell you to run as fast as you can
tell yourself and everyone else you’re a new man

but the mask always slips
and the seams start to rip 
and then gravity flips 
and the grip that you have on reality loosens 
you dance with delusion
it’s hands on your hips
but the mask always slips 
yeah, the science is proven
it’s past life pollution

and i can’t breathe right
the smog is streamlined
but it's easier to tell you that it feels fine
and i can’t breathe right
the smog is streamlined
i can’t tell if this is all a dream or real life

trial by fire
check my file and vitals 
pour my blood in your vials
tell me what you find
trial by fire
homicidal desires
who’s responsible for fucking me up this time?
who’s responsible for fucking me up this time?

problems disguised as the solution
i need another new thing to ruin
problems disguised as the solution
i need another new thing to ruin
hard proof that i’m human
past life pollution
past life pollution

past life pollution

The Pieces

&i think i just felt the simulation glitch

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