and now i'm contemplating distances, no i can't take that from you

and i don't mean to be a pessimist but i can't help but call you

i know you been outside on your own but i can't help myself but fall for you

i'm thinking like a lost a screw, yuh

and i don't know x6

this song is all midi guitar

that's one way to make me feel alone
i won't change until i've found my hope
give me a break (break!)
search for my answers, still at the first stage
i won't break unless they make me change

where does pain come from?
is it you or all the deep cuts
you'll forget me soon, so what
is it me or did you move on 
just to leave me in the dust
i've dug myself into this hole
it's in my head out of control
afraid of death but you killed my soul

one day, i'll stop caring about them
if i knew how to stop i would
my mom asked me "look what you've become"
but she's misunderstood
i'm passing by without a goal
no reason to keep my control
this fucking mental takes its toll

where does pain come from?
is it you or all the deep cuts
you'll forget me soon, so what
is it me or did you move on 
just to leave me in the dust
i've dug myself into this hole
it's in my head out of control
afraid of death but you killed my soul

deep cuts

when ur back home
i promise i wont let go again
i wrote a sad song
just for u to never hear it
if i could cut open
with all the pain that comes with it
would that teach u how much i need u

ive been trying to change
but im stuck in my old ways
those things ive been dying to say
i cant say cause your away
cant make it to the end of the day
without feeling a bittersweet taste
dont have time to make that change
clocks ticking im running late

bittersweet

D Standard

we had these wings
and we would always soar up and fly
take a leap
tell me what you see
we kept going fueled by nothing
for a moment, i was you

here i thought
if i flew
you would be there for me waiting
fall face flat
on asphalt
don't move away, just be patient
we wanna be king of
something larger than life in a scripture
if i gave you a decade to choose
in the end you'd make the same decision again
so know yourself

i don't know why i was so afraid of asking
don't be that way, i can't leave yet there's no time

let's be nothing for a moment
let's pretend like we don't know 
sheepish self don't you see 
there's a whole world beyond me
and i know i'll find you back

nothing for a moment

i sat
perfectly still
unable to move
unable to tell you how i feel
secrets weren't always there
in a perfect world
maybe then we'd have nothing to hide

don't turn your gears around me
cause i can tell just what you're thinking
oh you're my favorite subject
and when you talk I'll always listen
close enough
we've got close enough
i won't go anywhere at all

i keep holding onto these coffee stained pages
post-it memories
stared at until i couldn't see
i want a new family
someone i could the blame on
to make me feel at ease
to make it easier to sleep

oh you've been hearing that i've been going bad
and my ideas they didn't work as planned
and everything it happens all the time
life threw a bone at a dog i threw away the chance
and i know humans, they love to make mistakes
and i know humans, they hold your arms and dance
and i know humans, they make you so confused
i wanna know how human you can really get, you can really get

don't turn your gears around me
cause i can tell just what you're thinking
oh you're my favorite subject
so when you talk, i'll always listen
close enough
we've got close enough
i won't go anywhere at all

anywhere, where
where, where (because I'll take you anywhere i want right now and you'll just follow me)
follow me

only human / anywhere at all

all by me
april 2025

i fell asleep into the next week
you couldn’t stitch me together, i lost my teeth
it makes my throat hurt when i say nothing
i miss when the silence didn’t sound like me

leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
this key doesn’t fit anymore and the door looks wrong
leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
your voice sounds so much worse when it’s in my phone

i wanna fall in love again even if it kills me like the last time did
i wanna fall in love again even if it drains me ‘til there’s nothing left

just call me again if it ever gets that bad
but i forget how to talk when you tell me not to laugh
i lose so much sleep when i try to trace those cracks
like maybe it’ll spell out everything i wish i had

Like the last time

Tkey vs. Tony

Life Of A Real Ni**a

my bad (bycian)

song from february 2025 written in december 2024
i think i'll use this account to post throwaway songs

even if it kills me

yeah

always cold

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headphones recommended

my bad (bycian)

l3n