So toxic, toxic to me
Toxic, toxic to me
But I want you, endlessly
So toxic, toxic to me
Toxic, toxic to me
You're my drug and you're under my skin

Spinning ‘round and ‘round again
Your name’s a burn inside my head
I touch your skin — i lose control
You pull me in, you take it all
You’re danger, babe, and i crave the kill
Your love hurts, but I need the thrill
You're in my lungs, you're in my bones
You call me yours, i call you home

So toxic, toxic to me
Toxic, toxic to me
But I want you, endlessly
You're my drug and you're under my skin


So toxic, toxic to me
I can’t breathe, but I love the sin
So toxic, toxic to me
Toxic, toxic to me
You're my drug and you're under my skin...

toxic

so obsessed with your touch
can’t breathe, I need that rush
baby, this ain’t love
this a sickness ( sickness )
so obsessed with your lips
every kiss like apocalypse (apocalypse)
if you go, I won’t exist
I need my fix — I need this

you say you're closed off — but you’re naked right now (oh my god)
I don’t know if we’ll make it past the dawn somehow
you did too much, too much — it’s a setup
and now I’m not sure if it’s even you I mess up
heartbeat glitching when you’re gone
we both know this drug too strong
one second alone — I die slow

tried to quit you
tried to hate you
but the withdrawals feel like death

so obsessed with your touch
can’t breathe, I need that rush
baby, this ain’t love
this a sickness (sickness)
so obsessed with your lips
every kiss like apocalypse(apocalypse)
if you go, I won’t exist
I need my fix — I need this

obsessed alternative

you don’t even know(you don’t even know)
what i gave up to make this(what i gave up to make this)
you thought i was fine(you thought i was fine)
because i said nothing(because i said nothing)

but i was giving it all...
and you were watching...
like it meant nothing...
like i meant nothing...

all u want — made by me(made by me)
all u want — came from me(came from me)
all u want — bled out of me(led out of me)
and you don’t even want it(don’t even want it)

you just let me keep giving...
until there was nothing left...

and now you say...
"you never told me how you felt"...

but i did(but i did)
just not in the way you wanted(the way you wanted)
not in the words you like(the words you like)

forgave things you never said sorry for...

you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...


you call this nothing?

why does love feel like a suicide trial?
(suicide… trial…)
how long can love feel like drowning?
(how long… drowning… drowning…)
how deep ‘til I stop breathing?
(stop… stop breathing…)
I thought you'd save me, but you tied the stone
(stone… pull me down…)
you said “forever” in a whisper
(forever… forever…)
then vanished
in the rain
(rain… rain… gone…)
I still wait
in the same place
(same place… still wait…)

why does love feel like a suicide trial?
(suicide… trial…)
how long can love feel like drowning?
(how long… drowning… drowning…)
how deep ‘til I stop breathing?
(stop… stop breathing…)
I thought you'd save me, but you tied the stone
(stone… pull me down…)

how do I breathe
when I’m buried alive?
how do I dream
if you took my sky?

suicide trial

Thirst for you, it’s eating me alive (eating me alive)
I taste your skin and I feel revived
You said you’re scared — but you still let me bite(let me bite)
Baby, give it all, I need it just tonight...
I don’t want your love, I want your veins(I want your veins)
I wanna feel your pulse run through my brain
Drain you slow, I’ll take my time
Cause I’m a monster, and you’re all mine(and you’re all mine)

Thirst for you, it’s eating me alive (eating me alive)
I taste your skin and I feel revived
You said you’re scared — but you still let me bite(let me bite)
Baby, give it all, I need it just tonight
I don’t want your love, I want your veins(I want your veins)
I wanna feel your pulse run through my brain
Drain you slow, I’ll take my time
Cause I’m a monster, and you’re all mine(and you’re all mine)

everyone’s fake and it drives me insane(everyone’s fake and it drives me insane)
cut my trust I don’t want to feel like this(cut my trust I don’t want to feel like this)
rage
I’m a storm behind this face(I’m a storm behind this face)
rage
don’t hug me when I’m like this(don’t hug me when I’m like this)
rage
I’m my own worst enemy(I’m my own worst enemy)
rage
I hate myself for being me(I hate myself for being me)
I’m wrong, I’m wrong — too wrong to be(I’m wrong, I’m wrong — too wrong to be)
rage
I wear my shame like second skin(I wear my shame like second skin)
rage
I break myself — just to fit in(I break myself — just to fit in)

rage
(people say "just be yourself"
what could they know
I wish I could reboot my mind
or leave this body behind)

rage
I tried to love what I've become(I tried to love what I've become)
but even love forgot my name...
rage
I kill myself so silently(I kill myself so silently)
I'm too wrong to ever feel(to feel...)

rage

i remember those years in school
the first time i saw you on stage, something in me stopped moving
you smiled like you didn’t know everyone was already looking at you
my friends said the same — that you had this softness
something in your eyes, something that made us all want to be near

i still think about the way your hair moved when you laughed
how your cheeks looked like they were meant to be held for a second
you always seemed surprised when people liked you
but how could we not
you were kind, even when no one deserved it

i don’t know if you ever loved me, not really
but thank you for letting me be there
thank you for not pushing me away when you could have
thank you for giving someone like me that small moment
it was enough
more than i deserved

schooluv (alternative)

i still have that camera with us
still those shots
nostalgia, do you remember?

we danced barefoot by the lake
your hair stuck to your face
we stole candy from that store
and kissed under the fire escape


rewind, i miss those days
this track was never just a choice
it played when you first said my name
and everything started to change

do you remember?...
remember?...

do you still remember?(remember?)
video from your birthday(birthday)
you said "forever" in the moonlight(moonlight)
i play it every time(play it every time)
they say memories fade with age...
i wish i could go back to that time...

nostalgia

schooluv

Midnight air and your voice in my head(voice in my head)
Replay the words that you never said( you never said)
I know your eyes are searching for the door( for the door)
But I’m still hoping you'd want me more( want me more)

You said you’re not what I deserve(but what i deserve?)

Just for now, can you hold me like it's real?( like it's real?)
Even if it's fake, I just wanna feel(wanna feel)
I know you’re leaving, but don’t tell me how(don’t tell me how)
I don’t need forever, just for now( just for now)
Just for now, keep your hand in mine(Just for now)
Even if we’re broken, say we’re fine(say we’re fine)
We don’t gotta make it out somehow(out somehow)
I don’t need forever — just for now(just for now)

just for now....
just for now....

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