left behind - SARM? x yuusef

Production by Saint Mike
Vocals & Lyrics by Me
- another blow to the heart again
- why do I do this to myself
- swimming up stream to get some air
- sometimes I wish I would just choke
- yearning for dreamscapes it isn’t fair
- I don’t know what is real
- the more I reach out, seems nothings there
- but still it won’t conclude 

- the minutes the moments, the seconds go by
- it’s still living rent free in my mind
- I drown it all out, pouring into myself
- I love me but I’m so fucking lonley 

- But why was it you
- And not someone else
- I’m dragging my feet
- through some made up hell
- I wish I could speak to my past self
- And tell her to never hit you up again

- new faces come by but I compare
- them to what I saw in you
- trying to fit a circle with a square
- it will never make a two

- the minutes the moments, the seconds go by
- it’s still living rent free in my mind
- I drown it all out, pouring into myself
- I love me but I’m so fucking lonley 

- But why was it you
- And not someone else
- I’m dragging my feet
- through some made up hell
- I wish I could speak to my past self
- And tell her to never hit you up again

- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out
- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out
- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out


#grunge #alternativerock #alternative #alt #emo #deftones

Limerance

DE: Der Song erzählt die Geschichte einer Frau, die trotz einer traumatischen Kindheit, die sie hart und kalt gemacht hat, ihre innere Stärke findet und sich aus der Dunkelheit ins Licht kämpft.

EN: The song tells the story of a woman who, despite a traumatic childhood that left her hard and cold, finds her inner strength and fights her way out of the darkness and into the light.

Lost Girl

Invisible (Chinese Version)

This circle calls your name like fire that has bestowed upon another disbelief 
A disbelief that you were something 
could feel something yet not human 
not human like me 
Pressed upon my heart 
Subtle at the start 
Rest upon another shoreline 

Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright 
Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here

If this is the fiction we live then I want to be etched out of every plot 
I’m tired of every false god and broken promises 
Again and again 
When do we learn for the better?
My wrists never heal from the limits I was to afraid to take 
So I close my eyes and take that leap of faith 
Into the circle of mistakes 

Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright 
Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright

Circle (prod. saint mike)

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Lyrics

Intro – Spoken/half-sung, atmospheric]
Yeah, they trim the trees,
They rake the fire away.
Build fences strong,
But can’t outrun the laws today.

[Verse 1]
Juan’s got a scar that runs ear to chin,
Said it came from Sonora, not from sin.
He brings his boy on Sundays, just to play
Near the pool he’ll never swim in anyway.

[Verse 2]
Mowin’ lawns under redwood shade,
Hands in dirt while the rich get paid.
Sings to the birds in broken slang—
Every word feels like a chain that hangs.

[Verse 3]
They came last night in unmarked vans,
Took three men like they weren’t even men.
Left their tools in the morning dew,
Leaf blowers still, boots filled with truth.

Verse – Chicano’s Voice]
I send my pay to a border town,
Where mamá lights candles when the sun goes down.
My name’s not ‘hey’ or ‘you in the hat
I got stories, but no time for that.


[Bridge – whispered, rising tension]
Is this freedom, is this fear?
Do we only welcome those we mirror?
My friend cries but hides his face—
Guilt’s a shadow you can’t erase.

[Final Chorus – crescendo, all-out delivery]
They build your world and vanish in the smoke,
Names unspoken, dreams that broke.
You walk on marble, they crawl through flames,
Still you can’t even learn their names.
No green card, no last call—
But they stood taller than us all.

Eucalyptus Blues

If you've ever felt like a ghost in a getaway car...

★ Raw • Haunting • Cathartic ★

Dive into a ghost story where pop-punk’s confessional rage meets hauntcore’s eerie intimacy. This acoustic-driven track wraps desperate highway imagery ("headlights, red lights, sirens bright") in stripped back guitar rawness, capturing the exhaustion of outrunning your own shadow.

Key themes:

☠️ Self haunting (“I’m my own worst memory”)

🚗 Escapism’s dead ends (“Can’t outrun myself in either lane”)

⚰️ Resignation (“Dig myself into a little plot of grass”)

Lyrics:

I distanced myself to see what would stay near
Admittedly I don't see much, all too clear
Head lights, red lights, and sirens bright at the rear
But the subject in the mirror is much closer than it appears

And I see it now, the ghost I tried to leave
Following me down these empty streets
I believe it now, like you used to say
I'm my own worst memory

Windows down, July rain as cold as your glare
Heavy is the head, cold wind, silence in the air
Better left unsaid, can't speak what's not here
Never tried my best, couldn't make myself seem to care

But every mile I drive is a roadside flare
Double parked going sixty, lighting a cigarette, texting "I'm almost there"
Can’t outrun myself, in either lane, always left, right, disappear
Wind blows tumble weeds down a familiar road of tears

And I see it now, the ghost I tried to leave
Following me down these empty streets
I believe it now, like you used to say
I'm my own worst memory

Am I running from the past or chasing what’s ahead?
These sirens behind me can’t drown what’s in my dread
The lights are getting closer, fear is getting clear
Is it a dead end ahead or highway deer

Rearview conversations I never will outpace
Every mile marker takes a turn to make their case
Tires drift the shoulder, rubber stays in place
Fell asleep at the wheel trying to erase

And I see it now, where I was supposed to be
Spent to much time at lights in disbelief
I believe you now, I just don't trust the memory
Cause you can't get that far with a tank on E

I missed my turn a while back
Think I'll park in the shade
Dig myself into a little plot of grass
I tire of taking winding paths too fast, too fast

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Flat

A heartfelt tribute from a father to his growing son, "My Little Boy" captures the wonder, pride, and tenderness of parenthood through simple moments and deep emotion. It's a song about learning together, loving unconditionally, and holding on to the fleeting beauty of childhood.

My Little Boy

Verse
I must confess my sun-kissed angel
I haven't seen the sunshine in quite some time
If there's a hell on Earth
I'm living in it now

Verse
And it's been hard to sleep without you
It's been hard to breathe without you
You don't know how many nights I lie awake
Staring at the ceiling

Chorus
But mum's the word
Mum's the word
Mum's the word
Mum's the word

Verse
And I've been missing you more than ever
I've been missing you more than ever
I've been missing you more than ever
But you're better where you are

Verse
And sometimes I get so lost in this world
I just want to be found
You don't know how many nights I lie awake
Waiting for you to come around

Chorus
But mum's the word
Mum's the word
Mum's the word
Mum's the word

Mum's The Word

Lagu ini terinspirasi oleh dan merupakan sebuah penghormatan kepada Multatuli (1890-1887), penulis Max Havelaar (1860). Berlatar masa kolonial Belanda di Indonesia, novel ini mengungkap penyalahgunaan sistem yang terjadi pada masyarakat Jawa melalui kacamata berbagai suara dan narasi. Buku ini kini menjadi referensi dalam sastra Belanda, menginspirasi politik dan perubahan dari kolonial menjadi sistem perdagangan liberal. Lagu ini juga memberikan penghormatan kepada Museum Multatuli di Rangkasbitung, Lebak, Banten (Indonesia), sebuah tempat yang inspiratif bagi generasi muda.

Multatuli adalah lagu kolaborasi oleh Sisters in Danger (band indie asal Indonesia) dan Barbara Caucheteux (mahasiswa program master asal Belgia).

Multatuli

Aku yang sangat menderita
Petani yang dirampas tanahnya
Aku yang menulis cerita
Tanam paksa dan eksploitasi lainnya

Yang memalukan kejahatan, bukan kemiskinan
Yang membahagiakan keadilan, bukan kesengsaraan
Menulis agar didengar, politik etis dijalankan
Bapak dan ibu bangsa dilahirkan

Ini buku yang membunuh kolonialisme
Menanam benih revolusi Indonesia
Memanen kemerdekaan bangsa terjajah di dunia
Menebang dominasi kolonial Eropa

(interlude)

Ini buku yang membunuh kolonialisme
Menanam benih revolusi Indonesia
Ini museum yang membuka mata, pikiran
Jadi menara gagasan, mercusuar mimpi
Mengenang generasi lampau yang memerdekakan
Menginspirasi generasi kini yang kencang berlari

Bahasa Belanda:*
Ja ik, Multatuli, neem de pen op als Diponegoro
Hoor mij, allen die Oost-Indisch doof zijn 
Met zijn kriss graveer ik de verhalen van stemlozen
Dit is een Pusaka voor mijn zoon, menselijkheid
Weef onbreekbare banden tussen zielen
Gelijkheid en rechtvaardigheid doorheen grenzen en tijd

Saidjah dan Adinda bahagia di surga
Setelah cinta terhalang tragedi dunia
Bunga melati, kain biru, di hutan jati
Saling berjanji untuk bertemu kembali

Lirik: M. Berkah Gamulya, Barbara Caucheteux
Lagu asli: Ahmad Satria Landika
Aransemen: Rizal Muchlison

*
Ya, aku Multatuli mengangkat pena sebagai Diponegoro
Dengarkanlah aku, semua yang tuli di Hindia Timur 
Dengan kerisnya aku mengukir kisah-kisah mereka yang tak bersuara/terdengar
Ini Pusaka untuk anakku, kemanusiaan
Menenun ikatan tak terpatahkan di antara jiwa-jiwa
Kesetaraan dan keadilan lintas batas dan waktu

Multatuli

Song I wrote about all those stars who died too young - including my hero when growing up - the one and only Steve Clark from Def Leppard

Forever Young

Musician, songwriter & producer near Edinburgh, Scotland. Recently started 'G-Funk' production team with Gary Fraser.

Forever Young

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