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lyrics:
If you wanna see it bleed then put ya wrist up 
I don’t think the pain could heal im pourin lean up 
I feel like im Venus, Serena I got my racks up 
Girl I rep my set like the Beatles you know we flex up yuh you could put the weight on me ill never break up 
Baby I push the v top speed im such a racer 
Damn I hate to see you change im such a hater 
I aint need a feature once to get my name up 
I don’t wanna let you down 
I just wanna breathe you in 
Ever since we lost dear John 
We aint eva been the same since 
Ill show you where the darkness grows 
Ill show you where the pain all sits 
Ever since my best friend died 
We aint Eva been the same since

put ya wrist up (sailor x jolst)

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor
featuring https://soundcloud.com/fantasycamp
lyrics:
[nvr nvmbr]
(ohhh)
now i’m graspin’ at thin air 
& writin’ on paper
in hopes that you’ll come back
or call me up later

i know there’s not much hope for us..

saw you sent me a message
& said not to call back
& honestly i can’t do much to resolve that
but i don’t wanna lose you again..

now i’m graspin’ at thin air
& writin’ on paper
in hopes that you’ll come back
or call me back later

i know everything’s gotta end..
i just wish we never did

you sung me to sleep
simple, soft & so sweet
but i died in that dream
slipped away in these sheets

i really never ever thought you would do this shit to me
it’s funny how wrong we could be

yeah, i’m graspin’ at thin air
just longin’ for something
ironic, it seems that i’ve clung onto nothin’

nothin’, nothin’, nothin’,
it doesn’t matter at all..

[fantasy camp]
i know that i fucked up
& i shouldn’t call you
but i got too fucked up 
& now i’m withdrawing

i’m fallin’ apart
try to pick up the pieces
it was done from the start
i can see why you’re leavin’

but i just need something
that i can believe
so i pick up the phone & i’m beggin’
i’m pleadin’…

please come back home
just this night
all i know, i’ll make this right

come back home
just this night
all i know, i’ll make this right..

grasping at thin air

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prod. @yunnygoldz
LYRICS44444
Woke up about noon, thought about you
How about i go back to sleep
Nirvana in bloom, dirty bong fumes
Light me up the rest is history

I know, ive done this all before
Nothing new, lifes a revolving door
Make the same mistakes what am i moving towards
Just another dream about you

Woke up about noon, thought about you
How about i go back to sleep
Nirvana in bloom, dirty bong fumes
Light me up the rest is history

Maybe i could hit u up again, its too late
Maybe were enough as friends, thats in poor taste
I miss the times waving in my doorway
My time is just a waste when im thinking about you


ABOUT U [prod. yunny goldz]

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @noahmadethiss & @horoshavibes
Mixing, additional vocals & guitars by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by @melmige

LYRICS
(sewerperson)
All alone on this Summer night
Look for me in these velvet skies
Pray for me while I walk this fire
Anything just to see you smile
November came and our Summer had died
Leaving us with nowhere to hide
When everyone dropped dead like flies
I had no choice but to make you mine

When we fade away where do the feelings get dropped
'Cause I got boxes of these things like home videos
I'm away like half the year
She doesn't miss me though
All while I'm thinking about her touch
It makes me miserable

(Carlby)
Somehow I'll find a way to reach you
Drag you through the screen
This time I'll tell you everything
How much you really mean to me
And all I am today
Because the bleakest weather is better in your company
Although you're long gone now
I hold tight to your memories
Like home videos
Just know I'll never forget these

I still stare at old photos
Wonder where does the time go
How can I get it back

(Horosha & Carlby)
The past is dead and yet I still I feel it
A shadow sliding over concealing
Anything in the present that would bring me joy
And still I miss the pain

I knew our time was short
But your summer eyes
They captured me by force
A willing prisoner
Even with a painful ending you made every moment shine like gold

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Home Videos w/ sewerperson (Prod. noah thomas)

Wonder if I’m fucking up 
Back in this hole again 
K hole I’ve been diving in 
Drugged up I don’t need no friends 
Fucked up I don’t need no benz
Crashed the whip wonder where I went 
Fuck 
Fucked up in the road again 
Find me when the summer ends 

So if I fuck it up then 
And I’m just being dramatic 
I know it’s over I’ve been looking past it
I cover up these wounds with plastic 
Seal it shut I can’t have it 
Happiness, I run right past it 
I can’t hack it 
I’ve been feeling like I’m out of practice 
And i’ve been looking down again 
I can’t move past it
All these dramatics, I’m overdramatic 
Over and over I go into panics 
I’m losing myself
I don’t know how I will manage
To find my way back 
I’m lost and damaged 
I’m cold and wet
I’m like a dog on its last leg
Cat last life 
And what if I’m dead and this shits all just a past life 
I’m never the sad type 
I guess I’m the sad type
I ain’t trying to stay clean
I’m on my last life
I know I’ve always been mean
I ain’t the nice type
And I know it’s over
And I know what life‘s like I’ve seen enough
And I know it’s rough
It’s rough for you and me too
I don’t feel the same 
I’m not sure what I’m doing this time
I feel like I’m losing my mind
Going manic and it’s all the same
I know I am to blame
I’ll never change swear I’ll never change
And even when I try to, I stay the same
Even when I try to, I stay the same
And I think I’m to blame

theatrics (p. hollowprpl)

turning shepherd into flock, he's bare and punching out the clock
and left it's hands a ten and two, and of it's bell, a copper blue
if it's the best that it can do, to buy him, should he re-coop
the inner portions have been warping, while his skeletal is looped

girl, i'm only a fractional gland to the tanner
organic of matter, in service of hazard
with the spirit coaxed in snot, they steal his crops, then send him off
the palpatations sign alignment that the collar had been popped
so watch him flee into trees where he is deemed a foreign beast
and of it's fauna, granted ease, 
the runic symbolism breathes
but as the phoenix tucks it's wings, the animosity is sworn
the creatures force him to a corner, as the ritual repeats

but most invited are divided by the drink
some evoke and others physically impede
but fuck it, i'm dunking my soul in elixirs
and ripping up scriptures they told me to read
evading persuasion of linear staging, 
you think in equation from playing campaign
i remember you had felt what i be
chrysalis tethered, eternally green

and she was lock and key, to his belief
internal leak is running deep and sinking streets
cold and heat have come to meet, releasing steam
but that peace is soon to cease, 
and he's deceased

turning sheperd into flock, he's bare and punching out the clock
and left it's hands a ten and two, and of it's bell, a copper blue
if it's the best that it can do, to buy him, should he re-coop
the inner portions have been warping, while his skeletal is looped

grace period betrayal (branwen)

yeah we never did it right
try to switch sides but its too late
take the rib out my side
every waking thought feels insane 
but i know thay im alive
been tryna find comfort in this pain
but boy its been a ride
saw that look up on ur face ur gone tonight

when a star collides
or an angel gets its wings
when the night sky’s
reflecting on to me
it’s like i couldn’t help it
you smile while you say im selfish
my bad that you couldn’t tell
when i tried to yell
i was busy breathless

we can waste time
thinking bout the past 
but im offline
since you made my heart black
and i gave my phone a crack

in the front seat of a new car
felt u cut me, got a new scar
aint it lovely when you’re so far?
family found me in the front yard 

been ashamed of the man that i was 
been off of the gram, cuz its only fake love
i came to conclusion im stuck in a rut
but im stronger than this so im not giving up

when a star collides
or an angel gets its wings
when the night sky’s
reflecting on to me
like i couodnt help it
you smile while you say im selfish
my bad that u couldn’t tell
when i tried to yell
i was busy breathless

breathless [under the maple tree]

lyrics:

Finish that bottle up baby im up in this booth and im ordering more
I got some money im using for fun if I dont well then what is it for
Passive aggressive im leaving u here to be angry as long as u want
I got some problems myself im not tryna make more than I already got 
baby im under attack they zapping my brain they stabbing my back
How could I ever relax I dont even sleep I dont even nap
People I knew from the jump they switch on me now and they all on my ass
But Even inside of my dreams im tryna to work im tryna track

Me and jabari are back im seeing the wav its under attack
Girl dont be like that cause u know that im busy im writing on smack
I tuck my blunt in my hat and I hop in the buick and push it down flat
I cant be here all the time I know that u dripping ill hit when im back
I pop out in something thats way too clean to be in his budget
I walk by and this Kush smell something just like blueberry muffins
I smoke cause I love it my bitch love it too who doesn’t
Bari and I just dropped it put us right back in discussion
she like how the fabric feel she like the lv buttons
I like how this steering feel and I like the way its cutting
I cant find my phone but really Im waiting till it stop buzzing
I dont know what to say right now and im better off saying nothing
So Fall into me
Before my heart dies
U could get me right I just know it baby
Lean into me
And for the last time
Whisper in my ear how I own it baby

So Take me on my word I know its worthless as of late
And Just like you im struggling to find purpose in this state
Now Im lighting blunts in the venue I carry my pain on my back like a jersey im wearing my brand
U heard what I said but ill say it again I just pop on the stage and im laying my hand down

Finish that bottle up baby im up in this booth and im ordering more
I got some money im using for fun if I dont well then what is it for
Passive aggressive im leaving u here to be angry as long as u want
I got some problems myself im not tryna make more than I already got 
baby im under attack they zapping my brain they stabbing my back
How could I ever relax I dont even sleep I dont even nap
People I knew from the jump they switch on me now and they all on my ass
But Even inside of my dreams im tryna to work im tryna tr-

league of problem solvers (jabarionthebeat x haze x natemorgan)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3MyYxx8xvAuXSBjaWn3Ytx?si=gVcNjko9TNmK31A6EsnxLA
video: https://youtu.be/aSLd-sA_r8E?si=zJtO76JZEkzhwppL
amv: https://youtu.be/EFWBgiBOOsI?si=xGHMcNo8ZR7M7D4_

produced by heylog

i was looking at her eyes
i could tell she wanna die
wait, don't
i will be alone no
please don't go (please don't go) (please don't go)
please don't go (please don't go) (please don't go) (please don't go)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
i watch 'em all pretend (i watch 'em all pretend)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
drowning in our sins (drowning in our sins)
i was looking in her soul, she remind me of a ghoul
i think that she want me gone
come near me i'll bash your skull (bask your skull)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
i watch 'em all pretend (i watch 'em all pretend)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
drowning in our sins (drowning in our sins)

it's time to speed up
i am fed up with these people
go home
the world is falling off
i wanna go home
this ain't us
rewind
i wanna rewind back to you
beside
i wanna be beside close to you (close to you) (close to you)

heylog - how it ends

swag swag swag ily
lyrics:
Don't leave me out to dry
You never say goodbye
I bet you wish you saw that face I made the other night
11:55, that day you left my life
And told me
Me no I'm not nothing like why even try

Yeah, like baby girl I couldn't tell you a thing
Oh
It's getting harder, getting harder
Oh
Like baby tell me what you want in a week
It's getting harder getting harder It's getting harder
I gave you everything and all you did is go and lie
I said I love you not just once or twice, a hundred times
Last week I saw you in the club, I saw those angel eyes
Wishing for something I could do to make you change your mind

Talk now
I know you're leaving but I ask you to listen
Right now
We're locking eyes no I can't stop the feeling
Find out
What I could do to make you stop the switching
Right now
I'm medicated like I love prescription
Like oh my god
I gave you everything you wanted then you kick me out left me dry
Oh my god
Like I don't think that I could do it oh know baby lately I don't wanna try

Yeah, like baby girl I couldn't tell you a thing
Oh
It's getting harder, getting harder
Oh
Like baby tell me what you want in a week
It's getting harder getting harder It's getting harder
I gave you everything and all you did is go and lie
I said I love you not just once or twice, a hundred times
Last week I saw you in the club, I saw those angel eyes
Wishing for something I could do to make you change your mind

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11:55 [hilen]

Prod.IOF
made this last year when i was drunk/sad. Probably the last track i drop. (not going to do anything to myself just feeling kinda over it. and i feel like im eh at music.)

my photo again, about 10 years ago.

lyrics:
Sometimes, I just really don't wanna be alive. But I know, pain isn't forever. I'm feeling lost. I don't know who I am. I have friends who care about me. But I don't think I am worthy of that much praise. Growing up I was told I'd be nothing. There's a few things I'm “good” at. But a lot of things I suck at. But I gotta learn to trust myself. Stick to what I'm good at. I gotta stop being so comfortable with the way I live. I need to do so much better. But I don't know how to do that. I'm afraid of constant failure. These little things they speak so loudly to me. Your scoff, her cough Tell me I don't deserve to live. My mind is a fucked up place. I don't know. Maybe my life was a mistake. 
 



some shit song i made when i was sad Prod.IOF

It really be like that. making music for fun.

some shit song i made when i was sad Prod.IOF

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