i thought i was past that
all begging and the pleading over snapchat
I don't know where i am going can we scratch that
that's part of the past do you care at all 
that I'm just here alone
in the fall

can you listen when i am talking to you
girls so bad i know she likes him too
i keep asking do you feel anything when I'm near you
i miss the love that we shared too
I'm in to you

cut that cut that cut that oh please for me
you don't listen at all, too me
I'm getting sick of going back
running laps like a fool
like a tool just to use i miss the calling at the cottage when we met oh

i remember waking up to texts you call me bae
it was just a couple months so you just really got scared and afraid
do you have something to say?
are you gonna run away
like you promised you never do my trust is really frayed
wake up
wake up
without you
too bad
its too bad that i miss you
wake up
please
wake up
wont you wake up
im so fed up

i thought i was past that
all begging and the pleading over snapchat
i don't know where i am going can we scratch that
that's part of the past do you care at all 
that I'm just here alone
in the fall

Begging & Pleading (prod. sorrowbringer)

~2300~

produced by me

mix + master by Jake Mannix

granite

i just wanted to know ft. spookybands (gaxillic)

for j<3

it’s been hard for me to be who i am
i got roots as my feet
telling me where to stand 

and part of me wants thinks it’s all just a plan
with the man up above got me in his hands

it’s been hard for me to build myself back up
play the part for me until all the lucks up
you saw the side of me that nobody could and
now ur calling me 
i wish that you wouodnt


now i’m on gaurd i feel so departed
and i just lost all my soul
just give me your parts, i know it’s hard
but baby im losing control
break and i bend
how did it end?
thought we would make it farther
i never sent all of the texts and it only makes it harder
won’t let you see that part of me it’s all in my brain
and it’s been hard for me to feel cuz i just been so deranged
oh oh oh we gotta get better

 you saw the side of me that nobody else did and
now you’re calling me i wish that you wouldn’t
and now i’m on gaurd i feel so departed and i just lost all my soul
just give me your parts, i know it’s hard but baby im losing control

departed

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) (Ciche&Jarn)

[+ msg] I been dead awhile
featuring @loat66
produced by @sogimura

[+ follow me]
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[+ lyrics]

[hook: seejayxo]
put this powder in my nose
I been dead awhile
what they got against me
I pull up in style
if you want me back
just pick up and dial
baby yk I would drive
a thousand miles
2x

[verse 1: loat!]

i put pain pills in my coke i won’t feel a while
take me back to last october i don’t want it now
it feels like the walls are closing in and i can’t break them down
and then my fingers turn to bones just when im climbing out
well fuck it i don’t wanna go
i’ll take the whole pill up the nose
pass two then three then four
til i drop brain dead on the floor
but i won’t be dead anymore
i need something keeping me numb
my demons they live in a cavern inside of my soul
got no bev so i can’t take one

[hook: seejayxo 2x]

[verse 2: loat!]
aye
all eyes on me
every time i try to walk through the streets 
but really i wish there was nothing on me
i need me a bitch who cvan roll up my weed
i need me a bitch who can slide for me
i need me a bitch who can ride for me
say you in love are you dying for me?
now we breaking up are you crying for me?
for real are you in love
or do you say that just because
you keep me on your tongue
like i’m your favorite drug
i like mine up the nose so i’ll break it down for us
girl i need you to cut me i need to feel your touch
your touch

[hook: seejayxo 2x]

dead.m4a (feat. LOAT!)

prod me
guitar by Morgan Cheadle

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could
never even amount to the way we used to be no  

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but
ill do it for you i dont care about me still

its like i never even mattered
put my fist into a mirror just to watch it shatter
every day i eat my life away im only getting fatter
and the soul i left behind is begging me "do somethin about it"
i dont know how  
i dont even know where to start
its like the weight upon my shoulders keeps me off of the charts
its gettin sickening
try to do the things that i love but deep down
theyre only pulling strings away from my heart

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could (let me go)
never even amount to the way we used to be no
(this place reminds me of what we once called home)

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but (walkin this empty road)
ill do it for you i dont care about me still
(the path before mes left me nowhere to go)

chapter II: a reminder of home

Lyrics:
And I thought that
I had someone close
But then I found out
I had no one
Cause all the love shows
But when you need it
You find the sign "closed"
Inside their heart
And I thought that the world was different
But seems that no one wants to listen
To my problems, to my issues and my thoughts

You may hate me, love me
Make me feel so lonely
But I love the way you hurt me
Yes I love the way you hurt me
You may hate me, love me
Make me feel so lonely
But I love the way you hurt me
Yes I love the way you hurt me

And I know that's an illusion
But I'm lost in the confusion
You're the only thing
That helps me sort my mind
And I love the way you sing me
All the songs that you enjoy
When you text me that you miss me
'Cause you broke up with another boy
And I thought that the world was different
But seems that no one wants to listen
To my problems, to my issues and my thoughts

You may hate me, love me
Make me feel so lonely
But I love the way you hurt me
Yes I love the way you hurt me
You may hate me, love me
Make me feel so lonely
But I love the way you hurt me
Yes I love the way you hurt me

STREAM

The Way You Hurt Me (prod. grayskies)

lyrics ⬇️

Temple in my body really breaking down
 
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

this is something i should stop
new stuff right out the box
i know that there’s consequences to my actions 
but somehow i would never gove up

using your words as a weapon
how could i think you a blessin
Im tryna make it to heaven
you wont be there im guessin :(

if im guessin wrong then ill be grateful 
when heavin calls youll see an angel
restart my life over again
gotta push back
no im not no recycling bin way past that

but i still need some oxygen to keep movin on in this life
if i cant feel the air thats in my lungs then its not right
gotta keep going cuz nothings ever really perfect
and if it is then honestly you really did not deserve it

this is honestly just a statement but i dont
but i dont wanna pave it
i been turning the pages to make it feel like im staying
but i
think i lost me a dime
shoulda never even tried

Temple in my body really breaking down
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

anxiety riddles me everyday 
Do you wanna hear what i really think
i feel the purpose of life is pushing ur self to yhe limit with everything 
if ya heard this know what im sayin
no purchase
no more complainin its worthless might aswell burn all the bridges

gotta get life figured out somehow 
no i dont gotta go down that route
maybe i dont like the large crowds
so ill be locked in my house 

these forest walls only uncover options
when my liscense old
I think youll find me out there hostage
ill watvh the river flow
think ill finally find calmness
and when you ask who helped me
ill say god did.

temple garden (cxrter x ryini)

lyrics ⬇️

They give me attitide if i wake up in a bad mood

got no gratitude they said well look at what i passed thru

well im not the type to give anybody an option
To gimme their life
trust me ill leave you exhausted 
whyd you thinj twice when everybody said stay cautious 
i couldnt promise i couldnt promise
i dont miss all the fighting 
But i still miss ur touch
finally off the drugs 
But you left me in the dust

but i cannot judge

trusted me with everything
promised you a better me

yea i used to take anything to make me feel better
but now i look up to god he warm me up like a sweater
defying every single odd
get thru the weather
somehow untying the knots
wont take me on the stretcher 
and if you dont like how i walk nowdays
then thats ur loss
No cost in my book its just another one involved 

breaking out the silence-the silence-the silence 

wish that ur voice didnt remind me of the sirens-the sirens-the sirens

casting a curse on my bones, violence, violence

maybe its worth all the hurt and the cryin 

well im not the type to give anybody an option
To gimme their life
trust me ill leave you exhausted 
whyd you thinj twice when everybody said stay cautious 
i couldnt promise i couldnt promise
i dont miss all the fighting 
But i still miss ur touch
finally off the drugs 
But you left me in the dust

sirens & silence (caves)

lyrics

Lord knows theres not a lot left for me
so ill just move along
i know you like to watch me hurt
but jokes on you i cant feel at all
i cant trust my mind
with these fucking with drawals
but i dont need anybodys help with this
your fingers on my lips
your face in my hands
we talk early morning
write your name in the sand
want this feeling to last forever, i know
she asked do i want to live forever, i dont
said im way too much for you
but im not that much at all

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right
wish i could help you live a happy life

if i was living forever the goal is my shelter 
shielding me out from everything that ive lost 
if your goal was forever we messed it up early 
on in the span of what could have been 
oh in the span of the time that ive spent 
lamenting the thoughts of another night in 
wish i could wake up in the evening like we did too many times back then 
but you don’t have to think like that 
that’s where I think it all began then we 
separate like the tide and the sand 
locked in another memory of regret and shame 
cant forget when i first spoke your name 
id rather not

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right

The Way You Hurt Me (prod. grayskies)

gothurted

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