gothurted

Gothurted

recover

best

12 bux and a dream

✪̖g̖o̖t̖h̖u̖r̖t̖e̖d̖✪̖

You're the best thing that could ever happen
The best view in the sky of Manhattan
The only one who did not see me acting
Never been myself, with you I can
Never felt a man, with you I am
Didn't want love but you caught me lacking
Me and you, you and me living lavish
Gave me everything that I wished

Didn't know that I can feel my heartbeat
I forgot it but you did remind me
That I'm still alive
Couldn't see anything I was blinded
By the dark and the thoughts I was fighting
But I'm still alive

With you the time flies by
Won't leave your side
For you I'd die
You filled my life with light
During the night
Nothing was right

Tienimi la mano non andartene
l'unico motivo per combattere
A volte sono freddo come Antartide
Preferisco i fatti a delle chiacchiere


Avrei dovuto buttarmi quel giorno
Ancora ci penso mo tengo il rimorso
Tu che mi hai fermato prima del mio crollo
Che fine avrei fatto cadendo la sotto?

E io ti giuro
Che ti sarò fedele
Pure queste sere al diluvio
Se fuori fa buio
E ora mi scuso
Le cattive maniere
Qui nulla va bene
C'è un muro
E ti chiedo aiuto

With you the time flies by
Won't leave your side
For you I'd die
You filled my life with light
During the night
Nothing was right

STREAM

Flies By w/Emon Owen

feelings

memories

Lyrics

And I need someone next to me
But seems nobody wants to stay 
Let me take away my life 
I don't want to be alive any other day

I just keep myself in me 
Cause these snakes trynna bite my neck
Poison blinds me but I can see 
Who really loves me and watch my back

Do you mind smoking weed together? 
Thats the only way that I get better 
I know I'm not such a good heartbreaker
I cant kill you with a message 

And I need someone next to me
But seems nobody wants to stay 
Let me take away my life 
I don't want to be alive any other day

I just keep myself in me 
Cause this snakes trynna bite my neck
Poison blinds me but I can see 
Who really loves me and watch my back

someone [prod. discent]

Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me cry
Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me die

I was by your side 
But it wasn't enough
would you mind 
If I choose to go
Would you mind 
If I fall in love with you again
Girl, so

Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me cry
Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me die

Is this a fucking joke?
I gave you my heart
Now my heart is broke
You gave me nothing
But nobody's ever done
And now I'm choking
Cuz I saw your call
Everything you say 
You say it to hurt me so

Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me cry
Don't tell me you love me
If you want to make me die

make me [prod. sketchmyname]

featuring  @crvzyy
[Gothurted] 
I'm all alone
Looking at my phone
Are you gonna text me? 
Thought that you would miss me 
But I lost my hopes
Cause I know you won't
Baby please just don't
I remember the time
Smoking dope and some wine 
But I'm all alone
I'm all alone

[Crazy]
Feel so lonely from the time you left
Need you with me baby please come back
You said you're mine
I crossed my lines
A thousand times
But you're still stuck inside my mind

[Gothurted] 
I'm all alone
Looking at my phone
Are you gonna text me? 
Thought that you would miss me 
But I lost my hopes
Cause I know you won't
Baby please just don't
I remember the time
Smoking dope and some wine 
But I'm all alone
I'm all alone

alone ft. 1SONGTHENiDiP [prod. sketchmyname & vaegud]

thanks to @deadfishpoland for have saved this Tuesday's song

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you'on really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

[verse(deadfish)]
I don't need you
you never said back anything like "love u"
stop hitting up my phone, nothing's there to stop u
from fucking killing me

When you have said that we are fine
we were looking at the stars
when you've walked past me that first time
I thought that u could shine
and show me where's the light
in my dark and shady life
man that was a mistake
to keep believing that all was fine
keep on trying
now I'm crying

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you don't really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

i don't need you ft. deadfish [prod. myhzy]

thanks to @frvrndalwys for this collab, love him so much <3

Lyrics: 
[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Help me I'm dying
I said I'd be fine I was lying
'Cause I knew from the start you were leaving
But I can't move on from this feelings
Stung when you left
Numb now that you're gone
My heart hurts theres no point in moving on
I'm fucked up so I make another song
You weren't there when I was not strong

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: gothurted]
I'm trying to moving on
But you're always on my mind
I feel so fucking low
Even when I'm always fine 
I swear I've never meant to hurt you
Shawty I would never
I think I'll never leave you
Doesn't matter what you will say  

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on
I'm trying to moving on

moving on ft. frvr&alwys [prod. metlast]

Artist:
https://soundcloud.com/deadfishpoland

Producer:
https://soundcloud.com/hxrxkiller

Lyrics:
don't ever fall in love they say
it's the biggest trap, don't go this way
you're gonna get it when you grow up
20 years old, still didn't got that

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

and that is how i'm feeling
i don't want to lay, staring at the ceiling
i just want us to be together
heart to heart, thinking bout whatever
comes to mind
baby we are fine
don't worry bout a thing
i can deal with anything
yea
for you, i'll do everything
i'll do everything
cause

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

i just want to feel

deadfish - i just want to feel

lyrics:

where the fuck u been at
dip inside a prototype she ask me watchu call that
bitches bein crazy how she think that i would call back
wettin 3's up in this bitch and i forgot to give the ball back
lil bitch had left the condo and forgot to give the fob back
fuckin on the percs i hit a wall and then i bounce back
all the shawties sniffin out a tiffanys to ball at
once she lemme hit she gon ask me where the mall at
very big pockets on my jacket
i could hear the ocean when i lean in to my necklace
freaky hoe had brought along a try it next checklist
half these shits i wouldnt do and let alone mention
i mean it
im not even something half decent
but people im around im like the angel in the demons
we used to be knit but where was he when i was bleedin
cleanin out my contacts like im having trouble seein

lately i can only see the ugly
baby can u look at me and try say u love me
had to throw it out when i got blood all on my stussy
I aint even like the shits but it was hella comfy
i could give u everything i just need u to trust me
look at me and pull me lil closer when u fuck me
never thought id see the day when u would try to duck me

had to cut these bitches like it was gangrene
shit and i just put my nut inside her hair like pantene
lil boy had like to spend blew his whole advance on bush weed
turn around and drop a couple thousand on some ripped jeans
its a cash grab
i aint got no price up on my head im gettin back stabbed
lights all on my roof u woulda thought im in the cash cab
ion give no platform for a rat im not a mouse pad
steaks is high as ever i been eatin at the outback

where the fuck u been at
dip inside a prototype she ask me watchu call that
bitches bein crazy how she think that i would call back
wettin 3's up in this bitch and i forgot to give the ball back
lil bitch had left the condo and forgot to give the fob back
fuckin on the percs i hit a wall and then i bounce back
all the shawties sniffin out a tiffanys to ball at
once she lemme hit she gon ask me where the mall at

she said why u got ur head inside ur hands
just some shit u wouldnt really understand
she like can u see the lace when i take off my pants
girl i cant even see my screen behind these cans
i gotchu plenty for christmas in the fall
guess u spent that shit with him i aint even get a call
think i got some in the cabinet i know this shit could solve
im fallin over when i put our decorations on the wall

im in a rocket ya
sitting on comets ya
girl u a monster
shouldnt of loved ya
but i cant help it ya
it was it struggle ya
sippin on doubles ya
girl u is trouble
im layin back while she gimme a bubble 
ya
girl u were freaky
sometimes i think about shit u would teach me
shame i believed when u said u wont leave me
losing my baby that shit is not easy
im in a rocket ya
sitting on comets ya
girl u a monster
shouldnt of loved ya
but i cant help it ya

comet (jabarionthebeat)

@pposture <3

Lyrics:
[verse]
I'm getting bad to tell to someone I love you
'Cause every time I do so they leave
I'm getting insecure about what I will do
'Cause every time I try the world seems
To stop me to hate me to make it worse
To fool me, suffocate me, make me fall
I remember the good times me and you
I remember we calling in the afternoon 

[Bridge]
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone 
Now everything is gone
And I know that you won't come back

[Chorus]
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you

[Verse]
I tried to move on but that's not easy at all
I tried to go ahead but nothing seems to work
I think I've tried everything that I could
But seems like I'll never come back to you
You told me that you loved me
What's the point?
Did you just try to fuck me up?
Life has never been easy and you made it even worse

[Bridge]
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone
And I know that you won't come back

[Chorus]
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you

Pick Up The Phone [prod. gothurted x pposture]

lyrics:

roll up puff pass
i might pop and blow past like half of these people round me
i keep my demons around me
my mentor gon gimme guidance whenever it get bad
i couldnt give into trouble i had to give up the past
every time i drop there certain people that get mad
when i hop inside the rarri im aiming to go fast
im in a paper white ghost with paper mache tags
i been in the city so long i could breath gas
i swear i see right thru fake bitches its like glass
that girl bad as fuck but ion think its her real ass
and ya his fit is nice but two months he gon stretch a rack
semi formal parties attracted a certain crowd
i put on some houdini they tell me its too loud
ion even like martinis im tryna drink sours
now im pullin down my curtains ion think imma stick around

i feel like the weeknd im headed to lost and found
maybe pants inside imma buy him a few rounds
my girl had said im crazy but still she is so proud
i said im tryna chill and she said she is so down

can u hear me
comet 2

girl its late u know i appreciate you
i cant say
i cant say i really know u
but i wanted to
before these trying moments
i just wanted you
and i hope u know it
i cant wait
i cant wait on you forever
i remember 
we been back and forth since mid december
but honestly ion see us lasting thru september
and i know thats inconvenient since your birthday in november

till then
im sitting on the comets
im way up here
i just got the news and i was brought to tears
feeling on my body she gon raise my hairs
honestly im scared but im guessing
till then
im sitting on the comets
im way too high
friday night was crazy think i almost died
baby take my hand ill let u touch the sky
when im on the comets i come to life

comet 2 (jabarionthebeat x tokiowahl)

Lyrics.

[hook]
I can tell by how she hugs me
She doesn't care about me 
Tell me that you love me 
But you know that I won't fall for it
Tell by how she look at me
She doesn't feel a thing
Leave my fucking dreams
'Cause I cannot even sleep
x2

[verse]
I can't even sleep
'Cause I'm busy crying
I can't even think
Thoughts are intensifying
You were the one who I loved
Since when I've met you and now
You're gone, so far away 
My phone misses your name
I can't fall in love no more
I guess nobody else has what I'm looking for

[hook]
I can tell by how she hugs me
She doesn't care about me 
Tell me that you love me 
But you know that I won't fall for it
Tell by how she look at me
She doesn't feel a thing
Leave my fucking dreams
'Cause I cannot even sleep
x2

She Doesn't Care About Me [prod. dead spyro]

[produced by dj khaled's son]
[mixed and mastered by neek and convolk]

lyrics:

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

stuck here
in the same place
everyone fake 
they all wanna save face
my heart chokes
intimate notes 
everyone wrote
when i lost my way

you don't know what i been through 
i don't show what happened to 
me back when i wasn't cool
me back when i was a fool

feel like i'm kanye back in 06
feeling like what i say, people notice 
colder than an ice age cracking both fists
colder than an ice age heart is frozen 
x2

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

swear to god

tysm to @frvrndalwys for collaborating with me on this awesome project <3

Lyrics

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Suicide, don't let me die
My eyes are blind, but I still try
Do you still cry
'Cause I still cry
And I can't find
Some peace of mind
So Imma just do everything to get fucked up again
'Cause I don't really need your voice inside my head
No more pain
No more blood
It's all the same
It's never enough

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

Inner Peace [prod. metlast] w/frvr&alwys

tysm to @frvrndalwys for collaborating with me on this awesome project <3

Lyrics

[hook: gothurted]
I don't know where I could go without you
I don't know if I would live without you
'Cause when I fall again
I know that you won't be the one getting me up
Getting me up
I can't live without you

[verse: frvr&alwys]
I just can't walk away from this
Without you in my life I don't wanna live
Got marks from your knife
Running down my skin
Dripping on the ice
Taint my life with sin
I've been moving slower
Smoke my bowl and go down lower
Watch the ashes smolder
If I want to I could own her

[hook: gothurted]
I don't know where I could go without you
I don't know if I would live without you
'Cause when I fall again
I know that you won't be the one getting me up
Getting me up
I can't live without you

Without You [prod. metlast] w/frvr&alwys

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

[verse]
Try to spend a life without me
Even if I know that for you that's easy
Hitting on a blunt now I'm feeling dizzy
Without your arms around me
I swear that I'm freezing
You make me feel like
I'm not enough for you
No matter what I do
No matter my efforts
I got no more force
I'm trying to let you understand
You were my only friend
You were the only one I love
And I will love forever
I can't still accept that we'll never be together
'Cause you took me out from the darkness
But then you let me down
And the sky looks starless

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

Without Breathing [prod. Ahnboi]

music video: https://youtu.be/n4sWulmLDPo

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwdGPE1V6wg

Produced by Yago

IT'S GONNA BE AN ENDLESS NIGHT

Lyrics:

[Intro]
"iluvtora"

[Pre-Chorus]
i'm running out of time
im stuck inside my head
you make me feel alive
i won't sleep until im dead
i wanna feel your touch just one more time
i just want your love, you don't care about mine

[Bridge]
shit is getting hard i hope you know i'll never comeback
youre always on my mind and all i see is fucking flashbacks
i think its getting late but if u leave its gonna kill me
it's gonna kill me...

[Chorus]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

[Verse]
and now im getting high
drinking doesn't help
either way im in the sky
i wanna stay outside
it's gonna be an endless night
yeah under the moonlight

i wish you called me back today
but i don't wanna fight so its okay
i wish you called me back today
but i don't wanna fight so its okay
wish me luck imma die in piece
can you take my heart and come with me
i can show u all my pain that im fighting
my inner peace is what im finding

i can show u all my pain that im fighting
my inner peace is what im finding

[Pre-Chorus]
i'm running out of time
im stuck inside my head
you make me feel alive
i won't sleep until im dead
i wanna feel your touch just one more time
i just want your love, you don't care about mine

[Pre-Chorus]
shit is getting hard i hope you know i'll never comeback
youre always on my mind and all i see is fucking flashbacks
i think its getting late but if u leave its gonna kill me
it's gonna kill me...

[Chorus]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

[Outro]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

music video

killing myself in my best outfit (prod. Yago)

lyrics:
Tell me what you hate
And everything that I'm not
What am I trying to save
I should just leave you to rot
Rub it all in my face
I want all this to stop
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm not enough

And I can't look at myself anymore
It's sad this face is nothing like it was
And I don't know who I am anymore
Since I've been with you baby
I don't know alot
But I know I'm in love with you
This feeling is stuck
I don't know what to do without you
Please
Don't leave
Without me

convolk:
When you can't stand being broken
I know 
x2
But your not the one to save my life
To help you once I'd kill me twice
x2

Without Me ft. convolk [prod. Glasear and familypet]

prod. Noria

Lyrics:
[verse]
I'm done with the love that you talk about but never show
I'm sick of feeling like I'm just another one
I'm done with the endless calls looking at my phone 
Thinking about all the feelings that I don't feel anymore
Just right now that I thought it was over
You cry and beg me to stay like a lover
I was there when nobody else was
But now I'm feeling better because

[hook]
I'm trying to live in a world without you
A world where gray's everywhere that I look
A world where you're not anymore the sun waking me up
And every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck
x2

[verse]
(Every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck)
Remember the past years spent together?
You were the one saying that nothing lasts forever
You were the one saying that I should move on
Now that I'm trying, you don't want, what's going on
Do you love me or you don't want me to be free?
I don't like that you disappear and then you don't want me to leave
You can't blame me for the decisions I'm taking
I know I said this before but

[hook]
I'm trying to live in a world without you
A world where gray's everywhere that I look
A world where you're not anymore the sun waking me up
And every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck
x2

A World Without You [prod. noria]

Lyrics:

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries 
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

[verse]
I've been so stupid trusting you
I knew nobody is ever honest
I think I'll keep on avoiding you
I'm just a lone wolf inside this forest
Living my life like I've always done and
Living my life all alone 
I swear that I'm so sorry mother
But your son now is gone

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

MUSIC VIDEO

Dark Place [prod. Young Kxge]

lyrics:

turn it back to the other night
red eyes under patio lights
t'd up blowin on some meteorite
i crush up 7 grams and it get mummified
im gonna have a good day
i decided
dont let her x guy in
hes uninvited
i dont wanna talk
and i got 20 pound eyelids
im high as fuck
my bad i couldnt hide it

money on the night stand
said she just been waiting for the right man
i got bad news
i hope that u find him
cause i look nothing like him
and thats the hard truth
streetlight vigil
backwoods missle
fore i introduce myself
i gotta drink a little
i only blow top shelf
i dont blow middle
she drop her molly in her water and it make a small ripple
ya im still at home do u miss me right now
i cant get to the phone im kinda busy right now
she said baby i know theres someone with you right now
why u so aggressive whats the issue right now
crash
i might crash the party
man its been a while since i poured myself bacardi
ya i took the car no i dont have car keys
i think you would look so good beside me in a car seat
turn it back the other day
i dont need you anyways
every time i look her in the eyes she look the other way
honestly i feel ashamed
turn it back to the month
i aint know you mad u shouldve told me sumn
i just sip my drink and feel my body numb
i could hear it ring but i cant pick it up
summer time breeze on a rooftop evening
please dont wake me up i prefer to keep dreaming
late october rain thru the dry wall bleeding
hit me in my face and its damn near freezing
start in the morning go to the evening
every fucking day i gotta exercise meaning
big batch bowl how am i still breathing
same old clothes but i changed from beneath em
i might another cup
uh uh
ion think ive had enough and i need that
sweet too sweet orange julius
pullin on this woods i got a head rush
so back to the other night
i know we was angry i know u was tight
at that point i dont even care whos right
at that point i just wanna go inside

turn it back to the other night
red eyes under patio lights
t'd up blowin on some meteorite
i crush up 7 grams and it get mummified
im gonna have a good day
i decided
dont let her x guy in
hes uninvited
i dont wanna talk
and i got 20 pound eyelids
im high as fuck
my bad i couldnt hide it

r & r (jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

uh uh what are we fighting for
uh uh look at the meteors
its all grey not like the blue before
ok shawty i guess well go to war
uh uh im on the 20th floor
pouring hulk majin boo im in my final form
oh u funny ya ya im deceased ya ya
in my skin its oh no its hard to breath

one more time
then ill leave
one more night
please just teach me to believe
i just wanna feel something cause i cant feel at all
to be honest i dont think you ever cared at all
to be honest i had never cared at all
to be honest i dont know myself at all
all these faces all these memories i lost
im like fuck it tho cause  i just want it all
oh its like a movie like a movie
take a shot of goose in im all loose in here
triple goose coat its too hot in here
i cant breath in here
these things never work out
girl u gon and turn my heart all worn out
midnight parking lot i burn out
quick dvp exit drop south im outta here
hold my heart watch it fall apart
take my soul grip it very hard
oh ya i like it when i go really hard
its exciting stepping thru the dark
save me i need u to love me and hate me
break me when she make me bleed it feel amazing
yummy its tasty i was sick of hiding i faced it
im sorry i reach inside my brain and i erase it

im in a rocket ya
sitting on comets ya
girl u a monster
shouldnt of loved ya
but i cant help it ya
it was it struggle ya
sippin on doubles ya
girl u is trouble
im layin back while she gimme a bubble ya
girl u were freaky
sometimes i think about shit u would teach me
shame i believed when u said u wont leave me
losing my baby that shit is not easy
im in a rocket ya
sitting on comets ya
girl u a monster
shouldnt of loved ya
but i cant help it ya

comet 3 (jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

i just woke up again
i just woke up im mad
cheer up i just fucked up the plan
fuck it leave i was making them sad
man i shouldnt have came
i was so out of touch
with this beer in my guts
oh i shouldnt have drank

traffic lights bleed thru the glass
another year gone kinda strange how fast
another year i will never ever get back
baby i dont know how long imma last
could u learn to love me
if u take ur time
could learn to trust me
when i disappear at night
my lungs keep hurting
but i keep smoking
too many problems
i dont wanna notice
i could feel my heart itch
i could feel its frozen

i just woke up again
i just woke up im mad
cheer up i just fucked up the plan
fuck it leave i was making them sad

i just woke up again
i just woke up im mad
cheer up i just fucked up the plan
fuck it leave i was making them sad
man i shouldnt have came
i was so out of touch
with this beer in my guts
oh i shouldnt have

baby girl im not ready to die
when i come to the jam
im just tryna get high
could u leave me alone
im inside of my zone
i need u to be quiet
everybody'll talk
u cant worry bout it
they just mad they behind
she just drunk and in love
and she feeling the vibe
ya she feeling the vibe
feel the burn of the light
im so sick of the dark
finally i got right
and they want me to fall
i just need u to know
that i dont have that much time
girl im sorry to go
just kno i love u 
ill miss u the most

i just woke up again
i just woke up im mad
cheer up i just fucked up the plan
fuck it leave i was making them sad
man i shouldnt have came
i was so out of touch
with this beer in my guts
oh i shouldnt have drank

blood n guts (jabarionthebeat x red x ramo)

Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/1544147984?app=itunes&ls=1
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5qEVz84sNOYRe3PpUlaehE?si=8_2JzKURRhuT2GuzyuQL3g

written & produced by beudi
featuring suckerpunk
mixed & mastered by sinxi

lyrics:
hands are getting cold, I feel it  
paracetamol will heal it   
hope it takes me down
down the rabbit hole, to freedom
oh, it's in my head 
I'm mad and twisted
a misfit, and I won't miss it 
I'm never coming back

I was right to think my mind is kinda sick
need a psychiatrist now
thoughts in my head all are gone way too fast
so instead I'll be writing em down
mayday mayday, going fucking crazy
someone's gotta save me or I'm out
I may wake under a blossom tree
but who knows? 

take me to wonderland
play me my song again
I can't be like one of them
so take me to wonderland

the way that I'm thinking
as scary it possibly gets
I'll drink it and maybe I'm shrinking
but I'll probably just end up dead
led by strife and discord like eris
and a broadened mind like alice
now, all that shit has brought me here
like it's gotta be the white rabbit 
have it tatted right on my neck 
to remind me why I'm like that
I bottled whole the double dose
so I won't be right back
I keep it all on the low
sorry mama, gotta go 
next time leaving I guess you're seeing me
never coming back home

I was right to think my mind is kinda sick
need a psychiatrist now
thoughts in my head all are gone way too fast
so instead I'll be writing em down
mayday mayday, going fucking crazy
someone's gotta save me or I'm out
I may wake under a blossom tree
but who knows? 

take me to wonderland
play me my song again
I can't be like one of them
so take me to wonderland

Wonderland (ft. Suckerpunk)

The Fog breathe on your window
Baby kiss me with your eyes closed 
My life lives in the shadows
And Im hoping that i die slow

U said we were ment to be
I but think we wernt ment to last
You ran away
Now i want you back
Guess ill stay in the dark
And I ran out of matches
I gave you love
But thats in the past tense 
And If ur here now 
Would u tell me what happened 
(Would you tell me what happened)

Me what happened…

The Fog breathe on your windows
Baby kiss me with your eyes closed 
My life lives in the shadows
And Im hoping that i die slow

I met a girl who said she wouldnt leave
And now thats all left is with her in my dreams
Now all i can see if her face in the past
Why fall like the leaves
Everything drags on
Cuz I couldn’t see the present tense
And im dead inside but no one can really help it

Cuz i got problems on my belt
And i got people to fucking regret
I got things up on my chest that i would never tell anybody
Nobody really fucking cares about anything 
Nobody fucking gives a shit 
So why the fuck should i care.

die slowly (IOF)

just a lil summin I made for fun. been challenging myself to produce everyday and I liked the way this one came out

Had Enough [prod. weepings]

prod. Mantra | ft. @sheamichael
artwork by @intomisery
available on ALL streaming services

The Last Time w/ Shea Michael

[hook]
Why you run from me 
Why you make me bleed
Why I'm so confused?
Why you cry for me?
Why you begging me?
And not holding me
Why you treating me like that?
I'm not going to chase your love
I know that won't be enough
Move on, got to be strong
Move on, Move on

[verse]
Move on from all the sore
You caused me
Living a life
Built upon all your lies
Built upon all the cries
For you
I got no more love for you
You tried to play me for a fool
We used to call right after school
Until the rising of the moon
Hope we're cool boo
Wrote another song for you
Didn't sleep all night cause you
I was counting just on you
(I was counting just on you, all night)

[hook]
Why you run from me 
Why you make me bleed
Why I'm so confused?
Why you cry for me?
Why you begging me?
And not holding me
Why you treating me like that?
I'm not going to chase your love
I know that won't be enough
Move on, got to be strong
Move on, Move on

Move On [prod. tsurreal x IOF]

Lyrics:
shawty on the down low, tryna get that good snow
hangin round the crib, she could puff and watch that cloud go
sayin that she bad tho, know the truth it's all show
hand up on my chest, feel my heart, but its ice cold

you could see the bank roll, know it take a big toll
got me feelin down low, i could feel it in my soul
got my heart that you stole, i already knew though
keep it to myself, cause you know i got a new goal

keep my pride, when a bitch want ride
only be my side, cause my main gon cry
had to coast the tide, when my heart denied
why got three hoes, cause im dead inside

pitch black heart you could call me a villain
she could tie my hands keep me lock while we chillin
i could flip it turn around and she wait till i drill it
got a stone cold knife in my back i can feel it

pitch black heart you could call me a villain
but i been down low feelin dead but im livin
she could take my soul but it been unforgiven
uh, bitch what's new been like this since the beginning