i was too scared 
to fall in love 
to feel someone else’s touch 

all i heard 
wasn’t enough 
for you i fell so hard 

and that is why you’re so amazing
and that is why i feel frustrated 
and after all is set stone we’ll 
go on and regret nothing more

here i go now on my own
feeling lost and so alone it’s
what it is and was before 
nothings changed it’s you i’m leaning on

now it’s too late
to conjure up
the courage i felt so tough

i’m right there 
when you’re not
i shouldn’t have fell so hard
 
and that is why you’re so amazing
and that is why i feel frustrated 
and after all is set stone we’ll 
go on and regret nothing more

here i go now on my own
feeling lost and so alone it’s
what it is and was before 
nothings changed it’s you i’m leaning on

Nothings Changed

Prod. Injury

Ask me why i do this to myself 

id probably come up with something and lie

i don’t know why i self sabotage myself

I just want to be left alone 

though i don’t want to be completely alone 

i feel confused and don’t know why

This self sabotage kills me every time

I’m conflicted about my life 

i feel like this is all just a lie im in a high

(Im sober from you tho?)

Self sbotage

🖤✨ The Miracle Syndicate — “Dead Channel”

I said it clear — at least I thought I did
but the words caught static in the air
your eyes blinked left like I’d disappeared
and the silence said you were never there

I played your message in reverse
heard laughter first, then rage, then stone
I wrote my name across your breath
but all your lines came back unknown

I turned the dials, I watched the lights
I stayed up late to catch your call
but every time I found the tone
the signal dropped — then nothing showed

I said your name
Did you hear mine?
I mouthed it once
But it crossed no line

We tried to speak,
but the channel died
we tried to reach,
but the words slipped wide
your face, my voice,
all smoke and fire —
we tried to speak,
then we expired

Credits:

Nayeli Astra: Vox, Guitar
Elena Morgenstern: Backing Vox, Synths & Sequencers
Brad Astra: Programming, Percussion, Bass Guitar, Rhythm Guitar

Special Thanks:
To the ravens who guided our melodies, the universe for its endless inspiration, and to everyone who has been part of this journey. This music collection is dedicated to those who dream with their eyes open.

In Loving Memory:
To Rio, who always listened.

Recorded at:
Nude Studio · Calgary, Alberta

Artwork + Photography:
Brad Astra

Label:
Painful Records Ltd.

© 2025 The Miracle Syndicate · All rights reserved
Written and Produced by Brad Astra

Dead Channel

Show Her You Love Her

Delivered

see u tn

From the album 'Silk' which you can stream here:
https://artist.landr.com/music/800739546202

Listen to Clem's music here:
https://soundcloud.com/hannah-cleminshaw

Passion ft Clem

COMDP new single! Featuring the voice of emmy brady <3
recorded, mixed, mastered by Dorian Gehring at Foxhall studio, Chicago

Shrug

couple of shitty 2018 songs 4 the road !!
produced/mixed/mastered by banzai !!
art/additional vox/guitar solo by brennan leeds !!

lyrics;
pop pls come to life
I really hate it here inside
bb pls come to life
I really hate it here inside

pop pls commandeer this life of mine
gonna listen to the drums until I die !!

free all of the animals from livin in the zoo
tell all of the peaceful creatures life begins w u
snacking on the vegetables we planted on our own
were we always underwater drowning in the pool

pop another tire I got to drive the car away
pop another tire I got to drive the car away

free all of the animals from livin in the zoo
tell all of the peaceful creatures life begins w u
snacking on the vegetables we planted on our own
were we always underwater drowning in the pool

its insane 
goddam 
its insane 
fuck ya

pop !!

SIxth song off "Calendar", out on June 30th!
Artwork by Eli Wengrin
--
As soon as I get I home
I pack a bowl of weed 
And I get in the zone
I pick a tone
Play a melody
  
But this much weed
It’s not good for me

Every night I lay awake
And watch TV until the sunrise
Am I alive?
I feel dead
 
Looks like, once again, 
I’m stuck in my head 

Take the bus 
Eat my lunch
Keep my eyes shut so tight
Pretend all god damn night

I can’t explain why I feel this way
Must be chemicals in my brain
Take my pills and pray they go away

I wish that I could feel 
Anything at all
Could be pleasure
Or pain

In the morning my alarm goes off
I turn it off
And stay in bed
No need to fret
I have another set

Cause when I’m waking up
I don’t give a fuck

I go back to sleep and dream that 
I am living in another place
Another life
So far away
 
Fuck I have to wake
Live another day
 
I get dressed 
Try my best
Clench my jaw shut so tight
Pretend that I’m alright

I wish that I didn’t feel this way
High anxiety and migraines
Take my pills and pray they go away

I wish that I could feel 
Anything at all
Could be pleasure
Or pain

Pleasure and Pain

Tenth song off "Calendar", out on October 31st!
Artwork by Eli Wengrin
--
Powdered sugar feet move so light and sweet
You float towards me every night in my dreams
Please don’t go away, you make me feel ok
I hope one day that you’ll love me this way

Powdered sugar heart, you live life like an art
Stay a while because you make me smile
I am too shy to say that you make me feel this way
Please don’t go away cuz to me your everything.

You're everything, everything to me
Now I’m so afraid why can’t these feelings go away
You're everything, everything to me
Because you have made me see the kind of person I want to be

Powdered sugar feet move so light and sweet
You float towards me every night in my dreams
Please don’t go away, you make me feel ok
I hope one day that you’ll love me this way

see u tn

Grant Pavol

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