I thought it said "She makes something like home in my head" for the longest time

She makes home feel like a home in my head (In my head)
And when I'm with her, I feel hope again
I swear the weather on the coast all depends
On where we are but it's still home in the end.

ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＬＥＴ　ＧＯ

//私はコントロールを失う//

s/o to two of my favorite people 
@convolk
@hatefulbeats

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guardin
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this is the last time you'll see me
believe me
or not
i don't really care
drove by in my van & she wasn't even there
i'm fallin' apart while you're playing with his hair
probably gonna fuck but do you even dare
a lot of people say i'm losing control
i think i know where i should go
fuck sleep i don't ever wanna let go
don't let go

convolk
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under the bed
the pillows and sheets
get out of my head
i wander the streets
it's easy to see
the blood that we bleed
i'm not meant for you
you're not meant for me

i guess this is it
we’ll cry til we’re sick
i'm hitting continue
and you’re hitting quit
i'll go one way
and you’ll go the other
this is the last time
we’ll speak to another

photos of you
i threw them away
but i cant throw away the memories
at least now we’re done pretending
after all the times we said things
ok

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photos of you (feat. convolk)(prod. by hateful)

prod. by @guardinmusic

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i see them looking at me
from right outside of my window
i see the monsters that creep
they lurk when i'm sparking my indo
holding the smoke till i choke i won't breathe till they exit my airways
coping by hoping tomorrow is better i dwell in the stairway 

fuck it i just wanna drive
i love the feeling of feeling alive
do you ever contemplate suicide?
falling asleep on his shoulder while i
cry in my pillow alone in my bed
smother the sounds of the voice in my head
losing my voice so i speak with a pen
writing agendas so i can pay rent

this is my life
this is not shit you could cut with a knife
no tension here but the stress is as thick as the buds
i've been breaking & smoking all night
why do i write all about me?
why can't you see all the things that i see?
am i alive? is my brain just pullin' tricks on me?
get out alive or just live in a dream

sorry i suck
i'm full of shit i do not give a fuck
i've got disorders in folders inside of me tucked
undiagnosed but i know i am fucked
up in my head
writing about it again & again
it's getting hard to write songs about flowers 
when showers are cold & my phone's always dead

i think that i'm fine
when i'm alone in my
bed with my bong packed tight
my throat's been sore all night
sip that water quick
before you might get sick
tacks and thorns will prick
my words will never stick

shadow

prod. by @hatefulbeats

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i'm drowning in my headspace
driving shockpoint like i'm isaac clarke in dead space
two gram cone to my dome now i'm dead wait
i feel fine celebratin' poppin' champaigne 
caught me in my zone all alone marijuana on my lip
fixing for the herb i'm packin' purple till i'm stiff
fall asleep in chairs or couches i don't give a shit
lil' sleepy boy i'm overlookin' on a cliff

this a fuckin' cliff note
cliff bars suck and clifford the dog was a nympho
break it till it fall apart i guess you got the memo
goodbye to my hello
i was once a shade of blue but you turned me to yellow
my color palette's minimal but i don't give a fuck
flip it till it saturates the vibrance ain't enough
been awake for days & i'm amazed that i'm still up
sleep is for the week & i'm afraid of giving up

cliffnote (prod. by hateful)

ＹＯＵ　ＣＯＵＬＤ　ＢＥ　ＭＹ　ＥＶＥＲＹＴＨＩＮＧ
ＪＵＳＴ　ＣＯＭＥ　ＢＡＣＫ　ＦＯＲ　Ａ　ＤＡＹ

//多分いつか//

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baby maybe you could come my way
if you want to you could always stay
it's not like you just to walk away
treat it like it's just another day 
pick up my phone
twitter i'm scrollin' all day i'm alone
walkin' outside
get in the whip & i drive on my own
saw the cd
spirals drawn on it you made it for me
cry by track three
grabbin' my pen & i puff till i'm free

truth be told i lost control a year ain't nothin' changed
you could be my everything just come back for a day
truth is that i love you so but lost you on the way
you cracked the door i swear you swore that things would never change
mortified by what's inside the demons in my range
grip my head pronounce me dead i'm turning in my grave
said goodbye i held you tight the night you drove away
no one ever told me that i'd never be okay

(travel your mind you'll see what i)

music video

someday

lyrics
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it's just me myself & i
trippin' in the sky
hopped up on spaceship and didn't say goodbye
clouded by my mentions & dms all the time
lost but imma face it i didn't fucking try
      
guess i lost her in the process but i've been killing time
flew out to seattle & kicked it with some guys
then we whipped it on some scooters & freed our fucking minds
steppin' up onto the stage is the only time i'm alive 
and i only panic sometimes but i've been feeling fine
friction caused an uproar in 1925
the president is calvin coolidge and whiskey's on the rise
i can tell when you are scared by the look inside your eyes
can you feel the floor it's melting dripping like a faucet 
i had all these plans but then i fucking lost it
you ever feel compared to your parents way too often
your friends are on the gram and you don't see em often

it's just me myself & i
trippin' in the sky
hopped up on spaceship and didn't say goodbye
clouded by my mentions & dms all the time
lost but imma face it i didn't fucking try
it's just me myself & i 
sorta fucking high
all this time i've wasted impatience has arrived
what the fuck it's always raining the sun don't ever shine
guess i'll step back in my house & i'll get up on my grind

gotta get up on my grind it's about time i realize
that i'm about to blow up and i ain't even twenty five
life is a road full of twists and i take every one of em
twist up the dank with my friends maybe some of em
relate to words that i say when i'm hummin' em
fixate their minds to erase when i'm done with em
or when they're just done with me
lost in my head again i cannot breathe
i'd say i'm sorry but i cannot speak
high as a kite and i'm reaching my peak

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me myself & i (prod. taylor morgan)

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it's cold out i got no jacket
i left it beside my mattress
it's dark out my visions static
i'm home now alone in the attic
(x2)

hell if i
stay inside all fucking night
where were we when our love died
getting drunk and killing time
sober mind
clouded eyes
do you believe me when i say goodbye?
sorted my things & i hopped in my ride
where are my keys did i leave them inside?
forward in time
our paths collide
i caught a glipse of you right from the side
wanted to meet but you said that you're fine
chatter my teeth when i'm nervous it's fine

it's cold out i got no jacket
i left it beside my mattress
it's dark out my visions static
i'm home now alone in the attic
i'm home now alone in the attic
i'm home now alone in the attic

alone in the attic (prod. hateful)

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got some money in my pocket
but that doesn't make a difference at all
this isn't fame i'm fucking lame
i'm just boy whose tryna figure it out
well maybe this is fucking it
the audience has turned against
they wanna justify the creepin' and leak my mom's home address
the paranoia rises best when your words sit inside my chest
i'm fucking human don't forget that when you're making your requests

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

got some whiskey in my cup
but i don't think that it's enough at all
this isn't me i tell myself
i constantly worry about my health
well maybe i should fucking try
cause death is creepin' right behind
i see him sitting in the corner lookin' oh so fucking sly
anxiety is on the rise when he's constantly on my mind
i fear the day is finally coming where i meet my own demise

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

spotify

backup

lyrics
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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

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alive (prod. caspr)

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so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

inside of my dreams
talk on the phone till i'm falling asleep
you say i love you & i hear the beep
i get to thinking & dive in too deep
lost in a dream
i disconnect & start grinding my teeth
i see him smile, your lips start to meet
i close my eyes & accept my defeat


so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

follow tothegood

don't fall asleep (prod. tothegood)

prod. by @ayjd
cover art by jake clifford

lyrics
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we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

with you
and i
we laugh
and we cry
and we’ll dance
till we die
cause the rate that we’re moving’s alarming
compared to the shit that’s happening outside

truthfully the talk about the virus freak me out
yeah eleven thousand people died this shit is heading south
and if the world is gonna end by august please just hear me out
put some optimism in & take your fingers out your mouth

we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

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contact (prod. ay!jd)

lyrics
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she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again
i swear the weather on the coast all depends
on where we are but it’s still home in the end

i felt hopeful for once
you’ve got all of my trust
you have no clue what you’ve done
we were drowning in love
i lost myself in us
i don’t know where to go
and who to call when things get like this

my car ran outta gas
you said you could pick me up
but i feel like an asshole
offered you some cash you declined
it didn’t matter
i was full of glee and you were full of laughter
laughter and after
we went home and watched shit
turned on the tv, kickin’ back we were exhausted
flipped through channels three to thirty six while eating chex mix
couldn’t find a thing so we resorted back to netflix
till we passed out
and then i got up off of the couch
i picked you up in my arms & wiped the drool from your mouth
both half asleep but i still stumbled silently through the house
until i came upon a path that i’ve never known about
and then i saw some lights in my reflection of doubt
my conscience beheading north while my heart trips to the south
and honestly i’m feelin’ torn in which direction i route
because i believe in everything we’re building around

hope again

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle

'gxf' comin' soon!

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