andrea gibson thanked me for being her long distance activist acuaintence platonic partner today and it melted my heart

gives me 9tails vibes hard af ♥️ this so much 

s/o chxse bank
rip summer
got some new shit for y'all real soon
<3

august (prod. chxse bank)

prod. by @producedbyaidan
feat. @qawikamri

lyrics
--------
drive down 
it's warmer out now 
my frown is always so embracive
i found 
pictures of us 
deep down inside the depths of my basement 

but this is not an accurate 
depiction of us cause you just treated me like shit
smile for the camera & take another hit
cause my only source of happiness is rollin' up a spliff
burning photographs
like fuck the past
like fuck whoever told you we weren't meant to last
killing time again 
like it's my only friend 
like i'm dying but i'm lying 
cause i'm breathing in

you could wear me like a sweater 
you can call me like whenever 
baby i can't change the weather 
i'm sorry but i'm tryna get better
i'm tryna get
maybe we deserve better 
maybe i'm a go getter
i'm still on her header 
nineteen when i met her 
i couldn't forget her 
i couldn't

qawi kamri
----------------
so sad that you burnt down everything
you're mad now you don't mean a fucking thing
oh god drama is the shit you always bring
you used to be the reason why i always sing
i really want to forget you
you don't know what i go through
i really wish that you knew
now you're just a girl i used to talk to

please let me erase everything inside my mind
wish that I was fucking fine
like when i said i was fine
for the public i smile but in private i cry 
I just keep it all inside

it's been 3 years since i met you
all that i know is that i miss you
in every stranger's face all i see is you
can you tell me what i mean to you
now all i feel is sorrow
gonna burn all our photos
you stole my heart not borrow
i think better off mono

so sad that you burn down everything
you're mad now you don't mean a fucking thing
oh god drama is the shit you always bring
you used to be the reason why i always sing

i really want to forget you
you don't know what i go through
i really wish that you knew
now you're just a girl i used to talk to

follow aidan

forget it (feat. Qawi Kamri)(prod. by aidan)

lyrics
--------
go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

hey
what something you dream bout?
babe
i've been tryna figure things out
blame
myself when i come down
hate
you more when the suns down 
fake
love is all i see around
lately
you've been tryna scheme around
make
me feel like imma be around
wasted
time is all i'm seeing now
and your freckles make me stare & cry
connect the dots inside your mind
thought we complete each other
why does this shit happen every time
i think you're seeing other guys
cause you don't talk about the lies
with me lately i'm going blind
to what's happened with you & i 

and we probably could've worked out
that's not how it turned out tho
heard you're back with him again
but you say he's just a friend uhm no
lost the love i thought i had back
but it always backtracks so
guess i'm alone in the end
with a bottle and this pencil

go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

follow dj khaled's son

again (prod. dj khaled's son)

lyrics
--------
so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

inside of my dreams
talk on the phone till i'm falling asleep
you say i love you & i hear the beep
i get to thinking & dive in too deep
lost in a dream
i disconnect & start grinding my teeth
i see him smile, your lips start to meet
i close my eyes & accept my defeat


so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

follow tothegood

don't fall asleep (prod. tothegood)

prod. by @taylor x @taxpurposes

s/o @garden_avenue

lyrics
--------
i’m still lost & existin'
kush still make me feel different
i call your name you never came
cause the spring to summer weather brought a lot of fuckin' rain
and everybody told me bout chu
worried bout the probability of all my fears becoming truth
and inside me lies a monster built behind my point of view
can’t escape it when the hate is building up inside of you
hold up wait one minute cause there’s shit i gotta say
put my feelings to the side so i can just articulate
ain’t so pretty when you sittin’ in a city full of snakes
and you think too much about em every night & fucking day

but my girl an angel she tell me she ride or die
why my thoughts be heading south when i’m thinking about those eyes
does she lay em on another or is it just in my mind
can i live one fucking second without this fear in my life
why is everything irrational with me
i got scars inside my heart from where my ex got up to leave
if i set my brain on autopilot does it start to bleed
if the televisions on can i still fall right back to sleep

parked up in your driveway
come over to my place
kick it till it’s sunday
stay up all night monday

driveway 2 (prod. taylor morgan x taxpurposes)

prod. by @ayjd
cover art by jake clifford

lyrics
--------
we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

with you
and i
we laugh
and we cry
and we’ll dance
till we die
cause the rate that we’re moving’s alarming
compared to the shit that’s happening outside

truthfully the talk about the virus freak me out
yeah eleven thousand people died this shit is heading south
and if the world is gonna end by august please just hear me out
put some optimism in & take your fingers out your mouth

we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

follow ay!jd

contact (prod. ay!jd)

lyrics
--------
hit the floor
drink some more
hope that you don’t throw up
life’s a bore
do your chores
i can’t wait to grow up
he’s a whore
she’s a whore
well kinda sorta
i don’t know anymore
it’s what i’m falling short of

what i’m falling short of
faded kinda sorta
whiskey on my breath
and paramore on the pandora
i can never think straight hit with paranoia
open photoshop i’m color correcting my aura
set up on the east coast
mind in california
i got lots of issues yeah i prolly should’ve warned ya
i don’t ever sleep i just stay up watching dora
i am such a fungi like plasmodiophora

they said that i could be anything that i want
so i became all that i hated just so i could get stuck
inside my head and i’ve been pacing thinking just way too much
but i comply don’t even try too busy gettin' fucked up

kinda sorta

lyrics
--------
she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again
i swear the weather on the coast all depends
on where we are but it’s still home in the end

i felt hopeful for once
you’ve got all of my trust
you have no clue what you’ve done
we were drowning in love
i lost myself in us
i don’t know where to go
and who to call when things get like this

my car ran outta gas
you said you could pick me up
but i feel like an asshole
offered you some cash you declined
it didn’t matter
i was full of glee and you were full of laughter
laughter and after
we went home and watched shit
turned on the tv, kickin’ back we were exhausted
flipped through channels three to thirty six while eating chex mix
couldn’t find a thing so we resorted back to netflix
till we passed out
and then i got up off of the couch
i picked you up in my arms & wiped the drool from your mouth
both half asleep but i still stumbled silently through the house
until i came upon a path that i’ve never known about
and then i saw some lights in my reflection of doubt
my conscience beheading north while my heart trips to the south
and honestly i’m feelin’ torn in which direction i route
because i believe in everything we’re building around

hope again

prod. by @hellahaunted and @sainttomorrow

lyrics
--------
what if i testify against everything that i
have been saying this whole time
cause i’m probably telling lies
what do i do when i
feel like lying down to die
does the dirt eat me alive
do the worms feed off my eyes
open wide for the flies
cause they’re feeding off your spine
crawling up & down in line
like a soldier bound to die
come inside so will i
wipe your feet until they’re dry
wipe the tears out of your eyes
part of me likes when you cry

winter and summer collide
this universe isn’t mine no
we hope this reaches you in time
chaotic but jesus christ you’re beautiful
(x2)

get caught up constantly in life’s residuals
and paint the sky full of agonizing visuals
can’t press rewind when you realize it’s minuscule
so don’t let go it’ll only leave you miserable

the cycle (prod. caspr x saint tomorrow)

ft. @sewerperson x @lilnarnia
prod. @youlooktiredx

lyrics
--------
wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

looks like you’ve got nothing done
your value is lost
oh what have you become
the critic inside you is holding a gun
to your head one false move and the chamber is spun
i’m a fake to myself live uncomfortably numb
mechanism for coping is biting my tongue
i’ve lost focus in all this sought solace in sun-
-light is burning my eyes which direction is it coming from
stupid thoughts hault my momentum run from everyone
and everything ignore your friends & family it’s fun
i stopped caring so damn long ago zero to one
i commentate my complications constantly i’m done

wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

you cannot hurt me
but she gon break me down into a fine pulp
this shit taste like chicken i can barely tell its asphalt
sumn creep up behind me when i turn around its no one
she could rip my face from off my body and its my fault
pause
she dont really mean it she just do it for the applause
i choose not to believe it all of a sudden i am calm
im convinced they hate me but they lock it in their thoughts
i just need some reassurance here and there to keep me going
girl can u tell me whats up
i cant read ur face when u got ur walls up
look out on the lake u could see it light up
its even better in the winter u should try to come up

seems like summer never started
haven’t left my apartment in months
why can’t I just get you out
keep screaming with my head down
feels like nothing is an option
and im always exhausted
tryna pull myself together
check my phone and its december whatever
wish i would’ve stayed youda liked that
put all my dreams in a nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath

yeah
she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again

willow ave (ft. sewerperson x lil narnia) (prod. youlooktired)

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
--------
hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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