brother. this is some wavy stuff. holy fuck.

I still absolutely love this song with rhe love I had for it 2 years ago omg

I've been falling with the breeze so let me fucking go

lyrics
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please don't go
i've been swaying to & fro
i've been waiting all alone
in the dark without your glow
so please don't go
i'm afraid you'll never show
i'll abandon all i know
if it keeps us both afloat
  
the worst part
being a misfit
is that you misfit
amongst the misfits
unless you try your
hardest to fit in
what is the mission
what are you missing
i hate the distance
between my heart and my home
it feels like every place i've roamed has left me feeling alone
i think a lot about the ways that i could leave but i don't
cause i've got lots to fucking say in all these things that i wrote
i pass the blunt to my bro
he's sick of feeling the same
we put another in rotation just to ease all our pain
it's evident that our intent is reinventing our names
a break is needed when you grieving off what's lost in the flames
and i've got lots of fucking reasons to cement what i say
you pay a penny for my thoughts a couple more for the train
we heading north up to new york i'll talk to you the whole way
we'll trade some music for some memories that pass through the day
so please don't go
please don't go

the pines

prod. by @ayjd
cover art by jake clifford

lyrics
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we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

with you
and i
we laugh
and we cry
and we’ll dance
till we die
cause the rate that we’re moving’s alarming
compared to the shit that’s happening outside

truthfully the talk about the virus freak me out
yeah eleven thousand people died this shit is heading south
and if the world is gonna end by august please just hear me out
put some optimism in & take your fingers out your mouth

we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

follow ay!jd

contact (prod. ay!jd)

lyrics
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she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again
i swear the weather on the coast all depends
on where we are but it’s still home in the end

i felt hopeful for once
you’ve got all of my trust
you have no clue what you’ve done
we were drowning in love
i lost myself in us
i don’t know where to go
and who to call when things get like this

my car ran outta gas
you said you could pick me up
but i feel like an asshole
offered you some cash you declined
it didn’t matter
i was full of glee and you were full of laughter
laughter and after
we went home and watched shit
turned on the tv, kickin’ back we were exhausted
flipped through channels three to thirty six while eating chex mix
couldn’t find a thing so we resorted back to netflix
till we passed out
and then i got up off of the couch
i picked you up in my arms & wiped the drool from your mouth
both half asleep but i still stumbled silently through the house
until i came upon a path that i’ve never known about
and then i saw some lights in my reflection of doubt
my conscience beheading north while my heart trips to the south
and honestly i’m feelin’ torn in which direction i route
because i believe in everything we’re building around

hope again

prod. by @hellahaunted and @sainttomorrow

lyrics
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what if i testify against everything that i
have been saying this whole time
cause i’m probably telling lies
what do i do when i
feel like lying down to die
does the dirt eat me alive
do the worms feed off my eyes
open wide for the flies
cause they’re feeding off your spine
crawling up & down in line
like a soldier bound to die
come inside so will i
wipe your feet until they’re dry
wipe the tears out of your eyes
part of me likes when you cry

winter and summer collide
this universe isn’t mine no
we hope this reaches you in time
chaotic but jesus christ you’re beautiful
(x2)

get caught up constantly in life’s residuals
and paint the sky full of agonizing visuals
can’t press rewind when you realize it’s minuscule
so don’t let go it’ll only leave you miserable

the cycle (prod. caspr x saint tomorrow)

prod. @galvanicmusic

lyrics
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i’ve got a lot to say
don’t listen to what i say
cause everything feeling that i fucking feel
is never just honest babe
never honest babe
like woah oh
i’ve been falling with the breeze so let me fucking go

let me go
let me go
i’ve been tryna find the road
if you get up in my whip with me
we’ll head to my abode
so baby whatchu doin i just wanna go home
i could scoop you like whenever
take you back home in the morn like
we we we we we could fucking make it out (x4)

i said we could fucking make it out
grabbed me by the face & kissed me
then we started making out
i was listening to dgd & it was raining out
voices in my head been asking what are you complaining bout?
cause everything is golden
i’ve been in my zone and
if you wanna roll, we can smoke it later
live inside this moment
write it & compose it
italicize & bold it to formulate a
time to recall
a door down the hall
another sort of prequel
to fit this sequel
i kinda sorta feel small
not noticed at all
until i wrote a song for it
i wrote a song for it
here’s how it goes
a bunch of weed smoke
i panic
start to feel so
sick down to my toes
i’m manic
time just feels slow
it comes and it goes
the static
is all i see though
as i decompose
how tragic

let me go
let me go
i’ve been tryna find the road
if you get up in my whip with me
we’ll head to my abode
so baby whatchu doin i just wanna go home
i could scoop you like whenever
take you back home in the morn like
we we we we we could fucking make it out (x4)

make it out (prod. galvanic)

prod. riley knapp

lyrics
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have you ever had a night like this before
we’re just walking but it feels like so much more
have you ever had a night like this before
have you ever had a
have you ever had a

have you ever seen a street so fucking bright
illuminating architecture all throughout the night
december weather feels like august maybe mid july
it’s our adventure we could do anything that you’d like
pull me closer i’ve been craving you
oh me oh my
i stole a kiss or maybe two it’s hard to memorize
i fall for you more everyday you leave me mesmerized
my heart is sewn onto my shirt for you to crystallize

turquoise inside my pocket it’s a good luck charm
you touch lingers leaves the hair sticking up on my arm
that’s okay baby no really please don’t be alarmed
cause one touch from you to me could never do no harm
you’re the calm after the storm
and if you’re cold i’ll keep you warm
just trust in me & how we form
together in the sheets
we tangle tight & then i swore i asked you

have you ever had a night like this before
we’re just walking but it feels like so much more
have you ever had a night like this before
have you ever had a
have you ever had a

luminary (prod. riley knapp)

lyrics
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i’m crossing out my problems off the list in my brain
if my blood spills onto the carpet we gon wash out the stains
and if the ceiling starts to crumble we could move to LA
ain’t nothing here to keep us balanced cept the liquor & pain

she says she loves me but she don’t believe half of what i say
and i confess it’s fucking tragic but i built it that way
off of the times i was impulsive let my grip slip astray
i started smoking once again just to get rid of the pain
it’s okay
i breathe in
you breathe out
we lie here thinking bout
everything all around
so alert to all sound
the knocks on the windows the floors always creek
so we take a lil peak & get back in the sheets
it’s a whole nother world in this valley of streets
but we choose to embrace all that we cannot see so

we swim for miles while the sky is fading
breathe in like fires in the air just waiting
i won’t be back home soon
i’ll be falling out the window
(x2)

falling out the window

ft. @sewerperson x @lilnarnia
prod. @youlooktiredx

lyrics
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wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

looks like you’ve got nothing done
your value is lost
oh what have you become
the critic inside you is holding a gun
to your head one false move and the chamber is spun
i’m a fake to myself live uncomfortably numb
mechanism for coping is biting my tongue
i’ve lost focus in all this sought solace in sun-
-light is burning my eyes which direction is it coming from
stupid thoughts hault my momentum run from everyone
and everything ignore your friends & family it’s fun
i stopped caring so damn long ago zero to one
i commentate my complications constantly i’m done

wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

you cannot hurt me
but she gon break me down into a fine pulp
this shit taste like chicken i can barely tell its asphalt
sumn creep up behind me when i turn around its no one
she could rip my face from off my body and its my fault
pause
she dont really mean it she just do it for the applause
i choose not to believe it all of a sudden i am calm
im convinced they hate me but they lock it in their thoughts
i just need some reassurance here and there to keep me going
girl can u tell me whats up
i cant read ur face when u got ur walls up
look out on the lake u could see it light up
its even better in the winter u should try to come up

seems like summer never started
haven’t left my apartment in months
why can’t I just get you out
keep screaming with my head down
feels like nothing is an option
and im always exhausted
tryna pull myself together
check my phone and its december whatever
wish i would’ve stayed youda liked that
put all my dreams in a nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath

yeah
she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again

willow ave (ft. sewerperson x lil narnia) (prod. youlooktired)

lyrics
--------
i fell asleep in the backseat
with my eyes wide shut bumpin backstreet
we arrived on time to the crash scene
i just stared as i saw my body pass me
could’ve swore that this shit happened last week
got a hunch it’s a reoccurring bad dream
had a bunch last year when they asked me
what is it that you fear in your passing?

what is it that you fear in your passing?
maybe death but it’s more so in the crashing
do i feel everything as it’s flashing?
do i care? does it hurt? yeah i’m asking
cause i don’t have a clue how to feel
why do all of these dreams seem so real?
would it change if i just took the wheel?
i don’t know till all four tires squeal

i’m stuck in a nightmare
scared by where my eyes stare
no clipping through my car door
my body will just lie there
reaching towards the skies stairs
you won’t make it i swear
the current is pulling me
i’m hoping i don’t die here
(x2)

floating to the surface
i guess life is worth it
beat the fuck out of myself
tell me that i deserve it
anxious is a person
for that i am certain
i embody all my fears
and wear them like a curtain

cuba lake

ft. @daddydandy
prod. @prodjody x @iofmusic

lyrics
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sun don’t shine it’s always so rainy
fuck at least it watered the daisies
stay at home watching patrick swayze
oh my god this bitch sounding crazy
told my friends that they couldn’t save me
what’s it like to always stay hating

can’t help but to constantly wonder
how this storm would feel without thunder
losing me? would that be a bummer?
all the memories that we had now
all fell with the leaves in the background
dead to me by morning how’s that sound?

let me speak some facts
leaving me alone increased my intrusive attacks
yeah my brain ain’t really felt the same since knives went in my back
and you called me insecure for being right about your past
baby that’s so whack
talking to me’s easy with the doorbell still in tact
tactical insertion place yourself up on the map
then you hit me with some pillow thoughts
so we can just relax
like don’t be shy my love for you’s lucid
all my words got choked up by cupid
you must think that i am so stupid
told me not to jump to conclusions
said it must be my own delusions
look at me & tell me i’m losing
cause i’m not not not not

woah i just had a thought like
“if i’m not alright...if I’m not alright am i really alive?”
cause i feel undead daisy chain atop my head
everything is messed up lately
feeling like i caught a cold on the daily
i just keep my head on straight & a good ass vibe cause
i don’t wanna lose myself before i try
i got too much left to prove in life before i die
so i won’t ever let myself be left behind

sun don’t shine it’s always so rainy
fuck at least it watered the daisies
stay at home watching patrick swayze

daisies (ft. flowars) (prod. jody x iof)

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
--------
hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle

'gxf' comin' soon!

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