I'm not killing myself just so I can listen to a few selected people, you being one of them. 

How do i play this on guitar !! Need the tabssss

Here almost 3 tiems a day might as well comment 🖤

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s/o to two of my favorite people 
@convolk
@hatefulbeats

lyrics
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guardin
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this is the last time you'll see me
believe me
or not
i don't really care
drove by in my van & she wasn't even there
i'm fallin' apart while you're playing with his hair
probably gonna fuck but do you even dare
a lot of people say i'm losing control
i think i know where i should go
fuck sleep i don't ever wanna let go
don't let go

convolk
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under the bed
the pillows and sheets
get out of my head
i wander the streets
it's easy to see
the blood that we bleed
i'm not meant for you
you're not meant for me

i guess this is it
we’ll cry til we’re sick
i'm hitting continue
and you’re hitting quit
i'll go one way
and you’ll go the other
this is the last time
we’ll speak to another

photos of you
i threw them away
but i cant throw away the memories
at least now we’re done pretending
after all the times we said things
ok

follow hateful

photos of you (feat. convolk)(prod. by hateful)

prod. by @producedbyaidan
feat. @qawikamri

lyrics
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drive down 
it's warmer out now 
my frown is always so embracive
i found 
pictures of us 
deep down inside the depths of my basement 

but this is not an accurate 
depiction of us cause you just treated me like shit
smile for the camera & take another hit
cause my only source of happiness is rollin' up a spliff
burning photographs
like fuck the past
like fuck whoever told you we weren't meant to last
killing time again 
like it's my only friend 
like i'm dying but i'm lying 
cause i'm breathing in

you could wear me like a sweater 
you can call me like whenever 
baby i can't change the weather 
i'm sorry but i'm tryna get better
i'm tryna get
maybe we deserve better 
maybe i'm a go getter
i'm still on her header 
nineteen when i met her 
i couldn't forget her 
i couldn't

qawi kamri
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so sad that you burnt down everything
you're mad now you don't mean a fucking thing
oh god drama is the shit you always bring
you used to be the reason why i always sing
i really want to forget you
you don't know what i go through
i really wish that you knew
now you're just a girl i used to talk to

please let me erase everything inside my mind
wish that I was fucking fine
like when i said i was fine
for the public i smile but in private i cry 
I just keep it all inside

it's been 3 years since i met you
all that i know is that i miss you
in every stranger's face all i see is you
can you tell me what i mean to you
now all i feel is sorrow
gonna burn all our photos
you stole my heart not borrow
i think better off mono

so sad that you burn down everything
you're mad now you don't mean a fucking thing
oh god drama is the shit you always bring
you used to be the reason why i always sing

i really want to forget you
you don't know what i go through
i really wish that you knew
now you're just a girl i used to talk to

follow aidan

forget it (feat. Qawi Kamri)(prod. by aidan)

lyrics
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it's just me myself & i
trippin' in the sky
hopped up on spaceship and didn't say goodbye
clouded by my mentions & dms all the time
lost but imma face it i didn't fucking try
      
guess i lost her in the process but i've been killing time
flew out to seattle & kicked it with some guys
then we whipped it on some scooters & freed our fucking minds
steppin' up onto the stage is the only time i'm alive 
and i only panic sometimes but i've been feeling fine
friction caused an uproar in 1925
the president is calvin coolidge and whiskey's on the rise
i can tell when you are scared by the look inside your eyes
can you feel the floor it's melting dripping like a faucet 
i had all these plans but then i fucking lost it
you ever feel compared to your parents way too often
your friends are on the gram and you don't see em often

it's just me myself & i
trippin' in the sky
hopped up on spaceship and didn't say goodbye
clouded by my mentions & dms all the time
lost but imma face it i didn't fucking try
it's just me myself & i 
sorta fucking high
all this time i've wasted impatience has arrived
what the fuck it's always raining the sun don't ever shine
guess i'll step back in my house & i'll get up on my grind

gotta get up on my grind it's about time i realize
that i'm about to blow up and i ain't even twenty five
life is a road full of twists and i take every one of em
twist up the dank with my friends maybe some of em
relate to words that i say when i'm hummin' em
fixate their minds to erase when i'm done with em
or when they're just done with me
lost in my head again i cannot breathe
i'd say i'm sorry but i cannot speak
high as a kite and i'm reaching my peak

follow taylor morgan

me myself & i (prod. taylor morgan)

lyrics
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it's cold out i got no jacket
i left it beside my mattress
it's dark out my visions static
i'm home now alone in the attic
(x2)

hell if i
stay inside all fucking night
where were we when our love died
getting drunk and killing time
sober mind
clouded eyes
do you believe me when i say goodbye?
sorted my things & i hopped in my ride
where are my keys did i leave them inside?
forward in time
our paths collide
i caught a glipse of you right from the side
wanted to meet but you said that you're fine
chatter my teeth when i'm nervous it's fine

it's cold out i got no jacket
i left it beside my mattress
it's dark out my visions static
i'm home now alone in the attic
i'm home now alone in the attic
i'm home now alone in the attic

alone in the attic (prod. hateful)

lyrics
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why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

record a bunch of nonsense when i'm feelin' nauseous 
gotta play it cautious if she tryna hang
mirror mirror on this wall inside my heart
does falling out of love make a human go insane
i've tried three times, back it up & rewind
look into your green eyes, tell me if i change
baby you a goddess, you so fuckin' flawless
imma fuck him up if he speaks your name in vain

why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x3)

redemption of a lost mess speedin' up the process
by the time that august comes you'll know my name
g-u-a-r guardin yeah i beg your pardon
right to all involvement writing through the day
got my castle in the yard it's kinda fuckin' hard
to stand like i'm on guard when the clouds are seeing rain
so my bedrooms more appealing, suffer through the feeling
cause i know you're leaving gotta act like i'm okay 
 
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

stupid

lyrics
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got some money in my pocket
but that doesn't make a difference at all
this isn't fame i'm fucking lame
i'm just boy whose tryna figure it out
well maybe this is fucking it
the audience has turned against
they wanna justify the creepin' and leak my mom's home address
the paranoia rises best when your words sit inside my chest
i'm fucking human don't forget that when you're making your requests

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

got some whiskey in my cup
but i don't think that it's enough at all
this isn't me i tell myself
i constantly worry about my health
well maybe i should fucking try
cause death is creepin' right behind
i see him sitting in the corner lookin' oh so fucking sly
anxiety is on the rise when he's constantly on my mind
i fear the day is finally coming where i meet my own demise

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

spotify

backup

lyrics
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go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

hey
what something you dream bout?
babe
i've been tryna figure things out
blame
myself when i come down
hate
you more when the suns down 
fake
love is all i see around
lately
you've been tryna scheme around
make
me feel like imma be around
wasted
time is all i'm seeing now
and your freckles make me stare & cry
connect the dots inside your mind
thought we complete each other
why does this shit happen every time
i think you're seeing other guys
cause you don't talk about the lies
with me lately i'm going blind
to what's happened with you & i 

and we probably could've worked out
that's not how it turned out tho
heard you're back with him again
but you say he's just a friend uhm no
lost the love i thought i had back
but it always backtracks so
guess i'm alone in the end
with a bottle and this pencil

go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

follow dj khaled's son

again (prod. dj khaled's son)

lyrics
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so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

inside of my dreams
talk on the phone till i'm falling asleep
you say i love you & i hear the beep
i get to thinking & dive in too deep
lost in a dream
i disconnect & start grinding my teeth
i see him smile, your lips start to meet
i close my eyes & accept my defeat


so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

follow tothegood

don't fall asleep (prod. tothegood)

lyrics
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(you said i could be anything that i aspire to be
but no one in this world could ever want to be me)

this is the last time
this is the last time i'll write about you
this is the last time
this is the last time you rip me in two
i ain't got no time
all of the time i had wasted on you
took me a long time
took me a year just to get over you
this is the last time
this is the last time i'll write about you
this is the last time
this is the last time you rip me in two
i ain't got no time
all of the time i had wasted on you
took me a long time
took me a year just to get over you

bet he drives down all the same roads we did
it's okay i just hope they're still scenic
i can't help but feel like the world is ending
why did we waste time together just pretending

stolen

prod. by @taylor x @taxpurposes

s/o @garden_avenue

lyrics
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i’m still lost & existin'
kush still make me feel different
i call your name you never came
cause the spring to summer weather brought a lot of fuckin' rain
and everybody told me bout chu
worried bout the probability of all my fears becoming truth
and inside me lies a monster built behind my point of view
can’t escape it when the hate is building up inside of you
hold up wait one minute cause there’s shit i gotta say
put my feelings to the side so i can just articulate
ain’t so pretty when you sittin’ in a city full of snakes
and you think too much about em every night & fucking day

but my girl an angel she tell me she ride or die
why my thoughts be heading south when i’m thinking about those eyes
does she lay em on another or is it just in my mind
can i live one fucking second without this fear in my life
why is everything irrational with me
i got scars inside my heart from where my ex got up to leave
if i set my brain on autopilot does it start to bleed
if the televisions on can i still fall right back to sleep

parked up in your driveway
come over to my place
kick it till it’s sunday
stay up all night monday

driveway 2 (prod. taylor morgan x taxpurposes)

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle

'gxf' comin' soon!

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