New guardin on my bday, best present i could ask for

almost eerie how closely i relate to these lyrics like never has a 1 min song made me tear up before 🥲

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Something's in the Way w/ guardin (Prod. Sinxi & Tagliatore)

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Sad Chill video - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oRSfLaYdsvk

https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson
https://soundcloud.com/polaven
https://soundcloud.com/s-nset-b-y

Lyrics:

Sewerperson-

Talk about a long night
I was on the phone and even her voice gave me frostbite
I cant feel my face let alone my emotions
I put all my pain into my hands to pour this potion
I was fucked by 9:30
Still I hold a convo
You had done me so dirty
But I kept it confidential
She had tossed me out the window like she was something special
I would hit u back still if it wasn’t for my mental
Give me time
I was one of them I thought I wouldn’t do it
But shit just change abruptly when u going thru it
I still cant believe my dream been more than lucid 
But I just drown the doubts inside these purple fluids
Take me and try to break they never could before
I found a spot to think now up on this meteor
Tell me how I could fix u and I will give it my all
Ill make that my goal until im nothing but a skull

polaven-

What do you want from me
I'm so fucked up, can't you see
I'm so lost in you, but you never lost in me 
What do you want from me
I'm so fucked up, can't you see
I'm so lost in you, but you never lost in me
I know this isn't right, but I put too much time into us
And I will die, if you leave me cuz I'm on the cuff
Of leaving, this earth from breathing
Where will I go? When Im gone? Fuck

Ekeon-

Oh fuck, fuck, fuck
Everywhere I look, I see a ghost
Vision blurry like a nightmare
Oh outta luck, luck, luck
Feelings run deep, like a knife
I could die there
I'm so gone, she's so gone
Take it, I don't wanna leave
But I'm all wasted, I don't wanna die
I just wanna lie, say goodbye to one last night

polaven-

What do you want from me
I'm so fucked up, can't you see
I'm so lost in you, but you never lost in me 
What do you want from me
I'm so fucked up, can't you see
I'm so lost in you, but you never lost in me

Lost in You w/ Sewerperson, polaven & Ekeon (p. JOLLY WRLD x Vesta)

shout out guardin for letting me remix this <3
@guardinmusic

original song: Guardinmusic – Geronimo

shoutout 93feetofsmoke for producing the original:
@93feetofsmoke

guardin - geronimo (hateful remix)

prod. @remghost + @sshinju

lyrics
--------
just remember you said that you want this
be honest you harness control of the rest
and if i can recall could've swore that you promised
by august we'd talk bout what's best
indecisive dishonor is lurking upon us
it's still living on in my chest
i could talk but you just wanna walk in a circle
you got what you wanted instead

and you're crawling
all the way back to your home
all is falling
down to the river below
how appalling
you're someone i do not know
please stop talking
anxiously waiting to go

how exhausting this cycle is constantly running
behind every program you have
and in order to escape control alt delete it
you cut your whole friends list in half
cause they walk with a switchblade a knife in their pocket
just plotting their way to attack
but their collars stay crooked their colors start bleeding
unfolding their plan to collapse 

oh no
it happened again
guess he wasn't a friend
oh no
these industry men
with their shiny words said

music video

centipede (prod. remghost x shinju)

lyrics
--------
yeah we cruise through life
with our grip held tight
if only time could tell
cause our fears just might
collide with dreams we had
all these paths offline
if i could make more sense of things i like
regardless
i create what i feel inside
this thera-peutic place where my tears all dried
it's blissful seasons change & the time flies by
i always feel so strained and i don't know why
be honest
how many mother fuckers do what you do?
you got everything you want but ain't nobody got you
they're so amazed by the constant drops, the plays & the views
but i'm deranged, fucking insane, spittin my pain in the booth
it's a mad fucking world we chasin pennies & truth
can you believe i fucking made it dodged a box & a suit
i'm just a boy from outer space who ain't got nothing to lose
so imma chase away the pain with 40 ounces of booze

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

i burn a blunt & bridge the gap to what is left
i'm upset cause half my childhood was theft
it's apparent that my scars all tell a story east to west
but i can't tell it cause i'm occupied by beds i overslept
in a second i'll feel fine, but in a minute i'm depressed
all these voices in my head been telling me what to do next
is there any fucking answers underneath the skin i'm dressed
in i always think about it till i say nah & forget
there's evil locked inside me but i don't know where it went
so i practice tying knots in case the thoughts inside my head
leave me manic watch me panic bout the past until i'm dead
all because some fucking loser touched my dick when i was ten
yeah they say men can't be raped but i'm a victim in the end
let it shake up my whole world until the day that i ascend
it's a blessing and a curse but what's worse is most men
do not open up about it till they start to comprehend
fuck

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

yeah we thrown in the ocean
deep end swimmin with a pocket full of potions
vices to commend the fallen ones that lost their focus
i'm a toy solider moving weight in slow motion
oh shit
i'm losing focus
how the fuck you fix it with a bottle and some roaches
you ain't been yourself & it's been noted by the hopeless
they look up to you & you've been stuck in a hypnosis
no sis
i ain't drunk that's bullshit
i've been chasing dreams and getting money on the road shit
i cut off my friends by being anxious on some ghost shit
i don't like myself and i don't even think i'll post this
fuck another track about myself you probably know this
i can hardly breathe but you're too dense to even notice
is it a.d.d. or apathy of all i know
this year has been the worst for me but i don't like to boast
chyeaaahhh so

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

monday (prod. astoriablvd)

lyrics
--------
take a breath and count to eight
you're home again & safe
the windows locked in case
say you love what i create
i wish i felt the same
it's only my escape
they say it's not too late
but i accept this fate
this trains become defaced
the monster hunts his prey
the scent of pure decay
it seeps & starts to stain
the seams all start to fray
let's stay inside today

the wind begins to blow
as trees all fill with crows
& watch you as you go
another night alone
we drink to stay afloat
it's closing up my throat
when words do not express
the feelings i compress
they cast beyond my head
& all the lights do fade
the darkness lends us shade
we cease to find our way
let's stay inside today

take a breath & count to eight
you're home again & safe

welcome home (prod. anthony del grosso)

lyrics
--------
do not sell yourself short on what you bring
incomparable to those that believe
oh the time has come
to break bones and bleed
out the pores it flows
spread onto the leaves

the road in front of me's
one of recovery
cover the shelves
hide all the cutlery
coloring subtly 
suddenly
i don't feel quite like myself
real slowly
i'll begin twisting and folding
stripping off layers of clothing
just like a spider i'm molting
i do not know where i'm going
remote location withholding
onto the past it's revolting
i think my brain is corroding
shh this levels still loading
frozen now this game's corrupted
i'm on a path toward destruction
this road is closed for construction
sorry that i'm disappointing

the contortionist (prod. anthony del grosso)

lyrics
--------
start stating the obvious
take weight off of the audience
you're blistering and calloused
in your worn out shoes
forge the path you stagger down
in hopes that you'll come back around
it's cold inside these hand me downs
but i'll pull through
start stating the obvious
take weight off of the audience
you're blistering and calloused
in your worn out shoes
forge the path you stagger down
in hopes that you'll come back around
it's cold inside these hand me downs
but i'll pull through

am i dancing on the edge
or is the edge really imaginary
falling short of breath
i'm reading into what's unnecessary
does this mean anything
cause i am unsure
i'm closing my eyes
becoming one with the decor

substance i need something
i've been floating feeling nothing
i'm in search of what's inside me
several people in my body
i don't know them
they've been lying
twisting cables
falsifying
gripping onto what is left
i'm trying hard to just forget
the person that i am waiting for
once everybody's left ignored
am i deranged for feeling torn
i am i
i am i
is it okay to close my eyes
for i'm afraid of what i'll find
tucked under tape that's stuck inside
holding on
holding on

this is not imaginary
i can feel it flow
trickling inside of me
whenever i'm alone
porcelain my face
& ivory beneath the bone
deep beneath my bones
my absence was temporary
please pick up your phone
sorry for the gaps in conversation
i was stoned
certain i was trying
now i'm dying real slow
guess it's time to go

and now the scars that haunt your mind
capture and hold onto your eyes
lock them in place for one last time
here we are
here we are
for when you wake up you will find
all of the things you've left behind
start to configure and allign
i am i
i am i

one with the decor (prod. anthony del grosso)

lyrics
--------
baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

safety harness me into the mainstream
snip on these straps till i'm dangling
over the heads of the people who i put my trust in
trusted you but now even that's busted
adapting quick well adjusted
you make me sick i'm disgusted
functionality is vital when your future spirals
down a path you've been tryna follow
evidently i'll be hollowed out and placed in piles
it's the price that you pay to smile
they don't like it when i'm speaking out
here we go again you done freaking out
yeah this cold ass world got me freezing
i guess i'll keep dreaming now
it's like this huh

baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

do not forget
it's important
things could be much worse
and surely time will sort it
please don't forfeit
it's important
life is beautiful
in time i'm sure you'll learn that
all we know is we're comfortable
at the rate that things are moving we in slow mo mo
take it with a grain of salt cause we still grow grow grow
planting seeds inside this garden
we ain't finish what we started no

baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

forfeit (prod. anthony del grosso)

s/o to deckabeats & alsbeatz for bringing this one to life
& s/o to you for stickin' around! it's guardin szn!

lyrics
--------
clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i guess the goal is
to set my body back beside my soul
cause i guess really all i wants control
this world is ugly but we paint it gold
i've lost my discretion a decrepit hole
sits inside my body where i tug and pull
and pull and pull
your life code was patched
with a fine tooth comb
all the lights were detached
i guess nobody's home
in your bed lies a match
where the fire was thrown
i don't like where this goes
can you leave me alone
(cause when the)

clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i don't wanna do this
feeling like i got to
channel what i'm bestowed
pushing on the gas
till i'm drivin real fast
when i crash imma reload

enter the void

distant memories (prod. deckabeats x alsbeatz)

happy halloween! thought i'd hit y'all with a fun one for the holidays!
s/o to @siemspark + @rjpasin for brining this to life!

lyrics
--------
wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

and i don't think that you're alright
it's the little things about you i've been noticing on site
you've been howling all night
inconsistencies will always be attached to your life
if you're running don't hide
cause the probability of getting caught is so high
oh and at least i fucking tried
a corrupt intervention when your truth is just a lie
so throw this away
flush it right down the drain
you've perfected your aim
looks like nothings changed
so maybe

wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

half baked (prod. siem spark x rj pasin)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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the contortionist (prod. anthony del grosso)

guardin

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