I love your music so fucking much ❤️ 

@i_k_a_r_i I'm so sorry I hope ur doing well keep ur head up 

This song this whole project 🙍🏼‍♀️

lyrics
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sadness & sorrow
is all i embody
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody
inside my head
it's always so cloudy
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody

don't tell nobody
whatchu really feelin
i cocoon myself & dissociate when i feel it
scratch off my eyelids
slowly revealing
every single dissatisfaction i've come to deal with
of course the course i'm driving is full of formaldehyde
hiding deep inside the spaces of places i'll never find
the inevitable factor of rattling what's inside
is the base of all your struggle so buckle up for the ride
sign the waver in your favor for fucking up all your time
the pandemic academically taught us all how to hide
hopefully we all come out of this happier & alive
with a better understanding of standing outside the lines
my creative continuity caught a cold in july
though the weather was much better my feathers just never dried
hung my coat up in the closet consuming my modest mind
overcame it when i aimed it & shot it back at the sky 

sadness & sorrow
is all i embody
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody
inside my head
it's always so cloudy
don't tell nobody
don't tell nobody

cocoon

lyrics
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we could become fireworks and burn out in the sky
lost stability in august but we're almost to july
spread the message out to everyone it's worth another try
i'll convince both you & i that i am fine
i am fine i am fine 

this is the song that you play when you feelin the worst
this is the one that you crank until both of your speakers don't work
this is the song that you play when you're down in the dirt
this is the one that you hate cause you know you relate & you know that it hurts
this is the song that you play on a rainy day
everything's shit
hand me the bottle & i'll take the pain away
yeah
vices in ice & i sip till it fade away
life is a blur & i think i might hurl if it comes back up straight away

i just always feel alone in all of this
maybe i could talk about it write some shit
cause everybody going through the motions with
their lives & in an instant we could not exist
so why the fuck am i so silent hiding this
my suicidal tendencies of violence
against myself are scaring me & i'll be missed
if i decide to take a leap in my abyss

i am fine

fireworks

lyrics
--------
are you sleeping are you dead?
this the interlude that you listen to in bed
cut the pillow talk you aint gettin in my head
there's a quarter million things that i rather leave unsaid
wait wait one minute gotta find my pair of slides
are we smokin outback are we steppin in the ride
might toss you the keys i can't drive it if i'm fried
turn the radio on shit that's me i'm world wide
shit changed not me tho dude
i've been sippin bombay with a birds eye view
tryna kick it at the crib with a long ass queue
you remember all the days we smoked outta old blue?
yeah i miss that shit
rippin bongs all day in a kickass fit
with my dogs all blazed taking big ass hits
push my soul to the edge like it's soul cal 6

are you listening to this?
it's another track from the dude that never miss
is it coincidental fragmental how we fix
up our issues misusing the substances that make us sick
kick the bucket i chuck it so you can't see it when it lands
if this poet got hella potent we puffin twenty grams
save the eight for a rainy day when you feelin hella bad
it's the artisan mr cardigan best you ever had
do not take it serious
this the one fun track
do not get delirious
cereal i eat it it's a spoon fed experience
yeah i thought that line was hilarious
but we headin back to the project
get a couple lines in
bout some motherfuckers
who can barely get their lines read
arch nemesis you a clown with your eyes red
bozo the bitch you just mad you ain't widespread

one minute

lyrics
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raindrops come to life
i told you a million times
some obsess & some are nice
come inside come inside
raindrops come to life
i called you so mortified
it pushed up in your weary mind
come inside come inside

you're taking me out of it
out of the rain but the clouds will remain
yeah you're taking me out of it
god i'm ashamed of who i became
yeah the face is anonymous
but i can detect based upon dialect
cause he still stays synonymous
to me because we are the same entity
disembody him

raindrops come to life
i told you a million times
some obsess & some are nice
come inside come inside
raindrops come to life
i called you so mortified
it pushed up in your weary mind
come inside come inside

awaken the audience
cause i've got a show & it's ready to go
yeah awaken the audience
the curtains hang low so pull em back slow 
is his character obvious
developing woes as he tips on his toes
tryna bottle his rowdiness
with a grip his soul i can feel him let go
he's victorious

raindrops come to life
i told you a million times
some obsess & some are nice
come inside come inside
raindrops come to life
i called you so mortified
it pushed up in your weary mind
come inside come inside

stratus

lyrics
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i'm in the backseat with my bros
we've been on the road
hittin' potholes in the sprinter van
i'm leanin' out the window
breeze all in my coat
you were on my mind before this began
and if truth truly be told
when i'm all alone
i scroll on my phone tryna reminisce
it don't matter where we go
i just hope you know
you the one thing that i always miss

you the one thing that i always miss (x4)

started up in buffalo
new york kinda cold
but i call it home and i always will
crossin over the rainbow
bridge to toronto
gettin' kinda snacky so we hit no frills
bout to play another show
pack it up and go
capturing the glow while the city still
captivated to and fro
me & all my bros
how the fuck is any of this really real?

really real
really real
i used to struggle tryna figure how i really feel
i made a song or two about it made me really feel
like i was less alone in all this honestly it healed me
i remember making beats up at my moms
thinking one day imma make it out the house with all these songs
simple times but drastic measures picked me up and made me strong
now i'm writing all these words and sitting right where i belong

i'm in the backseat with my bros
we've been on the road
hittin' potholes in the sprinter van
i'm leanin' out the window
breeze all in my coat
you were on my mind before this began
and if truth truly be told
when i'm all alone
i scroll on my phone tryna reminisce
it don't matter where we go
i just hope you know
you the one thing that i always miss

you the one thing that i always miss (x4)

potholes

lyrics
--------
kill me
take me out of my own misery
baby you know that you miss me
baby i know that you miss me
i don't want this to be simply
put but i miss you so dearly
i just want you to be with me
i just want you to be with me

projecting my thoughts on the ceiling
i watched as the paint started peeling
it couldn't withstand all the weight i'm afraid it's too late
now the structures revealing
the stars beyond boards in the distance
i reach to the sky for assistance
but heaven is lightyears away and the sky's rather gray
so i think that i missed it
i sit & i ponder bout whether
i'm able to predict the weather
cause if i am capable of it 
my dearly beloved we'd belong together
but that's only half of the story
i wish i could soak up the glory
but anxiety's got a grip on my shoulders
and shit i don't know if i'm sorry

and they say you miss all of the shots that you don't ever take
so i've been photographing every moment spent while i'm awake
i'm a critic my worst enemy my hours decimate
i'm afraid of running out of time it's hard to explicate
expediting life expectancies like how much can i take
i set standards while i drown myself compile all the weight
this discography's disgusting i'm ashamed of all i make
but this sequel subsequently pieced together all the breaks
breaking down inside my bedroom nothing new upon my plate
repetitious vicious cycles i'll recycle all my hate
channel every fucking ounce back towards myself oh what a waste
god if i could only disappear without a single trace

it'd be bliss
i would not be missed
they pretend they like you you disgusting piece of shit
salvage all the cargo from this busted rustic ship
so i can sail away upon whatever i equipped

phantom's return

lyrics
--------
please don't go
i've been swaying to & fro
i've been waiting all alone
in the dark without your glow
so please don't go
i'm afraid you'll never show
i'll abandon all i know
if it keeps us both afloat
  
the worst part
being a misfit
is that you misfit
amongst the misfits
unless you try your
hardest to fit in
what is the mission
what are you missing
i hate the distance
between my heart and my home
it feels like every place i've roamed has left me feeling alone
i think a lot about the ways that i could leave but i don't
cause i've got lots to fucking say in all these things that i wrote
i pass the blunt to my bro
he's sick of feeling the same
we put another in rotation just to ease all our pain
it's evident that our intent is reinventing our names
a break is needed when you grieving off what's lost in the flames
and i've got lots of fucking reasons to cement what i say
you pay a penny for my thoughts a couple more for the train
we heading north up to new york i'll talk to you the whole way
we'll trade some music for some memories that pass through the day
so please don't go
please don't go

the pines

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

lyrics
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you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

ft. @sewerperson x @lilnarnia
prod. @youlooktiredx

lyrics
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wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

looks like you’ve got nothing done
your value is lost
oh what have you become
the critic inside you is holding a gun
to your head one false move and the chamber is spun
i’m a fake to myself live uncomfortably numb
mechanism for coping is biting my tongue
i’ve lost focus in all this sought solace in sun-
-light is burning my eyes which direction is it coming from
stupid thoughts hault my momentum run from everyone
and everything ignore your friends & family it’s fun
i stopped caring so damn long ago zero to one
i commentate my complications constantly i’m done

wish i would’ve stayed in my bed
put all my dreams in my nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath
(x2)

you cannot hurt me
but she gon break me down into a fine pulp
this shit taste like chicken i can barely tell its asphalt
sumn creep up behind me when i turn around its no one
she could rip my face from off my body and its my fault
pause
she dont really mean it she just do it for the applause
i choose not to believe it all of a sudden i am calm
im convinced they hate me but they lock it in their thoughts
i just need some reassurance here and there to keep me going
girl can u tell me whats up
i cant read ur face when u got ur walls up
look out on the lake u could see it light up
its even better in the winter u should try to come up

seems like summer never started
haven’t left my apartment in months
why can’t I just get you out
keep screaming with my head down
feels like nothing is an option
and im always exhausted
tryna pull myself together
check my phone and its december whatever
wish i would’ve stayed youda liked that
put all my dreams in a nightstand
you said i changed with your eyes red
whispered okay under my breath

yeah
she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again

willow ave (ft. sewerperson x lil narnia) (prod. youlooktired)

lyrics
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i fell asleep in the backseat
with my eyes wide shut bumpin backstreet
we arrived on time to the crash scene
i just stared as i saw my body pass me
could’ve swore that this shit happened last week
got a hunch it’s a reoccurring bad dream
had a bunch last year when they asked me
what is it that you fear in your passing?

what is it that you fear in your passing?
maybe death but it’s more so in the crashing
do i feel everything as it’s flashing?
do i care? does it hurt? yeah i’m asking
cause i don’t have a clue how to feel
why do all of these dreams seem so real?
would it change if i just took the wheel?
i don’t know till all four tires squeal

i’m stuck in a nightmare
scared by where my eyes stare
no clipping through my car door
my body will just lie there
reaching towards the skies stairs
you won’t make it i swear
the current is pulling me
i’m hoping i don’t die here
(x2)

floating to the surface
i guess life is worth it
beat the fuck out of myself
tell me that i deserve it
anxious is a person
for that i am certain
i embody all my fears
and wear them like a curtain

cuba lake

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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