what would u know abt being retarded
i throw my brain straight into the garbage
because im sofucking bad at social interactions
because i have such a strong passion for star wars
and also ww2 and ancestry and history 
and all these other things that normal people dont obsess over
i guess its just over
i guess its just over

im a fucking retarded loser i have no friends
i spend everyday inside on my computer i wanna die
the only girl that gave me valentines every year was my mom
i got bullied viciously i live in misery

oh my god i hate my fucking life dude

im anxious as fuck and im depressed as fuck and im suicidal
and i have been for a while
but its hard to wake up every morning and pretend its alright
but at least i have my favorite video game fortnite

why is my life harder because im autistic

waking up and getting blocked 
why does my life have to suck
my body hurts 
my arms r bruised 
fuck this shit im super cursed
u hear those screams 
theyre full of pain
i wish she wasnt just a dream
in my sleep i can escape
in my sleep ill catch a break

	
when will it be my turn
i was doomed from the start
maybe i should stab my heart (2x)


ive fallen victim to myself
at this point i should kms 
the time has come
and i feel dumb
im thinking what have i become
numbness all over me
i just wanna feel something
picking at my scars 
so ill bleed until i see stars 

when will it be my turn
i was doomed from the start
maybe i should stab my heart
maybe i should stab my heart

doomed from the start

(Kanashi1)
It’s all in my head
nothing is real 
She’s got white hair and
My black heart is real 
And I cry I cry about it 
While she’s in my head she’s haunting 
 
Don’t notice me 
What do I do 
To get the key to your heart 
I want to be with you 
All I dream about is to have me be a part of you

(h4rtclinic)
white hair shes so pretty
why shes looking at me
why cant you see
you dont notice me
mayb ill take the key the key to your heart
youll be a part of me n ill be a part of u
but she dont need me
but i need her

white hair (ft. Kanashi1)

yuh i like my cheese drippy bruh
pull up to the spot and i fuck it fuck it up
yuh i like my cheese drippy bruh
pull up the spot i like my cheese drippy bruh

uh uh fuck it up
pull up on the party and im rollin up a blunt
uh yuh and i say i say whats up
every body knows im the best at

if she dont hawk tuah i dont wanna talk tuah x4

i like my cheese drippy bruh

prod me
ft @blehh2
s/o @odihu i took his flow

my little ponys the best
better than all the rest
shitty fucking shows
on television now
i hate waking up
to yet another cartoon
that doesnt have
fucking ponies jumping around
x2

yeah i wish i was a kid again 
wake up in the morning
yeah i'm turning on the television
watchin all the ponies
dance around and sing their silly songs
i wish i was a kid again
i wish i was a kid again
i wish i was a

what's the plan for today
are we fighting discord,
princess moon, or playin games
my eyes glued to the screen
no i'm not lookin away
my eyes glued to the screen
no i can't look away
no i can't look cause

my little ponys the best
better than all the rest
shitty fucking shows
on television now
i hate waking up
to yet another cartoon
that doesnt have
fucking ponies jumping around
x2

my little pony's the best

my little pony's the best (ft. blehh)

decided to make an alt for demos and songs ill never finish hi whatsup 
lyrics: 
jenny is the girl that i wanna meet
her shiny blonde hair is so pretty
i wanna be hers and hers only
but no matter what i do, she hasnt seen me
shes cool, smart, athletic, and super friendly
i know im the only one that she needs
with her looks she can make a pretty penny
with those eyes she can stare right into me










jenny come home

the beauty in the small things (demo)

i dont want to play your bad game
i dont want to play a game where i lose
i dont want to play a game where i cant choose
a good ending with you

i think this game hates me
i see your body in 2d
my face fills with a full red
cus youre in control of my head

bad game

i do miss you
im most comfortable 
when you crush my neck

i do love you
im most vulnerable 
around you but i dont care

i do miss you

hollywood hills

i don't care
anyway 
but nothing seems to be going my way
i'm a joke
got no hope
better off as roadkill on the highway
i don't know
what to do
still don't have the balls to go and talk to you
i don't think
that this will
work out the way i thought it would in my head

everything is a waste of time
can't see the point in trying
give up and fall in line
or you're better off dying
i never understood the point
but now my life feels so destroyed
but there's always something new
and i can't fucking talk to you

everything
that i try
seems like social fucking suicide
dumb and lame
got no aim
i just wanna be a cool guy
i don't know
what to do
still don't have the balls to go and talk to you
i don't think
that this will
work out the way i thought it would in my head

everything is a waste of time
can't see the point in trying
give up and fall in line
or you're better off dying
i never understood the point
but now my life feels so destroyed
but there's always something new
and i can't fucking talk to you

i don't care

demos & throwaways (main is @h4rtbrkr)

i delete stuff alot and then spam upload and then reupload said deleted stuff

the beauty in the small things (demo)

h2rtbrkr