you wanna call me? i ask you often
i make some noise but i never end up talking
i dont know how to make it better
and im sinking further everyday 
cause im so full of condemnation
of all my thoughts, all my actions, everything i do
so on the day when you end up leaving
ill blame a lot of things but i wont blame you

no i wont blame you
i wont blame you
i wont blame you 
no i wont blame you
i wont blame you

won't blame you

lyrics:

i'm losing my own mind 
somebody please come help me
i don't think im fine
you got so lost inside my eyes 
you keep on staring i don't have much time

found somebody who would love me
never angry 
got you're so ugly
you hated my own guts that's what you said 
when we we're all alone in bed

filled my heart with all of your lies
filled my brain up head in the skies

bottled up emotions
you have no idea where i've been
lost my trust to you then
got your name right in my head

seeing you dead brings me joy
i can't even hear your voice

i'm losing my own mind 
somebody please come help me
i don't think im fine
you got so lost inside my eyes 
you keep on staring i don't have much time

found somebody who would love me
never angry 
got you're so ugly
you hated my own guts that's what you said 
when we we're all alone in bed

free download

internet civilian

interlude

Another day
where you can feel fine
sell your soul to the people online
cut yourself forever offline
i'll never make it out of this tide 

forever offline (demo)

i'm too clingy
i'm too attached
but i never know how to really change that
i'm too clingy
i'm too attached
and i don't really know how to fucking change that

damn i already fucked it up
n i think ur losing love
all my friends say i need to chill
to chill
but i can't help these anxious thoughts
that happen in my brain
n i just really think i need to kill
myself

i just need to vent

@thisismyreality

this
Your an evil human 
But you can't help it 
Anymore
Don't wanna see you fall apart
Your so stupid
Your so stupid

love cupid
i think your stupid
your not that smart
didnt know you
take it this fucking far
i wanna kill you 
i wanna capture you 
i wanna see you bleed 
i wanna hurt you
you said u fcking hate me
like its my fault
i started doing some drugs
i got some withdraws
ik you hate me
like its my fault
or im i just on withdraws
do i mean nothing to you x6

why are you so evil ft  thisismyreality

hey there kaylynn
lets just try one more time
i swear im patient
dont keep me waiting

youre so pretty
i wish you knew how i felt
i know you dont even really like me
cant say id say youd stay its unlikely
well i know you do he seems so unsightly
well i love you just know i'll keep fighting
your boyfriends a fucking prick 
you need to be with me and snap out of it

hey there kaylynn
lets just try one more time
i swear im patient
dont keep me waiting x2

kaylynn (demo)

you suck bitch i hate you
fuck this i came to

somewhere in pomona 
youre over all of my shit
and i finally got sober
i know her she is such a bitch
you really need to get over yourself
you really need to get shot in the skull
i gotta crush on you do you crush on me too
well maybe you do but i hate you dumb bitch

hater anthem song

you make me blush for real
stupid jerk* i love you for real
i have to go meow
i hope you know how
to reach me if you ever need a
i love you with all of my heart
i love you with all of mine
i would heart your message but his name is in vain
im sorry to say sorry im so far from saint

will i die before i know your touch
will i get to kiss you like oh so much
well i have some issues that i wont blow up
but at the end of the day well i hope its still us

its still us

guess i'll get get get get over it
guess i'll get get get get over it
guess i'll get get get get over it
guess i'll get get get get over it
im over it and over it is you

if i run around for you
i wont bitch i'll change my tune
i dont know if it is true
i dont know if i know you

all those times in the fall when i
would hear your lies and start to cry
the tears would run down down my eyes
i prayed id died but im still alive

and i hate your friends
and i hate those bands
and i hate those things you do with them
and i hate the way that you could lie
straight to my face and in my eyes
as if i am slow or i am dumb
the way you hurt me made me numb
and now i will show that i am done
i know for sure youre not the one for me

i'll never forget how it felt to be
dropping my phone on the hardwood floor
my heart split and tore and the details galore

guess i'll get get get get over it
guess i'll get get get get over it
guess i'll get get get get over it
guess i'll get get get get over it
im over it and over it is you

get over it

https://open.spotify.com/album/4XIxvp8SB7lXzl8KWDuCec?si=u786T1vaSdy4CywIYlboww

lyrics:
i love you more than you could think
we live together in my dreams
i hope it wont take long
for that to be reality
ill kiss your lips
and hold your hands
ill sing you songs 
from your favorite bands
i'll do it all for you
for as long as i can breath

i love you more than you could think

demos & throwaways (main is @h4rtbrkr)

i delete stuff alot and then spam upload and then reupload said deleted stuff

get over it

h2rtbrkr