favorite h4rtbrkr demos (and throwaways ig??)

i regret making this

lyrics:
hey girl did you
know i like you
saw you online
yeah x4

hey girl whats up
youre my new crush
and im just jealous 
when you blush

at him not me 
see you staring
im just fucked up
yeah x4

so fuck u
always in a bad mood

dyed hair black nails 
wont fix ur attitude 

but u got issues 
anger that misuse

talkin lotta shit 
acting like somebody likes u

but your wasting all my time
with all your stupid lies 
i can see it in your eyes
you hate yourself and want to die

scene crush

garbage throwaway

r9k everyday i swear the sites rotting my brain
all the time everyday i think im gonna end it my way

i cant take another fucking day looking at this imageboard of a girl on r9k
i swear its a new girl everyday but i'll orbit her the same baby wont you look my way

r9k everyday i swear the sites rotting my brain
all the time everyday i think im gonna end it my way

when its time to go home
i'll see you there on my phone
i'll see you again

/r9k/ (unreleased demo)

not mines uploaded it cuz i liked it and it got deleted for sum reason

h4rtbrkr - teenage rockstar

i forgot to post this, dont use soundcloud that much anymore...

benice2me (bladee)

this is only sped up cus i thought it was too long

in the summer of 2022 thats when i met you
getting vaccines for school ooo
u were so sweet and kind so pretty and devine
i wanted to end my life but you
showed me that skys werent grey
that there was always happy days
turned my heart into clay 
i really miss you babe

to think abt all those months we spent last year
through fall and autumn and winter and summer
we talked and we talked and we had fun alot
and u were always gone but it was fine i didnt care

we were so happy u'd call me on instagram
and we would talk abt our days and id play guitar for you
and u said not to cut my hair cus u liked it long
and then i cut it when u were gone and i wrote this song

"juli says not to cut my hair she says let it grow"
well i will let you know

its hard to look at all the funny moments and the laughter
and the memories right after everything has gone to shit
i think abt the months we spent and then the months before that
and all i can think abt is how i wanna go to florida 

i dont hate u i was hurting i said shit i never meant
i handled the aftermath poorly and thats why you came and went
i know that if i was more mature or if i just used my words instead of screaming and yelling
then you wouldve still have been following my instagram and liking all my stories
we could just be friends and then something

i cant laugh look at the photographs
that shit it makes me sick
i hate it i hate it
i wanna die

now everything reminds me of you
like the nhk poster in my room
but its not too late we can still reconvene-

bugcatcherjuli (komi cant communicate season 2 episode 6)

creepiest loser of all time

my heart is made of flowers

without you what does my life amount to
(hand in hand is the only way to land)
glass on the pavement under my shoe

i wish you understood how much that meant to me

this is what falling in love feels like in my head if it were music

she started showing him all of my poems right?
and the next thing i know shes just showing everyone my poems.
and its really humiliating you know?

yeah.. thats awful.

this whole thing just made me feel really insecure about girls

nick i would never show your poems to anyone..

the feeling of falling in love (in the form of music)

i feel like shit does every song have to be a hit
cause lately ive not been feeling it
i never know when youre gonna quit
i think im gonna quit i think im gonna quit

writing songs to make you smile
all the fucking while
your heart it drives me wild
my heart stopped check my vitals

is that what she said about me

i cant do this anymore please kill me

demos & throwaways (main is @h4rtbrkr)

i delete stuff alot and then spam upload and then reupload said deleted stuff

i cant do this anymore please kill me

h2rtbrkr