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Hammy💀🔪

BLACK KRAY AKA SICKBOYRARI -  ALL RED  (PROD TAYLOR MORGAN X JOLST)

Bear1boss ~ Out Of Codeine (p. Jolst + Ghoul + Firemane)

Hey there
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care
But I've been dying slowly
I don't want you to be scared
Cause you're the one that kills me
And you kill me so well
And I know you like it too baby
I can just tell
Yeah, I can just tell
When your eyes meet mine
If I fall in love again
I might lose my mind
Cause if I lose you
Imma lose it all
Blacked out
In an empty bathroom stall

Yeah, I woke up fucked up
High from last night
Saw you in my dream
I wish it was real life
I've been burnt out
Broken
With no one by my side
Leave me out to die
But you know I still try

Leave me, bleed me
I just don't care
Hate me, blame me
I know it's not fair
Yeah, I'm crazy
Baby I won't lie
Got too many scars that I can't hide
Got too many cuts and bruises baby
Trust me I've been through it
Treat my heart just like another drug
The way that you abuse it
That's the reason I can't fall in love
You treat me like I'm stupid
You won't find nobody else
To love you like I did
And still do
Try to block you out my brain
But you break through
I can't sleep and I can't eat
When I think of you
Nothing ever feels the same as it used to

Hey there
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care
But I've been dying slowly
I don't want you to be scared
Cause you're the one that kills me
And you kill me so well
And I know you like it too baby
I can just tell
Yeah, I can just tell
When your eyes meet mine
If I fall in love again
I might lose my mind
Cause if I lose you
Imma lose it all
Blacked out
In an empty bathroom stall

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hey there (prod. frevel + 5head)

No I won't lie I miss her touch
Felt like pins and needles
On my skin at 4AM
She so bad, she evil
It's hard for me to open up
Cause I don't fuck with people
But whenever you're around
It's easy to breathe still
Yeah, it's like room gets filled with fresh air
Then I wake up from my dream
And you're not there
I could die right now, no I'm not scared
Give my life to you, no I don't care

Don't wanna feel no more
Leave my body on the floor
Her love's a bloodsport
Left me bloody and sore
But I've been here before
Way too many fucking times
Always going back and forth
With voices in my mind
I'm always going back and forth
And I'm so sick of it
Don't wanna talk about it
I would rather sing this shit
These days I'm careful who I trust
And who I call friend
So if we're riding together
Just know it's till the end

If you got me
Then I got you
Imma stay down
Imma stay true
Long as you feel
The way I do
We can make it
We can break through
But we broke apart
Burning out just like a star
Hurt me bad
Like a knife across my fucking heart
In your arms
Only place I ever wanna be
But now she's gone
And I'm lonely when I go to sleep

No I won't lie I miss her touch
Felt like pins and needles
On my skin at 4AM
She so bad, she evil
It's hard for me to open up
Cause I don't fuck with people
But whenever you're around
It's easy to breathe still
Yeah, it's like room gets filled with fresh air
Then I wake up from my dream
And you're not there
I could die right now, no I'm not scared
Give my life to you, no I don't care

pins & needles (prod. jolst + remghost)

prod. @jolst

lyrics
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what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible 

you took advantage and left me alone in the dark
i spent every second exchanging that pain into art
you waited for silence and sought to tear me apart 
i hate what you've done to me running free in my heart
my sense of direction is severed in seventy parts
this compass is broken and you knew that shit from the start
your lack of compassion was passively stored in compartments
i wreak havoc while you hide in your apartment

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

once upon a time this shit was right
but right now i'll not feelin all too nice
my heart is heavy frozen under ice
the warmth of whiskey cloaks my fucking spine
you stare at me with fingers intertwined
while we just sit in silence acting fine
i hate how everything just took a dive
we're hanging on just trying to survive

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

you took my light
you took my shine

follow jolst

impossible (prod. jolst)

In my head and in my heart
I'm burnin' up just like a star
In the sky and in the night
I wanna find out where you are
In my dreams and in my sleep
You're the only one I see
You can take it all away
Take this fuckin' pain from me

I'm so sick of the same old routine
Woke up in the same bad dream
Can't tell what the fuck you mean
When you don't say anything

Take my heart, hold it close
Breathe me in just like the smoke
On your love I'll overdose
Drop dead and turn to a ghost
Take my heart, hold it close
Breathe me in just like the smoke
On your love I'll overdose
Drop dead and turn to a ghost

Turning into nothing at all
It's like you expect me to fall
But I can't look back, can't let go
I won't switch, no I can't fold
Watching all the time fly away
I saw our memories fade
Old problems on a new day
Feels like I'll never escape

In my head and in my heart
I'm burnin' up just like a star
In the sky and in the night
I wanna find out where you are
In my dreams and in my sleep
You're the only one I see
You can take it all away
Take this fuckin' pain from me

take it all away (prod. silver + methboiswag)

3. CHOPPAH CITY LONE (PROD REMGHOST X JOLST)

I don't need your love
If it's toxic
I don't need my heart
You can have it
You can have it all
Just take it
Take it to the grave
Don't trade it
You can have it all
I don't need it back
I would bleed for you
Yeah I want it bad
Hope you know it's true
Hope you notice that
This the way that i feel
No it's not an act

Yeah it's not a lie
Every time we lock eyes
I feel alive
I was watching stars die
By your side
Swear you got me tongue tied
You don't even try
You don't even try
You don't even try
I don't gotta lie
Looking in your eyes
Like stars in the night
I can help you heal
All scars that you hide
Can you be my light
When it's dark outside
Will you be my guide
Cause I'm lost
Without you
Everything so fake
So brand new
I don't really know where to go
It feels like nowhere's my home

I don't need your love
If it's toxic
I don't need my heart
You can have it
You can have it all
Just take it
Take it to the grave
Don't trade it
You can have it all
I don't need it back
I would bleed for you
Yeah I want it bad
Hope you know it's true
Hope you notice that
This the way that i feel
No it's not an act

to the grave! (prod. jolst + sor)

(Can't stop, no I can't stay still)
(And I can't tell how the fuck to feel)
(When you tell me that our love's not real)
(Can you tell me what the fuck's your deal?)

Can't stop, no I can't stay still
And I can't tell how the fuck to feel
When you tell me that our love's not real
Can you tell me what the fuck's your deal?

You tell me this and that
But you don't tell me the truth
If I told you how I feel
You would hate me too
Been to hell and back
I did it all for you
I'd walk until my face turn blue
(Just to see your point of view)
(Walk a mile in your shoes)

Can't stop, no I can't stay still
And I can't tell how the fuck to feel
When you tell me that our love's not real
Can you tell me what the fuck's your deal?

(Can't stop, no I can't stay still)
(And I can't tell how the fuck to feel)
(When you tell me that our love's not real)
(Can you tell me what the fuck's your deal?)

stay still (prod. grayskies)

You made a promise to me
I keep that promise for you
Till the day that i die
You know I'm staying true
Staying right by your side
I feel like I'm alive
I'll tell it how it is
No I don't gotta lie

They gonna lie to your face
Tell you everything's fine
When it's not okay
You gotta laugh and put a smile on
I know it's so fake
But it's all apart of the game
That we play
I'm still finding my way
I just wanna feel something
Tell me anything it's better than nothing
Lately I've been getting
Too fucked up to function
Got an ice cold soul
Heart's frozen
Heart's open

You made a promise to me
I keep that promise for you
Till the day that I die
You know I'm staying true
Staying right by your side
I feel like I'm alive
I'll tell it how it is
No I don't gotta lie

I'll tell you how I really feel
You know imma keep it real
Long as my heart beating still
Long as I can still breathe
You know I'm gonna do me
Till my lungs are empty
Yeah I'm gonna do me
I don't want your fake love I got plenty
I can sense the jealousy and the envy
You said you had my back
Now you wanna see me bleed
That's just how it be

promise (prod. recyclebin + jolst)

Every time you lied to me
It makes me suicidal
Baby I don't wanna breathe
If I can't stand beside you
Every time I looked inside your eyes
I see the stars move
Always tried my hardest
Not to put you in a bad mood

You said you could save me
Bring me back to safety
Left me here to die
Now you acting like you hate me
Think I'm going crazy
Does life have any meaning?
Sleeping in the morning
Wake up in the evening

Every time I wake up
Wanna close my eyes again
Darkness coming in
Eventually it all will end

My life of nothingness
Walk this road a lonely mess
I'm on my own again
All the walls are caving in

I hate my Anxiety
You could never understand the brain inside of me
I suffer silently
My smile seems to hide from me
She did me wrong
I still love her
Guess its irony

I bury memories
Gotta keep them underneath
When see her in my dreams
It gets hard to breathe
Her love turned me to a fiend
I'd do anything
Please don't lie to me
Tell me everything

Lately Life ain't what it seems
Wish I wasn't me
Inner demons creeping out just to bother me
Almost constantly
I struggle just to get to sleep
Put me in my grave I would rather
Rest in peace

Fall back cuz I know that you're not mine
Girl I been going through it since like 09
So trife, fuck it I guess I wanna die
When I'm away, I just wanna be by your side ya

Everyday I'm switching lanes tryna find yea
Girl we have talked in a minute aye yea
I been on the grind for a minute aye yea
But I'll be coming home let's kick it aye yea

eventually it all will end ft. cøzybøy (prod. absxntmind)

From the bottom of my cold heart
You know I loved you
Put you in my past life
That's what the drugs do
Acid on a cold night
Fucking freezing
Oh my god
I'm so high
Think I'm peaking

I'm going the distance
Just gotta stay consistent
They would never listen
But now they treat me different
It's because I'm glo'd up
Gave it all my focus
You gotta work your hardest
If you want people to notice

No days off I'm never sleeping
Writing songs in my head
While I'm dreaming
All my life I'm stuck
Searching for a meaning
Wish I gave a fuck
I can't find a reason

I can't find a reason
Bitch I'm smoking trees
And I'm so clueless
Does she love me?
Or she leaving
Oh that's perfect
That's exactly what I needed
A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
I'm rolling hard
In the night
And I'm looking at the stars
Took my life
And she ripped it all apart
I put it back
But you can see the scars

You can see the scars
All the pain inside my eyes
I'm just another kid
That's tortured by his mind
Thought of getting out
Like 1000 fucking times
I can barely breathe
But I just say I'm fine

I just say I'm fine
Anxiety inside
Makes it hard to sleep at night
Smoking get me right
Gets me out head
You talking shit to me
But I'm in your bitches bed
In between her legs

I be going stupid
I'm ruthless
Go behind my back
I'll leave you toothless
Leave you looking useless
Like bro what are you doing
Your whole life a lie
Say you winning but you losing

From the bottom of my cold heart
You know I loved you
Put you in my past life
That's what the drugs do
Acid on a cold night
I'm fucking freezing
Oh my god
I'm so high
I think I'm peaking

past life (prod. xtravulous)

(Another night spent alone)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)
(How much you fuck with my head)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)

Another night spent alone
Sometimes I wish you could know
How much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking, drinking coffee
Scars on me like a zombie
For you baby I'm crazy
Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep

I can't breathe, sinking deeper
Things are different, we're older
The world is on our shoulders
I feel it growing colder

Crush my dreams, watch them shatter
None of this even matters
Wanna die when I think about her
Wish I could know what's after

I'm a ghost, yeah I feel like Casper
When you're near me, my heart beats faster
And when I see you my mind starts racing
I've been working, now life's changing

No sleep, my body's aching
I'm no good at conversation
Need you like medication
'Cause every night I'm contemplating

Another night spent alone
Sometimes I wish you could know
How much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking, drinking coffee
Scars on me, like a zombie
For you baby I'm crazy
Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep

(Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep)
(Scars on me, like a zombie)
(Maybe I'm going crazy)
(I wish that you would love me)

zombie (prod. jody)

prod. jD & Xander

Hope I get to see you again
Before this life comes to an end
Cause you make my head fucking spin

On the edge
I don't wanna fall
Mastercard
When I hit the mall
Girl for you
I'd buy it all
Dress you up
Just like a doll
Pins and needles
When she's on me
In my lap in the backseat
She's my heart
She's all I need
Late at night
And I'm smoking trees

Up all night
I still can't sleep
Head's a mess
Yeah I'm a creep
On my own I walk the street
Her shadow's haunting me

Her shadow's haunting me

Only thing I wanna see

I wish you were next to me
Forever till we rest in peace
Together till we both can't breathe
Connected through our memories
I love how she's so unique
I'm so high they cannot reach
Margielas up on both my feet
They jealous now
Wanna be like me

Margielas up on both my feet

They jealous now wanna be like me

On the edge
I don't wanna fall
Mastercard
When I hit the mall
Girl for you
I'd buy it all
Dress you up
Just like a doll
Pins and needles
When she's on me
In my lap in the backseat
She's my heart
She's all I need
Late at night
And I'm smoking trees

Up all night
I still can't sleep

Head's a mess
Yeah I'm a creep

creep (prod. jD & Xander)

I'm too numb now
Can't come down
Just a fucked up kid from a small town
Used to doubt my dreams
They real now
Used to hate on me
How you feel now?

Ricks on my feet when I walk round
Silver on my teeth when I bite down
CDG 03 when I pop out
You only care about me cause I'm hot now

You only come around when I'm winning
Nowhere to be found when I'm bleeding
Stab me in the back for no reason
Thought you loved me
Why you leaving?

So sick of all these feelings
Growing tired of breathing
All this money means nothing
When you hate existing

Yeah I don't love these hoes I put that on my bitch
Hit from the back out the back door I dip
Nut then I cut I left that on her lip
Don't show no love these bitches ain't shit
Every time you come around you just bring drama
I need more bands I need more commas
Every time I get some more it be more problems
Yeah it be more prada
Yeah I get so high can't feel my heartbeat
All black dripped out its a dark sea
They just want us home got us locked in
I been in the stu I been locked in
And I never planned on stoppin
I know that they watchin when I'm gone and on the road
A lotta niggaz hatin so I gotta keep that pole
Paranoid and I'm numb that's fasho
Yeah these drugs got me gone
These drugs got me gone
These drugs got me numb
These drugs got numb
Yeah these drugs got me gone that's fasho

I'm too numb now
Can't come down
Just a fucked up kid from a small town
Used to doubt my dreams
They real now
Used to hate on me
How you feel now?

Ricks on my feet when I walk round
Silver on my teeth when I bite down
CDG 03 when I pop out
You only care about me cause I'm hot now

You only come around when I'm winning
Nowhere to be found when I'm bleeding
Stab me in the back for no reason
Thought you loved me
Why you leaving?

So sick of all these feelings
Growing tired of breathing
All this money means nothing
When you hate existing

can't come down ft. pillxxx (prod. maxtaylor)

thank you for listening 
<3
@jolst


 i just wish you were here 
holding me 
cause my thoughts hurt less 
when you lay next to me 
but u don’t care at all
blame it on the alcohol
is there something there that i can’t see 
how the fuck am i supposed to breathe 
like oh
it’s okay if you wanna let go 
i know you probably need a little more 
i just miss when you were close
i know how this shit go
fall apart when it gets cold 
n i start to get feel real low 
know you’ll leave me when it snows 

when it snows 
iced out had to put on a coat 
neck cold but my hearts on froze 
fucked up i can’t do this alone 
baby why u gotta do me like that 
n still ask why my songs so sad 
everyday gotta put on a mask 
happy eyes with a knife in my back 

i say i love you 
“i love you too” 
most days i can’t get enough of u
when you leave i feel it 
it’s hard to deal with 
the crushing weight of this lonely feeling
rain it trickles 
cry a little 
nothings real 
it’s so artificial 
“you’re too brittle”
how i am supposed to feel when you speak in riddles 

i know i’m cold sometimes 
but i could never lie to you
i always say i’m fine 
i really don’t know what to do
i need you a little too much 
i’m scared that i’m never enough 
when you get distant it feels like i probably fucked up
get a little too scared i don’t mean much