my vocals mixed and song mastered by ztope <3
prod scottysplash

lyrics:

Pour another shot yeah
I ain't even feel it yet
Livers gonna rot
It's okay cause I'm feeling dead
I don't wanna talk
So ima leave that bitch on read
I don't give a fuck
Of all of the shit you said
Pour another shot yeah
I ain't even feel it yet
Livers gonna rot
It's okay cause I'm feeling dead
I don't wanna talk
So ima leave that bitch on read
I don't give a fuck
Of all of the shit you said
Yeah the silence pretty violent
Conscience in my head asking why I haven't died yet
Feelings from the past that's what I'm tryna forget
Forever feeling sad I just wanna hit the reset
Hearts gone black like the smoke in my lungs
Yeah I'm really hurt
I don't do this for fun
My demons pretty fast
That I can't even run
Let them take over
Cause I'm tired and done

I been upping doses till my body is numb
It's only half past one and I'm already gone
I just need a fix and I'll come back to life
All these Cali in my woods lift me up like a kite
This cookie gonna ignite with match sticks
No one in they right mind could match this
Everybody else inside this party got a broken heart
Minus me but that's cause I dipped off inside this jaguar
Vroom
Hit the road
Girl lets see where we could go
We could Take it slow
I got places I could be but I stay at home
These open roads will set me free
When I need it most
I been my zone when I work alone
But I prefer you here with me cause it help my soul
If u told me how to be than I would fit the mold
Just know
If u gave an ultimatum I would surely fold
Slow down
I'll give you something to help you calm down
Open my bag and pour the flower out
Roll it up and ingest
Kiss me in the smoke I could smell it on her breath
Pour another shot yeah I ain't even feel it yet
This burn inside me stop the bleed just like a tourniquet
As I sit here on this porch outside my new address
I don't like the damage caused but I love feeling it

Pour another shot yeah
I ain't even feel it yet
Livers gonna rot
It's okay cause I'm feeling dead
I don't wanna talk
So ima leave that bitch on read
I don't give a fuck
Of all of the shit you said
Pour another shot yeah
I ain't even feel it yet
Livers gonna rot
It's okay cause I'm feeling dead
I don't wanna talk
So ima leave that bitch on read

rot w/ sewerperson (scottysplash)

Huge shout out to my brother @halfhearted for his verse.

If you enjoyed listening, we would appreciate any support on the song, thank you all :)

**lyrics**

So tell me how you lost your feelings in such a quick matter of time
I could lose sleep over who you’ve been texting, but those arent matters of mine

Breaking my spine just so you can survive, and Id do it again if it gave me more time
Just to ask how you’ve been, if you’re feeling all right
I get too attached now there’s nowhere to hide

So was I important to you-
Or is that just a thought in my head?
Am I more than a fool for believing in things that we said? 

Maybe if I could change the structure of all that I am,
It wouldn’t be so hard for me to let go of your hand.

(Halfie)
I could lose my sleep over things that don’t matter, like how my tears splattered on the bedspread
I been sevenfeet with my fear and I’m drowning
Don’t tell me there’s a chance it’ll go right to my head 

She’s the monster deep inside my closet 
Can’t call her, she’s only talking nonsense
I don’t feel alive anymore, but I’ll digress
(Yeah I’ll digress, yeah I’ll digress)

Cause you know, I’m happy to walk around in circles
just avoiding the blame or any people
I’m scared i know, i gotta be a better man but my eyes are closed
im just waiting for your hand

ashed w/ halfhearted (everest)

facts (prod. nciku)

[sendflowrs]
and as the cold came, it didn’t feel right
on my deathbed i pray for your warm soft kiss
these angels they lay next to me and calm it 
i don’t think i really loved you baby if i’m honest 

and in my resting place, keep the seal tight
cus i would raise all the dead for you if you wanted
i would purge these dark woods with a bow and harness 
just cut out my heart whenever u want it 

[nevermadeithome]

You’re not where i need you
When i sleep at night
My lungs are so hard to breathe through 
My throats so tight 
You’re pretty like the pleiades
I mesmerised just by your eyes
I can’t seem to look at you 
Your hue and glow just seem so bright

Sleeping at night in your gown wear 
Swim the sea
Kill the king just to be there 
Bring your coat because its cold where  we‘re leaving 
Hold my hand baby this is the deep end


[sendflowrs]
on my grave 
in native tongue under my name 
is a phrase that says
“the one i love will always get away”
guess it never changes
no matter how much i sit and pray
for a better day
i’ll always be the one that rots away 
call me anyway
call me when you’re home or MIA
call me when you’re sad
when you’re feelin down or feel ok
call me everyday
call me fuckin now before i tear my face 
maybe you would love me more if i would finally get in shape 

[blaidd]
Stack my chips up high like I'm all in
Fall in love with your face in the morning
All this hate in the way had me bawling
But now I got you 
Your love was the only thing to prove
This world is nothing without you 
Now i find myself with nothing left to do 
But I came back from a business trip 
I Wanna go home cause I miss my *beep*
If I stay longer I just might flip
I wanna go home to the softest lips

starlight (feat. nevermadeithome + blaidd) (prod. flesh + jolst)

if i could just erase it all, you know i would
give anything to go back to who i was before
and i cant help but feel like i'm misunderstood
nobody knows what it's like to be me

and i'm sorry darling
i don't know who i am
so how could i be what you need me to be?
my friends wrote me off cause
i'm just a lost cause
and i'll never fix the things broken in me

broken
for a long time
if i have you
then i'm alright
feel i've known you, maybe in a past life
you helped finally make me feel like i'm alive

but what if i cant,
i can't be who
who i need to,
maybe i should leave you
just to save you
but i need you
is it selfish for me just to keep you?

lost cause [wisssery]

i still see blue

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/user-411557229
prod: saint mike
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

writing out these letters
lately i can't help
but pray that i get better 
i'm stuck in my own hell
talk to me slow,
don't let me go 

we were so happy,
what happened?
stuck on the past tense
sometimes i miss it 
it's hard to forget it 
blue,
(i still see blue)
i still think of you
(i still think of you)

lay by the lake,
i was never the same 

baby ima masochist at best
got a lot of scars on my chest 
i was your porcelain puppet 
cracks line over my stomach
even with my body going numb
i still wished to feel the cuts 
and after everything was done
i still wanna be your one

(residential:)
am i bothering at all?
kinda wish you stayed 
is it someone else's palms
or the portraits that i framed

is it killing you at all?
cause i can't say the same 
the hazel in your eyes
is embalmed into my brain 

i cant sleep at night 
it's better with time
but i'll

pull it together
keep my dignity tethered
guess it's better than never
your words here forever

(skele:)
fucking wasted my time
still on the back of my mind
fucking wasted my life 
oh trust me, i tried
(trust me i, trust me i tried)



after everything (w/ residential)

a quick check up on my background i dont wanna hear ya i would rather back down
they keep trying hard to bad mouth mee
but i been on the sidewalk come and find me
light post gleamin loud on the side road
stay close show that you dont got ur eyes closed
cement under my feet
it make me walk slow
i dont want no beef
i just wanna go
go to where the sun is can try and lay back
but when i peel the layers back it feel so bad
but ill put on a mask ill cover up everything that i had done in past life
maybe this isnt so bad (i lied)
but maybe this is all i have

come right back 
i been keen to that
oh I been thinkin bout how i would do this all night
a
it made realize that i dont needa push a pill and fill gut up with some drugs to have a good time
 
can you tell me if this real life
i been dissociating every time im outside
but im trying hard to know what its gon feel like
if i stay inside forever i think that ill die

i need something else that i can put in my mind
but i dont need no help i only trust my eyes

square up it wont be too long til you eat my dust
haircut i evade that punch cuz im to fast to make up anything im doing its all feeling like im dangerous
i dont even love it any more and i been shameless
i dont even care to what the date is
i would rather sit here while im staring at this painting
paint a picture of you and me
everything it coulda been
and the truth is im still feel alone on the medicine it don’t make a difference

sidewalk (nate2timez x yunnygoldz)

soulsplitter (p. ryankelly)

I’m done with this shit done with this shit I swear 2 god, 
gone since a kid it’s not my fault, I swear I’ll shoot them all, 
I had issues back then but now I’m focused on my money more (x2)

i knew u was a bitch cuz all u really seem to do is talk 
time is money is gotta watch the clock 
yellow rarri in the parking lot 
Mp5 I got a shot
I will never let u walk 

I been thru some shit up in my life 
I won’t give no story time 
and I won’t tell a fucking lie 


and ur chopping me up with that knife,
put me in an body bag, 
And dump me out the sea tonight 

I’m done with this shit done with this shit I swear 2 god, 
gone since a kid it’s not my fault, I swear I’ll shoot them all, 
I had issues back then but now I’m focused on my money more (x2)

why the fuck they come into my life and then they switch up, 
I swear I’m better off alone I’m not a bitch stop 
I use to want a bitch that go and drive me  crazy 
I said I’m better off alone and now they hate me

I’m done with this shit done with this shit I swear 2 god, 
gone since a kid it’s not my fault, I swear I’ll shoot them all, 
I had issues back then but now I’m focused on my money more (x2)

s2g w/ brecken [eyesofdirty]

sewerperson - lock da doors (flip)

Silent Hold

☦︎ Christ saves ☦︎
i'm on a new arc

ashed w/ halfhearted (everest)

hartwright.