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you were terrible

w/ @youngburial
prod biscuitboi

i thought
it was different 
thinking back
i was good for a minute
you were terrible
i'm unbearable
can't forget but i guess
i gotta let you go

it's embarrasing 
i let you break me
you treated me terrible 
i was giving you everything 
i had left
but it's all that i've come to expect
i'm out of memories
you left me in debt

fats'e:
you left me in debt n now i'm
trying to pick myself back up
i know you're not one to talk shit 
so i'll try to bottle it up
i don't know where we went wrong 
n i don't know what to say 
i don't feel inspiration
so i'll just rot away

unbearable (w/ fats'e)

MY HEART MATCHES THE CONCRETE

lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCp1Jqe02xE&ab_channel=ghosthands

SPOTIFY + APPLE

third-person

thank you for everything

[lyrics]

out of sight
or out of touch
city lights
on a city bus
i’m out of time
i’m out of time
no regrets
no regrets
i got nothing more
than another day
you said before
we can run away
i’m out of time
to be out of time
no regrets
no

don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go

out of line
or out of luck
cyanide
on a paper cut
i’m out of time
i’m out of time
no regrets
no regrets
what if i wanted more
than another day
i heard you say before
we can run away
now that i’m out of time
to be out of time
no regrets
no

don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
when the ocean waves collide
set the pouring rain alight
all those better days and nights
don’t let it go
don’t let it go

i can feel a burning sensation
bullet train station
no destination
i can read the words in our old conversations
lost in translation
no expectations
i just wanna run ’till we reach the countryside
talking ’till midnight
lost in the moonlight
i just wanna live like the last day of my life
enough for a life time more…

don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
don’t let it go
when the ocean waves collide
set the pouring rain alight
all those better days and nights
don’t let it go
don’t let it go

mercury

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISMFvsAGj38

its not you its you nd me
hidden in the leaves
look at where we are theres not much that you cant see
tell me where to start i don't mean to intervene
im just what you need and not rhetorically
moving accordingly and stacking this bank roll
oh watch me dangle and walk on this cable
join in the light show its better w eyes closed
roll back in my dome and ask how my night go
say its alright tho i knows its concerning
hope that im learning won't end up deserted
properly furnished end up in a nice home
been through them nights long enough we don't like those

its not you, its you and me (isolated) [video in description]

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

spotify.

shiver. | Produced by septfree

huge thanks to evergarden for being on this!
produced by michael harrison
**lyrics**
(me)
I still go back to that Autumn night
I lost my judgement in your eyes
You said I need you right here
Now I know it wasn't genuine, I'm masking up my fears

Not gon' lie I thought you were my only friend :/
Am I supposed to sit and watch it all go to waste?
You got a little rent free spot in my head
Chalk mark memories weathered in my brain...

(evergarden)
Withering beside the willow
Watch you lay to waste
I'm so hollow
How can I say in simple terms?
Hard to put this feeling into words...

(me)
It's okay to say goodbye
Maybe you can find your peace
I'll just let this feeling die
I don't know what I need

need w/ evergarden (michael harrison)

cedar street w/ evergarden

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

prod. jkei

lyrics:

u push me back and that's okay
u wake up every morning just to shit on my whole day
said, uh, i'm tryna change could u let me?
(i empty the pockets of my heart until it's empty)

i can see ur tears freeze it's like twenty four below
i feel icicles like glaciers forming quick from out my nose
i hate to watch u bleeding out like grenadine in snow
it's too late to say i'm sorry baby, that's just how it goes

when u coming home?
i caught u breaking in the cabin after close
i seen like fifty people calling baby please put down the phone
i don't know quite where to go i'm not cut out to be alone

drag me thru the woods by my feet
she’ll complain about the cutting if the line work isn't clean
i got bugs inside my stomach they are stuck inside of me
i feel warm beneath this snow bc my denim's lined with fleece 

she said
"u will get what u deserve, i've watched u regress"
she pushed me down into the water i feel seasick
i'm so seasoned with this suffering i need it
need u to tell me that u hate me while i'm bleeding

(oh wait, it's all in your head)

i can see ur tears freeze it's like twenty four below
i feel icicles like glaciers forming quick from out my nose
i hate to watch u bleeding out like grenadine in snow
it's too late to say i'm sorry baby, that's just how it goes

when u coming home?
i caught u breaking in the cabin after close
i seen like fifty people calling baby please put down the phone
i don't know quite where to go i'm not cut out to be alone

24below

24below (jkei)

Vails & The sound clown “immune to success” 
Hope you enjoy!:)

Said I don’t wanna die but I can feel it coming closer
cocaine in my nose, blow it out and keep composure
I’m walking down a path and I don’t know where it will go
Life’s so fast paced but I prefer it when it’s slow 
breathe out clouds of smoke, this toking really gets me faded
The devils on my shoulder, and my eyes are glassy jaded 
I don’t wanna die, but what’s the point of living wasted
I’ve tried to get my mind right 
To see how winning tasted 

get my mind right, leave behind my bad mind 
Fucked up when im sober 
So whyd i get myself high?
july to ocotber, im sinking down corona 
I need to isolate myself 
Pandemic isnt over 
In my head, gotta get these things of my chest
i got a sudden wish for success
So fuck it ima try my best 
putting my will to the test, got these blood stains on my vest, on my vest 

And i tried to wash away,but it always seemed to stay, 
How come everytime i better myself nothing seems to change 
I been leading back to alchocol, its calls for me when im alone 
Starry nights and mirror fights, isnside my home 

Said I don’t wanna die but I can feel it coming closer
cocaine in my nose, blow it out and keep composure
I’m walking down a path and I don’t know where it will go
Life’s so fast paced but I prefer it when it’s slow 
breathe out clouds of smoke, this toking really gets me faded
The devils on my shoulder, and my eyes are glassy jaded 
I don’t wanna die, but what’s the point of living wasted
I’ve tried to get my mind right 
To see how winning tasted

#emotrap #vails #soundcloud #thesoundclown #singer #songwriter #rap #alternative #music

Immune to Success

and i, i tried
to do what i love
but that wasn't enough
i'm empty and broken
and i'm tired, i'm tired
i just want to go to sleep right now
right now, right here

just let me be alone
here

so let me be
i'll be right here
all alone
i need some space to find myself
i'm lost 


Lost (prod. drip-133)

i shouldn't look back w/ scum & lil lotus [prod fats'e]

luna has risen

also available on:

itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959?ls=1&app=itunes

apple music: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959

spotify, and all other major music stores.

lost and afraid of the world that surrounds me
i constantly let down everyone around me

my heart it glows
my soul it floats
i stay awake cos i cant breathe
when demons haunt me in my sheets

have you ever felt like you were dead?
like nothing feels the same 
so you just lie in your bed?

light a cigarette 
put your woes to rest
im a fallen angel baby im not like the rest

i try to hold on to the things that i once loved
my heart and emotions are something im void of

youre wasting away
are you okay?
please just keep your head up and just hope for better days

hold on to your memories and youll be safe
this may be our last chance to leave this place

its like i hold myself back
crying wolf to all the sheep
singing lullabies to ease my mind
safely drifting in the night

but nothings ever as it seems
waking up from fever dreams
ive counted every single sheep
but i still cant fucking sleep

luna

download

a fallen angel 🌟

your backyard

@youngburial
@familypet
@anobodyreally

me:
feels like im drowning and i cant breathe
the walls are caving in around me
i call out your name but you cant hear me
hold out my hands but i cant reach

fats'e:
i saw your face in a dream
staring blankly at me
and i cant let it go
cant you just let me be

me:
my gaze turns to the sky
as i fall backwards im
taken back to a time
when you were still with me

familypet:
I had a dream I was sinking at the bottom,
Wake up reach out and grab the bottle,
Drink a fifth just to stop my head from pounding,
In either state of mind I find myself drowning.
I really miss you now,
when I look out,
and see the ocean and the clouds,
smell the salt and hear the sounds,
I can almost hear your voice now.

fats'e:
leave my body out in the middle of nowhere
after im dead
so the vultures can pull me apart 
and i wont have this pain in my head

outro(familypet):
Emotional lies, 
in this pool I will die,
At the bottom I'll lie,
End my emotional life.

perfect nightmare w/ fats'e & familypet [prod ʎpoqou]

so long, goodbye (ft. Lil Lotus)

@caspr

I know you sleep alone 
Can I help that?
Heard your sick of love
Can i stop that?
And if I hit your phone
Would you text back?
And if you missed my call
Would you ring back? 

I know you sleep alone
Can I help that?
Heard your sick of love
Can i switch that? 
And if I hit your phone
Would you text back?
And if you missed my call
Would you ring back? 

God Damn started feeling
Like the old me
All this cash couldn't stop
Me feeling lonely 
Still sad
Making stacks
No split no team 
I don't wanna die
But I dont wanna be me

Nowadays dry phone
Default back ground
4am lost and drunk
In your home town
Plenty drugs 
I don't want
In my face in my face now
Plenty drugs 
I don't want
In my face in my face now

miss my call (prod. caspr)

Produced by https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
mixed/mastered by https://soundcloud.com/demxntia
Lyrics:
I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

I'm standing on my own but is it ok if I hold my chances?
Tell me what's temporary and what stays permanent.
Temporary, permanent we keep on shifting surfaces
So who you tryna fool right now?
If you're not stayin' just leave right now
Can't feel you now, Losing my grip now I'm fading out
Couldn't hear my voice even if I shout
Tell me what's next for us baby
You hear it in my voice, Can you erase me?

I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

Baby I've been overthinking
See the blood from the thorns on the roses
If I tried could I let you go now
But the memory of you stays permanent...

What Stays Permanent (prod. killedmyself)

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

I thought I moved on, thought I forgave
But the shit that you done still stuck in my way
Tried to ignore and I tried to escape
But I still think about your touch everyday

Still think about what I could of changed
You were the reason my soul got saved
I try to find love but I retreat to the fact
That I know no one else is the same

Maybe that's good that you're one of kind
But I swear on my life you won't get out my mind
I thought I let you out but when I walked away
You were standing on the other side

And I can't lie, if you came back
With all of the knives in mine
I'd still have yours, because I never lied
That you were the love I was dying to find

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high

Fuck it, I'm stressed again
I don't who you been messing with
I thought that you were my medicine
But it don't seem like you heaven sent

But for your love I'm hellbent
I'm so selfish, I want you all to myself
But it don't seem if that's it
So I think I'ma just take you to my little hell

I think my mind gone bad, I'm so sad
You think you leaving me? Not so fast
"Yo shit man, why so rash?"
I guess we all want the shit we ain't have

This ain't aesthetic, it's fucking pathetic
You think it's a trend, you gone fucking regret it
I can burn all of you down to the filter
I say the words of a mouth with no filter

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high (x2)

spotify

pathetic aesthetic

☦︎ Christ saves ☦︎
i'm on a new arc

need w/ evergarden (michael harrison)

hartwright.