made ts awhile ago shoutout 2 the mfs who still listen 2 me

inspo from @tarozan

i understand that were so complicated
underestimate my actions but it had so many meanings

im suffocating, in my own body.. 
i wnna hurt me,, i wnna hurt me.
im suffocating, in my own body.. 
i wnna hurt me,, i wnna hurt me.

tell me do u hate me? i understand it..
i wud nvr hurt u, i wnna show it  

ask me why i love you?
but i know i do
baby do you feel it too?
i know i feel it too,,

negligent ⋆.' (prod me)

Rosé prod. me 

Rosé prod. me 🥂

no matter how many times i try and try to end this sorry excuse of a human life i always end back here it wont let me leave
cant wait for the day that these chains are freed
of humanity
such impurity
i want to shed that part of me
im letting myself rot from the inside out because i dont have the guts to pull the trigger
when the guns inside my mouth
my lifes a mistake
born to be given away
dont know my mothers name
i dont know my mothers name
9 months of bonding to you
9 months of forming in you
those 9 months are all that i know
you did not want to watch me grow
everyday i wish that you killed me
when i was in that womb
that i once called a home
how can you want nothing to do with your only son
either one
born of lust
existence is fucked
i am you
why do you not want me
i dont and will never understand (i wont)
no matter how much i say i am
my conciousness is nothing but a plauge (take it away from me)
you wasted 17 years praying that i will get better because i will never leave my human remains until i can finally escape
no matter how hard i try it never fucking works
id love to be in the earth
i long for something more , i long to be adored
and dont i understand why my soul chose this path
been a burden to take
i just want your embrace
as mother and father to me

mother and father

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cover art by ebaycarson

Merch

essence (Pawl4k)

remix of a song from a gacha game i like

original song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o5hmZF6rEM

memories of loving you @soreu_u

a lot happened recently, la fleur du cimetière 

jvois les chrysanthemes, c'est comme une peur de faire mieux
tu me fais de la peine mais c'est pas si sérieux
ils ont pris mes ailes depuis ça pourrit de l'intérieur
jvois ce que tu penses à l'intérieur et c'est pas mon thème 

ok
depuis ça j'ai perdu l'appétit 
dans mes souliers ils ont mis des orties 
et c'est pas la tramadol qui va régler tes soucis 
ok
jsais que tout ça c'est + que pathétique 
elle a mis le feu, condamné les sorties 
j'ai perdu des années passées derrière l'ordi
ne me demande même pas si c'est elle 
parce que là j'ai de l'adderall dans mon système
et y'avait personne pour m'assister 
donc stp ne parle pas de nous au pluriel
elle est comme collée à ma semelle
jsuis sous tercian tous les jours de la semaine
boule au ventre dès que le soleil se lève
garde le pour toi si un jour tu m'aimes

ça m'arrive de pleurer quand je dépersonnalise
c'est comme une goute de + dans un torrent de vices
pourquoi l'idée de toi ne veut pas faire ses valises
j'étais au bord du toit, est-ce que je rend service
c'est trop de poids je sais que ça t'épuises 
elle a glissé un xan dans mon hysteric 
jtrouve plus ton nom dans l'historique
et jressens plus rien quand je dépense des briques 
parce que si t'es pas là à quoi bon tout ce frique?
j'étais comme un appat, une proie dans la crique
jme sens moi (même) qu'une fois dans tes griffes

jme sens moi qu'une fois dans tes griffes
reprend moi jsuis seul sur la rive 
j'entend des voix jsais pas ce qui m'arrive 
tramadol pour calmer la pluie
tramadol pour calmer l'avenir
sans toi j'ai peur de l'avenir
t'es comme un mystère jsais pas ce qui m'attire

jvois les chrysanthemes, c'est comme une peur de faire mieux
tu me fais de la peine mais c'est pas si sérieux
ils ont pris mes ailes depuis ça pourrit de l'intérieur
jvois ce que tu penses à l'intérieur et c'est pas mon thème

chrysanthemes @morecalcium

trapped in the habits i cant stop
in every moment its a loss
tear out my eyes so i cant c
dont wanna know what lies beneath

abandoned all the time
a piece of paper balled up in a bin
it happened all my life so much i think that i been used 2 it
i know i know im not the one :(
the type that you would love
no need to call ur bluff
no sleep at all im fucked

remember all again
n all ur stupid friends
i hate
i had to play pretend
to make it work but it was fate

think about my death at night
im intrigued with the other side
growing older lose my light im
not the same as time flies by

spend all night
trying to sleep in bed
this shit aint alright
smoke n put me to rest im feeling ded

the scars on my arm wont go away
every time i look reminds me of the pain
wish that i tried n didn't lay
isolated in a cage

abandoned all the time
a piece of paper balled up thrown in a bin
it happened all my life so much i think that i been used 2 it
i know i know im not the one :(
the type that you would love
no need to call ur bluff
no sleep at all im fucked

NEW MERCH!!!

abandoned (buyok)

CRUNKED W/ OMGSTAC3Y

Amnesty

https://soundcloud.com/not-paired

ang3l



(talkin to her like i just can't get enough)

hop in the whip n we cruisin
she likin the way i be fluent
drippin like fiji, im fluid
maskin the way that i do it
i turned my dream into a lucid
u got the L ur a loser
i put that bitch right in the cooler
she wanted too much of the pool, step back

diamonds on my teeth so when i smile that flash be shinin
she said she aggressive, good thing that i want a lion
whole fit cost a rack im more expensive than a client
step into the club these bitches know im here to buy it

and i got expensive taste
4 richard milles each 1 of my limbs they know whats the date
flippin the shit i just bought i just doubled on real estate
she want attention im sorry girl i just cant step on the brakes (too much money to make)

diamonds on my teeth so when i smile that flash be shinin
she said she aggressive, good thing that i want a lion
whole fit cost a rack im more expensive than a client
step into the club these bitches know im here to buy it

snaffu:

Bitch in my face
Tell her dont play no games
Step up, then you might get stained
Blessed up, cross on my chain
Crashout if you in my lane
Talk pay when you got that pape
In the trap i jump like Ja
Post up, ill dunk like James

Big talk might lose your jaw
Small talk might lose your chain
Big 3 i aint in no paint
Dont trip i might show late
My lane stay out the way
Want pape, i dont take praise
One sec i might take 5
Leave me alone bitch i need space

Standby she might give dome
Good za i feel at home
Hey brody what you on?
Holup ima put you on
Few snakes i mow the lawn
Its time to get em gone
I make them float like swan 
Bitch you know im the one

buy it! w/ snafu! (shango)

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@doeb0yz 
merch on my website -> https://www.hateoryx.com

abandoned (buyok)

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