An original Composition by Kara about the complexities in thought
Producer, Singer, Composer, Lyrics, Guitarist

Photo by Peter Jarkuliš: https://www.pexels.com/photo/black-acoustic-guitar-287202/

Up Thinking

Up Thinking freestyle

for you

(big thanks 2 taylor ochoa for background hummies n harmonys)

I won’t forget
 how your hands fit 
even if you regret it
 I guess we all change with the seasons there don’t have to be a reason 
for the leaves to fall 
or me to call you back 
this time 
i’ll try 
not to cry again but i’m tired 
and i’m worn 
and ive been right here before
(i’ll try, to not cry, but i lied, i felt like shit this whole time)
try to call you up 
but I guess One year was too soon 
and I know you still think about how you fucked me on your front porch 
I’m sorry you never loved me 
I’m sorry this lyrics are so ugly
 I’m sorry I had to leave 
all the times you left me calls 
begging me please 
and how I ruined your life 
and now your mother hates me 
sorry for calling you up 
every time that I can’t breathe 
and for doing all these drugs 
when I promised I’d stay clean,
I really wish I could just go back
 and never go inside that stupid gas station 
I wish I never came over 
I wish we never watched Palo Alto 
and I wish I never loved you
because

it’s January 4 
and you make my heart thump and my hands shake, but how can I be content when You’re in love with someone else? seeing you type makes me feel sick, and it’s been four days and i miss the buzz of my phone shaking my hand like how my lips were the first time we kissed,  and now i only taste you from three shots of vodka.  and you say that drunk words are sober thoughts, but what if you never respond to me? Because anything can kill you especially a girl with a freckled smile and short curly hair, and i may seem fine but if someone asked I’d still studder your name. 
does my absence bother you? or did my presence never impact you the way I thought it did? cause you asked me to wait five minutes, but I stayed up all fucking night, and I hope his bed warmer than mine, but when he breaks your heart I’ll be here fixing my sheets for you. 

and you tore me apart in an attempt to fix yourself, And I really do hope you’re doing okay, and I hope you sleep full nights without the thought of me constantly poisoning your brain, because here’s the thing:
we were so young
 and falling in love always seem like a dumb dream 
but I learned a lot 
and I hope you did too 
because it’s January 4 
and you make my heart thump and my handshake 
but how can I be content when you never were?
 i hope you find better in someone you can find comfort in,
like how i found in you,
it’s january forth and we are fighting,
it’s march forth and im writing this poem,
it’s may forth and i miss you but you seem happy so i’ll leave you alone,
it’s august forth and i dont think about you everyday anymore,
it’s november and i’m okay without you. 

the whispered words at the last couple seconds is this:

(i hope one day you let yourself out of the tomb you call your chest and you learn how to unlock all the locks he built up over time and you learn to love yourself too)

Poem (on spotify/tidal/apple music)

broke myself

im sad and i feel so alone

Anxiety

Shut Up, We All Have These Thoughts...(prod.m4niac)

off topic (acoustic)

what are you so afraid of -cover

Now I kind see my mistake
In the way that you look at me with your face
And the only misplaced thing is my heart in its grave
And the only thing aching is my soul when I change for you

I swore I’d stay with you but
But you know that’s a lie
We stay up all night in my room
Fighting through the night
 
But baby please 
Stay away from me
Just let me be Alone
Comfortably 
You never trusted me
U see me differently 
Why would I go back to your jealousy 

I don’t
I don’t miss the way you made my heart skip a best
Had me on my feet
You were my darling my queen
But I just couldn’t compete 
With everyone else that was on their knees 

But then I beg and plead 
Say that she’s the one I need
Then I fall too deep
And I get get no sleep
Thinking bout what we could be

I swore I’d stay with you but
But you know that’s a lie
We stay up all night in my room
Fighting through the night

But baby please 
Stay away from me
Just let me be Alone
Comfortably 
You never trusted me
U see me differently 
Why would I go back to your jealousy

When I Change

beach fossils - agony (slowed)

im sad and i feel so alone

heather june

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