Wrote this song about yk who, I miss you.
(Prod J^p^n) https://on.soundcloud.com/jiR8r
Vocals written, recorded, and mixed by me
Lyrics-
You know you like it when you watch these veins drip 
Tried to call my phone but that motherfucking blade slipped
Now I'm all alone and I can't face it 
Crying out for you but I'm blocked I can't say shit 
I can't say shit, she can't save shit, I miss that bitch 
I miss that bitch but I hate that bitch 
Man fuck that bitch 
I'ma take my life
By the end of the night 
I'ma take my life 
Baby good night

I Hope Someday You Hear This Song

I love you bones
Beat is " Still Deader Than You" by Greaf
Lyrics-
Nothing else to do
Locked up in my room with some thoughts of you
Nothing else to lose
Shut my eyes, slit my wrists, take my life for you
I'm dying too, 
wonder what you'd do if you knew the truth
I'd lie to you, 
tell you that I'm fine, but my life is through, my life is through
I'm lost again, 
searching for a reason even though it's the end
When the curtains set, 
still you didn't cry even thinking I'm dead, thinking im dead

What Made You Leave?

Just bought a rode NT1-A, did a peep cover to test it, fly high bro.

Hate My Life (Cover)

(Produced By Greaf)
Wish I was in another place
so far away
Out in outer space, 
away
from the human race
They would forget about me 
in a day
On a dying star, I'll remain
And that's okay 
I could never relate

No you cannot save 
It's far too late
watch my fire fade
Hell is my fate 
No saving grace
No love no hate
cuz I numb the pain
everything's okay

Nobody around me
You're nowhere to be found
I'm sinking now
I wish I would just drown

Where Dreams Go To Die

(Produced By Greaf)
Lyrics-
Nightmares I reside 
I got plans for my knives
Ima take ur head and the dreams you dreamt
I'ma make that shit all mine

I'm that gutter motherfucker 
and I'm hoping you catch my vibe
When you look to my eyes
you see nothing, dead inside

I got scars on my wrists
I got slits underneath my fists
And I'm chilling with your bitch
it's her final wish
I can't let her live 

I pass her the needle 
and now that little bitch ain't breathing
I know I don't need her
So I'ma let that foam keep seeping

I'm too fucking cashed 
I see through your mask 
you a pussy boy and I know that shit 
your life is just an act

I'm the darkest in this bitch 
I'm that grimey little shit
Fuck a note I leave a list
the realest when I spit

You can keep waiting
you won't get salvation 
There ain't no escaping
Your fate 
you gotta face it

The Sky Begins To Fade

(Prod. Dynasty)

Lyrics-
Overdosing off your love as i watch the sun set
Look around and I'm all alone
You exist in my head
Just another dead friend
I'm entangled with lead
Fucking up and I know that you are just another dead end
I know that i promised you that I would stop getting high
But you left me all by myself so why the fuck should I try
Don't believe in a god
Still I pray to the sky
And every night because of you
I pray that I die

You just aint the same I couldn't stop the change
I will die one day
You wont even know my name
You wont know my name
And Im still the same
What I say? 
I forgot my name

You dont talk to me anymore
You dont think about me at all naw nawww
You dont care about me no more
I saw you smile
As i walked through the door

You dont talk to me anymore
You dont think about me at all naw nawww
You dont care about me no more
I saw you smile
As i walked through the door

Sunset Overdose

(Produced by Greaf)
 
Lyrcs -
Curtains shut
Shoot up Shoot up
Lets Fuck
Lets Fuck
Lets Fuck (x4) 

Jesse and Jane
I think im going insane
Yung Kurt Cobain
With the needles in veins
Im like her heroin
Im a heir of sin
She a pretty bitch
Ima make her rich
Dying on my sheets
Havent slept in weeks
Im the reason you bleed
Youre all i need
I guess ill tell you the truth
I wanna die for you
You wanna die in my room?
We can make it a tomb

Curtains shut
Shoot up Shoot up
Lets Fuck
Lets Fuck
Lets Fuck (x4)

My Soulmates Probably In The Gutter

(Prod. Greaf)

Lyrics - 
All of these months back and forth with you
All of this time that I waited for you
You will never know a thing that I do
Oh no you don't know the pain that I do

The words that you said
turned to a blade in my neck 
And that blade in my neck
Made it so you won't forget

There won't be a good ending 
To the story I'm telling
The message I'm sending 
you won't know when I end it

talking about my life 
do you know that I die every night
Die every night
I'm alone every night

Eating my insides
Im afraid that I might die
what did I do to deserve this
Fucking curse of a shit life

I know you're the one
But I don't think I'm the one
I'm not what you want
So I'm loading my gun

Playing roulette I got 5 in the chamber
I will never forget 
the hell that I came from

Just a kid who lost it all
zero calls
Just a kid about to fall
I'll burn it all
Just a kid Hung in the hall
I'm built to fall
Just that kid who lost it all
I lost it all

Just a kid who lost it all
zero calls
Just a kid about to fall
I'll burn it all
Just a kid Hung in the hall
I'm built to fall
Just that kid who lost it all
I lost it all

Lower The Curtains

(Prod. Mayday)

Lyrics - 

Wake up 
with my head split
love how I made em all think I'm defenseless 
Now they question 
How I did it
How I Built a life up out of dead shit
Don't question
You wasn't there for it
This is how it is
Motherfuck a how it coulda been
Motherfuck a friend
Motherfuck a death
This is my story so Ill choose how it fucking ends
I don't fucking care
about the fucking pain
I don't follow fate 
no pulse in my fucking veins 
When I'm coming down 
shouting mayday
Yo shout out mayday
I'm gonna share the pay day
Yo

I Sold My Soul For A Chance I Didn't Even Take (Prod. Mayday)

(Prod ixxortal)

Lyrics -

Dropping the blade and I enter abyss
The blood rains down my face
I might get found in a ditch 
 At the end of my limits I'm too done with this shit
Malibu is my chariot I'ma swerve off a cliff

Creeping out the mist and I'm something so toxic
I'll kill your hopes and dreams 
Deadeyes like a tonic
Pills inside of my stomach
I climb up just to plummet
only dream inside my mind i must revert back to nothing

I'm heaven sent 
But years of pain must've clipped my wings
Place your bets
Lil angel but I've gone insane
Represent
Hellbent
Always twisting fate
Fuck a death
Manifest out this hell I made
I'll burn the churches 
I'll kill the masses
Casket pimpin
Always slipping 
I'll turn to ashes
Living lonely 
I fucking hate it
spit this shit
I fucking made it



A Corpse On The Coast

(Prod. Thersx)

Lyrics - 

I wish you never met me
I'm not good for you
You should forget me
Please just listen
Let me try to speak
I don't wanna drag you down
Run away from me

And no I don't relate to any of these fucking pussies
Fake their fucking tears trust me you ain't from the scene
Ima die alone it ain't what I want it's just what has to be
It's what has to be
Trust me

Caught between amphetamines opioids I'm dirty
Die before I'm 20 I don't give a fuck bout thirty
Wonder if you're gonna cry the day I lose my heartbeat
Come back everytime
Even death don't want me

No you don't even really know me at all
At all at all
You could really save me with a call
One call that's all
No you don't even really know me at all
At all at all
Youre the only light that I ever saw
That I saw
Ever saw (Huh)

I'm so far gone
It's impossible to help me
Ain't no fucking cons for the what the devil wants to sell me
Depression turned to income
Mental patient bitch I'm wealthy
The feelings isn't mutual
That's what you wanna tell me

Caught between amphetamines opioids I'm dirty
Die before I'm 20 I don't give a fuck bout thirty
Wonder if you're gonna cry the day I lose my heartbeat
Coming back everytime
Even death don't want me

You'd Be Better Off Without Me

I recorded this 11 weeks ago
Oh and i made the beat
Lyrics-

Im god you fucking hate me
Your god, he fucking made me
And now im fucking tainted
But still you cant replace me, no

Aiming for the stars
I shot up inside my arms
Im clotting up from the tar
Im blocking out all my heart, yeah

Screaming for a way out
That bastard that fucking hates now
All the filth that left my life, crawling back
You can fucking stay out yeah

No one ever loved me
You flodging, you best stay lucky
Im glowing but still im scummy
Thirty slugs to make you uglier

Drilling out the taxi
Faded in the back seat
Black ski mask if you really wanna tax me
Killing off my liver cuz im smoking on waxy 
Youre a fucking pussy you will never come cap me

Never gonna slash me
Never gonna pass me
I dont ever slip so youre never gonna catch me
Talk about my life you dont really wanna ask me
Get it out the mud so ill always be trashy

Spit my fucking lines
Dip and ducking from them lines
When i die i rewind 
Ima make it all mine

You were found in a river bed
Hollow bullets in your head
Wonder why youre fucking dead
Prolly all that shit you said

Angelas Hell

(Prod. shizukasuka)

Lyrics-

I wish i could sleep forever
I wish we could be together
I wish i could sleep forever
I wish we could leave whenever

I wish i could sleep forever
I wish we could be together
I wish i could sleep forever
I wish we could be together

Call me when you need me
Dont go when youre feeling low
Froze feeling cold
Hold close til its curtains closed

Got me on lock 
Popping hot til its three o clock
Just a dirty junkie dropping slop
Give me what i want.

Acid on my tongue
No fun
When im feeling numb
And i spun my gun
Brains are done
Man im feeling dumb

They wont love me while im here
Theyll just love me when im gone
My lifes a fucking game
And im just a fucking pawn

Dreaming My Life Away

(Prod. Heavensgate)

Lyrics - 
Youre an angel in disguise
Always finding ways to warp my mind
I can see the pain inside your eyes
The blackened heart that bleeds and tries to fly

Weeping worms and deadly little lies
The tragic comedy that is my life
Stuck in purgatory 315
Where I'll rot and burn til the end of time

Weeping Worms And Deadly Lies

(Prod. Heavensgate) Little Simi </3
Sample - https://youtu.be/LXXjRwRgMHI 

Lyrics -
Goodnight
Little birdie
Sleep tight
Don't wait for me
It ain't right
I'm not right
Don't cry
You'll be alright
Little birdie
Don't you cry
Little birdie
Get ready to fly
Little birdie
Goodbye
Little birdie
I'm sorry I died
Little birdie

At The Gates Of Heaven Where I Say My Final Goodbye

(Prod/Mixed/Mastered By Heavensgate)

Heavensgate - 

No more thoughts in my head
It's my blood that i bled
Little bitch take a guess
Yeah I did what I said
I been hanging for 3 days
Rainy day for the ceiling
8 days just to find me
Half decayed so I'm leaking

Take my belongings
Toss that shit in the river
I mean nothing to you
You left me to whither
Heavensgate ain't a killer
Just a yung coffin feeler
Take my life by tonight
Goodbye kiss when I whisper

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Lucidforher -

And as the end starts to come
I run so gracefully from everyone
So baby hand me your gun
Cause death seems so worth it
I'm not that important to anyone

Creeping off the edge
Hopefully I'll stay alive
Talking to the dead
Baby I was crucifed
Hopefully I'll understand why everyone made him decide
Hopefully they'll understand why he committed suicide

Bloody Palace (Feat. Lucidforher)

(Prod/Mixed/Mastered By Heavensgate) Took 9 hours to make this.

Heavensgate - 

About to catch a flight
A flight
To the other side
Half a bar deep
Lets see
If i survive

Memories i keep
I bleed
Over fleeting lies
See the blood i seep
It leaks
From my weeping eyes

From sunrise 
To sunset
Im wishing
For your death
No breath left
In my chest
But i can-
Not stay dead

You broke my fucking trust so i put the gun to our heads
Seizing up in our blood
No more words will be said

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Lucidforher & Heavensgate (I did layers on his layers)

Cant decide if im alright
I just wanna die tonight
Trusting you is such a lie
And I dont wanna fantasize

Cant decide if im alright
Hoping that ill die tonight
Baby did you even try?
It's like your heart was paralyzed.

Heavensgate - 

From sunrise 
To sunset
Im wishing
For your death
No breath left
In my chest
But i can-
Not stay dead

You broke my fucking trust so i put the gun to our heads
Seizing up in our blood
No more words will be said

Rain And Isolation (Feat. Lucidforher)

(Prod/Mixed/Mastered By Heavensgate) [Remastered Version]
Original release was July 27th 2022
Heavensgate - 

There aint nothing left
But the rain outside
And youre still alive 
If only inside my mind
And you fucked me up
When i spilled my guts
And you gave no fucks
Are we finally done?

I wish i could be there again
I wish that it didnt end
It makes me fucking sick
Cuz i remember when
I would have died for you
I think i died too soon
The things that i would do
To get even with you.

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Lucidforher -

I still remember it
That night i have to forget
The stupid choice that i made to feel you right on my chest

But only if i had knew
The things that youd start to do
It fucked me up so much
Cuz i had really loved you
And now im stressed out again
Starvation for a dead friend
Days and months keep repeating
And it feels like the end
Shame on you that its over
Im so glad that youre gone
No more tears for eachother
Hurt yourself and go on.

Remembrance (Feat. Lucidforher)

(Prod/Mixed/Mastered By Heavensgate)

Ronnie Mcnutt phone noises in da beginning rip homie

Heavensgate -

I'm leaking like a faucet
Got some bodies in the closet
Just a stupid little bitch
Don't even get me started

That ain't gold up on my wrists
That's just the pus leaking out my slits
Twisted rotten little words
Always slipping out my lips 

Always making my wrists cry
Popping pills til my brain die
Geeked up bumping polo right
Doing bumps of that snow white
Of that snow white

Spill my brains with a rusted nine
Let you see the thoughts inside my mind
From the hell that is my life
To this fucked up world of mine.

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Lucidforher - 

I'll try to make believe so i don't have to question you
I'm at the willow tree
Feeling more empty than i do
The devil wont even help me
Im stuck in purgatory 
Aware of everyones lies
And all their little stories
To you im just another waste of flesh (Waste of flesh)
Its true im probably sitting next to death (Next to death)
To you im just another waste of flesh (Waste of flesh)
Its true im probably sitting next to death (Next to death)

Lakeview Hotel (Feat. Lucidforher)

(Prod. Heavensgate)

Lyrics - 

I tried to tell him
You gotta let it go
Now hes 3 double o
Feet below

When the moon is full
You can find me cold
Laying on the floor 
With a slit throat

Ima crash and burn
I wont make it out
Watched my tears fell
This is my hell

Im a lost cause
Got a few scars
Leaking out my arms
Ive gone too far

And i hope you know
That i dont got a soul
And im all alone
Ima die
Ima die
On my own
On my own

And when i pass away never say 
That you wish you could've knew me
No one else up in this game is doing
What the fuck im doing.
Ima get a lil buzz when i blow my fucking head off
Saw it off
I could never give a fuck

My Brains Dripping Down The Wall, It's Such A Pretty Picture

(Prod/Mixed/ By Heavensgate) [I forgot to master this track, shit]

Heavensgate -

In my fucking casket smiling back saying bitch I made it
in them fucking stars looking down saying bitch you hate it
Bitch just save it
Gotta face it
Having basic contemplate
Heavensgate
ain't no replacing
I stay sick while you just basic

Bitch I got my wings out 
Find me in the sky now
Bitch I'm gonna burn it down
Talking about the scene now
I'm so fucking senile
First you gotta bleed out
Then you can see how
I came up on the scene now

Razors in my pocket
Mac 11 in my trench coat
Savior in my locket 
Gates of heaven leave em dead cold
Best go to bed hoe 
Not talking bout no rest tho 
The rest go to mess with the depths of their deaths hoe

Unnøticed -

Broken pushing through the pain 
Gain motivation then im frustrated its all the same things same day 
Fake faith 
Fake being brave
Hiding inside at night and dead asleep inside my grave 
Sorry i caved to the death in front of me 
Its better to bleed 
To show them what theyve done to me 
Drowning in my sorrows since i was just a teen life seems impossible hopping over obstacles while sound asleep 
Running from all the greed of life 
Freedom is in debt to me 
I cant dream
My rem sleep is fucking fried from the thousand highs load another 9 then reload another time 
Bullets stuck inside of me 
See my soul fly knocking on a strangers mind to see if its occupied but they've been delete 
So should i be or should i retreat 
Tired of life everyone seems better than me so i hate to try cause ive been denied unnoticed tried dont be surprised if i decide to flee

Warped Scars And Diamond Wounds (Feat. Unnøticed)

(Prod/Mixed/Mastered By Heavensgate) 
R.ip. Ms Pacman --- ALSO this is the official sequel to remembrance btw.

Lucidforher -

wasted enslaved and I couldn't erase it 
what I kept a secret girl you called a defect 
created a pavement of problems to save it 
but harbor the reject, my grief as a carcass 

the solitary of a sinful memory would I be different if this wasnt my ending 

I suffocate 
in all ive made 
your blood in the tub 
and a gun to my brain

Heavensgate -

Blood drip down from the moon
Bottle up til I drown in my tomb
Three oh two be the room
Finger twitch once blowing two
Blood drip down from my head
Spaz n twitch out til I'm dead
Not one tear gets wept
Don't wanna see a single flower on my bed

Bleeding pleading sirens screaming
Void of a body, never fucking leaving
Hellish nightmarish things that I'm seeing 
Sentient being am i fucking dreaming 

Say it ain't real
Please say it ain't true 
Why I never feel
No light getting through
Reality reveals 
All the lies you spewed
We had a fucking deal
I gave my life up for youuuuu...

for you....

My Special Someone... (Feat. Lucidforher)

(Prod/Mixed/Mastered By Heavensgate) 

I recorded and mixed the second half of this song with a slit wrist, but fuck it we still here.

Lyrics -

I just fucking hate my breath
fucking hate my
I'm a broken person so theres not much left
much left
I know I'd be better off dead
I'd be better off 
Maybe even hell can be a place where I can rest 

So goneee
I been gone for 
soo long 
so long
I'm 
Sooo gone
now you gotta
you gotta go on
go on, get lost 

Empty bottles I think
orange is a pretty color 
And it's nameless like me
So maybe we could use eachother
Throwing my life away on a night stand 
I never had anything, have a nice life man 

Balance barefoot on a needle
Heavens just a jump away
bad things happen, you can't deal 
but to me it's another day

You can't save me I won't heal
empathy is my cocaine
Judging by the way things feel
I will never be okay

Things Just Aren't Working Out, I'm Sorry

(Prod/Mixed/Mastered By Heavensgate) 

Lyrics -

Your tear drops dripping on my black air forces
Put that knife against my wrist my wish is that I force it 
As my blood starts to drip
I wish, i was important
I feel so fucking worthless 
Getting faded off imported 

Drugs,
ease my temptation 
Stay thinking about erasing 
my brains 
inside a basement
Fuck anything that you saying (bitch save it)

Yung lil loaded
My nina, wanna watch me load it
Put my finger on the trigger, I laugh before i blow it (boom)

Codeine dreaming 
these diamonds they got me fiending
Pretty bitches my dms
I'm sorry but I don't need em (nahh)

Drugs are my reason 
For keeping me off the ceiling
Empty heart I got fucked up feelings
To kill myself is my only treatment  (yeah)

I can take you to the sky or we can go to hell and back
I'ma give you one more night we better make it last
Your loves what gets me high, I got heaven in my flask
Turning down the lights, wait first I'ma run it back

I can take you to the sky or we can go to hell and back
I'ma give you one more night we better make it last
Your loves what gets me high, I got heaven in my flask
Turning down the lights, let's love when the room is black 

Twilight Ascension

(Prod/Mixed/Mastered By Heavensgate) 

Lyrics -

Babe you know I bled for this shit
Gave red for this shit
Pretty diamonds on your fingers 
Just a product of my slits
Blow a kiss and make a wish
I dream of pretty bitches sitting
In a whip on platinum rims, hit the curb might need an inch 

I don't got a license, I can't drive, no lie, 
You don't really need a ride when you sliding on ice, so fly
Every Night I die, thats my grind don't mind
When my blood start coming down just know my money getting higherrrrrrrr 
Pass my propane lighter
and you know might try ta
turn the mud into diamond


I was never meant for this shit
Just a worthless little jit
You might break your fucking ribs
If you try to rip the shit I spit
Cough up bars that'll make me rich
Puking up beats that'll make you twitch
Never thought I'd be someone like this
Everything's a dream when you're just so sick



Money drugs and gold
We can have it all
I'm a broken soul
Turn my teardrops into songs
Spent my time alone
Its the pain that put me on
Even though you're broke 
You're the only one I want (x4)


Requiem For A Dream

This is my conclusion, farewell everyone.

These 3 tracks are tributes, prod mixed mastered by me, yeah we fucking know. Please do not attempt to record vocals over the instrumental that is track one, the instrumental is dedicated to a girl that died not even a fucking week ago... fuck bro.

1 - Beautiful Funeral
2 - R.i.p. Yung Aeneas [Not Broken- But Shattered.]
3 - Everything I've Ever Wished For *Please Don't Save Me*

A tribute to her, a tribute to him, and a tribute to me.

Denial Of Permanence.

(Prod. The Weeper)

Lyrics -

Space station
Im cold scab
Steadily making my nose numb
Bent thumbs dig back in my sockets
Nothing worth saving im the worlds worst scum
Sold my soul for some fetty in a bund
Never had a goal im only living for the junk
Long sleeve T's taste the puke on my tongue
Wonder if they'll weep when it leaks to my lungs

Now im half dead
Stomach acid where im lying
Reaching for my razor
Im too fucked to even try it
Barely out of school
I cant even fucking drive yet
I just wanna know why the fuck i havent died yet

Your god cant save me
The devil wont break me
Caught up on those chances that you never fucking gave me
My world starts to cave in
Im sorry i cant take this
Pressure in my chest
My hearts a void
I must erase it

Perpetually Burning.

(Prod. The Weeper)

Lyrics - 
Smoking, toking, on psychosis
Broken, choking, my life is hopeless
My eyes and my wrists are one in the same
I've been gutted, abandoned, I'm beginning to break
Pulling on the trigger
Watch my life drip down
Forever on delivered
It's too late now
No heaven up above
And no hell down below
Your third fucking eye is just a 9 milli hole

Spit with a slit in my wrist
Shit drip when i mix
Got death in my lungs
Got death on my lips
When i kiss it hit
You cant fix this
Im promising
You wont miss shit.

Yeah i know that im better off dead
Psycho path packs have you wheezing off my breath
The pressure in my chest aint stress it's death
Cuz im smoking on fent
While im praying that it end

Bitch i wake up everyday
Just to throw my life away
Put a needle in my vein
Metaphor for my pain
Golden years melt away
Through my fingers to the drain
Plan A, I'll be okay,
Heavens just a pill away

I begged for you to save me
But you never fucking came
Read my note now whats it say?
Promise you you'll see your name
One year, one day, ill be just another case
Just a victim of the shit that i couldnt fucking take

One prayer, please pray, that this pain will go away
In a grave where i'll remain
No one cares to keep my vase
Heavensgate, aka im the one they love to hate
Massive thanks
Sucks to say
That im the one you couldnt save

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