the darkhold

cy V

and it's just so good

spring 2022

stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0bawM83DKPc6x34fbSouE7?si=c9817a13a32349a5

too many issues i cant solve emmm
thanks 4 everything, really proud of this song i hope yall like it lol

lyrics:
you say its for the best,
but i feel way too stressed.
i swear that im losing sight
of what i do best
i wanna be right
yeah well im obssessed
its bad that i lie...
but theres stuff i cant confess

ive been down and so hopeless
im losing my focus
i hope i can show this
my life is so bogus
my career is tanking
everythings taking
a dangerous route

i, want, you to tell me
cus ur the last damn person that im needing to please
and your eyes say no but i can see all your greed
im an asshole addict with tendencies to grieve
i hate the person im becoming
i swear its natural but i feel like its evil
ive been losing focus in the sight of my dreams
i wanna turn back time but i dont think i can leave

take another step forward, i wish that i could step more
i try to turn around to face the problems but i get bored
they tell me im a monster in disguise without a big roar
seeing all my friends going up wish i could get more

and everyone around wants me to change myself
ive been stuck up in the clouds where i cannot find help
ive been dragged inside the mud and ive been down in hell
and really i have not been feeling all too well

i, want, you to tell me
cus ur the last damn person that im needing to please
and your eyes say no but i can see all your greed
im an asshole addict with tendencies to grieve
i hate the person im becoming
i swear its natural but i feel like its evil
ive been losing focus at the sight of my dreams
i wanna turn back time but i dont think i can leave

i, want, you to tell me
cus ur the last damn person that im needing to please
i, want, you to tell me
cus ur the last damn person that im needing to please

issues prod siemspark & ayoley

step too far now i'm falling apart
took it way too fast took a shot thru my heart
my past still haunting me day by day
its taunting me
look at the pictures its written in scriptures
i broke my back i cant handle the pressure
took a shot thru my head this is not what i pictured
insult to injury make me get sicker

ways i try to cope hold on to what i know
im so sick and im broke been down this road too many times
burn the photographs this pain is everlasting
rip my heart in half so sad im sick of masking

its karma like a stab in the back
get it while you got it cause i aint coming back
i dont need your approval on anything
im going insane think i might just crack

i cant love another soul break my mind heart gone cold
i cant love another soul lost my friends where will i go

ways to cope (p. thislandis & emorave)

Chapter 9: Evil Monster

beat is a remake i made of glue70 casin



i know, about it, i read all, about it
i said that, i love you, you're switching, the topic
no way, i woke up in the day, and everyday i do the same thing
i guess that i can't have it my way
and will you be there when the time fades

i'm ok, we'll be fine, i got you, on my mind
there's no way, you'll be mine, you made me forget my lines
if we say the truth i know that you love to hate me
i guessed it from the start, i guess i wasn't mistaken, like

i know, about it, i read all, about it
i said that, i love you, you're switching, the topic
no way, i woke up in the day, and everyday i do the same thing
i guess that i can't have it my way
and will you be there when the time fades

i'm ok, we'll be fine, i got you, on my mind
there's no way, you'll be mine, you made me forget my lines
if we say the truth i know that you love to hate me
i guessed it from the start, i guess i wasn't mistaken
and if we're being honest i know you had to break in
and will you know my name when you end up getting famous

same thing

This Mix Was Alread Turnt But Here's A Bell !

YEAT MIX

written, recorded and mastered by me
produced by @oldyungtoadsage <3

🠟 lyrics 🠟

A month that passes like a second with no comment

Living in the present,
its a box that lost its contents...

I wake up to their world,
where observations are nonsense

I wake up to their world,
where the truth is just too honest.

I wake up to a world
where everyone i know has lost it all

I wake up with the knowledge
That everyone i like is lost...

Im really okay with the pain and the costs,
and they think im not sane
its okay cuz im not

i said babe
im a pain to you
see that im draining you

said im engrained in you
get me away from you

im really okay
   as i say 
       while im crossed
then u stare at my eyes,
and u can tell im exhausted.

you don't wanna be chained to me
im probably a stain to you
i cant contain, asking,
how is it plain to you?
its not to me.

grew up having bad rep
look around me
everybody chasing checks
i have no crew
because the cliques just chase
adrenaline and neck

bitch im numb just like a sedative at best

and im pathetic cuz i leave the ones that love me
for some rest

and imma do it till im finally unaffected
by the ones
who make me scared of getting left

and imma do it till im finally unaffected
by the ones
who make me check my fucking back
like every second

and imma cherish every laceration
gratefully like someone who was made
to take a lesson

cuz im a masochist
and maybe im addicted
to the people who can send a fucking message

i think i left a bad impression
till the end, from the start,
im the source of my depression
build it up and tear it apart
spill everything in the session

 [ switch up ]

i dont
   see love
       as i used to anymore

some part
     of my heart
         died to keep me alive

i dropped my guard,
     in the end 
        what was it for?

some part
     of my heart
        died to keep me alive

-

its probably cause
     the light that was
inside of me
       has given up...
                well im not sure if it can be revived
                                 (be revived)

im mourning youth
       this shit is tough
             no innocence
                   no giving up
       my heart ran dry so you cant be mine
                        (cant be mine)

Its kinda clear that you dont need me,
Its pretty clear that i dont need you...
Its kinda clear that you dont want me,
Its pretty clear that i dont know what i want...
         kno-kno-know what i want
                        anymore

i dont
   see love
       as i used to anymore

some part
     of my heart
         died to keep me alive

i dropped my guard,
     in the end 
        what was it for?

some part
     of my heart
        died to keep me alive

bad impressions

clutch

@prodbyjoshwa

said ur coming back but i won't lie
u dont wna act try to fool me twice
heart trapped in the moment
i see it untapped looking in ur eyes

cuz u dont wna fall
on and off baby
slow
breaking my own heart lately
it's hard for me to breathe im
comparing endlessly

fucked up the memory
know what u said to me
wasting all my time
cant afford to let u see
take all thts mine </3

endlessly (joshwa)

produced by @sprr00w + @craves <3
written recorded and mixed by me 

as of making this I'm not doing good

🠟 lyrics 🠟

i wish that i could say
that im at my worst

but i know you’re here too


took my mind to a place
where i can hide my pain

so i can fucking hear you


and when you’re done
i turn my phone off
so i can disappear 

u dont wanna know
the things i do to cope
when ur not here


so don’t you worry your 
little head

im all ears for you 
as i should be

ill keep lying and saying
that im fine

until your problems
eat
away at me



time we get away from here
and see a place that doesn’t rain 

its time to say goodbye to home
cuz all it brought us both was pain 

its time for us to vanish 
in a way where they ask
are we sane ?

its time 

for us to walk alone


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of time


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of your time

i wish i had more to give

i love all these people dearly >|<

produced by me and @kojowav
mix/chops by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ intro : @xxsyris ]

what i feel around you 
is hard to describe
i can see thru ur lies 
please dont hurt whats inside

i feel like a nuisance
i feel i'm reclusive
why do u act cluless
you make me feel useless

[ chorus : @sprigtek ]

you still 
look at me 
like you did

back when 
we had met
u had let me in 

even when
you explain
its so strange

am i the one?
i -i
 the one
that u still miss


and ur the one
   that i want- 
i want to listen to 

until my death
    when i dream 
i still envision you

why would you tell me that?
if it just isnt true 

those things we said would happen 
am i just your distraction?

[ verse 1 : @xxsyris ]

i'm not the one, oh
i'm not the one oh,
what we've become
something that can't be undone

i'm not the one, oh
i'm not the one oh,
what we've become
something that can't be undone

and i know its fucked up but stay here with me

i promise its worth it so baby dont leave

you know that i want this you know that i need this

spinning in circles with lies but believe this

just keep it a secret ur love yeah i need it

i need it your love yeah i need it

[ verse 2 : @venusiann ]

i can't breathe, i'm so weak
i can't go on like this right now
but maybe, you'll save me
want you to lift me from the ground

and i can't keep you around
love is my curse i'd drown

hate to see your face
i wanna escape
to another place
never wanted it this way

[ chorus : @sprigtek ]

you still 
look at me 
like you did

back when 
we had met
u had let me in 

even when
you explain
its so strange

am i the one?
i -i
 the one
that u still miss


and ur the one
   that i want- 
i want to listen to 

until my death
    when i dream 
i still envision you

why would you tell me that?
if it just isnt true 

those things we said would happen 
am i just your distraction?

[ end ]

resolve / once + syris + venusiann

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