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lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
the biggest thing i fear
the darkness in my heart
will never disappear
now i'm back to start 
but u gave me one night where i felt happy again
i smiled and waved goodbye
i think i made a friend

she said, "the night is young"
i got nothing to do
let's ride around town
windows open through the roof
i think this is special
it's never been us two
laughing in the meadows, while the flowers bloom
don't leave u needa stay
i don't wanna go home
i could stay here for days
maybe hang again
cause i'm okay with that
i don't wanna get my hopes up but hey,
i think i made a friend

i hear them calling on my name
i'm still log and i'm still the same
hold right here don't let go of me
i'll be here if u need anything
it's getting pretty late
i could talk to u for hours
i never say a thing, i never say a word
but when i speak with u
i leave my introvert
i leave it all behind, is it better is it worse

well is it better is it worse cause you've known me for a while
and the day really depends if i frown or if i smile
will depression come again
but as soon as u went home
depression came back
but i don't really care cause i think i made a friend

she said, "the night is young"
well i got nothing to do
let's ride around town
windows open through the roof
i think this is special
it's never been us two
laughing in the meadows while the flowers bloom
don't leave u needa stay
cause i don't wanna go home
i could stay here for days
so maybe hang again
cause i'm okay with that
i don't wanna get my hopes up but hey..
i think i made a friend

but i don't think i'm ready i cannot have a girl yet
i'm still getting over my last relationship
i'm slowly getting better but some nights i still feel numb
now people wanna hangout but the doors shut
u say that u miss me and i really doubt that
u say that ur proud of me, do u even mean it?
but i think ur tryna take advantage of me
cause no one around me is doing what i'm doing

I THINK I MADE A FRIEND
I THINK I MADE A FRIEND
I THINK I MADE A FRIEND





i think i made a friend :,)

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i think i made a friend

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lyrics:
i just woke up and i'm not even tired
it's 7 in the morning but i ain't set my timer
u said u fell asleep but i think ur a liar
it's a shame that ur the only one that i admire
is it too much for u to shoot a text
cause it'd probably just take a sec
right now i take it slow with baby steps
but i think that u just want me in my bed
and that's fine
yea it's okay
but i lie
but you'd do the same
and i wonder why even stay?
when ur just killing time and worsening my pain

do you think our friend's would hold support for us
i don't know whether this is lust or love
thinking about your lips in between mine
i'd treat u better than these stupid guys
so if we were together i would give support for you
and not just a little i would give a ton
so maybe u should keep it in mind
i'd treat you better than any other guy

the violent sounds that keep me up at night
leaves my neck in sweat causing my pillow to fight
but i lay back down, praying for sleep
their words are profound, they're never nice to me no
so is it too much for u to shoot a text
i swear it'd probably just take a sec
rn i take you slow with baby steps
but i swear that u just want me in my bed
procrastinating whether if i should go to sleep
cause i don't wanna see you in another dream
oh i hate it
it feels so real
i could touch it
and keep u sealed

don't tell her i'll be gone
either way she wouldnt know
i just took off
I'll see you when i play a show
mom and dad have moved
thought for sure they wouldn't go
let me stay with you, you are my second home
i wanted you to see
i wanted you to know
i'd tell you to my friend's just so i could boast
but you don't understand
that i am not a man
i do this for my brother
and i do this for my fans
fake talk, this a face off, i ain't scared of you
bite down, rip my tongue off and the blood run through
show up i got teeth marks and my peck turned blue
the suns down, imma head out yeah it was nice to see you
i gotta keep my cool yeah just wait wait wait wait
you gotta calm down log but i'm addicted to the pain
LOVE WHEN YOU LIE
LOVE WHEN YOU SPEAK
LOVE WHEN YOU CRY
AND LOVE WHEN YOU BREATHE
POSTED OUTSIDE, WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE, STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A MACE
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
i need to lay down thank god i'm alive
i knocked your man's down, i think he might die
lost our loved one's
bring peace to us all
cowards they run
and snakes in the wall
pray for em all

snakes in the wall

produced by heylog
guitar by ashen

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lyrics:
my minds
dizzy and my head is way too light 
middle of nowhere just i
now i wish u could be here
the plan is to go disappear

no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
cause i'm too used to people leaving
why is it never good timing
and i'm sick apologizing 
when ur the one who should b sorry
i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our dna
too soon for home yea i'll be there late
still see grey

i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our eye's
what is it like sharing lives?
tonight i plan to make u mine
hearts so lost, thinking u could change that
i been through a lot and i lost a couple friend's 
but if i'm being honest i could care less
i don't wanna go through hell again
i need nothing, from u or anyone
i see something in her, i felt like i have won
(won)
translate my words into love
a better me, better evolve
no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here

(fun fact: i recorded this song with a strep throat)

evolve

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
i wait patient for karma
butterflies and larva
pain in my sternum
poking me in my heart oh
floating i've risen
fall apart, rebuild it
emptiness, refill it
but i'm out of liquid
i made it far
low on juice, recharge
going through some photos, i feel pain in my heart
(god)
love me or not, do something
don't tease or play w my feelings
wait here in the cold
anger, unfold

you
oh
you
oh
you
oh
oh
you
baby hold me
enough is not enough
i need something
when i fall out of love

listen here u need to know
come closer, this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love u and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
don't let go it's me i'll kill

can't stop coughing
bruising my chest
i make mistakes, keep losing my head
avoiding talk, don't wanna see friends
afraid of toxics i can feel it
you said u was my boy
but i hear the fake in your voice
(so fake)
"WHY DO I NEVER HEAR FROM YOU OR SEE YOU
WHY DO I NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU BEEN UP TO"
I DON'T FEEL LIKE CONVERSATING
I BOTTLE UP, GIVE IT TIME TILL I BREAK IT
DROWNING AND DROWNING MY SENSE
HOW AM I BLESSED WHEN YOU SAW WHAT I DID
LET OUT MY EMOTION UPSTAIRS IN MY CRIB
PROCRASTINATING AGAIN AND AGAIN

lyrics:

Sage green eyes look over me while I break down
U sucked out my life from my heart I need to lay down
I read somewhere u rarely should ever trust what people say now
I didn’t wanna believe but I know it keeps me safe now
Please just learn to fight on ur own cause ur all u got
Its something I hated hearing but honestly it helped a lot
She said rather drink some gin and smoke some pot to block it out
And baby that’s ur decision and I can’t help if u dont hear me out

But still we keep on drinking thru the hard times
These 50 people around keep us occupied
This October is so much colder than last years
I wish I could relax but I dont see any of my friends here
Ive made it this far so Im sure I could never fold here
But before u broke me up I didn’t know tears
I blow my cigarette smoke in fall air
U look so good but oh my god u bite
I didn’t trust nobody and oh my god I was right to
love didn’t use to mean that they’d try lock u up and hide u
Baby it’s a big world and I’m trying but I hate this
As soon u gain some traction oh its funny how the plot twist
Its all the same when the last breath comes
Who would u save and who would u rather have die
Dont focus on the blade look me in my eyes
Im here to wipe the last tears u cry
I was never the one to avenge ur life
Cause in ur last move u sacrificed mine
So baby I garuntee that it’ll be only bad dreams tonight
And in the worst of it all I show teeth tonight
Because me of still free tonight
Because of me I still breath
But because of u I cant sleep
It seems ur smells still stuck in my sheets tonight

Sage green eyes look over me while I break down
U sucked out my life from my heart I need to lay down
I read somewhere u rarely should ever trust what people say now
I didn’t wanna believe but I know it keeps me safe now
Please just learn to fight on ur own cause ur all u got
Its something I hated hearing but honestly it helped a lot
She said rather drink some gin and smoke some pot to block it out
And baby that’s ur decision and I can’t help if u dont hear me out

life sucker (taylor morgan x punk)

'i'm sorry' produced by heylog
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lyrics:
every other june is never hot it's just as cold
staying in my house all day my skin could probably mold
closing both my drapes and sit in silence while i scroll
loving u is hard when i don't love me as a whole
mom notices whenever i'm down i point my chin
she ask, "is something wrong?" but everytime i always fib
people my age are married when i feel like a kid
i write all apologies to people on a list
so i'm sorry for mistakes i've made i need to watch my tone
i'm sorry letting people down u didn't have to go
i'm sorry for responding late just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry for never smiling but can't u see i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i wanted ur opinion u didn't have to be so blunt
telling u my secrets but u were so wrong to trust
everything is hitting now not separate, all at once
and it hurts so much
in the dirt eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm so close from disapearing
yet again another year

there's a reason why i hide my face and my identity
people are so curious if i'm young or if i'm 23
searching for the info and my god it just upsets me
please just let it go i have a life and i'm not telling
show me some respect, there's a point that i'm unknown
maybe i dislike my face or maybe i just don't
music is my second life and my first is personal
finding out the truth u come to realize it just hurts to know

i'm sorry for mistakes i've made, i need to watch my tone
i'm always letting people down and everytime they go
i'm sorry i'm on dnd just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry i don't smile, is it clear to u i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i play out all scenarios but they're too go to trust
dodging my own hatred but i always fail to duck
every problems hitting me like a million bombs
and it hurts so much
in the dirt, eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm this close from disappearing
i survive another year

i'm sorry

'collide' produced by heylog
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lyrics:
removing pieces of flesh
ur gonna leave me i bet
i don't stand a single chance
when u don't even lend me a hand
i'm hurting but i'm fine
i'm burning, still alive
i watch all my emotions collide
put me to a test
anchored, need to rest
but right now i can't and it's
because i'm so stressed on my last and final breath
sad just like usual, oh boy i'm such a mess
i don't fit in, something just doesn't click
worry u won't hurt my feelings i'll just lay in bed

I AM LOST FOR WORDS I'M AFRAID OF GETTING CURVED
do u think u feel me well enough to know my hurt
I AM LOST FOR WORTH HONESTLY THIS COULD BE WORSE
all the things i've done tell me what do i deserve
I AM SO DEPRESSED IS IT A LITTLE OBVIOUS
searching for a light but it seems all the powers dead
I FEEL MY DESCENT WEIGHT ME DOWN AND SLOWLY PRESS
barely ever happy always find it hard to get

i am so depressed
nothing new i guess
sum up everything and i'm hanging by a thread	
constantly regret
flip a switch and just reset
wish it was that easy, repeat it all again

collide

'me' produced by heylog
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lyrics:
you see
i'm always down
down bad and
turn around
walking backwards
hit the ground
lookin up pushing me down
my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be
look i
step in a party
wonder why
am i here 
and check the time
check the weather 
and do it twice
then i realize my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be?

if u know me well enough then u know i got flaws
u gotta get going, when u leave i shut off
argue with me all the time i'm just overthinking
grab the brain and took the mind connecting all the pieces oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time..
i been
in front of me

can't get me to stop
my shoes giving me blisters
it's difficult to crop u out the picture
but i gotta do it one of these days or later
baby i'm a nuisance
my hearts covered in layers oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time
i been..
in front of me
look here i go through it
this not a joke i'm so pissed
wake up and mope, slouching
always no hope
(but don't quit)
hate on myself
that's my loss
i don't need help
i'm so done
one two three four
i'm it
but i give up
you win
take me out the frame i don't do this
swear like every single day i'm always losing
can't tear me apart already ruined
but i don't know why u lie what are u doing
already knew it
hating myself twice now i don't even cry no more
underneath my eyes, rapidly bounce back and forth
seeing through your lies
now i don't get phased
but thank god, now i realize
that the enemy is me

'mike' produced by heylog
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lyrics:
on this road alone dead bush rolling by
seeing stars shooting around but it's not even night
i can't even keep my legs under me even if i tried
voices say to rest my feet but it's all just a lie
man this struggle never ends even if i want it to
i barely can pretend cause it's not me or what i wanna do
and i'm not afraid of death but it's something i would never choose
and i wish that i knew less cause i'm tryna see the right of you
lurking in the shadows oh man i feel alive
i don't think that i am seeable, i might burn from the light
and i'm tired fighting battles with me, myself and i
cause i don't got any strategies or tactics in this mind
i keep putting people first but i need to be more selfish
and i need to know my worth cause right now i'm really helpless
and u said that you'd be here for me and i said, "k i doubt that"
next time don't promise anything if ur not gonna stick to it

i don't feel like playing games
i'm so mad that i could punch something
but i learned how to refrain
u said you've changed for the good
but honestly it feels the same
u said you've changed for the good
but honestly you feel the same
yeah u feel the same
i bottle it up keep it inside no out
let loose of all of me when ur not around

i guess u didn't even understand a word i said
i don't think that u deserve me, i think u deserve the best
i can barely by, sink into the deepest depths
in my mental, in my mind it's all coming to an end
sinking to the bottom yeah i get it, but what's up?
trying to stay positive but it's not working out
you know you'll never hurt me, i'm already numb
even if u tried, wish the best of luck
lurking in the shadows oh man i feel alive
i don't think that i am seeable, i might burn from the light
and i'm tired fighting battles with me, myself and i
cause i don't got any strategies or tactics in this mind
i keep putting people first but i need to be more selfish
and i need to know my worth cause right now i'm really helpless
and u said that you'd be here for me and i said, "k i doubt that"
next time don't promise anything if ur not gonna stick to it

mike

'the war III' produced by heylog
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lyrics:
resting my eyes wonder if this is a dream
barely get by, drips of blood stain through my fleece
stumbled across some stones near the creek
stopping i pause and hear the angels sing
gasping breaths of air, vision narrow and it's blurred
stop telling me to calm down that only makes it worse
sharpen i got claws now, cutting through my shirt
this is not the end just know soon i will return
watching people die, i cannot look or see
covering my eyes, i hear the distant screams
plugging both my ears but the sound bleeds
crying more tears than it is raining
throw it all away could tell u didn't care
is that all u got? love when it ain't fair
move me out and crop the picture, never there
people love to talk but never wanna square

tell me what u want baby tell me what u need
going through it all everything is out of reach
engaging in a fight everyone is scared of me
but they will never know deep down i'm only weak
please just hear me out can u promise me one thing
i can never win if u promise you'll never leave
baby i'm alone, does life have any means?
falling through the cracks and slipping right through the seams
stepping on the gas
quarter of a tank
i gotta ways to go but i know i have the strength
not in crowds or packs
2 if even that
i fight all by myself, capable of what i have

go in pissed off risking my life
stranded, panic tracking the time
dangerous hatred, kill and divide
this is not what i had implied
bleeding out, mission abort
loose ties, cutting the cords
stable, carry support
no i don't care if this all distorts
contradicting yourself, you make no sense
i try to get me to talk but i'm so dense
shoot my thoughts at the floor and think again
my depression is war, a chain of events
u made a mistake of losing this
now i feel unworthy of so many things
i continue to grow, thanks to a screen
and continue to fly feeling free

trusting my gut
made the right choice
when is it time to stop feeling destroyed
bottom of the ocean
fell into a void
i kinda like it here no sign of any noise
fighting for my life
this is the war III
letting go of souls
who were so close to me
aching won't stop
my heart from leaving
charging with no hope
but i have to believe

believe
believe
believe oh, i need to believe

the war III

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lyrics:
oh we don't feel the same
like what we used to but we'll be okay
2 hours delay
part of me could never push u away
see i still love you, it'll never change
i need to lose you, i wanna keep u safe
but i'm still waiting for u to come home
u reside somewhere else now
oh kay i'm losing sleep
i think about u every day and every single week
but i'm still surviving this deep
we talk like once a month just know i'm working on me
and when i go to bed ur on my mind
and it effects the way i dream
waking up isn't a good time
u know we made a decent team
driving away u want me to stay
the minute i leave i'm missing your face
i don't understand, u were all i got
i'll piss through my pants if u got a guy
baby i know u could do better
she hates to be used, so why do u let him
if i was you i'd say to him,
"i'll no longer continue to put up with this"

can't keep looking back or else i'll slowly die
but i'm already dead i can't really decide
to open up the gap and better up my life
i want it bad but you'd hate me to try
do ur thing i know it's over
dead boy like being a poser
bad terms couldn't care about no closure
dive into exposure
i don't drink, so i stay being sober
oh man i should've closed her
cut it off but now i wanna hold her
so come a little closer
i told u everything now can u keep it on the low
cross ur heart and promise me that u won't tell a soul
you'll do anything
to keep it closed
i don't wanna say
the less u know
studying ur face
zero flaw
all the details
so beautiful

closure

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lyrics:
as usual i manage to breakdown
don't bother me i enjoy no sound
can't talk to ppl and i know i should
the nerves i build up come out me like a flood
i expect a better me to finally come my way
but the hope i'm losing is drifting away
i forgot that u were mine and that u exist
and that's a good thing
i'm making progress
i hold a whole heart
i gotta use it wise
i cancel all my plans
cus i changed my mind
she smell like lavender
and i think i'm in love
wait hold on a min
can we take a pause
i needa overthink
when i talk to you
it's not on purpose
now u know the truth
i told u everything
n all my secrets
and now it feels wrong
and i know i'm screwed
i look in your eyes it's like looking in an abyss
thanks for your time i learned a lot from it
i'm different now, done with u, you know what i quit
i'm leaving now, don't care to be part of this
YOU SAID SHE WAS A WHORE
WELL MAYBE UR THE HOE
ABSCONDING EVERY GIRL
IS THIS WHERE I GROW
COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE
I'LL BREAK EVERY BONE
NOW DUDES CARE FOR ME
BUT I ONLY GOT 1 BRO

𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘢𝘯
𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱

𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨

lavender

lyrics:

Create the bond
And break the bond in anger
We were once and once again are strangers
Piercing me her eyes have turned to lasers
Create the plot and skew the plot to make her
I hope this feeling in my stomach blows by
You were the only one to read me thru my eyes baby
I was fucked by u made it alright baby
now without you part of me dies

I thought human nature gifted moral code but I was wrong
She could kill me now and I would still try to put it in a song
Circulation leaves my fingers while I jot down these poems
I feel being hated still holds more than being alone
Ive lost too many friends to the same shit I take
Heavens way too full for someone that had willed this fate
The bottles never deep enough to drown out this pain
And the pills are never strong enough to alleviate this weight
Create the bond
And break the bond in anger
We were once and once again are strangers
Piercing me her eyes have turned to lasers
Create the plot and skew the plot to make her
Break me again
And again and again
When im numb Ill say sorry to my family and friends
Im on drink im on pills im on ten im on go
In my head I hear voices telling me im better cold
I dont know x4
But I dont know
I dont know x4
Huh
I dont know x6

Back in Dallas I thought I could make time
I was nervous but I tried to play fine
I feel my pills push down on top of my eyes
But In the 416 I really come to life
Inside of this city when u cry its pure ice
Snow is blinding me in these college streetlights
Oh what happened to me I guess in the end our time flies
That’s why I think ill come and check on u tonight

Kill me and then love me and then cut me and then stuff me and then dump me in this ditch
I was so damn whipped
U ungrateful bitch
please just choke
This about people that did me wrong
If u feel me just sing along
I had never felt how I was
On that evening night in that house
But Im too scared to reach out
So ill be here thinking about it

Back in Dallas I thought I could make time
I was nervous but I tried to play fine
I feel my pills push down on top of my eyes
But In the 416 I really come to life
Inside of this city when u cry its pure ice
Snow is blinding me in these college streetlights
Oh what happened to me I guess in the end our time flies
That’s why I think ill come and check on u tonight

closure

heylog

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