"both her irises are narrowed by her pupils" dk why that gave me chills 😫

'goodbye' produced by heylog

lyrics:
almost 5am, i find it harder to sleep
i crack the window and i hear every animal sing
with a wind blowing soft, rustling through the leaves
admire nature as it comes alive from winter to spring
the flowers grow so tall that they start to bloom
and i just took a couple out cus i picked them for u
hoping one day you'll travel here to see what's new
cus this bouquet is gonna die if u don't visit me soon
and i
have a difficult time
spending days
when ur on my mind
wish this
would just go away
cus i'm trying to push u away
why
do i feel lonely
knowing i
hurt to see
an outcast
no one wants to be
and giggled at
n always being teased

can someone give a valid reason on why i shouldn't die
in disbelief that i will never see a point in life
i'm on and off of feeling bad and for a second i'm fine
it's so messed up and i don't think that i will ever resign
i'm so bipolar and i don't want u to see me like this
cus i guarantee i'll scare u if i speak from my chest
i didn't mean for u to leave when u saw that on my wrist
and i'm so sorry for putting u through all of this 
so why
do u keep playing w me
is it cause
u get lonely
in the night
and think of us
well it's fine
cus i think of us too
why
do i feel like this
well nevermind
cus u don't care about this
and if i die
will u grieve
and will cry
and will u miss me

CAN SOMEONE GIVE A VALID REASON ON WHY I SHOULDN'T DIE
CAUSE YOU MAKE ME WANNA KILL MYSELF OR GO GRAB THE KNIFE
I'M AT THE AGE WHERE I CAN NEVER SEE A POINT IN LIFE
IN DISBELIEF OF EVERYTHING THAT I'M JUST WASTING MY TIME
I'M SO BIPOLAR AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO SEE ME LIKE THIS
CAUSE I GUARANTEE I'LL SCARE YOU IF I SPEAK FROM MY CHEST
I'M AT THE BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN WITH ALL OF MY REGRETS
THERE'S MANY THINGS I WISH WERE GONE OR WISH I COULD RESET
I STEP INTO THE LIGHT AND DID THIS WITHOUT A GROUP
AND SO YOU NOTICING ME NOW WHEN I'M STEADY ON THE MOVE
AND YOU JUST THINK IT'S ALL OKAY TO HIT ME UP OUT OF THE BLUE
I'M NOT YOUR FRIEND OR TYPE OF BENEFIT TO SATISFY YOU
SO PLEASE GIVE A VALID REASON THAT YOU WANT ME DEAD
IS IT SAFE TO EVEN KNOW THAT THIS JUST MIGHT BE A TEST
FOR YOU TO TRICK ME INTO THINKING I'M NOTHING BUT A MESS
DELETE YOUR IMAGE THAT I LONGED FOR AND NOT SEEN AGAIN

if i can't love
will i end up
alone and forgot
or spend it w someone
i can't fall in love
my hearts dead
probably numb
i miss u my dear
it feels like it's been years

no way home
i was never close
the path ends here
don't know where to go
stone cold lies
i knew i was right
so farewell
cus this is goodbye

spotify

goodbye

produced by heylog
enjoy <3

lyrics:
swear i could throw up if i keep thinking of you
you disgust me and i guess u wanted to prove
that ur shameful you gave it all up for him
just some pleasure to receive from a little bitch
i need to let it go
but it haunts me to my deepest core

surround me in this darkness whom i spare
there is plenty more for you so join me in here
i need to let u know
that u disgust me
and i can't look at u no more
get myself to do things but i never wanna do them
once i go outside i'm proud i got myself to do it
you disappoint me to the point i never wanna see you
your motions say it all from what you n him have been through

now ur shameful you gave it all up for him
oh just a finger to receive between your lips

pleasure

produced by heylog
enjoy .-.

lyrics:
her eyes frown upon me looking at the mess
marks are on my shoulder blade and right below my neck
oh she can't stand the look i give her back
please don't be afraid
it was just a little scratch

it was just a little scratch..

u make me nervous
sending chills from head to toe
i could feel ur fingertips 
dig into my bones
i'm not scared at all
you can have me by my throat
her iris weakens thee
the brown just got a hold of me

a hold of me..

you look cold so i'll keep u warm
keep u warm
walking through the snow and i see ur door
see ur door
u look so pretty waiting there for me
there for me
sparks are round ur eyes when u stare at me
stare at me

stare at me
stare at me..

iris

produced by heylog
enjoy <3

lyrics:
when i burn in fire
you gave a hand
i'll try not to let go
she understands
nothing is more beautiful
than your demand
i thank u for being
so delicate

i'll decide ur demeanor to me
no ambition it was never easy
on the highway he finally came clean
how the hell could you do that to me
i thought u were my bestfriend
cus i know that they don't cut ur back
text and i won't answer, get on read
don't play w my emotions i'm so delicate
so delicate

when i burn in fire 
u gave a hand
but i might just let go
and she understands
nothing is more beautiful
than your demand
i hope i treated you
better than him

walking outside notice autumnal leaves
yellow and red and a few orangish trees
the air is fresh when i'm jogging thru this subdivision
my legs hurt.. take breath heavily
run by three deer on my right
they look at me like i'm threatening their life
the parents are guarding their fawn
sometimes i wish family could be us

autumn

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
I COULD DISINTEGRATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES
AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHETHER IF I WAS DEAD OR ALIVE
NOW THEIR EYES WIDEN LIKE IT'S SOME SORT OF SURPRISE
I WAS JUST TESTIN TO SEE IF IT CROSSED YOUR MIND

in the eventide it's cold 
as i'm right beside the woods
every bug is now buzzing
in a forest, in a bush
it's that time to hibernate
animals retreat from the north
toward the south to migrate
winter streets get quickly worn
DESCEND INTO YOUR SOUL
BLOOD DRAWING FROM MY SKULL
WOULD YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT
YOU REAP WITH WHAT YOU SOW
examining your mind
hope to intertwine
oh everything aligns
beside you feeding me with lies

pokin thru the light and lost all them
being used as your personal vent
if u keep it up i might just dip
cus the words u say leave me in dents
i set my expectations way too high
it kinda sucks but i'll let this one slide
i gotta regroup and resupply
quit tryna fool me i see right through ur eyes

I COULD DISINTEGRATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES
AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHETHER IF I WAS DEAD OR ALIVE
NOW THEIR EYES WIDEN LIKE IT'S SOME SORT OF SURPRISE
I WAS JUST TESTIN TO SEE IF IT CROSSED YOUR MIND
BUT IT DIDN'T 
I SEE YOU'RE TRYNA PRY YOUR WAY INTO MY BUSINESS
YOU'LL NEVER GET IN
EVERY YEAR THE CIRCLE SHRINKS AND IT THICKENS
IT ALWAYS THICKENS

pause

she wonders why i always hangout in the dark
idk bruh just chilling playing guitar
oh it was all my fault
didn't know committing to a girl would be hard
so i should really focus on my bread
there's never a balance, music till i go to bed
baby i'm far too gone
bags under my eyes i didn't sleep until dawn

you'll never get it

disintegrate

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
i hate to say i forced myself thinking that you were sweet
but ur a monster, didn't know that you were a freak
lock me out from you and throw away the keys
i won't let you get any closer to me
put my hand on her leg and feel the ridges and scars
i feel afraid you might bury my body under tarp
so dig a grave for 2 people and make sure it is large
you're coming with, i won't die alone or we could restart

i'm not gonna bother you anymore
pulling my collar, pulling out thorns
it was an honor climbing aboard
somebody watch her out on the floor
i'm not gonna bother you ever again
pulling my collar right back where it is
i tried my hardest to help you get fixed
wasn't for long until you relapsed

say does your father know you been out
if i was him you'd have curfew, no doubt
i just want you safe getting back to the house
cause nowadays it's brutal all around
don't hold on 
to my hand
just let go now
find a man
don't look back
not a glance
as i'm crushed by
an avalanche
don't know why you'd say that
you're gonna get pay back
looking at a photo could you possibly get phased at
drinking at a club
i thought you were done
she said, "i stayed away"
but bro it's been a month
i don't wanna hate
i just never drink
you could say i'm boring all you want but i'm not phased
i don't make excuses
i simply do not do it
don't wanna see my life fall into a ruin

i'm not gonna bother you anymore
pulling my collar, pulling out thorns
it was an honor climbing aboard
somebody watch her out on the floor
i'm not gonna bother you ever again
pulling my collar right back where it is
i tried my hardest to help you get fixed
wasn't for long until you relapsed

repeat

guitar by @nevrfall
produced by heylog

enjoy

lyrics:
rotting my flesh
mold in my lens
i feel corrupt
everything is a mess
i hear noise and groans
my systems broke
i'm deader as dust
takes over my bones

she
eats
slowly at me
i'm like her dessert
my skin is to feast
she
eats
every bit of me
gnawing my flesh
body slowly depletes

thank god i'm all alone don't gotta worry bout a damn thing
she loves makin eye contact with me now i just translate
while both her irises are narrowed by her pupils
caught up in the moment, every single time it's crucial
babe it's crucial
loving you is brutal
i'm willing for another shot to be quadruple
but your approval
it's only your approval
the only person is with me whom you'll be truthful

run from her fast
don't let her grab
or else she'll latch me
and start attacking

(x2)
she
eats
slowly at me
i'm like her dessert
my skin is to feast
she
eats
every bit of me
gnawing my flesh
body slowly depletes

gnaw

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
we went through a lot of ups and downs
yet you still stayed close to my side
we often dug straight to the ground
you don't know what i look like now
just a number in my phone
i'll love you the most
march is a horrible month
why's it always cold
spent the end to cry
i miss you every night
don't call me when you see this
i'll hit decline
i don't look the same
as i used to
is this a bad thing
log, i don't know you
i don't look the same
like before
and i don't recognize myself
anymore

2 weeks 'till i go home
can't wait to see you, oh
october is when you go
now things are coming to
an end

she'll only love me if i just love myself
but baby with you i felt things i don't feel
i couldn't imagine to feel someone else
the thought of it always gets me overwhelmed
i hate separating from people i love
but i go forever without anyone
i will go for days and not say any words
you won't hear from me cause i sit back and lurk
closing the drapes to block out any light
the things that i do i would never advise
it's so bad for me and hm, i wonder why
growing more acne and i'm not surprised
don't look at me, please don't look at my face
the way that you stare makes me humiliate
i swear i get uglier
i don't look the same
you won't recognize me by how much i've changed
changed

update failed

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
cause ur not receiving 
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
or maybe i should let it fall

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
i'm looking at the pane and see a kid i don't recognize at all
you think i'm in a crisis but this is my life inside a ball
but i am not the one to be crying over some bullsh-
i'm trying to be a man for a girl who is the purist
and i believe that's only achieved through work and purpose
but at the very end of the day it'll be worth it
so what'd you say you come tag along to a journey
i'll be your protector, you won't have to worry
will you believe in me if i focus and try
i'll do what it takes to give you a better life

i assume your brain still has developing to do
no one cares about my feelings and neither do you
only difference i don't post them, you fiend off replies
absorbing it like energy to mentally survive
you're fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
because you're not receiving
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me
the letters i would write
could form into a book
when turning every page
seem to be overlooked
so when you read the words
imagine you are me
tearing paper
and grinding your teeth

oh i was always there
too bad i ain't here
go cry, well life ain't fair
it's not like i don't care
but oh my, i'm bad at saying no
but i don't wanna be a problem if i'm holding on
oh my, now you wanna complain
baby i'm not gonna put up with that for very long
for long

teeth II

prod heylog

lyrics:
wait here for a minute
i'll be back in a moment
tie me to a rope
pull it back, cut me open
everything we did together
(god)
likes to haunt me
i take it with a grain of salt and everything you taught me
in the end i'm still a human but you hate that
cause you put me in a bottle when u face back
and i remember we were tight but i don't trace back
so ima move on with my life and never think "past"
cause i don't wanna get caught up in flames i've been in before
i see my problems and delete like i just been through a war
and i got 24 hours and 7 days filled with bored
but when someone asks me to hang i don't have time to afford
and by that i mean i just wanna hangout by myself
& i'm sorry but i'd rather work on music n melt
cause oh my god this heat has got me sweating hotter than hell
i haven't showered for a while and i'm starting to smell
now i look into the mirror, sensing anger in me
i wanna smash it into pieces, i don't wanna be weak
i wanna get me out this town and move somewhere overseas
i'm tryna get me to the top but i'm progressing with ease
and the last thing ima do is hang my head and give up
i think they're praying me to fall but so far they're outta luck
cause i continue steady work while they're hungover as f-
and on the weekends i be staying home cause it's just as fun

again

prod heylog

lyrics:
hearing conversations that i don't know what they're talkin bout
give a little lip and bet you know that i'll be walking out
holding up the line like seriously what are you on about
stepping up to fight, do you think i'm afraid to knock u out
gloves up, round one
i can't wait to pounce ya
blood bath, get smacked
come on, can you hit back
no chance, throw hands
punch him in his throat glands
your boy is a pussy and i'd like to throw w you next

your excuse is blaming her being a hoe
if that was new to me i'd kill you on the low
but i was stupid then and brushed it off
i'm in the trees and my bow is drawn

it doesn't matter
i'm moving like better than ever
it's all been captured
you notice how there is a pattern
i take a weapon and turn it into an aesthetic
i take aggression out all on myself & accept it
she looks so fine
i won't let her know why
"i like your hair and your pretty blue eyes"
i'm a disaster, oh baby i'm a disaster
and does that matter
oh baby does that really matter

𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳

POSTED OUTSIDE
WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE
STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A M-
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
don't you ever talk a-
wake up & i'm winning
how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame-
least that i'm not lamer
cry
i gotta get going and i hope to see you never

gnaw

heylog

Recent comments

alqasi

Breaking Down

sidejoy.

Shoe Lace

Related tracks