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Heylog

February

prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

spotify

care w/ heylog♡

produced by heylog

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

i love you

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(keep thinking that i'm stuck 
falling from the sun
you found me in the mud
can you tell i've had enough)

getting muddy
hurts when your words crush me
can we please lie here
maybe i'm just tired
i'm strong when i'm alone
right now i feel so weak
breaking all my bones
i know ur judging me
i left it and our home
i feel u getting closer, hoping i can fix
your only little problem, praying that you'll quit
i'm sorry i'm such a bother, i probably ruined this
i don't know if i should call her, just saying that i miss you
but i'm confident that i got her, talking with her lips
took a chunk out of my shoulder, rashes on my neck
my mouth is filled with water as she take another sip
i don't know if i should stop her, trying to convince
that ur not even fair, do you think this is a game?
scrunching up my hair, do nothing how am i drained?
why do u even go? when this party's filled with hoes
MY STOMACH DROP, NERVOUS NELLY
TWISTS AND TURNS IN MY TUMMY
oh down another bottle it's her 3rd now
getting wasted quick
i don't see a point in this
turn towards a drink
baby let me tell you it ain't gonna fix a thing

i don't know if i can do this
continue making music
i've grown to be something
and i don't wanna lose it
i'm feeling all this pressure
they want me to start over
but that ain't gonna happen
i'll continue being a loser

getting muddy
hurts when your words crush me
can we please lie here
maybe i'm just tired
i'm strong when i'm alone
right now i feel so weak
breaking all my bones
i know ur judging me
left it and our

breaking out of my shell, tell me how do u do this
these stories that you tell, aint no coincidence
forgot how love is felt, you reminding me of it
don't need u to compel anything ur not comfortable with

(i'm not done yet)

my iris glistens, she told me "im amazed, 
i've never seen such blue eyes on a face"
hard to listen what did you even say
going fast it's too late to hit the breaks
getting stabbed busy drowning in a lake
on dnd i promise i'm not okay
associate with no one just only me
talk to people trying not decay

coincidence

Spotify: lnkfi.re/heylogaloneagain
AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFIYFgu2tWY

Artist:
@heylog

Lyrics:
no luck, i'm bored about everyday
you suck and i would say it to your face
know why i'm here but i don't have to stay
it's because i love you so i won't walk away
but that's something i'd say in the past
moving on to new friends, discover new laughs
i've held this loneliness for too long
seeing friends but why do i still feel alone
alone again
i love my life
i burn my hand
i love my life
she asked me,
"how do you do?"
well i hate myself
but what's new?

alone again
i've lost my mind
i heal my skin
oh i'm alright
she asked me,
"so what's new"
well like nothing
and what about you

no luck, i'm bored about everyday
i suck, i do nothing to make a change
building up my anger i got so much hate
if i were you i'd leave, why don't you walk away
but you got something to say? cause you keep staring at me
and i would talk to you but i'm too busy sweating
and the social awkwardness is getting to me
oh i went too long without socializing

so just run away cause i look like a monster
im sorry, that i hurt your daughter
i know your family hates me but your dad yeah he was pretty cool
maybe you should learn from him take off that worthless costume
alone again
i love my life
i burn my hand
i love my life
she asked me,
"how do you do?"
well i hate myself
but what's new?

alone again
i messed up bad
i cut my skin
and grow it back

heylog - alone again

NEVER	

xxxtentacion - NEVER

A Message To Tina Belcher	

a message to tina belcher feat. Fifty Grand

Snow

Snow (Feat. Killstation)

falling down (prod. nedarb x ledderick)

lyrics:

baby come and visit in my underground apartment
i dont got no oxygen at least i got parking
here we got the fridge that tell you youd be better starving
and we got the smokers corner for the broken hearted
baby can u tell me how the fuck to die happy
i just wanna drill my head in dirt and hear cracking
cells inside my brain would tell me it'd be too tacky
i just need a freight to clip the rail and come smack me
im so fucking sorry girl i know im still changing
this is like the lullaby u sing to kill the baby
i dont think u can but it means alot u tried to save me
promise ill remember u ur such a nice lady
when im just a blob in my mid to late forties
every time my smaller blobs would make me tell em stories
i only tell the one because i want em to remember
when i tell the tale about the woman in the quarry

alright alright
alright alright
alright alright

baby i can tell u i wont ever die sober
i dont live no different from the man behind the dumpster
if its not no drugs just be assured im in my slumber
down right dirty szn throwin up blood all summer
i remember geeking when i walked into the complex
i know i was fucked its probably way worse outta context
shawty been my angel in a time i need it most
sucks she couldnt save me right before i turned ghost
cons may well inspire give a fuck about pros
i still got some slime under the dimple neath my nose
i suck on the bottle almost like im still teething
i just hope this wine can help me tell u how im feeling

c (eric godlow)

sub/xad 
@xadvoi



and when i talk you get too cocky
and ima take another road this ones too rocky
and when i start to fade away you get to talking
and when i try to say a thing you get to mocking
n im so sick of ur shit
u cannot make it ok
and i wna run away
but i keep seeing ur face 
a million things u could say
but we all makin mistakes but i think we'll be ok yea i think we'll b ok 

change my life i dont wanna live like this
oh my god pretty bitches wanna bite this
no more time gonna waste my life
no more time gonna change my life
OMG thought these bitches wouldnt like me
now shit changed and they claiming that they love me
OH MY GOD you done changed my ways 
used to get so high till i see ur face.

and when i talk you get too cocky
and ima take another road this ones too rocky
and when i start to fade away you get to talking
and when i try to say a thing you get to mocking
X2

cocky w/ xadvoi

ALICE MADNESS (jakemarkow x nick mira)

prod. subsad
i take back everything i said. lol

toxic toxic

s/o https://soundcloud.com/cay2o for beat sauce

lyrics:

me:
you're the only one who stayed here, but i can't feel you when you lay here
i know you're jus layin next to me, but in my mind im living a tragedy.

i think im gonna go ghost, but it only lasts for a couple hours
she said that i do the most, um, she don't know me at all
i fall to the ground so easily
i lay in bed just to keep the peace
you fell in love with me that was the problem we're fucked in the head and we know that we probably 
can't go much longer we're stuck in somber 
it's almost the end of october, and we still can't keep fighting.
im fighting for you i hope you're telling the truth cause i been stuck in this mindset and i been holdin onto you.
all of my trust is abandoned, i lay in bed and i count my bands then 
wake up and put on my pants and
slip and fall on all my chances.

skele: 
me n kais in the back 
got racks on me 
2 gs on a coat 
n we still eat 
don’t get why u sad when u see me 
but ion say shit 
i jus wanna keep the peace 
i feel like ghandi i keep me a piece 
i’m skipping class man fuck a degree 
i’m tryna get rich while i’m chasing a dream
im tryna tour like over the seas
no way
you make a month what i make in a day 
he like to talk but got nothing to say 
i keep a band just in case that it rains 
why u so mad when u talking to me 
i swear i love u don’t gotta be mean
i swear that i love when u laying w me 
but u push me away by the end of the week

axstn:
i just wanna know what she's playin ain't got shit to say cus i know that she fakin
love is a drug that i'm cravin 
bitchin on the phone bout me likw we're datin
they say don't love no more
bitchin bout they're life while they closin the door
said i can't ever trust no more cus im sick of this shit i've done this before
i don't know what's next
is there something left
i don't have a choice
so imma call it quits x2

stay here

stay here w/skele & yung axstn (prod. cay2o)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
shut down
when i feel uncomfortable i need to get out
man i'm losing all my hope it's almost gone now
she manipulating me that i should give out
but i'm getting started now
shut down
my internal memory i gotta burn it out
these voices talk to me i'm kinda freakin out
and she on the side telling me that i should give up
but i ain't giving out

hate me
blame me
now it's common
it ain't phase me lately
but idk if ur just pyscho or crazy
there's a difference between them both so baby
so baby
just know that you're dead
i think it was easy to make you upset
but i didn't want u to go
so baby
just spare me
whatever that you do just don't hate me or blame me
but hurt my feelings
just know that you're dead
i'm tired of the fall
she whisper in my head
said 'ur coming with me next'
come to the forest
to meet the best of friends
please don't ask no questions
they like it quiet
i'm shooting my shot
they talk like a lot
i bet a thousand bucks
that he'll never stop
but i'm cracking up
and that's what i want
cus it ain't going no where
i think this is done

shut down
i'm nervous to talk can never get it out
i'm fumbling my words i always stutter now
their tongue is tied firmly wrapped around
whos laughing now

shut down
when i feel uncomfortable i need to get out
man i'm losing all my hope its almost gone now
she manipulating me that i should give out
but i'm getting started now
shut down
my internal memory i gotta burn it out
these voices talk to me i'm kinda freakin out
and she on the side telling me that i should give up
but i ain't giving out