https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

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care w/ heylog♡

Thank you for listening <3 
Follow @heylog he is incredible <3 

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Lyrics:
// chorus (geist)
talk to me i want to hear what you'll say
it's over now, we've got it all on display
and i, i'll miss your company 
but it's too late for therapy 
talk to me i want to hear what you'll say
it's over now, we've got it all on display
and i, i'll miss your company 
but it's too late for therapy  

// verse 1 (geist)
talk to me 
i'm steady digging my grave
truth is there's nothing here we could save
bittersweet stares poison the air,
i feel the pressure, they all want me to cave

// verse 2 (heylog)
talk to me i don't know what to say 
consciousness taking over me and my
dad's never believed in therapy but your
sons got no idea what he needs

breaking down again it's like my ninth time today
staying the night at your house from nighttime to day
and driving home has never been so lonely
but it's too late for therapy
going down again it's like somehow i'm good at this
lookin down shaking my head
ignorance is bliss
tell me do u think about us, do u reminisce
baby i'm losing my mind
i'm struggling to exist
where should i begin i'm telling we're not the same
cut off all my hair cause baby i feel ashamed
now i feel the wind running up n down my scalp
took me 7 months to grow below my eyebrows
took me 2 years to finally figure out
how evil u were like darkness under the ground
now i'm steady growing my heart like it's therapy
ring me through the phone i really want u to-

// chorus (geist & heylog)
talk to me i want to hear what you'll say
it's over now, we've got it all on display
and i, i'll miss your company 
but it's too late for therapy 
talk to me i want to hear what you'll say
it's over now, we've got it all on display
and i, i'll miss your company 
but it's too late for therapy

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i'm geist & heylog - therapy (prod. heylog)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
would u like to meet in the summer
catch up on life or should i even bother to plan a dine
i don't really even know where u reside
pick apart my soul and it feel like
something has been missing
right now i really miss u
n when i'm alone i wish i could reach out and kiss you
but life isn't fair
no life's never fair
the one i truly loved is gone now i'm the only one that's here
man i'm really done, getting tired, might just book a plane
this the same shirt i wore, for like 3 days
throw it on, roll my eyes looking mad at the stains
no if u can't handle this then u can't handle me
i'm busy hangin w myself so i got no time
to come through and drink booze or waste my life
peer pressure, i said i don't wanna get high
but the pressure continues i got a fragile mind
so i fantasize about a future that lies
and u are in it w me, all the way till we die
but i don't want it to seem like i am forcing
anything oh at all, just tell me what u think

always feelin down, guess this is life
surprised i live another night
surprised i haven't took my life
surprised i'm even still alive
but i got way too much to lose
i don't do it for me, i do it for you
i put away the knife, i did that for you
i'm wonderin if u can see, i'm right in front of you

so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too
so would u wanna run away with me..?
through the mountains and things i've never seen
on a hill maybe lay down by a tree
and close my eyes with a little bit of breeze
she said, "i can't do this log... i can't look after u no more"
so why u telling me this now?
i thought u had me figured out

man i'm really done getting tired might just book for a plane
in the north montana, gotta isolate
need someone to break my heart to feel something
cus i deserve it i've caused way too many pains
so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too

reside

produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

i won't forget w/ heylog

'collide' produced by heylog

lyrics:
removing pieces of flesh
ur gonna leave me i bet
i don't stand a single chance
when u don't even lend me a hand
i'm hurting but i'm fine
i'm burning, still alive
i watch all my emotions collide
put me to a test
anchored, need to rest
but right now i can't and it's
because i'm so stressed on my last and final breath
sad just like usual, oh boy i'm such a mess
i don't fit in, something just doesn't click
worry u won't hurt my feelings i'll just lay in bed

I AM LOST FOR WORDS I'M AFRAID OF GETTING CURVED
do u think u feel me well enough to know my hurt
I AM LOST FOR WORTH HONESTLY THIS COULD BE WORSE
all the things i've done tell me what do i deserve
I AM SO DEPRESSED IS IT A LITTLE OBVIOUS
searching for a light but it seems all the powers dead
I FEEL MY DESCENT WEIGHT ME DOWN AND SLOWLY PRESS
barely ever happy always find it hard to get

i am so depressed
nothing new i guess
sum up everything and i'm hanging by a thread	
constantly regret
flip a switch and just reset
wish it was that easy, repeat it all again

collide

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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I Hate Myself ✦6 | Poetic Trap - MV

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i don't have anything
to offer while he sell himself
imma tie him down with rope
and somebody duct tape his mouth
god u must be tweaking
you've done nothing to deserve a crown
deep down he struggles envy
he blocks it with the words he shouts

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

now i'm growing
let the pistol talk
guarantee it'll make him frozen
i think i'm convincing myself i'm going mental
you may have me if you promise to be gentle
my heart may be dark but i promise you it's fragile
yeah i promise you it's fragile
she was saying she relates
but i don't think you do though
no i don't think you do bro
caught them both off guard
yeah i'm lurking in the shadows
finna put him on a gallow
i just opened up to her
sentimental
basic literature
uneventful
now people think they're gods writing poems
just because u take notes
don't make you a poet
if u ever need help
you know i got your back
cause i been through hell
don't want u to go through that
don't know how u felt
good or were u trashed
continue wasting herself
a girl who is down bad

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
its contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

you were all i got
so sad you had to leave
i still have your stuff
but i keep it out of reach
baby it was tough
i gave u everything
don't know if it was wrong
but i don't regret a thing
i don't wanna know
how you been lately
cause i already know
you gotta new baby
didn't want u to go
sacrifice for your dreams
lost contact on my phone
u wont hear from me

(so sad u had to leave)
(i keep it out of reach)
(gave u everything)
(i don't regret a thing)
(how u been lately)
(gotta new baby)
(sacrifice for your dreams)
(u wont hear from me)

out of reach

produced by heylog

lyrics:
shut down
when i feel uncomfortable i need to get out
man i'm losing all my hope it's almost gone now
she manipulating me that i should give out
but i'm getting started now
shut down
my internal memory i gotta burn it out
these voices talk to me i'm kinda freakin out
and she on the side telling me that i should give up
but i ain't giving out

hate me
blame me
now it's common
it ain't phase me lately
but idk if ur just pyscho or crazy
there's a difference between them both so baby
so baby
just know that you're dead
i think it was easy to make you upset
but i didn't want u to go
so baby
just spare me
whatever that you do just don't hate me or blame me
but hurt my feelings
just know that you're dead
i'm tired of the fall
she whisper in my head
said 'ur coming with me next'
come to the forest
to meet the best of friends
please don't ask no questions
they like it quiet
i'm shooting my shot
they talk like a lot
i bet a thousand bucks
that he'll never stop
but i'm cracking up
and that's what i want
cus it ain't going no where
i think this is done

shut down
i'm nervous to talk can never get it out
i'm fumbling my words i always stutter now
their tongue is tied firmly wrapped around
whos laughing now

shut down
when i feel uncomfortable i need to get out
man i'm losing all my hope its almost gone now
she manipulating me that i should give out
but i'm getting started now
shut down
my internal memory i gotta burn it out
these voices talk to me i'm kinda freakin out
and she on the side telling me that i should give up
but i ain't giving out