produced by heylog

lyrics:
she's so far, somewhere i can see
and her lips taste good
they're always hautin me
u let me inside ur home
n all our memories
5 letters ending in 'veaux'
they still hold on to me
holdin on to me

crash
crash away with me
rememberin our past
pass away with me
treat me like your first
but instead i was your last
how could i be so stupid to believe u were exact
latch
ur latchin on to me
i'm burning right through the ash
ur morphed in the heat
sparks flying around the sky
as we share a couple laughs
without u in my life i'm steady livin with that

this is all my fault n wish i could take it back
put my life on the line balancing through every step
don't know if the waters deep don't even know the depth
the rocks fall down the cliff as i'm lookin over the edge
i see your reflection bouncing off the ocean
why do u look mad, ur prolly dissapointed
ur blurry through the heat waves
ashes fly over your face
can't tell if ur mad, can't tell if ur okay
there's so many things i do
to piss or to upset you
i don't have the time to explain what i ask of u
grab her hand, kiss it softly
she can't help but notice the polish slowly tearing
right from her nails
ur nails were always pink and how u looked in my eyes
i paused and couldn't blink
so i failed
and lost your company
i swear i still hear your voice through the phone talking to me

so come and crash
crash away with me
rememberin our past
pass away with me
treat me like your first
but instead i was your last
how could i be so stupid to believe u were exact
latch
ur latchin on to me
i'm burning right through the ash
ur morphed in the heat
sparks flying around the sky
as we share a couple laughs
without u in my life i'm steady livin with that

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xuaev

produced by heylog
guitar by ashen

lyrics:
my minds
dizzy and my head is way too light 
middle of nowhere just i
now i wish u could be here
the plan is to go disappear

no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
cause i'm too used to people leaving
why is it never good timing
and i'm sick apologizing 
when ur the one who should b sorry
i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our dna
too soon for home yea i'll be there late
still see grey

i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our eye's
what is it like sharing lives?
tonight i plan to make u mine
hearts so lost, thinking u could change that
i been through a lot and i lost a couple friend's 
but if i'm being honest i could care less
i don't wanna go through hell again
i need nothing, from u or anyone
i see something in her, i felt like i have won
(won)
translate my words into love
a better me, better evolve
no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
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made this with strep throat yuh

evolve

cover of 'wear' by @xona
guitar played/re-recorded by logan

speak lightly
i won't seem
that worried
about u and me
down few
many lose
lives quick
nothing’s new
hiding right behind you
you’ll choose
you’ll choose

from what i wear
to see and stare
i swear i swear
you’ll have my care

how are you here with me
i told you i’m scared of-
graphic and the terror to seize
it’s more than it could seem
it’s more than wear and tear
and i could hardly bear
and i could hardly bear
i  could hardly bear
i could hardly-

from what I wear
to see and stare
i swear i swear
you’ll have my care

wear cover (xona)

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

produced by xona
piano by oc

cover by xona and heylog

@heylog
@sleepywater
@prod-oc

-lyrics-
yeah
want me back, want me back?
yeah, yeah

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

~

i just wanted to say
that i hope you're doing okay
her skin is why i'm alive
i hope to feel it someday
getting on top of me
and giving the look, i see
her soul makes me resume life
and build up my legacy
her mind is taking a beating
so far it hasn't been easy
i could just tell from your arm
baby should i be alarmed
should i be scared when i hear about your past
i slowly wear, it's just hard to..
grasp

stop again
ill stop and glare
who am i now i don’t know him there
way i feel when im flowing w her
if i get on w u hold my hair
shut the fuck up ur someone i avoid
it wasnt worth it cos now im destroyed

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

lend

lend w/ heylog & sleepwater

prod logan

lyrics:
wait here for a minute
i'll be back in a moment
tie me to a rope
pull it back, cut me open
everything we did together
(god)
likes to haunt me
i take it with a grain of salt and everything you taught me
in the end i'm still a human but you hate that
cause you put me in a bottle when u face back
and i remember we were tight but i don't trace back
so ima move on with my life and never think "past"
cause i don't wanna get caught up in flames i've been in before
i see my problems and delete like i just been through a war
and i got 24 hours and 7 days filled with bored
but when someone asks me to hang i don't have time to afford
and by that i mean i just wanna hangout by myself
& i'm sorry but i'd rather work on music n melt
cause oh my god this heat has got me sweating hotter than hell
i haven't showered for a while and i'm starting to smell
now i look into the mirror, sensing anger in me
i wanna smash it into pieces, i don't wanna be weak
i wanna get me out this town and move somewhere overseas
i'm tryna get me to the top but i'm progressing with ease
and the last thing ima do is hang my head and give up
i think they're praying me to fall but so far they're outta luck
cause i continue steady work while they're hungover as f-
and on the weekends i be staying home cause it's just as fun

again

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

produced by logan

words:
this poison make my veins stick out my skin
what kills me is the circle that i wit
i dont speak just so you couldnt wish
wish to get up on my business
i wonder what it is that youre on
in front of me is nothing but fog
im here for a sec then im gone
this cunt thinkin that he know it all
you dont know anything at all
i hear you hiss and i see you crawlin

if you could say one thing
what would it be
what would it be
what would it be
what would it be

another day of scrappin many songs
they say bro deleted so much sauce
90% of my disc. is trash
how you even listen? my shits ass
should i just keep this one in the vault
or should i just firm it on the alt
i guess youll never know just where youll see this
maybe someones gonna leak it

wild boar

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i don't have anything
to offer while he sell himself
imma tie him down with rope
and somebody duct tape his mouth
god u must be tweaking
you've done nothing to deserve a crown
deep down he struggles envy
he blocks it with the words he shouts

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

now i'm growing
let the pistol talk
guarantee it'll make him frozen
i think i'm convincing myself i'm going mental
you may have me if you promise to be gentle
my heart may be dark but i promise you it's fragile
yeah i promise you it's fragile
she was saying she relates
but i don't think you do though
no i don't think you do bro
caught them both off guard
yeah i'm lurking in the shadows
finna put him on a gallow
i just opened up to her
sentimental
basic literature
uneventful
now people think they're gods writing poems
just because u take notes
don't make you a poet
if u ever need help
you know i got your back
cause i been through hell
don't want u to go through that
don't know how u felt
good or were u trashed
continue wasting herself
a girl who is down bad

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
its contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

you were all i got
so sad you had to leave
i still have your stuff
but i keep it out of reach
baby it was tough
i gave u everything
don't know if it was wrong
but i don't regret a thing
i don't wanna know
how you been lately
cause i already know
you gotta new baby
didn't want u to go
sacrifice for your dreams
lost contact on my phone
u wont hear from me

(so sad u had to leave)
(i keep it out of reach)
(gave u everything)
(i don't regret a thing)
(how u been lately)
(gotta new baby)
(sacrifice for your dreams)
(u wont hear from me)

out of reach

produced by heylog

lyrics:
shut down
when i feel uncomfortable i need to get out
man i'm losing all my hope it's almost gone now
she manipulating me that i should give out
but i'm getting started now
shut down
my internal memory i gotta burn it out
these voices talk to me i'm kinda freakin out
and she on the side telling me that i should give up
but i ain't giving out

hate me
blame me
now it's common
it ain't phase me lately
but idk if ur just pyscho or crazy
there's a difference between them both so baby
so baby
just know that you're dead
i think it was easy to make you upset
but i didn't want u to go
so baby
just spare me
whatever that you do just don't hate me or blame me
but hurt my feelings
just know that you're dead
i'm tired of the fall
she whisper in my head
said 'ur coming with me next'
come to the forest
to meet the best of friends
please don't ask no questions
they like it quiet
i'm shooting my shot
they talk like a lot
i bet a thousand bucks
that he'll never stop
but i'm cracking up
and that's what i want
cus it ain't going no where
i think this is done

shut down
i'm nervous to talk can never get it out
i'm fumbling my words i always stutter now
their tongue is tied firmly wrapped around
whos laughing now

shut down
when i feel uncomfortable i need to get out
man i'm losing all my hope its almost gone now
she manipulating me that i should give out
but i'm getting started now
shut down
my internal memory i gotta burn it out
these voices talk to me i'm kinda freakin out
and she on the side telling me that i should give up
but i ain't giving out

internal memory

produced by heylog

lyrics:
oh now you notice
me when I'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

she ask me "what'd u say?"
i'm just talking to myself
i may sound evil
but u gotta get to know me first
i promise i'm nice
but that could quickly take a turn
caught me by surprise
this is not even my worst
she claims that she's gay
wait
but why are u kissing me
don't tease with my brain
cause it's buzzing like a bumblebee
burn out the flame
hoping i get third degree
call me by your name
when ur famous overseas

oh now u like me
since i've changed
so ur saying i wasn't good enough before
what a shame
don't let out the beast
that would be a big mistake
drool drops from his teeth
and his canines concave
u want him released
i believe you've met your fate
she spill all the tea
now the problems piling up with pace
show no mercy
if this water hit me like a wave
begging no please
i'm finally awake

oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

don't tell me u love me
ik ur lying
lips bittersweet
hint of violet
don't tell me u love me
id rather die
skin like candy
i cant decide