produced by heylog

lyrics:
laying in my arms u look so cute under the stars
your father comes outside and sees us laying in the yard
focus on the coral sky and threading both our hearts
n every time the sun sets i see u from afar
notice how i ask u things it shows i truly care
don't know what u feel i am completely unaware
well after loving you i realized no one can compare
you're the only thing i want but life's just never fair
but everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but all the things in life feel like they're falling
but i'll be fine, i'll make it through but when is it over
i spent a couple years with u and now i want no one

the evening carries little wind that travels through ur hair
u move it off ur face and put it back behind ur ear
and u caught my expression but i couldn't help but stare
the civil things like that well babe it makes it hard to bare
i'm praying for u, hoping all ur dreams come true
and i wish everything goes right for you
but i don't care if u want the same for me too
just know you're important to me, am i too?

well everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but why do all the things in life look like they're falling
but don't u worry, i'll be fine but when is it over
we spent a couple years together, now i want no one

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everything's gonna be okay, i promise

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(hair)
i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

hold what i have learned from u and leave everything else behind
wonder if she notices i'm distancing and tryna hide
burning all the passages and that includes both you and i
fighting on this field for u but i think you'd rather me die
face plant
in the soil
the water comes
to a boil
now it's hot
take my shirt off
got 8 bumps
between my torso
old ones keep in touch cause they see that i'm doing something right
think about how far i've come, it honestly got me surprised
u say we're the same but man that hurts cause i am not ur kind
more destruction, come prepared, the blood is real and well defined
missiles coming from the heavens, everybody runs with fear
think i'm deaf from all the bombs, i just hear ringing in my ears
the voices are embedded, i be battling for quite some years
don't know what they say, i just know they like to interfere
PACK MY BAGS OR CONTINUE FREEZING
I HATE MYSELF AND YOU'RE THE REASON
BUT I PROMISE I'M GETTING THERE
LESS HEAD PULLING, LOOSE STRANDS OF HAIR
SHE DETOX WITH A GLASS OF WATER
I MAKE SMART CHOICES, THAT'S WHY I'M WISER
I SMELL THE BOOZE COMING OUT ON YOUR BREATH
I GUESS YOU NEEDED TO TAKE SOMETHING OFF THE EDGE

i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching 
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

don't know why u up
like what do you want
i'm not here to judge
do u feel forced in love
i needed help as my skin tears
i would really like to know why u weren't there
whom i love, i'm in despair
can u hear my voice, are you here

hair

by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
for me
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
for me
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
but u can't even tell

where do i go from here
i'll kick it with my tears
i don't recognize a thing
the water made them sting
where should i even go
i've never felt this alone
should i take my life
cause god it's on my mind

where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
well too bad u can't tell

veins

live

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heylog - live

'let's get u home' produced by heylog

lyrics:
it feel like no one lives here
it's so alone in this house
i miss the days cuddling on the ground
well time flies by when ur having fun
u went too fast, it hit harder than a gun
and when i walked down the stairs
ur sound asleep in the living room
hi baby girl, it's your brother to guard u
just know i'll fight off anything that gets close
i'll be your provider and get u home

and get u home
n get u home
and get u home
n get u home

it was 3/25
when everything bent
i've cried to the point where i don't have water left
u were the piece that was missed all along
the piece that completed me and made me strong
and when i walked down those stairs
ur still asleep in the living room
i wish i spent every second i had w you
just know i'll kill anything to come close
i'll be your protector, let's get u home

let's get u home..
let's get u home
let's get u home

it's so hard knowing ur not here, it tears me apart
i'm losing grip, always fail from the start
life is disgusting, hold no remorse
live everyday in doubt and always mourn
folks that i love feel too far away
i'm out of reach, they get farther by the day
16 years pass that i won't forget
so low i'm used to living in wretch

let's get u home

'next to u' produced by heylog

lyrics:
𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘪 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴,
𝘪 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵

𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶?

u make it so hard to live
i feel like i'm in hell
my parents ain't raise no kid
who'll just end up killing himself
i could shut down
and no one will ever find me
i could lie down
and see u there next to me

i need u to focus
i'm crying, i'm broken
but no one really cares how i'm feeling so hopeless
i hate ur guts
and i hate ur friends
i realized u all suck
so i'll just cut u instead
now i think of u less
cus i thought highly of you
so i distanced away
to try something new
i'm steady being myself
something you'd never do
but i still wish u the best
even though i still hate you

YOU TEXTED ME
I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO SAY
I'LL RESPOND IN A WEEK
MAYBE 2, MAYBE 3
AVOIDING US AND MOVE ON
THOUGH I STILL WRITE YOU IN SONGS
IT'S THE EMOTIONS YOU HOLD
THAT NEVER FEELS WRONG
GOD I'M SO DISAPPOINTED AT EVERYTHING THAT I DO
I'LL PLAY SOME GUITAR, RECORD A COUPLE OF LOOPS
BUT IT AIN'T MET WITH MY STANDARDS
SO I START SOMETHING NEW
AT LEAST I PUT IN SOME WORK
WHICH YOU'LL NEVER DO
TAKIN PICS OF THE WALL
ADD A PLANT AND A BOOK
WRITE A VERSE AND A BRIDGE
CUS I AIN'T GOOD WITH NO HOOK
I KEEP REPEATING MYSELF
AM I SPEAKING TOO MUCH?
I'M NOT A PERSON WHO TALKS
SO I'LL JUST CHILL IN THE BACK AND WATCH

next to u

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prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

cover of the song 'arctic eyes' by 9TAILS
produced by nciku

arctic eyes cover (9TAILS & nciku)

lyrics:

i stand in the glow of my blurry bedroom light
my mascara smudged from another night
i see something move behind the pale glass
but it's completely gone before i could ask

i hear the mirror's breathing slow
like it knows the parts i won't show
it holds the weight inside my chest
leaves my emotions feel undressed

oh what a shame that it's so dark
i shouldn't try and break the glass apart
reflection flickers like headlights
i sense a person from a long-dead night

what should i do?
where'd all this come from?
i'm curious
i want to break the glass apart


prod. Denis Sokolov