produced by heylog

lyrics:
so how long has it been since i saw you
it was right after summer when i was leaving ur place
and i knew right then and there i won't be okay
wipe the tears from our eyes, everything will be okay
do u believe in love cause i'm having a hard time
believing myself, let's drink to that and raise my
cup and make a toast to us lonely people
at least we know we'll forever be peaceful and so i been
counting months it's almost eleven
since we've talked and showed u affection
i'll never have anyone to connect with
like we had or the feeling of commit
maybe this time i'll go up to heaven
getting weaker by the day, pain just pressing
thinking what to do with my life, it's depressing
thinking i'll always be alone, i expect it

on my arm, you look with dissapointment
i knew it was wrong, trust me won't do it again
u made me feel alive, i thank u for that
now i got a heart that has no light in it

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eleven

produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

i won't forget w/ heylog

produced by heylog

lyrics:
laying in my arms u look so cute under the stars
your father comes outside and sees us laying in the yard
focus on the coral sky and threading both our hearts
n every time the sun sets i see u from afar
notice how i ask u things it shows i truly care
don't know what u feel i am completely unaware
well after loving you i realized no one can compare
you're the only thing i want but life's just never fair
but everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but all the things in life feel like they're falling
but i'll be fine, i'll make it through but when is it over
i spent a couple years with u and now i want no one

the evening carries little wind that travels through ur hair
u move it off ur face and put it back behind ur ear
and u caught my expression but i couldn't help but stare
the civil things like that well babe it makes it hard to bare
i'm praying for u, hoping all ur dreams come true
and i wish everything goes right for you
but i don't care if u want the same for me too
just know you're important to me, am i too?

well everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but why do all the things in life look like they're falling
but don't u worry, i'll be fine but when is it over
we spent a couple years together, now i want no one

everything's gonna be okay, i promise

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
for me
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
for me
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
but u can't even tell

where do i go from here
i'll kick it with my tears
i don't recognize a thing
the water made them sting
where should i even go
i've never felt this alone
should i take my life
cause god it's on my mind

where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
well too bad u can't tell

veins

live

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heylog - live

'let's get u home' produced by heylog

lyrics:
it feel like no one lives here
it's so alone in this house
i miss the days cuddling on the ground
well time flies by when ur having fun
u went too fast, it hit harder than a gun
and when i walked down the stairs
ur sound asleep in the living room
hi baby girl, it's your brother to guard u
just know i'll fight off anything that gets close
i'll be your provider and get u home

and get u home
n get u home
and get u home
n get u home

it was 3/25
when everything bent
i've cried to the point where i don't have water left
u were the piece that was missed all along
the piece that completed me and made me strong
and when i walked down those stairs
ur still asleep in the living room
i wish i spent every second i had w you
just know i'll kill anything to come close
i'll be your protector, let's get u home

let's get u home..
let's get u home
let's get u home

it's so hard knowing ur not here, it tears me apart
i'm losing grip, always fail from the start
life is disgusting, hold no remorse
live everyday in doubt and always mourn
folks that i love feel too far away
i'm out of reach, they get farther by the day
16 years pass that i won't forget
so low i'm used to living in wretch

let's get u home

'next to u' produced by heylog

lyrics:
𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘪 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴,
𝘪 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵

𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶?

u make it so hard to live
i feel like i'm in hell
my parents ain't raise no kid
who'll just end up killing himself
i could shut down
and no one will ever find me
i could lie down
and see u there next to me

i need u to focus
i'm crying, i'm broken
but no one really cares how i'm feeling so hopeless
i hate ur guts
and i hate ur friends
i realized u all suck
so i'll just cut u instead
now i think of u less
cus i thought highly of you
so i distanced away
to try something new
i'm steady being myself
something you'd never do
but i still wish u the best
even though i still hate you

YOU TEXTED ME
I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO SAY
I'LL RESPOND IN A WEEK
MAYBE 2, MAYBE 3
AVOIDING US AND MOVE ON
THOUGH I STILL WRITE YOU IN SONGS
IT'S THE EMOTIONS YOU HOLD
THAT NEVER FEELS WRONG
GOD I'M SO DISAPPOINTED AT EVERYTHING THAT I DO
I'LL PLAY SOME GUITAR, RECORD A COUPLE OF LOOPS
BUT IT AIN'T MET WITH MY STANDARDS
SO I START SOMETHING NEW
AT LEAST I PUT IN SOME WORK
WHICH YOU'LL NEVER DO
TAKIN PICS OF THE WALL
ADD A PLANT AND A BOOK
WRITE A VERSE AND A BRIDGE
CUS I AIN'T GOOD WITH NO HOOK
I KEEP REPEATING MYSELF
AM I SPEAKING TOO MUCH?
I'M NOT A PERSON WHO TALKS
SO I'LL JUST CHILL IN THE BACK AND WATCH

next to u

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

prod logan

lyrics:
i just hide upstairs 
acting like i care
when you send me a message 
my feelings are not there 
find me in the woods 
know where i have stood 
thunderstorms passing over 
oh man i'm feeling good 
i just disappeared 
no i do not care 
if you send me a text message 
i'll just leave it there 
scout me in the sticks 
somewhere in the twigs 
oh somehow all the pain stops 
am i a new person 

i just found out all i need to know 
write it down and jot it in my notes 
i cannot trust anyone, no soul 
no we're not close 
ur not my bro 
said you were but anything to get aim 
oh and all this talk is startin to rot my brain 
and honestly i'm startin to lose my patience 
i'm tired of waiting 
i'm up

woods

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

🎧 Paracosm 3 [album]
🙌 Pueblo Vista
📼 https://pvmm.ffm.to/paracosm3

"Paracosm 3" is the most personal chapter yet in Pueblo Vista’s ongoing journey through sound and memory. Released on Paul’s wedding anniversary, the album serves as both an ode to the birth of his inner world and a reflection on the profound loss of his wife ~ the spark that gave rise to this paracosm. Spanning 15 tracks, including four with vocals, the record expands far beyond lofi conventions, weaving hip hop, drum’n’bass, breakbeat, and unexpected influences into a rich, emotional tapestry. Smooth atmospheres and cinematic textures balance with restless rhythms, creating a duality that mirrors grief and growth. Paul’s closest friend, @lampros_mak (aka Milo Maven), played a pivotal role in the instrumentalization, giving shape and depth where Paul’s limited instrumental skills left space for collaboration. The result is Pueblo Vista’s most ambitious and emotionally layered release to date ~ a deeply human album that drifts between pain, memory, and transcendence.

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