Ft. @reefuh
@poisonedcheeto

Lyrics:
[kurtis]
But she been fuckin wit my health
Takin fluoxetine to help 
Im a shadow of a person 
that I once knew pretty well

Shes a figure of my mind
Fuck that bitch dont got the time
Cause I dont wanna care about you
But im still deep in decline

Bitch shut the fuck up let me talk
Dont check the clock
Im losing hours everyday 
Im sinkin deeper than I thought

Cause I got drugs up in my pocket
You gotta stop it
Now im getting angry everyday
Could tell you didnt wanna save it

[reef]
save it, left my heart out on the pavement
yeaaa 50% of my luv was the payment
thinking u could be w me, girl ur off ur medication
stuck in the past, shriveled me up and threw me in the grass
like how u move on so fast, spent forever tryna get like that
so dont pat me down, maybe u had me then but u dont have me now
so just shut me out, and don't act like that cuz u know how
(i give up)
im drowning in this bot- in this bottle
lost my peace of mind to all these thirsty models
like bitch who you think you are?
if your a shooting star then ima shoot the stars
fake shit rlly dont get far
wanna match better raise the bar
dont race me boy race a car
i been in and out of love i swear im trying hard
oh, ohh, ohh ohhh, oh ohh, oh ohh

[kurtis]
But she been fuckin wit my health
Takin fluoxetine to help 
Im a shadow of a person 
that I once knew pretty well

Shes a figure of my mind
Fuck that bitch dont got the time
Cause I dont wanna care about you
But im still deep in decline

Bitch shut the fuck up let me talk
Dont check the clock
Im losing hours everyday 
Im sinkin deeper than I thought

Cause I got drugs up in my pocket
You gotta stop it
Now im getting angry everyday
Could tell you didnt wanna save it

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let me talk ft. reef (simon m)

produced by grayskies

@xona

-lyrics-
who do you mind?
talking every minute of life? life
I don’t want to feel a sign that can’t stand my eyes 
everything I do is for you
why do I have to choose?
everything new we do?

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it 

nothing but a trail but I follow like it’s my fault
where it sits so frail, where I stuck it with a nail
everything I do is for you
why do I have to choose?
everything new we do?

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it

hang a life I might try to end
signs ahead that trick a mind 

(ONE STEP
MIGHT END)

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it

blister

blister (grayskies)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
we went through a lot of ups and downs
yet you still stayed close to my side
we often dug straight to the ground
you don't know what i look like now
just a number in my phone
i'll love you the most
march is a horrible month
why's it always cold
spent the end to cry
i miss you every night
don't call me when you see this
i'll hit decline
i don't look the same
as i used to
is this a bad thing
log, i don't know you
i don't look the same
like before
and i don't recognize myself
anymore

2 weeks 'till i go home
can't wait to see you, oh
october is when you go
now things are coming to
an end

she'll only love me if i just love myself
but baby with you i felt things i don't feel
i couldn't imagine to feel someone else
the thought of it always gets me overwhelmed
i hate separating from people i love
but i go forever without anyone
i will go for days and not say any words
you won't hear from me cause i sit back and lurk
closing the drapes to block out any light
the things that i do i would never advise
it's so bad for me and hm, i wonder why
growing more acne and i'm not surprised
don't look at me, please don't look at my face
the way that you stare makes me humiliate
i swear i get uglier
i don't look the same
you won't recognize me by how much i've changed
changed

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you'll waste my time till it kills you  ♡‧₊˚໒꒰ྀི ๑ ´ ˘ ` ू ꒱ྀིა♡‧₊˚

prod/written/art by me

lyrics:
but you
youll waste my time till it kills you
and i cant really tell if you tried

call me from your hotel
say you hate him
but still wish him well

and everything's fine in the moment
closer and closer we're holding

and not knowing

that you
you'll waste my time till it kills you
and i 
cant really tell if you tried

cause im done with you
i don’t understand
why you would break everything that we had

you and me are hopeless x2

but you
you'll waste my time 
till it kills you
and i 
cant really tell if you tried

signal hill

'12 gauge' produced by heylog

lyrics:
moving swift, moving clean
all my thrift big on me
and i look goofy when i see
order double in xl
when my body lean as hell
and it's all because i'm well
maybe i should get clothes
that i fit for my size
there are barely i own
jacket got holes in it
but ima still throw it on
cause i don't care if it's ripped
you'll never know
you'll never know
where she had went and where'd she go
i wanna leave
i wanna leave
i wonder what is stopping me
she loves borrowing my wardrobe
said i smell good, so you wear all of my clothes
and they come back smelling like her
next thing u know she has my whole attire

i'll wait 
till u make ur mind up
she wants 
everything i wear cause
all of 
it is oversized
the sleeves are 
well below her thighs
don't take 
every single thing i own
cause i'll 
need it back before u go
and she 
wonders why i said that
i'm not 
confident that this'll last

you ever think about where i been?
you ever think about who we was
cause i do
but i just pretend i don't care about us
she's always apologetic to me
but when did u ever do anything
cause i don't
i hope u will never forget about home

and she always tried on my clothes
i pretend and fake it all
what u don't know
oh, you don't know
keeping secrets way too long
and i cannot continue this
i'm struggling to exist
and u don't know
oh, you don't know
thoughts begin to overflow
you would ask for an extra large to wear
but i only have double x in there
oh but she'll wear anything that i give
so next time i'll come over with ur cares

shutting me down, wake up from rem
i had a dream of us both laying in bed
but when i woke up i thought that it was real
i tried to go back to sleep to get a feel
of what it was like again to see your eyes
i knew it was impossible if i tried
now i'm just laying here, eyelids open
i stare into darkness tryna see objects
the only thing i see is my closet ahead
the same one that bears a certain turtle neck
the same closet thats got my 'retta encaged
the same closet thats got my locked up 12 gauge
and here are these nights i spend alone
turn off the lights, open window
jump into bed, plug in my phone
when i still got 90% left to go
and i fall asleep, but before i do
i sit in silence for an hour or two
these vivid thoughts get into view
and this what it sound like when i dream of you

12 gauge

'running shoes' produced by heylog

lyrics:
ima run away until i'm weak
ima come back fighting for my peace
hiding out, i hide inside the weeds
you won't hear from me for a few weeks
the things you say never make any sense
gotta stop the mind to second guess
ignoring my gut, it's for the best
battling to get up out of bed

ima find my way back home
streetlights barely lit
and the colors aren't even the same
some are powerless
6: 30 a mile, used to be better than this
why am i getting this tired
no i cannot call it quits
seems like you think that everything was gonna be okay
what i need is me to tell me i'll be okay
look at the ground
look at my feet as my shoes tear
the soles are falling apart
order up a new pair

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘥

get in the zone
need to be alone to focus
not any hoe you see me ever approaching
not worth my time
feel my mind boot and decoding
gather any info whether i should keep or close it
you see me
walk out the door
ice, freezing n storms
pray i make it home
late a.m. n roads
hallucinate, seeing two
punching at the air
squinting at black and grey
when the night is there
the smell of fall provides warmth
fingers in my hair
think too deep and it could end at there
think i'm fine, i'm just in too deep
go outside to run hoping the stress leaves me
i'm painting what i see
you couldn't predict at what i might bring

running shoes

produced by xona

-lyrics-
(don’t tether your issues when you feel alone
you're feeling so nauseous, you push it along)

I’m looking for the way it was when we hadn’t broke our trust
those memories echo, I didn’t want to let go
but everything reminds of you where I settle
oh I know
these things don’t matter, you mend without an issue at all
I’m searching new patterns the ones I forget everything we’ve done

(everything we’ve done)

even if you mean everything to me
I can’t breath at all
it’s too precious to leave
so I’d rather fall
so I’d rather fall

~

this road block gets obscure
uncertain if I’d get out of here, out of here
this month I thought I’d change my course
but I’m back in this roundabout with unopened
doors
you need to pick and choose, I know you’re scared to move
you think there’s nothing new?
but maybe, it’s just you
you tend to look at me but you’re unamused
so what’s the entry step? cause you need to prove
that you’re worth this shit, I know on my life that you see it too
you know you see it too, so please.
what do you have to lose?
don’t stay in this room
don’t stay in this room

(don’t stay in this room) x6

~

don’t tether your issues when you feel alone
you're feeling so nauseous, you push it along
this weight on your shoulder, won’t last that long
you know, you know, you know
so what are you going to do?
so what?
so what?
so what?

cascade

prod by heylog

lyrics:
there's just something about driving away from your house
you cried in my arms cause i gotta go now
when you touch my skin, i go numb cause of it
your hand on my face, narrow waist on my hips
i don't know why i'm like this
i'm not open minded
i'm filled up with hate
but you keep me sane
she looks up and listens
and she likes submitting
i got you, it's fine
i'll give us a life

there's just something about walking out of your house
you stood at the stairs, i know you'll miss me now
your nails touch my skin, i go numb cause of it
your lips on my mouth and your waist on my hips
god this feelings amazing
the smell of your fragrance
lingers in my room
it makes me miss you
the ripples and dents
you won't bleed again
i got you, it's fine
i'll give you a life

mouth

i tried to bury you, but you're a seed
i thought i'd sever you
but you're knotweed
growing under attractions
growing under the showground
growing under compression
spinning my head right the way around

im not tryna be dramatic?! im turning into static
im betting on a horse im not aware is made of plastic
bad habits cause myopia
im betting on a horse im not aware is made of plastic

get a fix and then get off the carousel
swearing up n down im not an addict
when im turning into static
i was blaming someone else
when i built my house right out of matchsticks

im not trying to be dramatic, im turning into static
im betting on a horse im not aware is made of plastic
and i swear im not an addict as im turning into static
im betting on a horse and im aware its made of plastic
bad habits cause myopia
its lalalalaloveless

im betting on a horse im well aware is made of plastic

betting on carousel horses [prod. yungspoiler + scro]

produced by logan

if you need me i wont be there
when you wake up, in front are stairs
have to hold back on what i want
i would love to be this blunt
save yourself
dont die in my arms
if word got out, youd be behind bars
save yourself
dont bleed in my arms
if you got out, youd be behind bars

i know something you dont know
i know i know i know i know
think im stupid? ive watched you close
im watchin watchin watchin been watchin
hows the weather over there
tell me why the fuck you scared