why am i like this?

spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7e576Psa1QkEnUNp3zG1jb?si=8b4ded73f0884119

lyrics:
theres this ghost in this room he paints with visions that he wants
stuck at home, maybe the moon will gift him something going on 
and as the time had passed and days tunred into months turned into years
he met a girl and let her close but he got scared when it got real 

and she smiled so pretty 
when he tried to hold her hand 
but he felt so guilty 
because he doesnt understand 
what they said 
how he should feel it hurts his head
he puts his all into an act
to hide whats real from her and friends 
but that doesnt rly go to great, how nice!
when he finds that every goddamn thing makes him cry
and he feels like he did back in 8th grade 
because how he hates himself these times 
and hed probably say anything to get to stop checking his vitals signs

"oh hes so understanding" when he does resort to lying 
there he goes hoping someone sees the truth inside these eyes 
dont he know that hes the only one that wants him left behind?
so then he wouldnt have to talk himself to tears to feel alive 
alive, alive

and in her arms
is what his younger him did want 
cuz in the shards of broken hearts
he found the only way he ever thought he could relate to love

exactly what he wished for | prod. majora

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

Lost inside the changes 
When all we had was waiting 
Turn it off, like it doesn’t stop 
Never said a lot when we used to talk about that
I said you could have it all 
I’d still wait for you to call

And through your hands I traced out 
The way back home I need now 
I fell asleep in your spare room 
On the floor when the night starts to come through
Said it’s real cause I feel like I need to
Feel like someone you need cause I need you 

Don’t say it’s clear, don’t say it’s easy 
Cause you got all the moments 
And you know that
We could go back 
Cause you got all the moments 
When you take me home
You could take control 
You could take me 
Cause you got all the moments
Did you know that
We could go back 

Untouched, I fell into your silence 
Unsure I’m ever meant to find it 
(Lost in the dead leaves I’m sure)
Our time despite where now my mind is 
My fault I ever tried to hide it 

Don’t say it’s clear, don’t say it’s easy 
Cause you got all the moments 
And you know that
We could go back 
Cause you got all the moments 
When you take me home
You could take control 
You could take me 
Cause you got all the moments
Did you know that
We could go back

July

Released by: 333 Collective
Artists: popularreject, Cap.Kyle & HeyLee Manzeron
Produced by: Nkno & popularreject
Mixed by: popularreject, Cap.Kyle & HeyLee Manzeron
Mastered by: popularreject
Cover Art by: popularreject

Fee Fie Fum (w/ popularreject, Cap.Kyle & HeyLee Manzeron) [Prod. Nkno & popularreject]

ft. 13 year-old me
prod by @tiedforsilver
mastered by teddyboi
Stream "Fall Again" on all plats:
https://open.spotify.com/track/0DWB3T60GOLC5e6oY4rlVL?si=201a522488bb4a79
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pUqyBof-Thk

Fall Again (prod. Tied For Silver)

@reject333
prod. Tied For Silver & flesh
Stream "Vulnerable" on all platforms:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7oATt464w6e8Wy0etxOzXm?si=eb2b440894204580

Vulnerable (ft. popularreject)

In my head looking for a friend who looks like heaven sent 
Terrified of losing them 
But can’t go on with keeping them fit

Toxins, that I know are basically ruing your life 
Said that you would stop a couple hundred times 

You’re Dope sick, you ain’t worth it 
I can see it your eyes 
Wasn’t meant to make you cry 

Might dig you a grave I’m being honest 
Went to your parents for help, I’m uninvited 

Toxins fill your head I'm tired 
Recently I been uninspired 

These days the streets fill with violence 
Terrified but so inviting 

Smoke in the air 
I got thoughts in my head about what’s truly there 
Am I supposed to be here??

In my head looking for a friend who looks like heaven sent 
Terrified of losing them 
But can’t go on with keeping them fit

Toxins, that I know are basically ruing your life 
Said that you would stop a couple hundred times 

You’re Dope sick, you ain’t worth it 
I can see it your eyes 
Wasn’t meant to make you cry 

Might dig you a grave I’m being honest 
Went to your parents for help, I’m uninvited 

Toxins fill your head I'm tired 
Recently I been uninspired 

These days the streets fill with violence 
Terrified but so inviting

Dope Sick [+ Cimor x splashgvng]

my body aches and i start to shake
it’s three o’clock but i’m still awake
i took a pill i don’t feel great 
if i really wanted to i’d go away 
from everyone 
i’m off a pill so numb 
i’m feeling like i’m so dumb
cuz i don’t know where i’m going 

everyday i get up
doing different things, yes i’m talking bout drugs
missing all the days that i used to hurt my lungs 
then i found love and thought i was done 
little did i know it got worse in a month 
taking these pills it was never enough 
couldn’t help myself so i hurt everyone 
funny i could never understand how to trust 
every time i do it always end up in a muck 
i been in a bad place mentally 
if i keep on doing this it’s the death of me 
push everyone away that’s my destiny 
i’d rather live in my own fantasy 
i’m a failure 
tell your kids not be me i’m a liar
every time i make a song i get higher 
i don’t even wanna do this but it’s dire 

i know i’m a burden you don’t have to tell me
i know what i’m doing is unhealthy 
but the fact is i don’t care about me 
if i did i would take care of my body 
i just saw your text 
i’m sorry i’m a mess 
i wish i didn’t exist 
cuz i cannot do this 

my body aches and i start to shake
it’s three o’clock but i’m still awake
i took a pill i don’t feel great 
if i really wanted to i’d go away 
from everyone 
i’m off a pill so numb 
i’m feeling like i’m so dumb
cuz i don’t know where i’m going

3 o’clock (dash & flesh)

touch of life (feat. mackk)(p. King Theta)

beat prod by: FOS Music
written and performed by: reject x epitome x teddy

out da br41n! + epitomeoffailure x teddyboi (p. FOS Music)

!m booted 🆙 🔁
s/o @killbreanna
p. K3NTR0

s0da🥤🍇 ft. kill breanna (p. K3NTR0)

Lemoore/Hanford, CA artist

https://linktr.ee/heyzbee?utm_source=linktree_admin_share

3 o’clock (dash & flesh)

ZBee

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