this sounds like a bon iver track and i'm loving it tbh

ill release real music sometime i promise

stop ! let me grab my backpack

i don’t wanna be late to my class again

honors been waiting since last november 

when we had to quarantine for a term 

had to keep the doors clean. in return

we would spend 14 days alone

only seeing four teens if were 

lucky enough to see a friend 

up in morning we would spend 

our time right online 

doing assignments 

RUN IT BACK !!!!!11

let me digress 

to when we were young, not scared of anyone 

don’t know where the time went

took a nap now it’s 2021

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

he said with a mask on

he can’t believe he’s already at the finish line

but before he packs up

he’s gotta pass one more class

i don’t wanna go

i don’t wanna go act like i’m happy 

about a cap thrown in the air 

don’t know if i’ll last long in the

real i world

fear the world x2

practice my penmanship 

while my pity’s pending in a

pretty small penny sized penitentiary 

that i call my brain. i don’t plan to plead 

for a plodding pace in life 

i just wanna say

i just wanna say 

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

class of 2021

4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

Stems are available @ https://evangeline.info

this song is about wanting normal things like normal people

Performed by
Evangeline, mt saint michael

Written by
E. Butcher

Produced by
Evangeline, mt saint michael, Callum Sheehan

https://evange-line.bandcamp.com/track/tailspin-ft-callum-sheehan-mt-saint-michael

[ SOC ]

--

I got the best seat in the house
and you've been dying to try it on
So when weeks turn into months and the blood dries up
I'm watching TV and you're up and gone

I want a house with a picket fence
so I can yell at the neighbor's kids
So when months turn into years and the scars disappear
I'll box all my thoughts up and shut the lid

And I hope your car tailspins on its way home
I'm chasing the high of skipping your funeral
So when old cuts open up and the tears start to fall
I'll put a band-aid on it but still fall comatose

Tailspin (ft. mt saint michael & Callum Sheehan)

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

____

made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

____

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https://www.instagram.com/clearlew_/
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____

Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

____

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

road trip log 2: going to big mouth's spot for the first time, i love this place

parks dept.

stream

this song is not finished

observer is comprised of taur and Little Faith and dylazy and Oncill and hidden contact and clovehitch and charlie zacks and aso and mossgarden and evangeline and fyoum and jacob travels and an_isopod and close-knit and friends


produced by evangeline, clovehitch, close-knit, charlie zacks, jacob travels, hidden contact, taur
mixed by close-knit, dylazy, and clovehitch

TRAVELS:
I don't mind your way
 
DYLAZY:
Feel the rush as I fall and I decay
Ego death I'll go and learn to stay
 
FYOUM:
Yeah, what you up to dude
I could have swear I saw you
But you don't want to talk
Nevertheless I'm cool with you
Not hanging around now that you are so far away
Nobody else nowhere to go and I'm way too close
And I don't know why all these people change and these people fake
And these people claim what was

Once mine and I'm not even joking
My free time ain't for free when you smoking
Goodbye don't forget that I don't care
About you cause your smile makes me broken
 
CHARLIE ZACKS:
I looked into your eyes
And I knew that you would wreck my night, wreck my night
I saw ten thousands reasons
To trust my gut to trust my fight or flight, fight or flight

But you told me that you liked my smile
So I fell in love with your last name
Every look you gave me
It meant so much more to me than you think
 
TRAVELS:
When I'm alone the self is a mirror
Water crystal but I need it clearer

When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
 
GALA:
I don't mind your way now
You wouldn't fall and stay down
Felt the rush decay out
Spilled my guts and I left them out 
To clear your doubts and I'm shouting
 
GANG VOCALS:
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY

TAUR: 
I don't mind your way now, 
trust me now, 
through the rise and fall you are yours not the all I've escapen all control

observer - IDMYW

thank you to the awesome @patchymate for the cover art and help with arrangement and mixing! 

she'd go and take it, don’t reciprocate
end up feeling less sweet, opened wide
I’m dead in conversations, going to places i shouldn’t stay
real or on the line

feeling out of touch,
I can’t sense a numb feeling
state the obvious when I lose track of meaning
you keep on reading my mind when I don’t want you to
when I write about, write about, you
shit, go and take it, don’t reciprocate
even if it’s for the worse, I think I’ll be just fine

(patchymate)
don’t!
stop breaking your back for me
it isn’t worth the pain and the sense of a tragedy
it wasn’t no

don’t!
stop taking the edge out of everything i like
don’t!
keep me from friends ain’t like nothing that you had
don’t take it out on me, i’m your beauty queen
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have

still wanna show the do-si-do
show off the branches when the grow
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have
i wanna build an enterprise
co-divide and start to multiply and multiply and multiply and multiply

take it out of me to see the rest
lied about who lies with me in bed
fornicating on with someone else
and all my friends are getting used to it
all my friends are the best
believe me, to be the name i wasn’t then
it could have killed me in an instant
it could have got to my soul

and i love being all orderly
but it ain’t for me
i march to my own form
don’t you see?
i told you babe, it was an omen
and my friends are gonna love it when i cry

and you won’t
but you don’t have to believe me again

me/you feat. patchymate

prod and written by me

using stems from @bigtechpharma

jump !

https://ffm.to/bhredblueandgreenlights

A light show of colors, the screen is my window to her sight

32723

w/ @saoirsedream

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic

lyrics
Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

I wanna write a song for you
I got stuck on the attack
Every word I say to you
You just repeat it back
It's not like I believe in you less
I'm not keeping score and I don't need you to guess
What I'm thinking all the time
Imma just keep it to myself
Never confide don't need no help
Never confide don't need no help
Baby kiss me thru the phone
JK's that's a stupid joke
Hope I laugh so hard I choke
Hope I laugh so hard I-

Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me

And so I put my mind away
I'll figure it out anyway (Baby you help me)
Do you even know who I am?
Do you even care? Do you even care?

red blue and green lights (w/ saoirse dream)

https://ffm.to/bleith 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

i'll be the first

pronounced "bləith, or blayeth"
_________________________________
guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

maybe i won't miss those white halls and those silos
and your wide eyes

(do you remember me?)

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
and i still wonder how
covered in clovers and i’m six feet
under now five leaves aren't enough
this september i’ll be leaving
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

slipping through the cracks i'm calling it back on you
shadows shifting elisions i'm still in your arms
cosmic collisions it's crumbling falling through
scaffold splitting derisions i'm sealing the hearth

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

one to many times i let myself slide
resin in the hide and it's hopeless
summit through the sides i thought of better ties
brethren tiled the pine on a pulpit
covered in the sines i coveted the lies
nolled up on a lyre a forfeit
lauded once or twice a strath that lead the line
straffed it to your silage and sold it

if you'd just lie awake 
i won't shear no shame

save me 
break me
save me
chain me

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

bleith

with the amazing https://soundcloud.com/oyeme-thomas 

master by https://soundcloud.com/knoir

i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
standing in the hallways
laughing and listening
to music, acting like we always do
acting like we don’t exist 
and excuse me
but i hate to say i hate that
i hate hating the commons
i hate increasing my pace when
i know you’re right behind me
walking to our class
maybe we could stop
talk about what we have in common
such as
we both have insecurities
we have liked a girl and
i’m sure she isn’t purposely
hurting me, and the same goes for you
the pain that you’ve felt
is something that i’ve gone through
she’d be perfectly
okay with us
being friends
i just wanna stop pretending that i hate you
i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
why do butterflies
fly in my stomach when i see you?
they fly around
faster than a hungry, wild zebra
kicking my stomach to death
because it sees a threat 
to my over-valued reputation
i hate this persistent intimidation
that i’m always facing
just because your face is 
pretty
or the way your chain sits upon your neck
or maybe because you’re
famous
i remember at that football game
i was standing right behind you and i was
trying to act at the same way
that i'd act around my friends
but they were drooling over you
so i was too afraid to say this in the future
listen man, i just wanna talk to you
maybe become friends
but i have never had that opportunity
to talk to you and see
if i could promise peace
between us
maybe we could farm some greens
pardon me for being personal about it
but i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your
i am not an enemy
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends ?!?!?!?!
i just wanna be your friend !!!!1
i just wanna be your friend!!!!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!
i just wanna be your friend!
i am not an enemy
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend

written by me

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peace treaty w/ oyeme

Gala Unurbatar
June 7, 2000

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me/you feat. patchymate

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