@fleshgolem

(flesh)
i've been sitting with my thoughts
without your company i'm lost
i wish i didn't overthink every part 
of the words that you said in a dream

(TNS)
Sitting as the cars go by 
Thinking about you and I 

Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you 

And you’re stuck in my head 
And you’re lost 
In my bed 
While you stare at me get outta my head

(flesh)
i hope that i dont mess this up
got so much love to give to ya
sometimes i think i'm not enough
intrusive thoughts can't break me
and so i try to loosen up 
so i don't lose my grip on us
i'm sorry that i've been impatient lately

(TNS)
Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you 

And you’re stuck in my head 
And you’re lost 
In my bed 
While you stare at me get outta my head

Sitting as the cars go by 
Thinking about you and I 

Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you

Sitting As The Cars Go By w/ flesh golem [+ jasco]

beat produced by: @kingtheta
written and performed by: @rejectcore x @wisssery
artwork by: briz
lyrics: 

popularreject:
You say I waste your time 
Stuck in this head of mine 
I think I crossed the line 
Again 
I stayed up every night 
I tried, I tried, and tried 
Can’t seem to get out of my 
Head 
I just wanna go back im high right now
When the clouds turn black 
The sky falls down 
Girl you’re not acting right right now
When I come back 
You best calm down 

Girl I’m so close to endin this 
I don’t feel nothin inside 
I feel nothin but emptiness 
How do you make it look effortless 
Girl you lied this time 
And I’m never forgetting it
I don’t think I was meant for this 
Girl and I’m so high 
I prolly will not remember this
You’re always looking for leverage 
Took my medicine 
It’s settin in 
You feel like a sedative 

wiss:
yea what's going on
pls tell me i don't know
i'm just trying to be myself
don't wanna live at all
don’t wanna live at all
don’t wanna live at all yeah

i try my best yea
i think i'm a mess yea
i think i wanna give a fuck about myself
X2

and i swear i will never hurt you bay
you are all i fucking have yeah
but it's too late,but it's too late
because I will never see you again

I tried my best + wiss (p. king theta)

Mix/Master by VITO
Lyrics
Come back one more time
I'm blacking out
Pain ain't a thing
To take a stray bullet for you
The barrels in my mouth again
And fuck the curb outside your boyfriend's house
The grass is dead there anyways
The cornerstore's still burned from the fire last autumn

I don't want to breathe again
And I don't want to
Cigarette burns on my arms and my legs
I'll never tattoo over that skin

I don't want to wake up again
To this reality that's not yet sunken in
That I didn't have a say in
It's been over just say it
Just say it
And I'll still remember the night
You left a cigarette burn on your side
After you called me to save you
I guess my safety was a miss too
Trust me I was so compelled
When I saw you at the party
But I knew you were drunk
And I could be anybody
And I still have your smell on my shirt you adorned
I'll never wash it out
You say we're friends but I just want more
I just want more

I don't want to breathe again
And I don't want to
Cigarette burns on my arms and my legs
I'll never tattoo over that skin

You make me feel insane
But i was from the start
I'm the problem
I can't scrape off the paint
In the basement of different fucking shades of you
I don't want to breathe
Shades of you
I don't want to wake up again
I don't want to breathe
Shades of you
I don't want to wake up
Shades of you

cigarette burns + spookybands

prod king theata 
lyrics

me:
last song, so baby keep it playing
my mom been sick of all the playing
iv been playing the part for too long now
i don’t wanna go i just wanna leave my hometown

when i’m falling you don’t pick me up
when i’m calling you don’t pick up the phone

hated when i rolled up back then
and i never listened
i just wanna feel you smoke in my lungs
sorry for what happened
baby we were kids then, and iv always been on the run

like can i get up out the 864?
hate this town i don’t wanna live here no more
had me begging i was down on my knees begging please
don’t you walk right out of that door
when i’m falling you don’t pick me up
when i’m calling you don’t pick up my phone calls
you don’t pick up the phone x2

spooky: 
you called me a lost cause
then you turned your phone off
iv been in a state of paranoia, feel like a brick wall
you used to be someone i loved 
now you’re just someone i pissed off
you just call me the problem
baby who the fuck got you locked up
iv been waiting round for years for you to tell me i’m the only one
that shit was as real as a folk song
this feel like the last call, at the bar up on long hill
i moved to California but you’re probably there still, uh

i hope the last songs one that you can’t hear
i hope you drive safe ima just steer clear
and growing up is just a cut that you can’t heal
and i know we were kids but why did all of it feel real?
might need a coat, you’re just like a storm 
and the years ain’t kept me dry

last song w/ spookybands

halfhearted (https://soundcloud.com/user-642636378)
FøRD (https://soundcloud.com/breckenford)

Greenwood:
ice on my shit, when i'm stopping it
(burning cold when i hit)
i just left an ounce where my body is
(up inside of this bitch)
up inside my head as soon i'm clocking it
(clocking shit and i dip)
they won't find a reason, it ain't obvious 
i promise it

i call out in the snow
(somewhere to feel life)
i wonder where it goes
(someone to take mine)
i don't know if you know 
(fade in the foglight)
that we've been here before
something else gotta give i don't know why

FøRD:
seems like every day time slips 
saying mayday
lucky life I live if you say that then you don’t know me
cuz i deal with the phonies and the frauds on the daily
they make me an insomniac why everybody hate me
they act like they all want me but they really just betraying 

baby often makin me so silent make me shaky
I’m waitin while faded

the lights up in our basement 
still shaded but luckily it’s still vacant

so come down when u wasted
I’ll change it to that playlist 
I’ll wash away the parts that you invisioned would be painless
girl you make me so brain dead 
like grab another latex get in bed get undressed and then I’ll say what to do next

halfhearted:
who’s next in line
got me walking through a dream
i’m on ur mind
but it’s nothing like it seems

u pushing me so far
my heart been living on the brink
gotta shoulder full of scars
i think you like to watch me bleed

but i don’t got time for you

lay me deep down i’m dancing with the devil by myself
where to go now
i’m sick of knowing you won’t ever help
you’re not helping me

Greenwood:
up the dose, yeah i'm taking two
steady shifting, i feel it move
i was losing my mind in truth
i was hoping you'd see it too
i was hoping you'd wanna go
i was hoping you'd see the pain
i was broken you wouldn't know
but that don't mean it don't hurt the same
up inside of my room
fuck the job, i'm aloof
drink the pain on the roof
nothing helps, i'm the proof
nothing changes in oakwood
couldn't text back cause my phone fucked
no one here even knows us
like i'm not here to be social

Someone Used to Live Here (w/ halfhearted & FøRD)

lyrics//

ill try my best to be the one
but everytime i just give up
got a finger on the trigger
you’ve been pointing the gun
i just think it’s bout time we quit on this love

cuz i try too hard to make you notice me
it’s not there
can’t force the chemistry 

burn me down 
till i’m just a memory
leave this town
bet nobody remembers me now

but i’m A okay
been on my own since 7th grade
for like 7 days
i been in my mind
and the pain retreats
till it reach my spine

does she love me does she love me not
dropping pedals in apartment parking lots and i 
spilled his blood in a dark garage
and i couodnt stop
cuz my hands wouodnt let me

but i hope she’s forgive me 
i don’t wanna talk bout the blood on my backseat
why they running at the mouth
it can never bring me down
they don’t know a thing abt me

mama i’m sorry for how iv been living
the pain in my brain makes
me feel like a villian, i know
i know that i’m cold
iv seen all ur seasons 
i been down this road before

still walking alone
eyes in my skull
full of plaster and bones
making a path 
it’ll lead me back home
i can’t see ur texts cuz the cracks on my phone
if i don’t reply will you leave me alone

19 years bout time that you grow up
waited all night just for anyone to show up
girl you never even showed up

does she love me does she love me not
dropping pedals in apartment parking lots and i 
spilled his blood in a dark garage
and i couodnt stop
cuz my hands wouodnt let me

but i hope she’s forgive me 
i don’t wanna cuz the blood on my backseat
get those words out your mouth
bringing me Down,
think i’ll head south

does she love me does she love me not?
dropping petals in apartment parking lots and i 
spilled his blood in a dark garage and i couodnt stop cuz my hands wouodnt let me
you’re just mad cuz iv played the part
way from the start
and you’re always decepting

i just try too hard to make you notice me
it’s not there
can’t force the chemistry 
burn me down till i’m just a memory leave this town bet nobody remembers me now

dropping petals in apartment parking lots

https://open.spotify.com/track/2inEkHKS7a5IfCh1qfsTsa?si=78abdd2f07f744ec

@lottaheart:
i can't even trust you no more
i don't wanna wake up, what for?
took all the stuff out of your drawer
guess when it rains that it pours
[x2]

@user-642636378:
but i don't wanna talk about the times i been hurt
i been tryin not to cross your line but it got blurred
and you can never change my mind, nothing works
our feelings used to intertwine now they burned
pour the fire in my cup but i think i've had enough
boy you better sober up
they been calling on my bluffs
the feeling i been trapped in
try to heal my cuts but the beat is not stopping

why you mad for?
cinderella left her shoe on the dance floor
girl i do what i can do but you want more
you tell me its not bad 
and then you stab my back like we're running round laps
and i don't know where to go
no text back since i lost control
i don't know where to go
i can't even walk cause the bottles on the floor

@lottaheart:
i can't even trust you no more
i don't wanna wake up, what for?
took all the stuff out of your drawer
guess when it rains that it pours
[x2]

really wanna hate you but i love you
can't trust you, had nobody just you
all alone now it's harder to adjust to
really gotta go now, it's what i must do

what for? w/ halfhearted [taurs x birkknut]

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Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: xipz
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
Cover Art by: xipz
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MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/tAGB4vZ5Q0w?si=nvjx6ku6O-NURyef 
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LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
i been ascending n i dont think i feel real
wander the woods think ill find my soul here

if i get lost then dont come to find me
skinwalker boy i dont need you to find me

nicoteen high, sippin red wine
blood on my knife rotting corpse to my right

too busy daydreamin, too busy daytrippin
liminal space roamin backrooms im still movin

[Bridge]
i feel
like im one with
you

[Verse 2]
you dont wanna feel the same way
i can see that in your worried gaze

if you get hurt then im the one to blame
if i hurt you then aim for my brain

cuz i dont wanna mess this up
but i always tend to fuck shit up

i tend to hide away when times get tough
it dont mean i hate you, i just had enough

[Bridge]
i feel
like im one with
you

[Verse 3]
she say she like me cuz i dont talk to no one
thats just anxiety but i dont fuck with no one

keep my mouth shut cuz i dont want attention
yeah i kinda miss u but i dont wanna face that

yeah i dont wanna face that
nah i dont wanna face that

Ascending [+ MUSIC VIDEO]

RAHHHHHHHH!!

lyrics

a fuckin waster
hiding in broad daylight 
every risk i take feels like a tazer
help me meet my maker
just please give me a taster 
the reflection to ur face 
know that u cannot be replaced

again yeah ive been thinking about my lake life
i just wanna hold u so tight
and stay up these late nights
fate dies every time im with u but i hate lies 
snake eyes stare at me they push and pull to break ties

a beaten stowaway no im not going back
to that cold place but know that im back on track 
to my old ways vision fades to black
its those dark days im not going back

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waster
im a waste of life

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waste of breathe
im a waste of time

a waster
just me and my ego oh it push and pulls
face it 
u had never been responsible

list of own rules
this drink so toxic ima cave
tonight i dont wanna be saved
jus feel love, 
love the pain

lights r out its dark
mayb its just me
id o my best to carry weight but this shit aint normal

fucking waster im just fucking wasting time
wasting breathe
i been here, been on 10
somehow almost 25
thought by then wouldnt be alive 
so ima just take it night by night
just wanna feel love tonight
baby its jus me and u tonight 
i want u to take my breathe tonight

wastrrr

wastrrr (branwen)

I guess this is it for a while.

To be continued...

Artwork by annalyceart

Produced, mixed and mastered by HeyLee Manzeron

Lyrics:

I met up with the mystery girl
I told her I’d take her place
Her use has run out in this world
She told me straight to my face
These metaphors are cliche
Like a lingering foul taste
Or a cavity on your tooth
Falling onto your pillowcase

I could tell you everything that’s ever been on my mind
But I don’t wanna bore you to death
I’m holding on to the secrets I kept
And I could tell you every sight that’s ever passed through these eyes
But I don’t wanna waste my breath
I’m holding on to the secrets I kept

Following my path is something you will regret
I’d like to say I’m saving face while I’m cutting my skin with a rusty gillette
It’s only for you, only you will ever get to slice this deep in me
It’s only for you baby, and I’m sorry.

I could 	show you every leaf that’s been strangled by this vine
But I would never choke you to death
To tell the truth you’re all I have left
And maybe I should open up, but I’m comfortable inside
But I don’t wanna scare you away
I’m not prepared to lose you today

Following my path is something you will regret
I’d like to say I’m saving face, but a passing glance is all you will get
It’s only for you, only you will ever get to slice this deep in me
It’s only for you baby, and I’m sorry.

Maybe you’re the falling star that I’ve been searching for my entire life
Possibly the deepest scar, I know you’ll cut my throat like an umbilical knife
Yes, you’re my fallen star, we could just let go and vanish into the night
Possibly the deepest scar, but I will let you in, you make everything right
Maybe you’re the falling star that I’ve been searching for my entire life
Possibly the deepest scar, I know you’ll cut my throat like an umbilical knife
Yes, you’re my fallen star, we could just let go and vanish into the night
Possibly the deepest scar, but I will let you in, you make everything right

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cigarette burns + spookybands

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