produced by speedlmt

lyrics:
before i found u
i was going through hell
oh do you miss me
im still going through hell
i still cant even tell
what its like to be me
she doesent miss me
she doesent miss me


i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

she my bandage
walking through the forest empty handed
blood on my screen
with dirt on my shoes
where have you been
i sorta miss you
well no defiently do 
im shaking in my room
i really hate this house
im shaking in my room
i need a way out
im shaking in my room
im shaking in my room
shaking in my room

i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

isolation

guitar by oc <3

lyrics:
gotta hide away 
i don’t wanna see my face
i don’t wanna know what i look like
running from my self
but she’s never not far behind 
i hate who i am now 
havent left this room in days 
bet everyone else has forgotten my face 
can’t continue on like this 
so i hide away 
not like you’d notice anyway 
so i hide away
i dont wanna see my face 
i dont wanna know what i look like 
running from myself but shes never not far behind 
never not far behide 
how do i get away from this place 
scars all over my surface

hide

my god i feel like im heartless 
dont go im too broke to call it 
love me you know that im hopeless 
feel weak im losing my focus 
leaning over the wall it looks warm 
feel like ive got to die to get home 
feel the rough in the sea but i know 
its not unusual for me to be alone 

i know i could do it do it if i wanted 
feels like someone else is in my body 
its so easy i dont have to live this life 

im so gone you dont notice 
your brains fried im so bored of it 
im a disgrace 
yeah and baby i know it 
two faced let me turn what youre showing 

tell me im no good 
am i not good enough ? 
six three but theyre looking down 
thought this shit would make you proud
are you not proud enough? 
its not fair you dont tell me how

guess i have to be erased so you can take away 
your ownership of someone such a disgrace 
you wont have to do me another day 
youre so dumb who you tryna save 
every breath that i take a waste of o2 
and every tear that i shed i wasted on you 
all this dna 
swear its pretty dead now 
from the blood i circulate 
it sorta bled out

im not a creep 
im obsessed with being perfect 
on no sleep 
pretty sure that makes me worthless 
dont try thinking you can resurrect this 
no light hope i see you when i surface

i know i could do it do it if i wanted 
feels like someone else is in my body 
its so easy i dont have to live this life

Wanted

layed out in the pouring rain 
every drop is suffocating my face
i hope you drown bitch rot and decay 
turn around ive got nothing left to say 
was it worth it for all the pain 
feel likey youre only doing it out of the spite and vain
i guess a new guy is all it takes 
taking those years away from me 
you gotta get a taste 
had to get away 
was it worth it for all the pain 
feel likey youre only doing it out of the spite and vain 
i guess a new guy is all it takes 
taking those years away from me you gotta get a taste 
you gotta tell me is this what i deserve 
im tryna hide between the ground and the earth 
you took my lung and threw that shit in the dirt 
hate the way youre talking i think youve said enough 

run my fingers through your hair you know you made me warm 
i got scars all on my body im already torn 
you dont talk nice about me but no one ever does 
if i told you half the shit you'd have already run 

look at you running it back 
you dont want nothing to last 
act like you hate me 
you got no safety 
look at you liking my tracks 
im in your playlist 
and i know you hate it 
you know nothing about me 
but im one of you favorites 

nothings stopping me from jumping this bridge 
tell me to jump 
ive already tried to drown in the sea 
dont make me stop 
i dont want anyone to try and save me 
i deserve to rot 
looking for no comfort or safety 
i deserve the death 

im so tired of making you proud 
my eyebags are letting me down 
dont talk to me you would have frowned 
dont listen i cant listen now 

girl you dont know 
the shit i been through 
leave me on your notes 
im gonna bin you 
slamming through the door 
you had an issue 
being such a whore 
im tired of letting you down 
my eyebags are making you proud 
dont look at me dont let me drown

Vain

- ｇｕｅｓｓ ｉ'ｌｌ ｅｎｄｕｒｅ -
prod. kais
i love you guys<3 

lyrics:
where do i go from here
hm..
i miss my friends
im sick and insecure
hm..
guess i'll endure
guess things will never be how they were, no
and i'm not sure about anything anymore

i love you, i love you, i do
i'd hug you but my touch just goes right through
i told you, i told you i'm
gone, gone, gone.

where do i go from here
hm..
i miss my friends
im sick and insecure
hm..
guess i'll endure
guess things will never be how they were, nah
and i'm not sure about anything anymore

endure

Stream "know a thing" by @heylog (prod. @irby314)
https://streamlink.to/knowathing-heylog

Lyrics:
i don't wanna heal myself again
no, i don't need to miss you like i did
promised recently i'd hit decline
but i couldn't do it this one time

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

every night i wake up in a sweat
every single word you ever said
come together without feeling harm
quickly run to you with open arms

can't believe i'm doing this again
it's been so long so like, how you been?
they don't even know a thing or two
they know more about me than 'bout you

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand

do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

heylog - know a thing (irby)

yeah
who u trying to act for
ripped all my hair at the back door
two bodys laying down on the ground floor
theres no reason for you to be an asshole
who u trying to act for
ripped all my hair at the back door
two bodys laying down on the ground floor
theres no reason for you to be an asshole

im at the worst of it now
dont tell me you where around
dont tell em you gave me anything
im sat with the worst of it
im tired of it hurting me
but its awfully perfect
ur the angel of death to me
and im honestly worthless

setting fire to everything
i feel like a furnace 
and now youre getting mad at me
i feel i deserve it
see the wings on your spine
both serenading my eyes
now ur not here in this life
ive got a reason to die 

please dont look back
im stillwaiting
hiding behind 
my only saviour

please dont look back
im stillwaiting
hiding behind 
my only saviour


load of bs shouting distroted


im tired of it hurting me
but its awfully perfect
ur the angel of death to me
and im honestly worthless

setting fire to everything
i feel like a furnace 
and now youre getting mad at me
i feel i deserve it

songs shit

angel

your eyes are so pretty
oh, i cant walk away
noooo
you turn my stone 
one word and ill break
so perfectly far
cause me to shake
try to be the best
no less then you deserve
but honestly im a mess
i feel like the worst

sie ist meine frau, meine liebe
says she hates the way i talk myself down
tells me im enough i dont believe her
filling my head with my own doubt
maa baayad baa ham baashim
and i believe it honestly
your eyes when i fall asleep
so close youre apart of me

trust no one like i trust you
none of my friends know what ive been through
maybe 2, ask how ive been lately
i dont expect them to save me
youre all i have
i run 
deep in the forest while you grasp my hand
turn back
i know hes out there waiting im back

im all over you 
back, say it back
oh i need you bad
youre my plus, im a negative
you sorta show me what its like to feel anything
and even though im so embarrasing
i feel like nothing really matters when youre next to me

oh my lord how the fuck did you save me
holding on to you, my blanket of safety
oh my love, now my body is aching
a thousand miles and an ocean, between my home
home
let me bring you home
home

(hand)

grasp my hand

shoutout https://soundcloud.com/cay2o for helping with the ending
all the rest prod by me

lyrics:
dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

slave away the day until i make it
this chest in pain feels so amazing
if you got some more, then i can take it
she said im mental, guess im crazy
IM SO CRAZY IM SO CRAZY
feeling lost, when you walked in with bleach blonde hair
i never thought we would talk now its been 3 years
on the rocks and im coughing i gasp for air
and she said, "kade, do u hate me? do u hate me?
please dont hate me!"

dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

coven

spotify

things i held
im dying to go but she holds me in place i wont run
and when i arrive at heavens gates, will you know me

you think about me ?
cause im dying to know if you still care
held by my feelings 
im holding them bare

caught in a forest and then a landslide got to me
fields of rosesim pissing blood out of my arteries
so i can be with you, im counting leafs
im in a field ive got my head in the trees

i keep hearing voices theyre not coming out
yeah
i keep tryna hide but they keep coming round
tryna build a wall and keep myself out
but you wont recognise me not myself now

give him back to me
take somebody else
give him back to me
take somebody else

dont talk about my problems like you have none
my addiction only spiked because i lost someone
when im next, dont act like you care
treated like a joke you know its not fair

put yourself in my position, wouldnt last a week
and all this time that i have, i do not care to eat
i sorta feel like nobodys aware of me
it sorta feels like, none of you could care for me

take the shit from back and what i wear
take the food from my stomach and strip me bare
take everything that i own
i wouldnt care
and its still never enough and thats not fair

give him back to me
take somebody else

take somebody else

There’s something in your eyes or maybe it’s the water
Hold close to me I have to reside
Right here right by ur side
Stay here part of my life

Don’t set me back now 
Leave me all alone
I’ll keep wearing designer so I can hide the mold
Surface to my body
Im not getting cold
U can talk all you want ur music is getting old
They keep wanting more from me
Then you wonder why I feel like I’ve been letting you down
You stayed away from me
No friend would be dragging me around 

Take me to the edge of the world 
As long as I’m with my girl I
Question much but I don’t question your words like
Got a grip around me I keep holding tight
I cant keep up with demand and I can’t sell right
I’ve given everything to you
And I won’t ever stop
If I was bleeding out, I’d know it’s not enough 
Hold my
So hold my hand till we turn to dust
I’m never close enough to you until we both combust 

Heart and soul it’s still not enough 
I’d give you every single limb until I’m truly worthless
You’re perfect 
Say goodnight before you sleep and it’ll hurt less

Take another picture I’ll use my Polaroid 
Rip me from the image you’re playing seek and destroy 
You’ll never capture anything if you keep holding me down 
I keep running I’ll keep running buried under the ground

You were never a friend to me
No regret you would have said it all again
Such a cunt you’re a tragedy 
Never thought you would be so awful yet

angel

hiraeth

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