@nevrfall
i love @heylog so much, he's an amazing person c:
lyrics:
(casperrr)
moving away as my body collapse
half a day and i already smoked half a pack
i smell the chemicals burning in my hand
i need to change this i need to take a stand
all of the promises u made they didn't worth nothing
while u ran ur mouth ur actions didn't prove anything
u still wanna tell me that i am lying
do u really wanna tell me that i am lying

AND THIS IS FUNNY CAUSE THE PROMISES ARE STUCK IN THE WALLS
U TREAT ME WRONG AND I STILL PICK U UP EVERYTIME U FALL
I GET DEPRESSED AND I SHUT MYSELF FROM WINTER TO FALL
I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT SEE WHATS REAL I JUST SEE fog
FOGGY MEMORIES IN MY BRAIN HELP ME REMEMBER
WHAT WAS THE THING THAT TRAUMATIZED ME LAST DECEMBER
CUZ I TOOK IT OUT OF MY HEAD
I KNOW I WISHED EVERYDAY FOR DEATH
I WAS GETTING SO MAD
I WAS GETTING SO FED UP

(heylog)
u made me mad, i called but u won't answer
don't speak to me like that where are your manners
it's hard when life just sucks, is it supposed to?
deteriorate non stop what am i s'posed to do
u hate on me now when i didn't do a thing
u love causing ruckus and it's concerning
but i kill the vibe is that why u hate me
i won't give u shit or anything

is it safe to say that i miss u
forgot what it's like to kiss u
i'm sorry u had to tell me what u been through
if u need me i'll be here for u
forgot what ur face looks like, it's been a day
leaving ur house but i can't drive away
arriving home and it don't feel the same
without u here, it feels so plain

promises w/heylog (nevrfall)

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

SPOTIFY

heylog - vanish

teach me what i did wrong
and this silence, fucking broke it fore it had a start
you can take the things you said and shove them up your arse
found a picture of your face and now its battle-scarred

id do anything for you to just pick up the line
so i can call you a bitch at least another time
you should tell your man to get a fucking life
stop being such a pussy and following mine

turn to my own enemy 
dont care no more dont ask for me
i just wanted sympathy
is that to much to ask for me

havent talked to you in like 5 days
you stare too much at my face
acting like you werent fake
i could do this all day
her teeth grip the back of my necklace
no one cares for the shit that you rented
2k for a feat ur demented 
pussy still stalking my mentions 

uh

liar
should've punched you right on your chin
should've broke your jaw
should've put you where you belonged
i put trust to set aside
but it wasn't useful
now i know it's better
we can't be friends ever

we're all alone in my backseat
i shoulda called in a taxi
her clothes off, got a head start
nails stuck in my chrome hearts
said she love my ambition
my mental state diminished
toxic time, a waste of breath
i feel the blood drip off my chest

battle scarred w/ heylog & pvrk

Stream "know a thing" by @heylog (prod. @irby314)
https://streamlink.to/knowathing-heylog

Lyrics:
i don't wanna heal myself again
no, i don't need to miss you like i did
promised recently i'd hit decline
but i couldn't do it this one time

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

every night i wake up in a sweat
every single word you ever said
come together without feeling harm
quickly run to you with open arms

can't believe i'm doing this again
it's been so long so like, how you been?
they don't even know a thing or two
they know more about me than 'bout you

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand

do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

heylog - know a thing (irby)

Can’t say ur not breaking me
It takes all that I have 
Just to sleep and then wake again
Barely eat cause I can’t 
My body’s not made for this
Cause half of it is urs
Remember when I said
“For this girl that I adore”
Ur nothing but memories 
Keep
Pulling me apart 
I could never be used to this
It’s only the start 
Recently deleted 
Select all
Confirm delete em 
1000 images or more 
And I don’t need to see em
Cause They’re all memorised 
I’m burning through these highs 
u don’t even ask how I am 
it feels like nothings right 
Fuck this u never tried
Try to see thru my eyes
The way I suffer every morning
U don’t ask me nein 
“Why u awake so late”
I’m Just talking to friends 
U won’t believe a single thing my mouth has ever said 

Cause it’s so late
And it’s so dark out
Are you home yet ?
It’s not safe out now

There’s no place
For someone like me 
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die
How could we say it’s us till we die 
How should I know
And I can say this without any lines
With my eyes closed
Cause I mean it
This isn’t a story 
I can’t go back to the start 
And ur leaving
Moved on while I’m shuffling cards 

There’s no place
For someone like me 
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die

select all, confirm, delete

I’m so bored of this
Repeat myself again
No one listens anyway
To these words that I sing

And if you did you’d care
About me now and then
There’s a meaning every song I make
It’s not for when

You’ve had a bad day
Cause I feel the same
Maybe worse it’s not competitive 
But that won’t get in my way

And when you call it sad
Imagine writing that
I sit rotting everyday 
This shit is getting bad 

I wish it was a joke just about as much as  you do
And when I face the reprocussions it won’t be voodoo
It’s my own damn fault that I feel this way
But it feels like no one asks me if I really am okay 

This is all that I’ve got
Baby you know I’m in the bin and yet you
Tell me you love me how the fuck do I believe that you do 
If I where you, I wouldn’t go near me 
At all
I’m so dependent love I’m sorry 
Please just give me more
I can’t take what you’re doing 
Cause I don’t know what you want 
Narcissistic little bitch should be assigned to a 
Ward
Ward
I’ll be fighting after the
war
War
How the fucks your father not

I’ve got nothing to say to you 
You dumb little whore
You can promise all you want 
But bitch you’ve done it before
None of this is new to me I’m 30,000 feet and vertical 
While you’re laid 6 below, stuck with vertigo

vertigo

Don’t hold back 
Fight me with all you can
It looks bad 
Broke and bruised all my hand 

Glass shatter 
Bring matters to my own hands
Dark matter
Dark matter you got dark plans 
This isn’t something I could really avoid 
I’ll contort my body away from this noise 
I got a brand new phone and I
Don’t even have your number anymore 
I can’t remember if I blocked it out of spite
I’ll just pretend that you stayed the night 
But to wake up without you here 
Never really feels right 
Couldn’t hate me anymore my dear
And that’s what it feels like 

I work on myself for it not to work out 
My inspiration has been running a draught 
You’d never get it, if you weren’t around 
I wouldn’t be here no more there’s no doubt 

All these emotions are running around 
Insects on my body the feet getting loud
10 million legs he’s got 10 million more 
To carry my fear, anxiety and all

These aren’t my friends oh they can’t be 
They keep themselves alive just to spite me 
Cause there’s 10 million multiplied 10 million more 
Eat me alive till my feelings are
Gone

You don’t know what it’s doing to me 
Eyes roll back I don’t want it don’t want it no more 
You can’t tell me you don’t look guilty 
Pass the blame to someone else it’s never your
Fault

insects

produced by @hiraethsry

lyrics:

(hiraeth)

take my soul take my body too and leave me here alone
sorry, crashing out on you , its hard to be controlled
looking at the water man id hate to be so cold
bottom of the bridge is over there its looking warm
wonder if i would have found some peace and some tranquillity
holding onto nothing bro im really getting sick of me
its been so long i dont really mind
you should let go now i wont lie
all i gave to you
was all ive ever had
you took a piece of me
and threw it in the trash
all that i endured
just to go to waste
i poud my heart out
for you to copy paste
i let this rain fall down
i dont mind it
i thought with all this dirt you would notice
and though i hate myself you ignored it

(dazed)

how bout lets back track
what did you just say to me?
i know you meant that
but you said it playfully
and thats a problem in itself
i hope you know that
dont say that youre at fault when you blamed me before that
i think im good off all the social interaction
im so tired of talking
im sorry I've been lagging
im going m.i.a for the 12th time this week
im on the verge of it all, i feel my knees getting weak
i'd never resort to abusing my power
talk hard in your lyrics but to me youre a coward
i fear im going crazy pulling strands in the shower
you encourage me to do that, and youre making me cower
I TAKE TOO LONG TO RESPOND
HOW COULD YOU DEAL WITH THAT?
MY MEMORY ISNT FOND
SO I'LL FORGET BOUT THAT
you cant tell me im wrong
when you move like that
yet i'd drop anything just to hear youre okay
and i'll cover my face
in almost every single photo
im insecure and i swear pics are just a no-go
dont need your help
promise, im better off solo
and you know
you know

tranquility (feat. hiraeth)

WORD GO AROUND (prod. !ke x reddmillz)

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