produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

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lyrics:
pieces that i cannot mend
her words are empty, i pretend
pretty face that u disguise
i see right through ur mask and lies
no one really cares at all
i just want it all to stop
shattered glass against the wall
just like my dad with alcohol

oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no

u can keep on talking all u fucking want
i be making music while u out there making fucking flops
i be steady grinding, making progress and it doesn’t stop
begging for a feature, on ur knees, and i just laugh it off

and ur kinda irrelevant 
i’ll fold u cuz ur delicate
i got a A cuz i’m excellent 
and i’m a whole different person when i am in my element 
i’m from a another descendant 
and u can never be me, i’m unique and so different 

and no one gives a flying fuck bitch u still just a kid
and ur ego so high, yet u still throw ur fits
and get the fuck off of my dick, and mind ur own buis
talking down on me, bitch u don’t want this

away from my reach in a land I can’t get to
Give you my all, I hope that’s enough for you
Cause I don’t price myself too highly
I hope this is more than good timing 
After all that I’ve loved
And all that I’ve lost
Passing away from me, I can’t give up
Now
Though it feels like somebody wants me to try
I’m never worth it, overstay my time

I’ve been made to believe 
That everything that I do 
Is not enough, it’s never right
So please forgive me, always apologising 
Over little things, it’s not worth it

Hide your face
In between my arms
And pull me closer
It’s not enough if I can still breathe 
Then fall asleep right next to me

Find myself falling so deep in your eyes
Start to get lost, oh I swear that it’s fine
Cause you don’t want nothing to do with me, right ? 
That’s what I tell myself all of the time

Hold me to let go, and swear it’s an accident 
I wouldn’t notice, I’m not that intelligent 
If you wanna hurt me, it doesn’t take all that much 
Get it over with, I don’t have room to trust
Anybody here except from you
Why should I be giving out when I lose
There’s nothing I’d rather be held by 
Just focus on tracing your hairline 

Hide your face
In between my arms
And pull me closer
It’s not enough if I can still breathe 
Then fall asleep right next to me

next to me

I’m so bored of this
Repeat myself again
No one listens anyway
To these words that I sing

And if you did you’d care
About me now and then
There’s a meaning every song I make
It’s not for when

You’ve had a bad day
Cause I feel the same
Maybe worse it’s not competitive 
But that won’t get in my way

And when you call it sad
Imagine writing that
I sit rotting everyday 
This shit is getting bad 

I wish it was a joke just about as much as  you do
And when I face the reprocussions it won’t be voodoo
It’s my own damn fault that I feel this way
But it feels like no one asks me if I really am okay 

This is all that I’ve got
Baby you know I’m in the bin and yet you
Tell me you love me how the fuck do I believe that you do 
If I where you, I wouldn’t go near me 
At all
I’m so dependent love I’m sorry 
Please just give me more
I can’t take what you’re doing 
Cause I don’t know what you want 
Narcissistic little bitch should be assigned to a 
Ward
Ward
I’ll be fighting after the
war
War
How the fucks your father not

I’ve got nothing to say to you 
You dumb little whore
You can promise all you want 
But bitch you’ve done it before
None of this is new to me I’m 30,000 feet and vertical 
While you’re laid 6 below, stuck with vertigo

vertigo

Prod @heylog

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

So ashamed of me
Feel my body limp
I was sat wondering
What I’ve ruined again
If part of me listens 
The other half’s dead
I was waiting in the corner 
I was rotting in my bed

I see waves come in
I see oceans rise 
You were there for it
Fractions of my life
I wouldn’t spend this 8th with anybody else
Know I saw through it
Puppet on a screen 

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

next to me

hiraeth