what

I have more than enough

unloved love songs

i fell in love and fell apart again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/afterlife66

(after everything, the last thing i thought i'd hear was i love you
but, i guess it never mattered to you like it did to me,
i'm sorry)

i'm the worst 
and god i know that
cause by now i realize
the reason it all ends bad
cause i keep breaking 
and you couldn't take it 
so i just lay down in my bed
and dream we made it

and there's so much more that i had planned
and now i sit alone with shakey hands
disregard all the blood i bled,
i wish that you were here instead
i thought that you'd be here to hold me
i remember all the words you told me 
you'd never leave like this 
i couldn't prepare for all the things i'd miss

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

medicine, my lungs turned black
i know you're not too sad
left a knife in my back 
i ruined everything we had 

i'd run away before you don't want to
if i get close i know that i'll hurt you 
run away before you don't want to 
if i get close i know that i'll
hurt you 

okay, alright 
i like when i feel numb,
i don't know what to feel like
okay, alright 
i'll fool myself into every pretty lie

i don't wanna fall in love and fall apart again
i don't know if i'm okay enough 
so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect
(what did i expect)

and someday soon
your eyes will light up the whole damn room 
when you mention someone else
like they did,
when i was your everything 

i fell in love and fell apart again 
i can't keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect

medicine, pt. 2 (prod. afterlife)

mixed and mastered by kassgocrazy
produced by kassgocrazy & thislandis
vocals performed by sewerperson

She Hates Me (feat. sewerperson)

MY HEART MATCHES THE CONCRETE

there's no love in those eyes of yours

prod: acey & @vito2300
master: @vito2300 & https://soundcloud.com/diskrypt

can we talk for a second 
i can't breathe when i'm next to you
stop for a second 
reassess what's gotten into you
tell me why i'm looking at a monster
a monster
i feel like a lamb sent to the slaughter 
the slaughter 

i suppose it's unavoidable
you were sent to kill me off 
so make it horrible
want you to cut around my neck 
like i'm deplorable
and i'll sit pretty for you 
rotting under soil 
oh i just give it up right 
i'm so easy don't lie
there's no love in those eyes of yours
oh i'm just wasting my life 
and it's just about time 
i'm just waiting to die
for sure

don't wanna tell you that i like it 
all the blood's got me excited
and if you wanna put me down 
i wouldn't mind it
you can treat me like a dog 
i love the violence
you can tell me what to say 
and i'll recite it 

if i'm the puppet 
you're the hand 
so pull the strings up
do you what you want 
i'll understand 
you're such a demon
(x2)

if i'm the puppet
you're the hand 
so pull the strings up 
do what you want 
i'll understand
you're such a demon
it's so hard for me to talk 
i can't speak up
if i don't see you at the end 
i love you so much

puppet

puppet (prod. acey & vito)

skele - tell me you need me *unreleased*

guitar by michael harrison

i thought 
we'd only talk about this once
like we decided that we're done 
and that's really what we want

but i 
still find my way back close 
into your arms 
they're safe 
and they feel like home 

tell me one more 
time
that i made your life like
a movie 
on the big screen 
tell me one more time 
that you'll be alright cause 
you were crying 
when you kissed me 

i loved you so damn much 
i'll love you till i'm numb

arms

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISMFvsAGj38

its not you its you nd me
hidden in the leaves
look at where we are theres not much that you cant see
tell me where to start i don't mean to intervene
im just what you need and not rhetorically
moving accordingly and stacking this bank roll
oh watch me dangle and walk on this cable
join in the light show its better w eyes closed
roll back in my dome and ask how my night go
say its alright tho i knows its concerning
hope that im learning won't end up deserted
properly furnished end up in a nice home
been through them nights long enough we don't like those

its not you, its you and me (isolated) [video in description]

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

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shiver. | Produced by septfree

away from my reach in a land I can’t get to
Give you my all, I hope that’s enough for you
Cause I don’t price myself too highly
I hope this is more than good timing 
After all that I’ve loved
And all that I’ve lost
Passing away from me, I can’t give up
Now
Though it feels like somebody wants me to try
I’m never worth it, overstay my time

I’ve been made to believe 
That everything that I do 
Is not enough, it’s never right
So please forgive me, always apologising 
Over little things, it’s not worth it

Hide your face
In between my arms
And pull me closer
It’s not enough if I can still breathe 
Then fall asleep right next to me

Find myself falling so deep in your eyes
Start to get lost, oh I swear that it’s fine
Cause you don’t want nothing to do with me, right ? 
That’s what I tell myself all of the time

Hold me to let go, and swear it’s an accident 
I wouldn’t notice, I’m not that intelligent 
If you wanna hurt me, it doesn’t take all that much 
Get it over with, I don’t have room to trust
Anybody here except from you
Why should I be giving out when I lose
There’s nothing I’d rather be held by 
Just focus on tracing your hairline 

Hide your face
In between my arms
And pull me closer
It’s not enough if I can still breathe 
Then fall asleep right next to me

next to me

Produced by https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
mixed/mastered by https://soundcloud.com/demxntia
Lyrics:
I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

I'm standing on my own but is it ok if I hold my chances?
Tell me what's temporary and what stays permanent.
Temporary, permanent we keep on shifting surfaces
So who you tryna fool right now?
If you're not stayin' just leave right now
Can't feel you now, Losing my grip now I'm fading out
Couldn't hear my voice even if I shout
Tell me what's next for us baby
You hear it in my voice, Can you erase me?

I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

Baby I've been overthinking
See the blood from the thorns on the roses
If I tried could I let you go now
But the memory of you stays permanent...

What Stays Permanent (prod. killedmyself)

All revenue made from this song will be given to sewerperson to donate to BLM funds

*Revenue is from Soundcloud and Spotify streams, as YouTube is not monetised for me*

https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson

AMV:
https://youtu.be/ZLMMiklJ2kM

LYRICS:
if i could hear these walls
id lose my mind
the rest of heart lays in scraps on my arm
we just gotta get into every other night its like we got to
walking out my house i see these panes u put the rocks thru
i aint change my phone those texts are green because i blocked you
i hope u doing better now with no one else to talk to
i had left in the pouring rain
for an early trip i planned yesterday
smile painted across my face
as i board this plane going far away
why was pain so quickly dealt
it seems that i have forgot myself
belting out into open space
as we mumble hymns from a broken place

whole damn week
i was wondering where the cash at
whole damn week
i was moving outta glad bags
world so bleak
i been dodging all the mouse traps
words heavy
i can make it feel my back crack
reach the next day ill never know
is she ok i better hope
freckle pale face tarped over bones
sleeping half baked
eyes aint even closed damn

whole damn week 2

sewerperson - whole damn week 2 (nevrfall)

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

I thought I moved on, thought I forgave
But the shit that you done still stuck in my way
Tried to ignore and I tried to escape
But I still think about your touch everyday

Still think about what I could of changed
You were the reason my soul got saved
I try to find love but I retreat to the fact
That I know no one else is the same

Maybe that's good that you're one of kind
But I swear on my life you won't get out my mind
I thought I let you out but when I walked away
You were standing on the other side

And I can't lie, if you came back
With all of the knives in mine
I'd still have yours, because I never lied
That you were the love I was dying to find

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high

Fuck it, I'm stressed again
I don't who you been messing with
I thought that you were my medicine
But it don't seem like you heaven sent

But for your love I'm hellbent
I'm so selfish, I want you all to myself
But it don't seem if that's it
So I think I'ma just take you to my little hell

I think my mind gone bad, I'm so sad
You think you leaving me? Not so fast
"Yo shit man, why so rash?"
I guess we all want the shit we ain't have

This ain't aesthetic, it's fucking pathetic
You think it's a trend, you gone fucking regret it
I can burn all of you down to the filter
I say the words of a mouth with no filter

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high (x2)

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pathetic aesthetic

lyrics:

kick me punch me
what I'm spose do to make you love me
I cant blame you
I wouldn't love me
and I'm way too fussy
I could barely walk out the house with the shit I put on this morning
5am she's still snoring

white eyes
I hope u wake up from this cold night
you're looking green I hope you're alright
don't die
she cannot love a long time
maybe its in your star sign
you decide

cross eyed
I wanna help you but I don't know how
I wanna hold you you said not right now
I say I love you and you shut me down
i cant tell you why I still reach out
do you believe that I mean it though
said you're bad shit crazy I don't mean it though
to this meeting I propose a toast
to neglecting those that we might need the most
and I'm sorry for drowning out what I need to hear
I cant picture what I looked like yesterday
let alone what I look like last year
I feel horrible
I suppose it all settles down
vital signs back to normal ground
cigarettes in this wet crowd
late night at the lost and found
I can bike back in streetlights
I could stay as long as you like
curled up in the back room
I wont fold we can tell them lies
go to sleep baby I swear I'll be beside you
you can trust everything stay between us two
I believe we can make it through this monsoon
if you find yourself ensnared just know I got you

white eyes
I hope u wake up from this cold night
you're looking green I hope you're alright
don't die
she cannot love a long time
maybe its in your star sign
you decide

signs (eric godlow)

lyrics:

right to my last breathe
i keep my faith close
girl just hold on
im not sure i know the road
i see slime drip off the walls
i see frost lay on my nose
i could get used to the
silence of the snow
sap in my veins
red leaves on my bones
i see red trees take my spirit as a home
i just wanna know what u think of me now
i just wanna know why it didnt work out

moss born inn in the middle of the forest
the history of here belong to things that came before us
in this moonlight i gotta say ur looking gorgeous
what'd you wanna talk about she said its not important
i can only cry for so long
eventually this tightness in my chest gon be calmed
eventually these memories are taken by the storm
ur dead to me and lately i just hope u stay gone
but i cant change what is destiny
when im down and out will you check for me
lately i cannot remember how i got here but i cant stay long
i know its confusing when this happens but u gotta stay strong

right to my last breathe
i keep my faith close
girl just hold on
im not sure i know the road
i see slime drip off the walls
i see frost lay on my nose
i could get used to the
silence of the snow
sap in my veins
red leaves on my bones
i see red trees take my spirit as a home
i just wanna know what u think of me now
i just wanna know why it didnt work out

faith (killedmyself x caspr)

lyrics:

i dont think that talking is gonna help
they say no one really know u like u know urself
i go hard but i go harder when im by myself
empty bottles in my closet on the upper shelf
i need to learn to let go
november snow hits my windows as it covers roads
cold as ice yea but im colder tho
i need to learn to keep a promise ah
dont pour another itll damage ya
the devil talk to me
what he got to offer me honestly
lately feel my spirit like commodity
could u talk to me and pick me up
its been a while since i gave a fuck
time moves forward it doesnt care
dont get caught in a couldve been
broke hearts sell so we embellish sin
when i love you imma love u till the very end

are we ok is it something i said
imma lay down and pretend i am dead
what the heart wants never works in the end
if it doesnt work out baby could we be friends
i might have doubts but its all in my head
what she mad bout something i cant detect
i knew what it said at the sound of the text
if it doesnt work out baby could we be friends

and it all breaks down to the simplest level
i can see thru her smile its too late now
i am way too disheveled to try and climb out

are we ok is it something i said
imma lay down and pretend i am dead
what the heart wants never works in the end
if it doesnt work out baby could we be friends
i might have doubts but its all in my head
what she mad bout something i cant detect
i knew what it said at the sound of the text
if it doesnt work out baby could we be friends

r we ok (glasear x outby16)

it gets hard to breathe
https://soundcloud.com/crackxlizard
https://soundcloud.com/hellahaunted
mastered by: https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy


so is he everything
wanna fall in love
get a wedding ring
taking back all the memories you got from me 
when i look at the past yeah, it gets hard to breathe
i bet he's giving you everything
it's killing me

wake up, i don't wanna wake up 
don't wanna live another day feeling the fake love
and they like wait up, i don't wanna wait up
i keep breaking apart
i'll take the pain, love

do you treat him like me now
say he's the worst now
sending heart eyes while he's falling asleep now

i don't wanna wait till i break down
haunt me like a ghost until i'm bringing the knife out

next to me

hiraeth