im sorry its quiet messy, it was supposed to be one take throughout i just couldnt do it, im sure you can hear. lyrics can be found on sleeps version.
i miss you sm buddy

anxiety - sleepwater (one take)

prod @ilyl1ght
vocals mixed and mastered by srypedia
song mastered by srypedia 
-
“i love you”

oh i
got a sickness now i start to hold my breath
the blood is running God i feel it down my neck
sometimes i wonder what goes on inside ur head
UR HEAD
OH WHAT A TRAGEDY 
I THOUGHT THAT WE WERE CLOSE
BUT DON’T LOOK BACK FOR ME
I FEEL BETTER ON MY OWN SO DON’T GET MAD AT ME
cut me open, tell the wounded put me back to sleep
erase the memories before they start to torture me
TIE ANOTHER ROPE, MY BODYS HANGING FROM THE TREES 
I START TO PLEAD
DEEP DOWN I KNOW I RLLY NEEDA REST
HEARTS PUMPING CAN U FEEL IT THRU MY CHEST?

“bro okay okay okay. i do not like asmrs”
“let’s get another bite”

oh what a tragedy
heart is pumping 
omg it’s rlly hard to slee-
i heard what u said 
but don’t u think u don’t mean nun to me?
now my body starts to ache
BODY STARTS TO ACHE
down another PILL
I-I-AH-A-
hope that i’m okay
HOPE THAT IM OKA-
i don’t think ur real
i start to hallucinate 
we’ll slowly drift APART
i’m not sure that’s okay
you’ll rip into my heart
until the sex permeates 
you’ll tear, break in my heart 
torn all the way

“haise…HAISE”

tragedy

prod by icantsleeplol & hvci
mixed and mastered by icantsleeplol & hvci

thank u @hvci for helping me with some of the layers to help my vocals more impactful ♡ 

and ofc w/ @xav0id

(i’m experimenting with my vocals and my voice in general to see what it’s capable of. i don’t wanna be limited to one genre. i wanna push past my comfort zone and explore different sounds with my voice)

enjoy:)

lyrics:

@icantsleeplol -
they asked me to smile
so i did
now i can’t tell when i actually mean it

i learned to read the room too well
picked up their moods, and forgot myself
said the lines they’d rather hear
kept my truth in second gear

they liked me better watered down
so i kept my head and voice low-bound
never asked them what they meant
just played the part and paid the rent

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
they never wanted all of me
just the version they could keep clean
so i edited my every thought
to fit inside the mold they bought

@icantsleeplol -
empty tent, the lights still burn
but no one waits for my return
they loved the laugh, not the cost
they clapped so loud, i got lost

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
empty tent, applause fades quick
left alone with what won't fix
i give and give, then disappear
while no one even shifts their ear

@icantsleeplol -
i swallowed pride and played polite
convinced myself it felt alright
but every nod, every demand
left another thing i couldn't stand

i tried to slow the spinning down
but silence just became more loud
i gave too much and asked too little
and broke apart right down the middle

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci
they smiled, so i assumed it worked
but underneath, it always hurt
and though i tried to keep it smooth
the pressure cracked the parts i moved
 
@xav0id -
empty tent, still looks the same
but i don’t walk out how i came
they called it charm, called it grace
but missed the tremble in my face

empty tent, the echo's mean
i’m still stuck on what they’ve seen
if this was love, or just a guess
why did i fall apart to impress?

@icantsleeplol w/ @xav0id
i’ve memorized what pleases them
but not what brings me back again
i dance around their fragile moods
and call it kindness as i lose

they say i’m calm, they say i’m nice
but only when i pay the price
and every time i try to breathe
i wonder what they’d let me keep

@xav0id - 
empty tent, lights flicker slow
no one left to tell me “go”
but i still bow, still play it cool
still scared of not fitting the rule

empty tent, just me and air
i gave too much, and no one cared
the quiet hits a little late...
but louder than the love they faked

i’m still here
they just forgot
and that’s the part
that hurts the most

empty tent w/ xav0id & hvci

caregiver.wav

breathe

her patterns are much prettier than mine
evolves down her hair to her spine
but ive been waiting all this time
how could i compare it to any of mine

is it safe love
you dont lie?
cause i cant help but not feel your type
and youre waiting, but i dont mind
if im honestly not what you like

so call me
call me back home
im poorly 
poorly and cold
so tell me 
tell me im enough
hate me
hate me all you want

i hate to remember 
its haunting me now
im used like a puppet youre dragging me round
im viewed like a peasant, im serving you well
but what is my purpose i really cant tell

i changed, is that enough for you ?
and ill wait, contort my body to be
whatever you want
whatever you want
whatever you want
whatever you want

i cant make this worth your time
run right past me i wont mind 
far behind everyone in life
cut my skin, reveal my spite
tore my biceps, fuel my eyes
still cant see past all ive tried
now its nearly the end, but ive hardly begin
my finish line is closer
youve got further to run

patterns

im bad for you
my love, am i bad for you?
id die, if you asked me to
without ever being mad at you
id kill for us
my love, am i bad for us ?
held down, i could pull you up
paranoid that im not enough

take what you want and leave me by the road
im always involved but im always alone
pull me from hell, pull me outta my hole
im taking it back, this delusion i stole
my familys big but nobody is home
this music means nothing cause nobody knows
theyd only downplay it and rip it to bones
i thought youd be proud of me, how would i know ?
held by my feelings and losing my hope
all that i wanted, destroyed all i know 
it feels like im chasing but being left behind
imposing this talent, its nothing of mine

texture of your skins so lovely
its nothing as rough as mine
if i cant be enough on the surface
how could i be all you like ?
i cant make decisions, dont worry
im on the fence this time
gods holding his hand out just for me
and blinded both my eyes

imposter

fighting for a life that i
do not want
ill cover my eyes and ill shake it off
howd i wake up wishing
i never did
scared of almost everything
youll probably set me off
anxiety is crazy bro
like i can barely talk
howd i wake up wishing
i wont again

im hopeless
you beat me just to know who i am
i think im losing
arrested by the palm of your hand
imprisoned
you held me there to judge who i am
you think im losing
Du sahst mein Schweigen nie als Schrei

how many more times do i have to say to you
that im fine with it
youll lie again
surely its so obvious that all ive ever wanted
was to die again
ill hide again

im so scared of the future
i dont know
how to reduce it to nothing
running around in my head
im sure
if i told you what i planned for
call me delusional
im bored
fighting for a life

im hopeless
you beat me just to know who i am
i think im losing
arrested by the palm of your hand
imprisoned
you held me there to judge who i am
you think im losing
Du sahst mein Schweigen nie als Schrei

imprison

Prod @Sinxi

Lyrics

Broke my heart
Now Im rotting away
Gone in my ways
Lost in my shame
Holding my face
told me don't hold on to things that wont change

Im waiting for you
Is it true
That Im gone so long
Im waiting for who
You aint moving
All this time Im wrong
You don't feel anything for me

So Girl
I been falling
Dragging down a corpse
Causing this pain and destruction
its so Silent

I don't want to think of this
Everything you said is missed
Took a problem made it big
You Loved all of my faults
But did me so wrong
So am I this wrong
To love you so much
Cuz Im fucked
I know feelings aren't wrong
but im stuck
In a place I cant change
I might claw out my heart anyday

So Girl
I been falling
Dragging down a corpse
Causing this pain and destruction
its so Silent

SILENT

KMT KI Media 2025 (26.09.2025)
Album Nr. 163 "Damit wir nicht vergessen by KMT" - Style: Electro, Industrial, Rap, Dark | Tracks: 30 (ai generated)
Lyric: Deutsch

Thema: "Damit wir nicht vergessen" ist eine klangliche Reise durch die dunkelsten Kapitel der Menschheitsgeschichte, die sich dem bleibenden Erbe des Völkermords mit unerschrockener Ehrlichkeit und tiefem Mitgefühl stellt. Durch eine Verschmelzung von Dark Synthwave, industriellen Texturen und eindringlichen Rap-Versen malt das Album lebendige Porträts von Verlust, Widerstandsfähigkeit und der dringenden Notwendigkeit der Erinnerung.

Jeder Track dient als Denkmal, als Klage und als Aufruf zum Handeln, der die Zuhörer auffordert, sich den Schatten der Vergangenheit zu stellen und sich dem Aufbau einer Zukunft frei von Hass und Unterdrückung zu verschreiben. Von der Asche der Unschuld bis zu den Echos zerbrochener Versprechen ist "Damit wir nicht vergessen" ein Zeugnis für die Kraft der Musik, Zeugnis abzulegen, zu heilen und angesichts unvorstellbarer Tragödien Hoffnung zu wecken.

Track 01: Der Verlust der Kindheit
Dark-Synthwave, Dark Industrial, Dark-Rap

Track 03: Eine Klage für Srebrenica
Dark-Synthwave, Dark Industrial, Dark-Rap, Balkan Folk

Track 05: Das Echo von Ruanda
Dark-Synthwave, Dark Industrial, Dark-Rap, Dark Ambient

Track 07: Ein Denkmal für alle Opfer
Dark-Synthwave, Dark Industrial, Dark-Rap, Neo-Classical

Track 09: Die Narben der Stille
dark-synthwave, dark industrial, dark-rap, funeral doom

Track 11: Der Vertrauensbruch
dark-synthwave, dark industrial, dark-rap, trance

Track 13: Die Stille der Schuld
Dark-Synthwave, Dark Industrial, Dark-Rap, Dark Jazz

Track 15: Die Schatten der Worte
Dark-Synthwave, Dark Industrial, Dark-Rap, Hardstyle

Track 17: Die Stille schreit
dark-synthwave, dark industrial, dark-rap, drone

Track 19: Die Last der Zuschauer
dark-synthwave, dark industrial, dark-rap, dubstep

Track 21: Die Kraft der Hoffnung
Dark-Synthwave, Dark Industrial, Dark-Rap, Gothic

Track 23: Erinnert Euch
dark-synthwave, dark industrial, dark-rap, chillwave

Track 25: Schweigen der Schatten
dark-synthwave, dark industrial, dark-rap, opera

Track 27: Abschiedslied
dark-synthwave, dark industrial, dark-rap, lullaby

Track 29: Eine Welt ohne uns
Dark-Synthwave, Dark Industrial, Dark Rap

If you would like to use my music commercially, please contact me. No financial income may be generated from my music without my permission. My music is free for private and commercial use. However, I would appreciate it if you would credit me (Kurt Michael Treichl) as the author. Please also mention that this is AI music.

Thank you for your time. Enjoy your journey through my artificially created musical paradise.

© Album cover and music were created by Kurt Michael Treichl using AI support.

Best regards,
Kurt Michael Treichl (KMT KI Media | AI Music Austria) - Austria / Salzburg

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patterns

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