Wake Up w/ Brecken

I been away dipping in and out of reality for the past few months isolating, so I hope you enjoy some of this :) 
Produced by my bro @Sinxi 

Lyrics

Never took too long
To figure out if this is right here from the start
I know feelings, different paces, different hearts
They all forget me in the end, it's only dark
And I know my only way out
Is to find someone else to hate now
You turned the lights off, let my guard down
How can you say you want to stay now?

Please, tell me
What I need
To get out this hell
'Cause I love what you bring
But it's death, and I hope that I stay

You blame the timing
But when it's night, it's day
I hate the fighting
Crying, lying through your teeth
And I know my sins
They may lay two times deep
But I'm still trying, trying
Mix myself with hate

'Cause I know, it's hard to love you anymore
I barely recognize the door
Inside this room I spend my nights
Sitting on the floor
Can barely move, I smell perfume you can't afford

You know what I've been seeing
Heart has been breathing
I don't believe in these thoughts that I said
I scale the evens, you're still deceiving
Something I can't be keeping for no man
I'll wear your time, allow my heart to breathe your scars
And lose your skin
And I know I try
Lord knows I'll die
At one last try
It has to end

Please, tell me
What I need
To get out this hell
'Cause I love what you bring
But it's death, and I hope that I stay

You blame the timing
But when it's night, it's day
I hate the fighting
Crying, lying through your teeth
And I know my sins
They may lay two times deep
But I'm still trying, trying
Mix myself with hate

'Cause I know

Beauty for Ashes

produced by @prod-dash 🖤
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEgzoEH60Cg

harmonies construct of her in vain,
when i had felt the same, i wonder what you let slip loose
idolized in holistic refrain from scaring you away,
but it was you who had left so soon
redundancy falls on the floors of insult,
diffusion of awe is now subtle appall
when the fracturing stops, he returns to his lot
and continues to watch the forgotten responses

how long has it really been?
on everything i could've been your confidence;
wounded deep, but regardless you were gorgeous
external forces couldn't conquer this fortress,
girl i was all in,
now i'm more of like a martian,
a foreign entity ignored and made of sport in pure extortion
the score depends on those who force it,
but on my life i'll never pry into this systematic fortune

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

he's licking tears and steeling bones
from baring sights of burning homes
and of the counterparts still present, most have nearly decomposed
the oxygen persists, but the fluids marching in
wreak havoc on the aspens, now his blood is wearing thin
the centuries forgot receive his aching and distraught,
converting portions of distortion into frequencies bewrought
the ice goes in by division of his temperance
sickly to this weather, but she ain't even my medicine

it's two-forty-two as the film rolls into view
i beg your pardon, i'm enshrouded by the memories construed
just anyone won't do,
the comfort causes calluses he's unable to move
they stare at him in twos

the burial becomes attraction, and of the visitors, it's nothing but distraction
come one and all, before root is sawed, the chainsaw, it stops,
he of wooden rot, with that pandora's box, reverse the plot
the acid sat within his stomach summits to his top
begone of influence it's over 'fore it had begun
i'll never feel that same alikeness, they just read me wrong,
just to do me wrong

bare trees conceive cold leaves,
you showed me what we couldn't be
washing over me, frostridden stings
that sole breeze had spoke "don't leave"

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

the paneling glows a familiar sequence,
but it's passage won't open to those who would seek it
through timing and tamper he had managed to enter
unaware of it's contents, he treads a bit deeper
in awe of the contrast from seeker to aether
he's welcomed to stay, but he's covered in shivers
for those it abducts are reduced down to neither
so backwards he goes, where his soul doesn't meet her's

come the night i'm allotted what's divine
i got bugs up in my head,
they always scratching, leaving bites
ain't no energy to waste on those unkind
only time you talkin shit is when you're doing it online

november (dash)

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
(my body's been remote, but i'm all ears)

crush two and i'm in it, he's waking bruised and deflated,
i got this habit of spitting, but all this acid come with it
he's turnt to ash every minute, a song and dance resurrection
you rabbits ripping up carrots, i'm canis lupis incarnate
got sonic booms when i'm barking, converting rooves into starships
this ain't your average invention, it's more than natural selection

thought she was safe up in his head
so he'd removed the padding covering his weakened flesh
but abrupt departure cut the flora thriving on his skin
now cattle's grazing on the flowers bursting through his chest

the green evades from being subject to an open wind
in apprehension of it's fate awaiting overhead
so nature waits in subtle breaks between the pavement
for many moons are to elude at compensation, but still, he's anxious

uncertainty enveloped through subtly of enthrall
but i regulate that haze through a blizzard of getting gone
with remedies for those emmitting vacancy of want
disheartened, hurt, and starving, yet crucial to it all
cast within a marshland, enhardened, enswamped
in emergance of that influence, the arteries are clogged
but the potency that comes with it is rightful in it's wrongs
as doubt within neglect to beauty's sewn within the flaws

so what's the word? you know i'm down for it
as mother earth determines counterfeit
the now dispersed yearns inhabitance
of bird and fern, the worm is blurred

might be universe impairing peers with lightning
a white screen thrown about, a crown ensures the stifling
so often i'm haunted and falter from nonsense,
the world's still revolving, he's not what she wanted
if you were just honest, it'd lessen the starving
this trail led of crumb that you thumb's disembarking
he's all but undone, but is stunned from the heartless
injected was rust, muck, and lust in her harvest

always unheard, speaking my word, they just wanna flirt
better or worse, embracing the curse 'till covered in dirt
wrapping in silk, given the earth, i know it'll hurt
off of the pills, downing that cardi, merlot, for the heal, yea

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
my body's been remote, but i'm all ears

bird and fern (dash)

at least he wanted something 

prod: @vito2300
 
you know i like it when you speak to me soft 
most nights i spend with you alone
feels like we don’t even talk 
know you don’t need me at all 
i’m just taking up this space 
know i’m just here by default

don’t want another 
staying here is gon make me suffer 
n my body shudder 
another night i spent playing lover 
so over summer 
sunlight poking right thru the shutter 
laid under covers
every time i just let him under 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

facing the repercussions 
it’s just what happens 
i can’t help that i'm no good at loving 
i’m just so unbecoming 
he only want me in passing 
at least he wanted something 

yeah is it too much 
promise i’ll be good enough 
be what you want 
even if i can’t feel your touch 
i'm leaking blood 
just waiting till i'm getting crushed 
and when we’re tongue to tongue 
i almost feel like there’s an us 

i’m just a body 
take it off 
and come put it on me 
no need for talking 
when it’s done 
you don’t need to call me 
this shit gon haunt me 
coming round it gets so disheartening 
i guess he caught me
every touch it just leave me starving 

but i’m still there 
right under you
every time 
you call my name 
in the way that i like 
don’t make me feel like 
i am more than a night 
god i tried 
god i tried 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

i know i do this to myself 
i know what’s going on here 
i know i could avoid it, well
i know you’ve put it so clear
and it’s so stupid that i’m wiping my tears 
yeah it’s so stupid that i hold you this dear

unbecoming

Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

lyrics

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

i miss those nights 
cuddled up during the winter we're soul tied
my brains succumb to the wither on both sides
like fuck tryna forget her
cuz now im packing my bags
im building the bags under my eyelids
and you're too attatched
and im way too sad for it to be august
and yesterday holds memories that im losing
i dont remember much nowadays
i dont remember much nowadays

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

for now, im no one (p. muzcean)

her patterns are much prettier than mine
evolves down her hair to her spine
but ive been waiting all this time
how could i compare it to any of mine

is it safe love
you dont lie?
cause i cant help but not feel your type
and youre waiting, but i dont mind
if im honestly not what you like

so call me
call me back home
im poorly 
poorly and cold
so tell me 
tell me im enough
hate me
hate me all you want

i hate to remember 
its haunting me now
im used like a puppet youre dragging me round
im viewed like a peasant, im serving you well
but what is my purpose i really cant tell

i changed, is that enough for you ?
and ill wait, contort my body to be
whatever you want
whatever you want
whatever you want
whatever you want

i cant make this worth your time
run right past me i wont mind 
far behind everyone in life
cut my skin, reveal my spite
tore my biceps, fuel my eyes
still cant see past all ive tried
now its nearly the end, but ive hardly begin
my finish line is closer
youve got further to run

patterns

you fell and stained the ground beneath us 


prod/master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

feeling my body going numb
waiting but morning never come
i hope that god will forgive me 
oh the things that i've done
hurt somebody i needed
and somebody i loved
blood loss
my vision is starred,
hold on
i'm slowly reaching my fingers over top 
don't think there's ever been something 
that i feel like i want 

it's just the way that it goes
i know you feel like i don't 
like i don't love you at all 
i know it kills you the most
i never wanted to go 
i never wanted to stop 

i called your name a thousand times
and in my dreams i saw you die 
i saw the light fade out your eyes
and i woke alone,
and cried in case you
could hear me there
could hear me 
i screamed your name 
believe me 

(baby i wanted to stop 
got me praying to god 
love i'd do anything, i've
i've got my hand round the cross) 

i can feel the warmth 
drain out of your skin 
my shirt stole red from the cracks of your lips
i held you close and you felt so thin
i held you close like the way that you did 

i held you close
i held you close

you fell and stained the ground beneath us





i held you close

🔥 (Dark Version) 🔥

This track dives deep into the raw edges of the mind—where silence turns heavy, scars speak louder than words, and breaking free feels like survival. It’s a confession, a rebellion, and a resurrection all in one.

🖤 For anyone who’s ever been trapped in their own head, this song is about bleeding the poison out, burning down the lies, and rising stronger from the fire.

⚡ Dark. Intense. Unapologetic.

Turn it up loud. Let it rip through the chains.
Because sometimes the only way out is to figure it out.

#darkwave #rock #alt #postgrunge #emotional

#DarkVersion #FigureItOut #NewMusic #AltRock #DarkWave #PostGrunge #AlternativeMusic #EmotionalRock #RockVibes #DarkRock #RockBallad

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Unauthorized use, reproduction, or distribution of this track is prohibited.

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