this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

prod. sinxi


Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Im running where the sun wont face yet
U can see it in my eyes im faded 
Im waiting 
for nothing 
Leave something
Oh
Don’t run away 
I don’t wanna lose you
I won’t love again
Im not used to that
Don’t call me back
I wanna leave the past
Id feel better with a heart attack

Don’t talk to me 
Im too out of it
Left out alone
Don’t try again
Like honestly
She won’t lie again
Im too far gone
Leave me out of it

Im tryna quit
No Time for this
All my words fall flat again
Still arguing
Swear she’s such a bitch
Please let go 
Let me outta this

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Faceless
You can see it in my eyes im faded
No thoughts promsie u won’t change it
Im waiting for nothing
Tell me im trying for something

Changing
U keep telling me u never wanna face it
Fucked up got my heart beat racing
Im faded off nothing
Tell me im waiting for something

faceless

w @xona

produced by sleepwater speedlmt leftquiet and xona

lyrics

i needed some revenge
but i dont wanna vent
can you hear me now
its hurting my head
stop shutting me down
you were half of me wow
but now your not here
i need a way out
u were liquid to me
maybe mixed w some sea
but now she is flying
i wanna retreat
guard my heart
while u stand
from the mill
its feeling far
when u tell me its real
how could i move on when
i dont even want to
ill let this go on
cos i dont know how to
miss you
another song where
i vent bout my issues
waitings long come rip
out my tissues
im so selfish
everyones got traumas
im not speaking can u let me follow her
do i need therapy or pills in my fucking head
my life expectancy
cheers for all this fucking stress

im escaping every night my fucking hed
pls dont aim in
counting on my fucking hed
collecting all my fucking debt
pounding hard right out my chest
guess im sleeping thats a flex
lets skip eating and have sex
what are you eating guess thats bread
what are you doing no no
who are you with now
its how it spread
would u even like me
cant u tell that im trying
oh pls just like me
i swear that im crying

xona
i thought i need to go and let loose of me
but I’m stuck inside where the sun don’t seep
so i just watch along as the days runs deep
and i got my tea in hand so I’m calm for the least
and i don’t know, who i could be
i feel alone, when there’s others around me
i can’t cope, you know it better than me
to let it go but I’m the worst you could be
to go back home
where I could find a home cause I feel alone
falling, dying right here for you

oh i dont wanna talk
im ruined

ruined w/xona

prod. ocin
guitars: yhello

Come catch a feeling while we’re watching a lightning 
But nothing excites me, baby I try to hide it 
I think about you, let’s make love on the highway 
Can we get inside babe 
You know time won’t stop flying 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
We keep laughing it off, ya 

Kill time when we're driving 
It's both of us finding 
A reason to separate 
Your past is behind me 
I don't open up 
Don't wanna be judged 
Don't wanna be looked at 
I blame my gut 

I love you and you know that 
Even if you don't love me back 
I pray at night to hope you're well 
And pray again for my own self 
If I had a wish and that would be to see you laugh 
Cause I guarantee that you'll receive a smile back 
Now we both sitting there just laughing it off 
I want you to know that you were all I got 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh

laugh it off (ft. heylog)

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

spotify

bound w/skele & heylog

i dont really like where youre pulling me now
i thought id do better, but youre barely proud
i dont really like that youre not calming me down
ive got nowhere to run now
nowhere to go now

you thought its best for me
but i dont need anything but you now
i did whats best for me 
and honestly i need you right here in my house
cant let this run on much further
further ill fall down
dont know how much i can cope fore' i hit you and fall back down

on the pavement 
on the pavement

pavement

come kiss the back of my hand
and turn away when youre mad
i fucked around and found a girl
this shouldnt happen so fast
and this is not what i planned
i walked away arent you glad
lets talk about me behind my back 
i wanna see who i am

its always some useless bullshit
something that never even bothered me
ask your friends opinion
bet theyre getting really sick of me
fabricating everything get so unhinged with it
and baby they dont even really know the half of it

its not who i am
my silence is what you get
ill runaway to the forest
never to call again
and ill regret what i did
i dont believe in an end
if nobody can compare, then how could you forget

if this was my last life, id give it to you
throw away all my body
and mark it as used
and if i told the truth 
im sort of obssesed with you
but way to scared to lose
anymore than what i do

i cant commit to something youre not sure will last
hold me close and pull your palm along my hand
whisper softly in my ear to tell me that ill be fine
i cannot make a mistake
its only you and i 

keep running your mouth
tell your friends that you know me
i would push it aside but im done being easy
this is not what i wanted 
or why im even here
i really thought you where flawless
but you disgust me dear

after all that weve been through
the solder is used
i cant keep anything together 
losing track of you
and if you want me to 
id do what you want me to
come drag me down from this pier
and fix your attitude

i dont get what you dont understand
your feelings are fine, cause im feeling em back
throwed away my life for a promise, wont last
now im staying awkward and silent and mad
i hope you dont regret all the things that you said
most of em where true but they hurt me no less
i wish you would have known me at my very best
i cant believe i turned out to be such a mess

i dont get what you dont understand
your feelings are fine, cause im feeling em back
throwed away my life for a promise, wont last
now im staying awkward and silent and mad

no less

Wrong One

hold down
Send
More in
Hold out

This is more than a look that I have 
Send men they’re breaking bad 
So sad you’ve done this before
Head down the aisle 12 bore
In hand I’m ready to fight 
He’s not so keen, don’t look right 

Maybe I’d be better alone
So I don’t intrude
Stare at my phone, cause I need you
Hold me like the worlds on my back
I’m counting curls in your hair
And pray to god that it lasts 

I Don’t have to count no sheep
I just look into your eyes
One moment, fast asleep
I’m tryna stay up all night

Maybe this rain is too heavy 
For us to lay in it 
But we’ll sit out on the porch 
Covered in acid and mould 
Maybe my life wasn’t wasted
Now that you’re a part of it
I’ve never done this before
Everything I touch starts to fall 

(Covered in acid and mould)

This is more than a look that I have 
Send men they’re breaking bad 
So sad you’ve done this before
Head down the aisle 12 bore
In hand I’m ready to fight 
He’s not so keen, don’t look right 

I hate this world so much
I feel my body closing in
Though when I conversate with you, I start to feel complete again

Rushing out to tell him that I’ve found a friend
And though I can’t get a reply i know he thinks you’re the best

bore

prod by tenoji + coupdegrace
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCQXTzwzQbM

pavement

hiraeth