prod toofargone + morgan bates  
https://soundcloud.com/gonetoofar  https://soundcloud.com/morgnbates
ft sewerperson
https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson

stick up! (ft. sewerperson) (prod. toofargone + homesick)

So what if I leave you 
Still stuck in my head cause I need you
I hated the sequel I wonder if I didn’t call would I see you
So whyd she go and lie to me
I keep my head down I’m running from what’s inside of me 
And I can love you but honestly my anxiety 
I’m cutting wrists to avoid that there’s nothing of me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
Leave me in the bottom of a hole
Staring down a barrel with my soul at stake
I wanna fade away
I wanna die today
I tried yesterday

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

So, Go (prod. jolst)

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

cover of jude's (sleepwater) "nervous"
guitar by caves
reprod by me


miss you bro :(

sleepwater - nervous (cover)

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
feat. casperrr & shizukesa.
art. my friends cat LOL

lyrics:

(please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound, of my voice calling out, so that i can be found)

and i can feel my heart sink in the rain now
so cold thinkin that i might breakdown
feelin lost, feelin lonley, and nobody’s around
and in this storm the waters rising and i think i might drown
please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found

please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found
but no matter how many times i might scream
it doesn’t mean ur any closer to finding me
so now ur looking for a ghost
just give up you’ll never be close

(please just tell me now, u r looking for a ghost)

(caspy)

nana~
can you help me now
pick me up from the ground
i hate loving in doubt
cuz that's when shit goes south

used to look for some1 like u
now i don't have a clue 
of what the fuck i should
to try and forget u

(shizu)

thoughts fadin like the blood on my palm
she saying shit the same well bitch im already gone
guess all the friends change
cuz they dk what im on
suicidal lil prick im jus a dick of a cunt
just a pussy n**** i quit talkin
steady smoking until hittin coughin
ion need help 2 know im the problem
bullet to the dome woulda solved em
only fuck around inside of FL but by next album im offing me
and honestly, been so sick of the calling me
like fuck out of my head

my heart sinks in the rain w/ casperrr & shizukesa. (secre swallowtail x hey rick)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

soundcloud.com/ilycider / instagram.com/ilycider

co hosted w/ @zulexkys & @bl4nkradio

ilycider ~ baby lets go [xangang]

disappear (prod. dead spyro)

thank you for listening 
<3
@irby
@jolst
https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy

so lemme tell you what my life is like 
i stay up till the morning i can’t sleep at night 
i’m always waking up with a teary eye
lie to everyone n say i’m alright 

i’m way too fucking paranoid 
warning signs in my eyes i let my mind destroy 
i hate the feeling that my body gets 
every day i feel the same n i wish i could rest

i’m sick of feeling this anxiety 
worry about when you’ll replace me 
it’s getting hard to feel a heartbeat 
i hate the way that it controls me 

i hate the way that it controls me

trech:
give me until the end of the day to gather up all my things
i don’t know where im going 
or what it might bring
ill get out of your hair for the last time
ill disappear into the past time

i don’t go to sleep until its seven in the morning
its hard to rest easy when you’re mourning
life is like a circle it has no point 
and now im spinning all around in my room to this joint

worry (w/ trechor boy) (prod. irby & jolst)

thank you for listening 
<3
https://soundcloud.com/jolst
https://soundcloud.com/sadboiforever


it hurts me over n over again 
i think something’s wrong with my head
it’s easy to try and pretend 
but sometimes i’d rather be dead
i’m paranoid 
think you hate me 
shedding tears over our polaroids 
expectations on my chest, defenses i employ 

it’s okay, you can tell me i’m wasting your time
you don’t feel like you did and it’s fine 
you don’t miss me, it’s alright 
i get a bag n i spend it real quick 
i got some diamonds they dance on my wrist 
see me n public now they want a pic 
money can’t come much more easy than this 
every night i spent dreaming of shit 
every night i spent waiting for this 
i could lose it all
i don’t wanna fall 
i could pull the trigger 
paint the fucking wall

So, Go (prod. jolst)

hiraeth